“Madi!” Justin yelled as he made his way into the house.

“In here.” I yelled back, not getting up from the couch.

“Hey baby.” Justin grinned as he plopped down beside me.

“Hey.” I smiled as I leaned into him as he bent down and captured my lips in a kiss. “Mmm.” I moaned as I wrapped my arms around his neck as the kiss deepened.


“Madi, I’m….Oh hey Justin.” Chris said making his way into the room.

“Hey.” Justin said as he reluctantly pulled away from me.

“What’s up?” I asked looking up at Chris as I leaned into Justin.

“I was just coming to tell you that I’m going out with Joey for the night.” Chris said, throwing his keys up in the air repeatedly before catching them.

“Okay, well I have to be at the compound in the morning to interview dancers, so you should stop by sometime.” I said as I absentmindedly rubbed Justin’s thigh.

“Yeah, I’ll probably stop by sometime and check it out, but I gotta go, Joey’s waiting on me.” Chris replied.

“Alright, be careful, love you.” I smiled as Chris turned to walk towards the front door.

“Love you too, I’ll see you tomorrow.” Chris yelled over his shoulder before he disappeared out the door.


As soon as the door closed, Justin tackled me back onto the couch and crashed his lips down onto mine again. I giggled as I lightly pushed Justin away, “So what are we getting into tonight?” I asked looking up at him.

“I don’t know, but I’m starving.” Justin said as he started to nip at my neck.

I rolled my head to the side allowing him better access, “Mmm, how ‘bout Mexican?” I asked running my nails up and down his arm.

“Sounds good! Let’s go!” Justin exclaimed as he jumped up, offering me his hand. I rolled my eyes, but grabbed his hand and allowed him to pull me up.


I followed Justin out to his beamer and got in as he started to put the top down. Justin looked over at me and just grinned, and I couldn’t help but smile back at his boyish charm and his excitement over his toys. “So you’re going to stop by the compound at some point tomorrow right?” I asked as Justin pulled out of the driveway.

“I don’t know…” Justin started before I glared at him, shutting him up.

“You know I need you to at least make an appearance so I can get rid of any crazies who are only there because of you.” I sighed.

“Okay, I’ll stop, but it won’t be ‘til later, I’m going golfing with Joey and Chris in the morning.” Justin said picking up my hand and grinning at me, instantly making me smile back.

“That’s fine, bring them with you, besides J.C. is meeting me there in the morning, so I’ll get rid of some girls right off the bat, plus he knows how I like to run my auditions.” I smiled as Tiny Dancer came over the radio and Justin turned it up and started singing along, ultimately ending our conversation. I just stared at him, a stupid grin splayed across my face as I watched him continue to sing.


We pulled into the restaurant as Justin finished the song and I smiled as I leaned over and pecked him on the lips, “Yano you’re kinda sexy when you do that.”

“What?” Justin chuckled.

“Sing.” I smiled, leaning back into him and kissing him again.

“Well it’s a good thing I do it for a living then huh?” Justin smirked as he pulled away and got out of the car. I followed Justin into the restaurant and we were immediately ushered to the table we always sat at, in the back. “Thanks Marco, can we get a pitcher of margaritas to start?” Justin asked as Marco nodded and hurried away.


After we ordered we fell into a comfortable conversation as we sat and drank, “You glad to be finally getting the dancers together tomorrow?” Justin asked.

“No.” I sighed as I reached across the table and picked up his hand.

“Why not? You’ve been working on these routines for months.” Justin asked intertwining our fingers.

“I know, but we only have a few weeks before the tour starts and I’m going to be busy with all the dancers and I’m not going to get to see you that much.” I pouted causing Justin to grin at me.

“Well maybe I’ll just have to crash some of your practices.” Justin smiled as our food arrived.

“Oh yeah, because that would be a good idea.” I said rolling my eyes at him.

“Don’t worry about it, we’ll figure it out, we always do.” Justin said with a mouthful of food. I rolled my eyes at him but inwardly smiled at his confidence. Just then Marco stopped back to check on us and Justin ordered another pitcher of margaritas.

“I have to be up in the morning J.” I reminded him once Marco walked away.

“I know it’s fine, besides I told Chad and Pharrell that we would meet up with them later.” Justin said.

“Jus.” I sighed. “Come on, you said yourself you’re going to be busy the next few weeks, besides we always have a blast with those guys.” Justin said giving me puppy dog eyes.

“Okay.” I smiled at him knowing he was right, and not being able to stay mad at him even if I wanted.

“That’s my girl.” Justin smiled as he refilled both of our glasses.


Justin pulled up to the club and I smiled as I saw the already long line of people waiting to get in. It was going to be a good night after all. Justin placed his hand on the small of my back as he led me around the crowd that had gathered and up to the bouncers. “Justin.” The bouncer nodded as he let us pass.

Justin led me up the staircase up to the V.I.P. area where Chad and Pharrell were already sitting. “Hey!” Pharrell exclaimed as he jumped up to greet us.

“Glad you guys could make it.” Chad nodded from where he was seated.

“Yeah well it’s probably one of the last times we can before the tour.” I said making my over and sitting down beside him.

“What do you want to drink baby?” Justin asked.

“Crown and redbull.” I smiled up at him as he nodded and walked off with Pharrell. A couple minutes later they returned and Justin handed me my drink as he bent down and kissed me lightly before continuing his conversation.

When I finished my drink I stood up and made my way over to Justin. He smiled and wrapped his arm around my waste as he continued his conversation. “Come dance with me.” I said nuzzling Justin’s cheek.

“Alright, I’ll be back boys.” Justin grinned as he led me down the steps to the dance floor beneath.


Justin and I immediately found a rhythm moving against one another, and I couldn’t help but grin. I could feel Justin’s arousal behind me pushing into my back and I knew all eyes were on us as we continued to move. After a couple songs I turned around so I was facing Justin, his arms immediately circling around my waist. “Let’s go back upstairs, I need a drink.” I exclaimed as I wrapped my arms around his neck and pushed my face into his ear so he could hear me. Justin just nodded as he grabbed my hand and expertly led me thru the crowd of people and off the dance floor. “I’m going to the restroom, I’ll be right back.” I smiled at him as we made our way up the stairs.


A couple minutes later I made my way back from the bathroom to see Pharrell leaned over the table breaking up a mound of coke into lines, as Chad and Justin stood by laughing at something. “Here baby.” Justin said as he kissed my temple and handed me my drink he gotten me.

“Thanks.” I smiled up at him, summoning him to kiss me. He grinned as he bent down and caught my lips in a feverish kiss, prying my mouth open so he could assault my tongue with his.
We were broke from our kiss by Pharrell, “Ladies first.” He said as he held a straw out for me to take. I grinned as I took it from him and immediately bent over the table doing a line, before handing him back the straw. The three guys all eagerly did their line before handing me back the straw. I immediately accepted it and did another line, before quickly downing my drink. Justin noticed and waved the waitress over as Pharrell passed the straw back to Chad, “Can we get another round and a bottle of….Patron?” Justin asked looking as Chad and Pharrell for approval. They just nodded as Chad handed the straw off to Justin and the waitress scurried away to get what we requested.


I leaned into Justin contented as the all too familiar drip started down the back of my throat. The waitress was back in a matter of minutes and I almost immediately downed my drink, as Justin busied himself pouring the four of us shots. “Here’s to an amazing tour.” Justin stated as he held up his shot. We all nodded as we clinked glasses before throwing the shots back, as Chad busied himself breaking up a few more lines.


It was well after three when Justin and I stumbled into my house and up to my room, and I was glad Chris wasn’t home to lecture us. I giggled as Justin tripped over his own feet and I fell back onto the bed. “Don’t laugh at me.” Justin growled as he fell on top of me and started and assault of kisses on my neck.

I arched my back, leaning into him as my hands clumsily made their way down his body and fumbled with the button on his jeans. I finally got it undone and slipped my hands into the hem of his boxers, firmly grasping his arousal causing him to slightly pull back from me and hiss. I looked up into his eyes and saw nothing but need and desire, which caused me to let out a low moan as I started to move his t-shirt up his torso. Ever the impatient Justin tore his shirt off throwing it somewhere in the room, before quickly standing and shimmying out of his jeans and boxers. Justin laid back down connecting our lips in a kiss as he roughly shoved his hands up my skirt. I whimpered slightly as Justin’s fingers came into contact with my clit and he instantly realized I wasn’t wearing any panties.

“Damn baby.” Justin grunted pulling away as his eyes darkened with nothing but pure passion. Justin’s thumb instantly went to work on me, causing my breath to hitch. My stomach muscles almost instantly started to tighten beneath him. Justin just smirked as my legs started to shake on either side of him, “That’s my girl, let it go.” He murmured against my collarbone, and that was all it took to send me over the edge crying out his name.

I fell back against the mattress trying to regain my breath as Justin pulled my skirt down over my hips and removed my shirt and bra before lying back down beside me and kissing me. I lazily ran my hands up over his bussed head and let them rest at the base of his neck as I continued to kiss him. Justin nudged my leg out of the way slightly and I immediately opened up letting him settle himself in between them. I could feel Justin’s erection at my entrance and I started to wiggle my hips beneath him trying to create some friction. Justin got the hint and rammed himself into me, completely filling me up, causing me to throw my head back in pleasure. I brought my knees up further before wrapping my legs around his waist allowing him to dive deeper into me.

“Damn Madi.” Justin grunted as he continued to pound into me causing me to let out a small grunt of approval with each thrust. It wasn’t long before I felt the familiar tightening in my stomach.

“J.” I cried out trying to give him some warning.

“I know baby, me too.” Justin grunted as he sped up his pace. After a couple more thrusts, I cried out and grabbed onto Justin’s shoulders pulling him down to me, so I could kiss him as my orgasm coursed thru my body. Justin grunted into my mouth as his orgasm hit and he buried himself deeper within me, coating my walls with his sticky load. He pulled away from our kiss and buried his head in my neck as he collapsed against me a contented sigh escaping his lips. I turned my head slightly and kissed his temple as I lazily let my fingers wander up and down his back.


Justin finally rolled off of me causing him to pull out of me and I sighed, feeling a void where he was just seconds before. Justin pulled me to him and nuzzled my neck as he mumbled, “I love you so much.”

“Love you too.”I mumbled almost incoherently as I intertwined our fingers, before falling into a deep sleep.

“Madison!” Chris bellowed the next morning, jolting both Justin and I from our sleep.

“What?” I groaned making sure I was covered up, before looking up at Chris.

“Johnny wants to know where you are.” Chris said rolling his eyes at me.

“Shit! What time is it?” I asked looking over at the clock to see it reading 8:30. I relaxed a little as I saw the time, “The dancers aren’t suppose to be there ‘til nine, will you tell Johnny I’m on my way and I’ll talk to him later?” I asked looking up at him sweetly.

“That’s on you.” Chris said throwing his hands up and backing out of the room.

“I’m going to take a quick shower will you text Johnny for me?” I asked looking at Justin sweetly.

“Oh sure, I’ll get bitched out.” Justin sighed, picking up his phone as I smiled at him, before hurriedly heading into the bathroom. I quickly showered before making my way back into the bedroom and throwing on a pair of shorts and t-shirt, and making my way over to Justin who was still nicely snuggled up in my bed.

“Take the beamer, I’ll catch a ride with Chris.” Justin said as I bent down to kiss him.

“Okay, love you.” I said pulling away as I grabbed his car keys off the table and made my way towards the door.


I pulled into the compound around 9:30 and let out a breath, I didn’t realize I was holding, when I realized Johnny’s car was nowhere to be seen. I put the top to Justin’s beamer up, before getting out and making my way towards the door. I walked down the hallway to the studio and peeked in to see several girls lined up along the wall stretching, and a few hovered around J.C., no doubt flirting with him hoping to get his attention. I smirked as I made my way thru the doors and over to the table where J.C. was sitting. I threw Justin’s keys down along with my bag and starbucks and hit play on the stereo. The music to Up Against the Wall filled the studio and I immediately broke out into the choreography that I had spent the last few months perfecting. I couldn’t help the smug smile that spread across my face at all the bewildered and confused looks that spread across the room, along with a few disgusted looks accompanied by eye rolls, mostly from the girls hovering near J.C.


The song ended and I made my way over to J.C. and plopped down into the seat next to him much to the surprise of everyone else in the room. “J, let you drive the beamer?” J.C. asked with raised eyebrows as he picked up Justin’s keys.

“He’s going golfing with Chris and Joey.” I shrugged taking a sip of my mocha and looking up at him.

“Here.” He grinned handing me a stack of applications that I could only assume were from the five girls still hovering beside him.

I quickly glanced thru them confirming my suspicions and smiled, “You five are free to go.” I said looking up at them, as I set their applications to the side.

“Excuse me?” One of the girls snipped at me catching me off guard.

“I didn’t stutter.” I said staring her down. “And who died and made you boss?” She snipped staring back at me.


I slowly stood up and calmly looked around the room, “I’m sorry ladies, I’m Madison Kirkpatrick, choreographer and mastermind behind all the dances for this tour. I will be holding these auditions today with some help from J.C.,” I said motioning to him, “Ultimately only four of you will make it to the tour, but today I’m going to narrow it down to ten or twelve of you and we’ll
start working on a few things before we start working with the guys and see who fits best.” I smiled. “And as for you and your friends here, I decided nothing; J.C. did that before I even walked in here.” I said smirking at the girl who had questioned me.

Her mouth fell open as she slowly slinked off towards the door with the rest of the girls I dismissed as J.C. just chuckled from his seat. I smiled at him as I sat back down. “Okay so you all are going to have ninety seconds to show me what you’re capable of before I make some cuts.” I said as J.C. called out a number to start as he handed me the application to look over as she cued up her music.


We only had a few more girls to go, before I was going to make cuts and break for lunch. I was watching the girl in front of me impressed by her style and flexibility, when the studio door opened and in walked Justin. I smiled up at him and looked back at the girl in front of me, who faltered as soon as she saw Justin and was now tripping over her own feet. I sighed in defeat as I placed her application on the reject pile and stood to greet Justin. “Hey baby.” Justin smiled, bending down and placing a soft kiss on my lips before handing me a redbull.

“Thank you!” I exclaimed as my eyes gleaned at the energy drink now in my hands. “How was your game?” I asked after taking a drink from the beverage.

“Eh, I shot an eighty-six, but I beat Chris and Joey.” Justin shrugged his indifference.

Just then Chris and Joey came bursting thru the studio doors chasing one another. They finally made their way over to where the three of us were standing, “So I heard my baby beat you.” I teased, knowing how much Chris hated to lose.

“He cheated!” Chris exclaimed, pushing Justin backwards.

“Oh please.” Justin scoffed rolling his eyes as his stomach started to growl. “I was actually coming to see if you wanted to get lunch?” Justin asked wrapping his arms around my waist and resting his forehead on mine.

“I’ve got a couple more dancers to see, then we were going to break for lunch.” I said closing the gap between us and kissing him.

“K.” Justin mumbled against my lips before pulling away.


“You three sit down and be quiet.” I demanded as Joey, Chris, and Justin started to laugh at something that was said. They all looked at me sheepishly before doing what I asked, allowing me to sit back down beside J.C. as he handed me a stack of applications that he had dug thru to get rid of when Justin walked in. “Really?” I sighed at how many applications he handed me.

“It wasn’t bad ‘til you kissed him.” J.C. laughed as I just shook my head, sad to be getting rid of a few of the dancers already, but knowing it was for the best.


After the last couple girls danced, I dismissed over half of them before telling the rest they had an hour for lunch before they needed to be back. “You just cost me about ten dancers.” I pouted as I wrapped my arms around Justin’s waist and leaned into him.

“Hey, I don’t want any crazy girls all up on this.” Justin said flailing his arms around.

“Hmm me either.” I conceded as I leaned up and kissed him.

“Are we gonna get lunch or what?” Joey yelled from the other side of the studio.

“Yeah, let’s go.” I laughed as I walked towards the exit, pulling Justin along behind me.


After the five of us made our way to the diner around the corner and had lunch, Justin, J.C., and I walked back into the studio to find all the girls had already made it back. I smiled, knowing that at least I could count on them to be on time. “You want to help me show part of the choreography for The Game is Over?” I asked looking over at Justin.

“I was actually going to head out.”Justin hesitated as he picked up his car keys.

“And how am I supposed to get home?”I asked looking over at Justin, “You’re the one who told me to bring the beamer that you were going to catch a ride with Chris.”

“Yeah to the golf course.” Justin smiled at me, but seeing I wasn’t amused he quickly added, “I’ll come back and get you.”

“I’m only going to be a couple hours.” I said knowing he would probably lost track of time.

“That’s fine.” Justin smiled, making his way over to me. He grabbed my hips and pulled me to him; as he bent down to kiss me, all my anger dissipating as he did so.

“Promise?” I asked looking up at him.

“Yeah, I just have to run and meet Pharrell for a few.” Justin said in between kisses.

“J.” I sighed. I didn’t mind having fun and partying every once in a while, but I knew Justin was doing it more often than that.

“I just have a song I want him to look at.” Justin sighed pulling away from me.

“Justin.” I skeptically said, not really believing him.

“Okay we’ll probably smoke, but that’s it. I promise.” Justin relented running his hand over his buzz cut.

“Fine, just don’t forget to come get me.” I gave in, not really caring how much weed he smoked.

“Never.” Justin grinned, closing the distance between us again; glad to have avoided an argument.

“I love you.” I mumbled against his lips, not being able to stay mad at him.

“I love you too. I’ll see you later. Justin said, kissing me one more time and making his way towards the door.


After a few more hours of J.C. and I breaking down part of the choreography for The Game is Over and teaching it to the girls to see who caught on the fastest and who moved the best, I had narrowed it down to nine girls. “Alright, like I said only four of you are actually going to make it to the tour, so starting tomorrow we are going to work on the choreography we started today. I’ll give you a couple days to work on it, because I don’t think all the guys can be here until Tuesday, but then I’ll bring them in, we’ll see who works best and then you better be ready to dance your ass off. We only have three weeks ‘til this tour starts and I’ve put too much time and effort into it for it not to perfect.” I said as all nine girls in front of me nodded a little intimidated.

I looked over at J.C. and grinned, I wasn’t trying to scare them, but I refused to let this tour be anything less than perfect. I was with the guys every step of the way, and I grueled over the choreography doing my best to perfect it, and live up to the quality the boys had put into their music. “Don’t be scared ladies,” J.C. smiled, “we are going to have a ton of fun, especially once we hit the road, it’s just going to take some hard work and dedication to get there.”

I smiled over at J.C. before taking his hint as to not scare off the best dancers I spent all day finding, “He’s right. I don’t mean to sound harsh, but these guys are my family literally, and I’ve put just as much of my own blood, sweat, and tears into this tour as they have. You are all very capable dancers, so now it’s just going to come down to who wants it more, and who meshes the best with the guys. Like I said we really are all a family and we need someone to fit into that.” I said carefully looking over the girls, gaging their reactions. They all nodded enthusiastically and I knew I wasn’t going to have any trouble from any of them. They were all already more than willing to throw themselves into this to fight their way to one of the coveted four spots that were open.


As the girls made their way out of the studio, I called Justin while J.C. busied himself cleaning up the mess of applications on the table. “Hey baby.” Justin answered, causing a smile to immediately break out onto my face.

“Hey.’ I giggled, “I’m done over here, can you come get me?”

“Right now?” Justin asked his voice tensing and I immediately knew that my earlier fears were right.

“Yeah J, I’m done and I have to be back here in the morning, I’d like to come home.” I sighed, not wanting to start an argument with him.

“Babe, the Dodgers are tied in the ninth inning. I can’t leave now.” Justin whined into the phone, causing me to roll my eyes at him.

I sighed, mentally counting to ten, trying not to snap at him. ‘You need a ride?’ J.C. mouthed to me as I turned and caught his eye. I held up my finger as I smiled slightly at J.C.’s offer, “Seriously Justin.” I bit back, trying my hardest not to lose my cool.

“Madi, it’s the Dodgers,” Justin whined, as I tightly closed my eyes as my breathing quickened, “I’ll come get you as soon as the game is over. I promise.”

“Nevermind Justin.” I growled, and quickly hung up on him before he had a chance to respond.


“Come on.” J.C. smiled at me as he picked up my bag and held it out to me. “Thanks, I’m sorry, I know it’s out of your way, but apparently the Dodgers are tied in the ninth.” I said rolling my eyes in disgust.

“It’s not even ten minutes out of the way, stop.” J.C. chuckled as he put his arm around my shoulder and led me thru the door.

“That’s not the point.” I said frowning over at him.

“You know how he is, but he loves you.” J.C. gently smiled at me trying to lighten the mood.

“I know, trust me that’s the only reason he’s still alive.” I deadpanned, causing J.C. to throw his head back in laughter.

We made the short drive back to my house and walked in to see Chris and Justin sitting in front of the tv. I rolled my eyes, not even acknowledging them and made my way to the kitchen to start dinner as J.C. sat down the guys. I wanted something to distract myself and keep my busy, so I didn’t have to go back into the living room anytime soon, so I busied myself with making lasagna, knowing it would be time consuming.


I was stirring my sauce, and getting ready to throw everything together when I felt two hands circle my waist and lips on my neck, “Hey baby.” Justin mumbled.

I sighed my anger dissipating and leaned back into him. I felt Justin’s lip curl into a smile against my neck knowing that he was instantly forgiven. “Whatcha making?” He mumbled against me as he continued his assault on my neck.

“Lasagna, but if you keep that up, it’ll never get done.” I mumbled, closing my eyes enjoying his hands on me.

“Mmm, how ‘bout you put it in the over and meet me upstairs.” Justin suggested turning me around to face him a wide grin spread across his face.

“I need a shower; I’ve been dancing all day.” I pouted up at him.

“I’ll go start it, hurry up.” Justin smirked leaning down to kiss me. Justin pulled away, a mischievous smile on his face as he jogged towards the stairs. I shook my head at his antics, but quickly went to work throwing the lasagna together so I could make my way upstairs to join him.


I put the lasagna in the over, and set timer, in case I didn’t make it back downstairs in time to take it out. I looked at the mound of dishes I had dirtied in the sink and frowned, before quickly deciding to leave them and make my way upstairs to find Justin.


I made my way into my bedroom, and not seeing Justin there figured he must be in my bathroom. I slowly made my way into the bathroom to see Justin leaned up against the sink, in only his boxers with a cloud of steam surrounding him. “Hey.” I smiled making my way over to him and instantly wrapping my arms around his waist.

Justin said nothing, just crashed his lips down onto mine, as he pulled my ponytail free and buried his hands in my hair. I sighed contentedly into his mouth as I felt his erection start to press into my belly. I lightly scraped my nails across his sides as I made my way to his front, before plunging my hands into his boxers and grabbing a hold of him. Justin groaned out as he broke our kiss and ripped my t-shirt over my head, discarding it onto the floor. I stroked him as he pulled the cups to my bra down feeing my breasts where his hands quickly made work teasing, pulling and twisting at them. I arched my back, pushing myself closer to him, as I let him go and reached behind me unsnapping my bra. I let it fall to the floor and quickly pushed my shorts and panties down, eager to be close to Justin and relieve all the stress from the day. Justin followed my lead and quickly stepped out of his boxers and grabbed my hand pulling me into the shower behind him.


I felt the hot water cascade down my body, almost instantly relaxing all the muscles I had been working all day. I closed my eyes enjoying the feel of the water across my body, but was broke from my peaceful moment when Justin pushed me up against the shower wall and kissed me hungrily as his fingers claimed my clit working it over. I let out a small whimper, caught off guard but soon found myself eagerly kissing him back. I grabbed onto his shoulders for support when he picked up one of my legs wrapping it around his waist allowing him better access to continue his assault. I was glad Justin had me pinned against the wall as the beginning of my orgasm started to take over. Both of my legs were twitching uncontrollably as I clung to Justin trying to stabilize myself. “Come for me Madi.” Justin breathed out as he pulled back and stared at me.

I let out a long moan as I threw my head back against the wall and shook uncontrollably against Justin as my orgasm completely over took me.


Before my orgasm even finished ripping its way thru my body, Justin had thrust himself into me, causing me to groan out as my pussy pulsated and pulled on him. Justin wrapped my other leg around his waist, so he was holding me up against the wall, allowing him deeper access to me. I ran my hands back and forth over his head, whimpering slightly with each thrust. “Ahhh J.” I managed to get out as he continually hit my g-spot.

I gripped tightly onto his shoulders, knowing it wouldn’t be long before he sent me over the edge again. Justin nipped and sucked on my neck, like he knew I liked and that was all it took to send me spiraling into my second orgasm. I cried out and heard Justin grunt as I started to pulsate around him once again. Justin buried himself deep inside me, grinding his hips into mine as he pushed me roughly against the wall as he followed my lead and let his orgasm over take his body.


Justin’s head fell onto my chest as he tried to compose himself and I lightly ran my hands over his comfortingly before placing a kiss on the top of it. Justin slowly pulled out of me and let my legs down so I was standing on my own two feet again. I wrapped my arms around him, steadying myself still trying to regain my composure, which caused him to chuckle lightly before bending down and capturing my lips in a soft, sweet, yet passionate kiss.



The next morning I was up and ready on time and slipped out of the house undetected after lightly kissing Justin and leaving him fast asleep in my bed. I spent the next two days basically living at the compound with the nine girls who were trying to make it to the tour. For the most part they had the choreography to The Game is Over down; I would just have to wait and see how they did with it once the guys were in the picture. Once I felt confident enough with that song I moved on to Up Against the Wall, knowing that the more of a head start they had, the better and more quickly things would come together once I had the guys back. Everyone was so busy, rushing around to get the last minute things ready for the tour, that I only saw Chris in passing one night on my way to bed, and I hadn’t seen Justin at all.



By the time Tuesday morning rolled around, I couldn’t have been more excited. I missed Justin, and I was looking forward to spending the day with him, even if we were going to be rehearsing all day. Chris and I made our way into the compound to see that all the girls were already in the studio warming up and we were instantly greeted by Lance and J.C. “The stage will finally be ready by Friday, we are all supposed to be in New Orleans by Sunday night to start rehearsals.” J.C. grinned as we approached them.

“Oh thank God! I had no idea what was going to happen if I didn’t get you guys on that stage soon.” I exclaimed as relief washed over me.

“Don’t stress so much, you know we’ll be ready.” Lance laughed at me.

“This show is way too technical, without you guys on that stage, you might as well just be sitting on stools singing.” I said exasperated causing all three of the guys to laugh and me to scowl back at them in response.


“What’s wrong?” Justin frowned at me as he wrapped his arms around my waist causing me to instantly melt into him.

“They’re being mean.” I pouted. Justin glanced down at me before raising his eyebrows at his three friends.


“Alright bitches! Let’s do this.” Joey exclaimed, bursting thru the door causing us all to look in his direction. I rolled my eyes at him as I pulled away from Justin.

“Anyways, like I was just telling Chris and Madi the stage will be ready this week and we all have to be in New Orleans by Sunday.” J.C. said turning his attention to Justin and Joey.

“About damn time!” Justin replied, obviously just as relieved as I was to finally be able to bring the whole show together.


I was busy cueing up the stereo while the guys excitedly chatted about the tour and finally having all the kinks worked out on the stage. I had the music ready and turned around to get everyone in position, but instead I ran into Justin’s chest. “Hey.” Justin smiled reaching out to steady me.

“Hey.” I whispered up at him.

“I missed you.” Justin murmured against my lips before deepening the kiss. I kissed him back hungrily, having missed him the past couple days.

I reluctantly pulled away much to Justin’s dismay, but I just smiled slightly up at him, “We have work to do, come on.” Justin frowned, but nodded and turned around to join the guys ready to dance.


I paired all the guys with a girl and started the music, sitting back to watch as they all danced. I was generally impressed with the determination all the girls had put into the dances, but even more so with all the guys for jumping right back in without missing a beat, seeing as how I hadn’t had any of them in the studio for a few weeks since the tour got pushed back. With the exception of J.C. who had helped me with the auditions, but he was always the most dedicated and hardworking at everything. I was in the midst of switching the girl’s partners, when the door to the studio opened causing everyone to look up in confusion.

“Darren!” I exclaimed as I ran across the room and thru myself into his arms.

“Hey Madi.” Darren chuckled as he sat me back down on the floor and looked up to wave at the guys.

“Why are you here? I’m so glad you’re here. I could use an extra set of eyes.” I exclaimed, bounding back across the room beside him.

“Yeah, I thought you might. Johnny called and said you guys were getting ready to head to New Orleans and thought I might want to help. He said he tried to talk to you about it first, but you didn’t show up.” Darren said, laughter dancing across his face.

“Yeah, that was Justin’s fault.” I giggled as Darren nodded knowingly and Justin glared at the two of us in protest.


After I let the guys say hello and catch up with Darren for a few minutes I broke up their fun, “Darren, I need to narrow it down to four girls by the end of the day, and while I have a pretty good idea, I want your opinion. Plus it’ll let me dance as Justin’s partner and you can have a better idea of the overall look.” I said slightly noticing the face of the girl Ashley, who had previously been dancing with Justin, fall.

“Alright sweet, partner them up and let me see what you got.” Darren grinned looking us all over. I paired everybody off and positioned myself next to Justin as Darren started the music.

“J.C. what are you doing?” I asked half way thru the song causing everyone to stop and turn their attention to us.

“That step still just feels awkward to me, but I think if I tweak it just a little it flows better.” J.C. said smiling sheepishly at me. We had gone over his concern with this particular step before, having come to no solid conclusion, and now wasn’t exactly the time to be changing things up, although the girl Kristin, who was dancing with J.C. seemed to roll with it and adjusted her steps to fit his which impressed me.

“Come here. I’ll show you.” J.C. said pulling me to him and placing his hands on my hips.


Darren restarted the music and J.C. and I began to move against one another as everyone else just watched in anticipation. When we got closer to the part in question, I relaxed a little more against J.C. letting him lead me. He guided me thru the new step effortlessly and I couldn’t help but catch his eye in the mirror and grin stupidly at him as we continued to dance. The song ended and I couldn’t stop the smile that was lighting up my face as I turned around and wrapped my arms around J.C. “Damn C, that was hot, and sexy, and damn.” I smiled up at him.

“See, it works better doesn’t it?” J.C. asked softly, afraid of my answer.

“Yes! That was like pure sex! And it does flow a little nicer.” I said giggling at him. J.C. just beamed back at me and I leaned in and kissed his cheek thanking him profusely before turning to look at everyone else.

“You guys get that or do we need to show you again?” I asked excitement dancing across my face.

“I’m not sure.” Lance said scratching his head, obviously confused by the change.

“Again.” Justin whispered his voice low and almost primal. I just nodded at Darren to cue the music back up before placing myself back in J.C.s arms.


We finished the dance for the second time and I turned to see if everyone had got it that time, only to run into Justin’s chest. “Come.” Justin said gruffly as he grabbed me by the arm and pulled me towards the doors much to the surprise of everyone else. It took me a minute to register what was happening and for my feet to catch up with Justin, so he wasn’t dragging me along beside him. Justin pulled me into a room a few feet down the hall and immediately locked the door behind us.

“J what…” I started, trying to figure out what was going on but Justin quieted m by firmly pushing me up against the door and kissing me hungrily. My hands instantly found their way around his neck, pulling him closer, needing him after being away from him the past couple of days.

“Do you have any idea how sexy it is watching you dance?” Justin grunted as his lips made their way down my neck in a flurry of kisses.

“We dance all the time.” I giggled nuzzling my face into the base of his neck and biting down slightly. Justin groaned and quickly pulled me away from the door and bent me over the table that was in the middle of the room as he hooked his fingers into the hem of my shorts and quickly pulled them and my panties down my legs.

“Yeah, but seeing you move against C like that….Damn Madi.” Justin growled as he positioned himself behind me and roughly slammed himself into me without any warning. I cried out in surprise, but smiled to myself knowing I needed this just as badly as he did. Without any warning Justin plunged his finger into my ass causing me to gasp lightly as he continued to move in and out of me.

“J.” I panted out as all the sensations he was sending thru my body started to mesh into one uncontrollable wave.

“You like that?” Justin asked. I could hear the smirk on his face as he said it and he quickly added another finger into my ass, pumping in and out of me with such fervor and a matching rhythm of his hips that I literally was unable to respond to his question. My back arched and I cried out something incoherent as my body began to shake. Justin grunted as I started to pulsate around his cock and he quickly rammed himself into me a few more times, before removing his fingers from my ass and collapsing against my back as he still lightly twitched inside of me, coming down from his orgasm.


Justin laughed slightly as he slowly stood up and held out his hand to help me up. I slowly stood, bending down to pull my shorts back on before looking back up at him. “Maybe I should dance with other guys more often.” I smiled, leaning back against the table for support, still not completely steady of my feet.

“No.” Justin said roughly his eyes darkening as he kissed me so hard my head started to swim, “I trust C, but if anyone else ever touched you like that we’d have a problem.” Justin growled looking me over.

I licked my lips and nodded slightly seeing how serious he was. I reached my hand out and pulled Justin’s head kissing him again faltering slightly under his intense stare, and not being able to get enough of him. Justin finally broke the kiss, and grinning down at me said, “Come on.” Before grabbing my hand and leading me towards the door and back over to the dance studio.

As we made our way back across the room, I couldn’t help but notice everyone’s eyes on us. I swear you could hear a pin drop at the moment and it caused me to break out in a fit of giggles that soon turned into full blown laughter. Everyone relaxed slightly but still looked on confused as to what had just happened. “Darren, C, and any of you three who want a say in this come here.” I said dragging Justin off to the corner of the studio.

Darren and the rest of the guys followed still slightly confused and wary as to what was going on. “Ashley is definitely gone, she was pissed when she found out I would be dancing with Justin.” I said quietly as everyone just looked at me, not sure if any of them should acknowledge the situation at hand. Apparently they all chose not to say anything, because they all started to discuss who they though fit best and who they though should come on tour with us.


After a few more minutes of discussion, we made our way back to the center of the room where all the girls were waiting anxiously. “Alright, Diana, Michele, Dana, and Kristin, you four are now officially part of the PopOdyssey tour.” I smiled at them as a look of relief washed over all their faces.

The other five girls reluctantly started to gather their things to leave as Justin’s phone rang. Justin glanced down at it, stating he needed to take it before making his way across the room to answer it.

“I’m still not sure about that step you changed.” Lance sighed over at me.

“Alright, it’s not that difficult I promise, once you get the hang of it, it’ll be so much easier.” I smiled cueing up the stereo. “J.C. come here.” I said motioning him over to me. J.C. hesitated slightly and I gave him and impatient look as I held out my hand to him.

“I want to see if I have it, I’ll do it.” Chris volunteered stepping in between us.

I looked at him skeptically before replying, “As much as I love you, no. If you want to try it pick one of your new dancers. I refuse to dance like that with my brother.” I said rolling my eyes at him.

“I just think it might be for the best.” Chris mumbled, glancing quickly over at Justin, who was making his way back over to us.

“Stop being weird. C, come dance with me.” I said as little more firmly, causing Chris to take a step back.

“What’s up?” Justin asked confused, noticing the uncomfortable looks adorning his band mates faces.

“I have no idea!” I exclaimed exasperated, “Lance is confused about the step change, so I’m trying to get J.C. to help me show him.” Justin gave all the guys a odd look as his phone started to ring again.

“So show him.” Justin shrugged before answering his phone again.


J.C. reluctantly made his way over to me and stood behind me, waiting on the music to start but refusing to touch me. “You kind of need to touch me C.” I teased, grabbing his hands and putting them on my waist.

“You sure?” J.C. whispered, licking his lips to wet them as he glanced down at me.

“How else are we supposed to dance?” I asked cocking my head to the side to get a better look at him.

“I just didn’t want to piss anyone off.” J.C. hoarsely whispered, causing me to throw my head back against his chest in laughter.

“Seriously? That’s why you all are acting so weird?” I laughed as I turned to look at all the guys who just shrugged nonchalantly.

“Nobody’s pissed off about anything damn, we’re just dancing.” I laughed pulling J.C. back over to me.

“Well Justin seemed a little miffed….”Chris trailed off eyeing me slowly.

“Trust me, that wasn’t Justin mad.” I laughed at them, not believing that they all thought Justin would get so worked up over me dancing with his best friend.


It was after seven when I decided to call it a day, much to the relief of everyone in the room. I could see the visible look of relief wash over all the girl’s faces, while the guys more vocally described their disdain for me and my work ethic. Chris was lying on the floor cussing me out, but I just rolled my eyes at him before throwing him a bottle of water and telling him to get up. Chris reluctantly got up glaring at me before saying, “Hurry up, you’re driving.”

“I don’t think so, she’s coming with me.” Justin said appearing beside me.

“Oh am I?” I asked raising my eyebrows up at him, but not being able to stop the smile spreading across my face.

“Mmmhmm we have unfinished business.” Justin said his voice lowering as he placed a kiss on the nape of my neck.

I sighed contentedly as my stomach muscle instinctively tightened in anticipation and said, “Sorry Chrissy you’re on your own.” As I grabbed Justin’s hand and headed for the door.
I sunk into Justin’s car seat, the exhaustion from the day finally starting to register as Justin pulled out of the parking lot. “J, stop and get something to eat on the way home, I don’t feel like cooking.” I stated looking over at him.

“I don’t want fast food; I’ll have Lucinda make something.” Justin replied glancing over at me out of the corner of his eye.

“No it’s fine, I’ll cook.” I sighed turning to look out the window.

“Why do you get so bent out of shape when it comes to her?” Justin asked, causing me to turn back and look at him.

“I just don’t like the way you take advantage of her." I said not wanting to start a fight.

“Madison it’s here job, I pay her!” Justin laughed at me.

“I know, but if just seems silly to me, and why should she cook for you when I’m perfectly capable of doing it.” I pouted.

“Because I pay her to do it. She’s my housekeeper, not you.” Justin sighed gently picking up my hand.

“I know J, I just don’t like letting other people do things for me when I’m capable of doing them myself.”I whispered still pouting.

“Baby you’re just as busy as I am getting ready for this tour, you do not want to go home and pick up after my ass.” Justin smirked over at me lightly squeezing my hand.

“I really don’t mind.” I mumbled caressing his hand with my thumb.

“Madi I love that you want to try and play superwoman, but you’re exhausted, as am I, so please just stop fighting me on this and let Lucinda do what I pay her for.” Justin glared over at me as he pulled into the driveway, hoping to put an end to our conversation.


I relented as I got out and made my way towards the door in the garage, only because he was right in that I was exhausted. Not to mention the last thing I wanted right now was to fight with him over something so trivial. We walked into the kitchen and much to my dismay, Lucinda was there putting something in the fridge. “Lucinda, can you make us something to eat?” Justin asked sitting on the barstool at the counter as I scowled in his direction.

“Of course Mr. Timberlake, I have some stuff ready; I can just heat something up. Do you have any preferences?” She asked as I rolled my eyes in disgust at how she so quickly flitted around to fulfill his needs.

I reluctantly sat down beside Justin as he looked up at me, “What do you want babe?”

“I’m good with just a salad.” I smiled slightly, wanting to give Lucinda something easy to work with.

Justin opened his mouth to protest but Lucinda beat him to it, “That’s fine. I have some stuff for caesar salads, let me just grill up some chicken.” She smiled as she set a beer in front of Justin before asking what I wanted.

“Beer’s fine.” I mumbled as she nodded enthusiastically before setting a beer down in front of me and busying herself with grilling up chicken for us. Justin finished his beer a few minutes later, and I grabbed it as I stood up to get him another one.

“Oh, I’ll get that Miss Kirkpatrick.” Lucinda said grabbing the empty bottle out of my hand and hurriedly setting another one down in front of Justin.

“Please call me Madison.” I sighed sitting back down beside Justin defeated. Lucinda smiled in my direction but said nothing as she continued to prepare our dinner.


Justin scooted his chair closer to me and wrapped his arm around my waist. He tugged me slightly closer to him before leaning in and kissing my neck. “J don’t.” I hissed as I tried to shrug him off of me.

“Madison.” Justin sighed pulling away and taking a long drink from his beer, obviously frustrated with me. I knew he viewed Lucinda as just another employee of his, but she was a person and I felt bad enough that she was making me dinner and waiting on Justin hand and foot, she didn’t need to see him all over me as well. I chugged the rest of my beer, but before I could even think about getting up to get another one Lucinda had placed two more in front on me and Justin.

“Thank you.” I mumbled refusing to look up at her.


A couple minutes later, Lucinda placed two heaping salads in front of Justin and I before quickly excusing herself and making her way out of the room. I quickly downed the remainder of my beer, before getting up and going to get myself another one. I could feel Justin’s eyes boring into my back so I turned slightly to look at him, “You want another one?” I asked as I twisted the cap off my beer, before taking a drink.

Justin just nodded, as he put a bite of food in his mouth and slowly chewed, never taking his eyes off me. I handed Justin his beer before sitting back down beside him. I took another drink of my beer, staring idly across the kitchen. “Eat Madi.” Justin said softly, pulling me from my thoughts and causing me to look at him.

I stared at him for a few moments contemplating my reply, decided it was best just to keep my mouth shut so I just nodded slightly and picked up my fork. “I love you.” Justin said lightly as he rested his hand on my upper thigh.

I glanced down at his hand and then slowly raised my head to meet his gaze. My face softened as I noted the sincerity behind his words and I let out a breath calming myself before smiling slightly, “I love you too, J.”

That must have been enough to pacify him because he just grinned and said, “Good now eat so we can go get and shower and go to bed.” I shook my head slightly at him as he took his hand back and continued to dig into his dinner, brushing off the serious moment.


I quickly devoured the salad in front of me, not realizing how hungry I actually was. I took the last bit and looked up to see Justin smirking slightly at me. “What?” I giggled.

“Nothing.” Justin smiled as he got up and placed our dishes in the sink before grabbing two more beers out of the fridge. “Come on.” He said as he offered me his hand and led me out of the kitchen and up the stairs. Justin set the beers on the bathroom sink as he went to turn the water on and adjust it.

I smiled slightly in his direction, before taking a drink of beer and getting undressed. Justin turned around and smirked when he noticed my state of undress. He quickly sauntered over to me and took the beer out of my hand taking a drink of it himself, before ripping his t-shirt off over his head.


I giggled at him as I made my way past him and into the shower. I was just starting to shampoo my hair when I heard Justin step in behind me. I was about to turn and look at him, but his fingers made their way into my hair, lightly massaging my scalp. I let my hands fall to my sides and closed my eyes, relaxing against Justin’s touch. After a few minutes I felt Justin move me slightly so I was under the water as he washed all the shampoo from my hair. When he finished he bent down and lightly kissed my cheek, and I allowed my eyes to flutter open to look at him. I smiled my thanks but said nothing as I quickly squirted some soap onto my loofa and started to lather it up. Justin shook his head slightly as he took it out of my hands and began to run it up and down my body washing me, yet teasing as he did so. I whimpered slightly as he pinched and pulled my nipples causing them to stand at attention before he continued further south.


By the time Justin was done washing me it took all I had not to collapse to the shower floor, as my legs were nothing but jell-o. I all too quickly returned the favor of washing Justin off and could tell by the smirk on his face that he was amused as to how in a hurry I was. Once I finished with him, I shoved him under the shower head to rinse off and I quickly stepped out of the shower and grabbed a towel anxious to make my way over to his bed.

“In a hurry Madi?” Justin smirked as he got out behind me and lazily wrapped a towel around his waist.

“No.”I feigned ignorance as I let my towel slowly fall to the floor and sauntered out of the bathroom, making sure to sway my hips with each step I took I heard Justin chuckling to himself, but as I went to climb onto his bed he was right behind me.


I went to crawl up the bed, but Justin grabbed a hold of my ankle pulling me back to him. I raised an eyebrow in his direction but he just smiled and scooted me to the edge of the bed. Justin stood before me and grabbed his cock in his hand and slowly slid it up and down my folds testing me. I was more than ready for him however, and whimpered slightly every time the tip of his cock lightly caresses my clit. Justin smiled down at me, before slipping into me and completely losing himself between my folds. I ran my hands up my body slowly caressing myself before stopping on the mounds of my breasts. I played with my nipples, pinching them lightly causing them to stand erect. Justin’s eyes darkened as he slowly lifted them from where I was touching myself up to my eyes, “Do you have any idea how sexy you are?” Justin growled out huskily, causing a shiver to run down my spine.

I sat up the best I could and pulled Justin down to me devouring his lips in a much needed kiss. The half sitting position I was in caused Justin to furiously rub against my g-spot with every motion he made. I cried out as I pulled away from the kiss and thru my head back enjoying the building sensation in my stomach. Justin’s lips immediately connected to my neck, sucking lightly before he trailed his tongue around a little further.

“Justin!” I cried out, not being able to hold out any longer and letting my orgasm rip thru my body. Justin’s fingers dug lightly into my hips as he grinded himself deeper within me, causing my orgasm to be that much more intense and causing him to soon follow me over the edge. I collapsed back against the mattress completely exhausted and Justin grunted slightly as his head fell onto my chest. I ran my fingers over his buzzed head, feeling myself starting to slowly drift off to sleep.


Justin kissed my chest lightly before standing up and pulling himself out of me, still half erect. “Madi, don’t go to sleep, I’m not done with you.” Justin whined as he bent down and covered my face in a series of light sweet kisses.

“Mmm.” Was my only response as I lightly puckered up my lips wanting a kiss. Justin smiled as he bent down and kissed me lightly on the lips, before applying more pressure trying to get me to wake back up and get ready for round two.


I ran my hand down Justin’s torso as our kissed deepened until I found his shaft and slowly pumped him up and down a few times making sure he was ready. I felt Justin smiled against my mouth and I pulled away from our kiss, pecking him lightly once more before scooting myself back onto the bed. Justin stood up off of me, letting me get comfortable before he climbed onto the bed. I flopped over on my stomach and sighed as my face came into contact with his pillow.

“Madi.” Justin whined as he smacked my ass trying to get me to roll back over.

“I’m tired, you’re fine, go on.” I said my voice muffled by the pillow.

“You sure?” Justin asked smirking at me.

“Mmmhmm. “ I mumbled not caring anymore at that point. I heard Justin spit into his hand and run it up my ass crack trying to lube me up before he settled himself over me and slowly pushed himself into my ass. Justin started to slowly pump himself in and out of me as he fingers lightly dug into my hips. I know I told him I was tired but I was starting to get turned on again as I felt him completely fill me up and stretch my ass out. I groaned slightly as I pushed back into Justin, grinding my ass up onto his cock, creating a new friction between us. Justin grunted as he grabbed onto my hips and pulled them towards him causing me to pull my knees up under me to support myself. With my ass in the air, Justin swiftly brought his hand down on it causing an echoing sound to radiate throughout the room as he sped up his pace slightly, pumping in out of me faster.

“Damn Madi, I’m close.” Justin grunted out causing me to whimper back in response. Justin knew I was enjoying this, but also knew I wasn’t as close as he was, so he wrapped his arm around my waist, his fingers attaching to my clit as he started to furiously rub it between his thumb and forefinger. I pushed my ass back towards him, wanting to be closer to him and I head his breathing speed up as he continued to work me over trying to bring me to my climax. My whole body began to twitch Justin and I heard him grunt out as he finally let go, our orgasms coming at the same time, sending waves of pleasure thru our bodies.


I fell back onto the bed and this time Justin fell down beside me completely exhausted himself. “I love you.” I mumbled as I snuggled against his chest and kissed it lightly.

“How ‘bout we go to New Orleans Friday night and have a couple days to ourselves before everything gets crazy?” Justin asked running his fingers thru my hair.

“J, I have for new dancers to get ready.” I sighed.

“I know, but who knows the next time we’ll get a chance to have a few days to just us. Please.” Justin begged dragging out the please at the end.

I sighed knowing he was right and not being able to resist him even if I wanted to, “Okay, but if the dancers aren’t ready opening night it’s on you.” I said trailing my fingers across his chest and abs.

“You’ll have them ready.” Justin chuckled kissing the top of my head. I rolled my eyes at him, but knew he was right and knew there was no way I would let them be anything less than perfect for opening night.

“Night J.” I mumbled my eyelids closing as I started to lose my battle with sleep.

“Night Madi. I love you.” Justin breathed out before falling into a deep sleep himself.

The next three days were absolutely insane and I had every one at the compound from the crack of dawn into the late night. Justin hadn’t been able to get us a non-stop flight out to New Orleans until Saturday morning, which meant I could spend all of Friday night rehearsing, even if I was the only one happy about it. I wanted the girls to learn all four songs before we even got to New Orleans and I was determined to make sure everyone could do the routines in their sleep. I finally decided to call it a day around ten thirty, knowing everyone was exhausted and knowing that I still hadn’t packed a single thing for this trip, and seeing how it was all but going to run into the start of the tour I knew I’d be up half the night packing.


I was throwing everything back into my bag when Justin came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. “Hey.” I sighed leaning back into him.

“I gotta run by my house real quick if you want to come.” Justin murmured slightly swaying us back and forth.

“J, I don’t have anything packed and neither do you.” I sighed turning around in his arms and hugging him as I laid my head on his shoulder.

“Lucinda packed for me today, I just have to go pick up my bags.” Justin breathed out as I instantly tensed in his arms. “Don’t. You’ve had me here all day everyday and it’s her job.”Justin said trying to avoid any argument about how I think he takes advantage of her.

“I don’t have the energy to yell at you right now anyways,” I mumbled not lifting my head off his shoulder, “go get your stuff. I’m going to go with Chris and get a head start on packing.”

“Alright, I’ll be right behind you.” Justin said kissing my head as I pulled back.

“K, love you.” I said reaching up and pecking him on the lips before turning around to find Chris.


When Justin arrived at my house an hour later, he found me sitting in the middle of my bedroom floor, surrounded by piles of clothes and crying. “Hey, what’s wrong?” Justin asked concerned as he set the Wendy’s bag he had down on my dresser before he knelt down beside me and pulled me to him.

I wrapped my arms around Justin and cried into his chest for a few minutes, before finally pulling away and laughing slightly. “What’s going on?” Justin asked the concern evident on his face.

“I don’t know. I don’t even know where to start, and all I really want to do is sleep.” I laughed at myself as Justin just looked on confused.

“You’ve been on tour before, what’s wrong?” Justin questioned brushing a stray piece of hair behind my ear.

“I don’t have time to properly pack.” I exclaimed exasperated as I threw my hands up in the air frustrated, causing Justin to laugh.

“Come here.” Justin chuckled pulling me into his chest, “First we are going to eat and then I will help you pack.”

“What’d you bring me?” I asked looking up at him.

“Wendy’s and redbull.” Justin grinned as he got up to retrieve the food off the dresser.

“You do love me!” I exclaimed my eyes lighting up at the redbull.

“Always.” Justin laughed handing it to me before he started to pull food out of the bag.


It was two thirty before Justin and I crawled into bed, and I almost immediately fell asleep, eagerly welcoming it, knowing that I would have to get up all too soon. At eight exactly my alarm went off and I groaned as I rolled over to silence it wanting nothing more than to go back to sleep. I rolled back over and hit Justin on the chest, trying to wake him up. He just groaned and lightly swatted at my hand before snuggling deeper into the pillows. “Justin.” I groaned pulling the comforter off of him.

“What?” he snapped glaring at me thru tiny slits in his eyes.

“I thought you might wanna get a shower before we have to leave.” I shrugged in his direction, before getting off the bed and making my way towards the bathroom no longer caring if he got up.


I got into the shower and a few minutes later I heard Justin stumble into the bathroom before climbing into the shower behind me, still half asleep. I quickly rinsed off and stepped around Justin and out of the shower, not wanting to deal with anymore of his attitude. I had just finished getting dressed and was pulling my hair up into a messy bun, not having the energy to do anything else with it, when Justin emerged from the bathroom. He definitely seemed to be a little more awake, but I still wasn’t ready to hash it out with him, so I quickly slipped out of the room and down the stairs in search of food. I was sitting at the table eating some yogurt and granola when Justin finally made his way into the kitchen, just as the coffee pot beeped signaling it was done. Justin immediately made a beeline for it and trying not to roll my eyes in his direction I just stared down into my bowl waiting for him to finish so I could get my coffee.


A cup of coffee appeared in front of me catching me off guard and I slowly looked up to see Justin standing over me. “Thank you.” I whispered up at him.

Justin just nodded and turned around to get himself some cereal. I watched Justin sleepily pour himself a bowl of cereal before he made his way back over to the table and sat down. My icy exterior melted, realizing we were both tired and grumpy, and that he had made the effort to take me away for a couple of days before the oncoming madness ensued.

“Jus,” I said quietly getting his attention as he slowly looked up at me, “I love you.”

A small smile spread across his face as he reached across the table and picked up my hand, “I love you too, I’m sorry for snapping at you.”

“It’s okay.” I smiled as I got up to put my bowl in the sink and make sure I had everything ready to go.


It was nearing two when Justin and I finally walked into our hotel room, and I immediately collapsed onto the bed, wanting nothing more than to sleep. Justin smirked in my direction and I flipped him off in response. We were complete opposites when it came to sleep; He was hard to wake up but once he was up he was up for the day, I on the other hand needed my sleep even if that meant napping in the middle of the day. “Madison…”Justin sang out as he sauntered over to me.

“Hmm.” I mumbled barely opening my eyes.

“Come on, I thought we’d go to the French Quarter.” Justin coaxed as he hovered over me.

“J, I’m exhausted.” I pouted up at him.

“Come on, the whole point of coming out here early was so we could spend some time together.” Justin said placing kisses all over my face and neck.

I brought my hands up and wrapped them around Justin’s neck bringing his mouth down to mine and kissing him slowly and purposely. “On second thought, we could stay in.” Justin said his voice low and his eyes clouding over as he pulled away.

“Or I could nap.” I smiled up at him.

“Madi, we haven’t had sex in four days.” Justin groaned as he kissed down my collarbone.

“And if I don’t get a nap it’s going to be five.” I said causing Justin to snap his head up and look at me.

My face softened slightly at the look on his face, “Just an hour or two and then we can go to dinner and do whatever else you want and I promise we will have mind blowing sex tonight.”

“Promise?” Justin asked with puppy dog eyes.

“Yes.” I breathed out lightly kissing him on the side of the mouth.

“Okay, I’ll leave you be then.” Justin said quickly kissing me once more before jumping up off the bed.

“Where are you going?” I asked sitting up on my elbows to look at him.

“Down to the gym, I gotta do something.” Justin said rummaging thru his suitcase, as I just rolled my eyes at him and laid back down.


A little bit later I woke up to the sound of the door opening. My eyes fluttered open to see Justin standing there in a wife beater and basketball shorts with sweat glistening off of his perfectly sculpted body. I licked my lips as I slowly sat up and motioned him over with my finger. Justin walked over grinning at me and leaned down supporting himself with his hands on either side of me and kissed me softly before pulling back lightly and hovering over my lips, teasing me. I pouted up at him causing him to laugh slightly.

“J.” I pouted grabbing onto his hips and trying to pull him closer. Justin just chuckled and moved back just enough so I couldn’t touch his lips. I scowled at him before throwing myself back on the bed frustrated. Justin stood up laughing as he peeled his shirt off and headed towards the bathroom leaving me alone on the bed.


Justin spent the whole time we got ready and all of dinner teasing me, and by the time we had finished I was ready to jump across the table and attack him. Our waiter came to clear our plates just as I excused myself to the restroom and I overheard Justin ordering as another round of drinks and dessert. I knew he was dragging everything out as long as possible as payback for my nap earlier, but I wasn’t going to entertain his charade any longer than dinner. Not that I figured Justin could keep his hands off me much longer either, he might have started this game but it wasn’t very often that we went this long without sex.


I made my way back from the restroom and as I passed by Justin his hand made its way past the hem of my dress and skimmed along my thigh. I quickly swatted his hand away and sat back down taking a large drink of the jack and coke that was sitting in front of me. “Why you blushing Madi?” Justin chuckled, as I glared at him from across the table.

Just then the waiter brought our dessert over and Justin thanked him while I stared down into my drink still embarrassed by Justin’s forwardness a few seconds ago. “You are such a tease.” I whispered as I took a bite of the cheesecake that was sitting between us.

“You love it.” Justin smirked at me.

“Maybe….so your playful attitude has got me thinking.” I blew out studying the cheesecake and refusing to look up at Justin.

“Oh yeah? About?” Justin asked with raised eyebrows.

“Well we’ve always had fun right?” I asked glancing up at him thru my eyelashes.

“Yeah…” Justin drew out, confused as to where I was going with this conversation.

“And we’ve never had a problem talking about our likes and dislikes or trying new things, right?” I asked finally putting down my fork, not being able to eat anymore as my stomach started to twist into knots.

“Right.” Justin replied as his brows knit together.

“So there is something I kind of want to try,” I started glancing up at his perplexed face, “but if you’re not into it I totally understand.” I quickly added.

“Are you going to tell me what it is?” Justin asked, an amused smile appearing on his face.

I took a deep breath not sure how Justin was going to react to what I was about to say, “How would you feel about me, you, and another guy?” I breathed out quickly staring down at the table afraid to look up at Justin.


After what seemed like an eternity of silence, I finally dared to glance up at him. Justin was staring at me and for once in our relationship I couldn’t read the expression on his face. I was getting more nervous by the second and I was racking my brain trying to come up with any explanation that would get Justin to relax and forget that I even brought it up. I started to mumble something, stuttering over syllables, trying to form any words, when Justin very calmly and evenly asked, “Who?”

I let out a long calming breath before slowly raising my eyes to meet his, “I don’t know, I mean I’m not sure, we can figure it out together.” Of course I already had someone in mind, but I wasn’t sure how Justin would react to it, so I wanted to hear some of his ideas before I suggested anything.

“Okay.” Justin said evenly.

My eyes widened as my head flew up to meet his gaze, “Okay?” I repeated, more as a question than anything.

“If it’s something you want to do, we can figure it out.” Justin nodded holding my gaze.

“Really?” I asked a little more excitedly than I wanted.

A small smile broke out onto Justin’s face as he said, “Of course, come on let’s get out of here.” He threw some money down onto the table before standing and offering me his hand. I stood as Justin wrapped his arm around my waist, kissed my temple, and led me out of the restaurant.

Monday morning rolled around all too quickly and while all the guys made it clear when they got in the night before, Justin and I did a great job of avoiding them and enjoying our last few hours of peace together I walked out of the bathroom to Justin animatedly talking on the phone, discussing what sound like to be studio time and I knew that the whirlwind had started back up full force and this time there was no stopping it. I quickly got dressed before quietly telling Justin we needed to make our way downstairs. He just nodded and held the door open for me not missing a beat in his conversation as we made our way down the hall towards the elevators. Everyone besides J.C. was in the lobby waiting for us and I made my way over to greet them as Justin hung back still in the middle of his conversation.

“Madi!” Chris yelled making his way over to me and picking me up off the floor and spinning me around causing me to giggle.

“Miss me?” I asked when he finally set me back down.

“Yes! I almost starved while you were gone.” Chris exclaimed glaring at me as Joey interrupted us, “That’s not true, Kelly cooked him three out of four meals.” I just laughed at their antics, having missed all of them, and knowing Chris was more than capable of cooking for himself.

“Darren are you ready for this?” I asked as I made my way over towards him and the rest of the dancers.

“I don’t know, Lance was showing me the blueprints for the stage and I have no idea how you’re going to pull this off.” He said with raised eyebrows.

“Very carefully.” I sighed as J.C. finally made his way across the lobby towards us, his phone glued to his ear just like Justin.


Justin glanced up and caught J.C.’s eye and they both immediately hung up their phones continuing their conversation. “Were you two really talking to each other this whole time?” I asked amusement dancing across my face as I made my way over to them.

“Yeah, hey Madi.” J.C. smiled leaning in to hug me.

“I love you both dearly, but you two are insane.” I shook my head pulling away from the hug as they both just grinned at me before going back to their conversation. I smirked to myself before making my way back towards Chris and Joey, leaving them to discuss their business.


The next couple of weeks were a blur with everybody working on overdrive to make sure everything was perfect. The guys and I were practically living at the Superdome and any outsiders would have been amazed as to some of the places we randomly found to nap at odd times. The dancers were the only ones who found themselves with any down time, seeing as how they were only performing four songs in the show. Kristin hung around most of the time however, and I found myself sending her on random errands and asking her opinion on the rest of the show the more she hung around. I don’t think she really minded though, I would catch her ever so often staring at J.C. out of the corner of her watching him intently. I was apprehensive about it at first, but the more I watched her the more harmless it seemed, so I kept her around because she was making my life a lot easier helping me out with little things I didn’t have time to do.


I was glad the guys filmed all the promos and skits before we got here, because between trying to put everything together on the stage and Justin and J.C. running off to the studio constantly trying to lay down last minute tracks for the album there was no time for anything else. I had gotten volunteered to do the skit before Celebrity and between dance rehearsals, I was always trying to find a free minute to go over it with the recording getting the timing down. Lance was still having trouble with the step change during Up Against the Wall and for some reason Chris was always a half step behind during Just the Two of us, so to say I was stressed out was an understatement.


Tomorrow was the twentieth and we were all flying back to Orlando to have a couple days home before the opening show in Jacksonville on the twenty-third. I was happy to get to sleep in my own bed, even if it was only for a couple days and knowing that even though we were all suppose to be relaxing for a few days that it wouldn’t happen; We were all too much of perfectionists to just sit around days before quite possibly the biggest pop tour ever.


The next day when we landed in Orlando, I saw the look of relief and happiness cross over everyone’s faces and I really hated that I was about to ruin it, but I knew it had to be done. “So I need you all at the compound.” I aid quickly as I surveyed everyone’s peaceful faces change to ones of stress, anger, and confusion.

“Why?” Chris asked narrowing his eyes at me.

“Look I promise we’ll be quick, I just want to do one more run thru, and I know you guys have studio time scheduled for tomorrow and I wanted to give you all Tuesday off.” I said trying to reason with all of them.

They all started to protest lightly when J.C. finally spoke up, “Guys she’s right, we’re not going to want to do it Tuesday, so we might as well just get it over with now.” Everyone reluctantly agreed and started to follow security out of the airport.

“Thanks C.” I sighed as I wrapped my arm around his waist and leaned into him.

“No problem, I get it.” J.C. smiled as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders, and I glanced up just in time to see Kristin turn away with a scowl on her face.


I could tell how eager everyone was to get home because everyone immediately got down to business, and was flowing thru the show almost perfectly. I did notice Kristin trying extra hard to get and keep J.C.’s attention, and while normally I would have considered replacing her; J.C. seemed to be in to her much too obvious advances. The rest of the dancers were sitting against the wall as the guys continued with their routine and I walked around watching making sure they were all on point. All the girls turned their focus to the door perplexed looks on their face, and I couldn’t help but smile knowing my surprise was here.

“Trace?” Justin questioned a grin breaking out on his face as he stopped mid-dance and jogged across the room to greet his friend.

“Hey fucker.” Trace smiled as Justin hugged him a bewildered look on his face.

“What? How? I thought you couldn’t make it out for the first show?” Justin rapidly questioned obviously still stunned.

“Yeah, well Madi called and told me to get my ass on a plane or she was coming to get me.” Trace laughed as Justin whipped around and caught my eye.

“You did this?” He incredulously asked. I bit my lip and nodded as I slowly made my way over to him. Justin pulled me into and whispered, “Thank you,” before crashing his lips down onto mine showing his appreciation.

“Listen, I came to see my friend, not watch him rape his girlfriend.” Trace teased, as Justin and I pulled apart laughing at him.

“Hey Trace.” I smiled as I walked into his open arms and hugged him.

“Hey Madi, thanks for dragging my ass out here.” Trace smiled.

“No problem short stuff, someone has to keep all you guys in line.” I said as they both scowled at me playfully.


I watched Justin and Trace excitedly talk and start to catch up, seeing as how they hadn’t seen each other in a few months, and I decided to cut rehearsal short knowing he needed time to catch up with his friend. “Alright guys, I think you have it down, I’m going to let you go.” I said much to the surprise of everyone. The guys all started to give me their thanks, and I could have swore I saw Kristin roll her eyes my way, but I brushed it off, it not making any sense.

“Come on Madi, let’s get out of here.” Justin smiled as he and Trace made their way over to me.

“Oh, I was going to go home. I figured you’d want to spend some time with Trace.” I said wrapping my arm around his waist and leaning into him.

“Of course I do, but you’re coming too.” Justin pouted giving me puppy dog eyes.

“I was going to go do laundry.” I said looking up at him.

“Oh puh-lease,” Justin started rolling his eyes, “you have time to do that, I want to spend some time with my two favorite people.”

“Hey J.C., Justin wants you to come hang out.” Trace yelled across the room, laughter dancing across his face as I hit him in the stomach.


J.C. slowly made his way towards us, much to the dismay of Kristin, and I couldn’t help but to start to get annoyed with her attitude. “What’s going on?” J.C. asked.

“Nothing, Trace is being an ass,” I said rolling my eyes, “but we’re all headed to Justin’s if you want to come hang out.” I smiled up at him.

J.C.’s eyes softened as he glanced down at me, “Thanks, but I think I’m gonna grab something to eat and go to sleep.”

“Well if you change your mind you know where we’ll be.” Justin grinned as J.C. just nodded his thanks.


Justin, Trace, and I all made our way into Justin’s house, and the boys immediately made a beeline for the liquor and started to make themselves drinks. I sat at the counter and watched them with a small smile on my face happy to have at least gotten them a couple days together. Justin sat what I assumed was a Jack and coke in front of me before bending down and kissing me softly, causing me to completely melt. “What do you guys want for dinner?” I asked as Justin stood back up.

“I don’t know, I’ll see what Lucinda has to make.” Justin shrugged as he turned around in search of her.

“Jus.” I started causing him to turn and glare at me, willing me to shut my mouth. He hated arguing over Lucinda, and I knew he wasn’t going to tolerate an argument about it in front of Trace. I smiled slightly up at him, trying to convince him I wasn’t going to start a fight or embarrass him in front of Trace, “I was just thinking you and Trace could grill up some steaks and I’d throw together a salad and make some baked potatoes real quick.”

Justin’s eyes narrowed, trying to figure out if he wanted to comply or turn this into an argument after all. I was hoping he’d let it go, I hated fighting with him, and it always seemed to happen over the most minute issues. My smile started to falter slightly when Justin still hadn’t said anything but finally Trace spoke up, “That actually sounds amazing, come on J.” He said slapping Justin on the back and nodding towards the patio.

Justin glanced up at Trace and nodded before finishing the drink in his hand. “Here, I’ll get you another drink and bring the steaks out in a minute, why don’t you go start the grill.” I said softly grabbing the empty glass from his hand.

Justin’s face softened slightly as he nodded and headed towards the door. “You need another drink?” I asked softly turning towards Trace.

“I got it, thanks though.” Trace smiled, taking Justin’s glass out of my hand and pouring the two of them refills before he followed Justin out to the patio.


I took a big gulp of my drink before pulling the steaks out of the fridge and began seasoning them. I was just about to turn and take the steaks out to the guys when Justin made his way back into the kitchen. He slowly made his way around the counter, eyeing the plate of steaks in my hand. “I’m sorry J, I didn’t mean to piss you off.” I whispered as I handed the plate over to him.

Justin sighed slightly as he set the plate on the counter and pulled me into his chest. I exhaled deeply wrapping my arms around his waist, drawing comfort from his forgiveness. “Madi, you just got to stop busting my balls about stupid shit.” Justin sighed running his fingers thru my hair.

“I know, it’s just something we’re going to have to agree to disagree on.” I mumbled causing Justin to chuckle slightly and me to raise my head to look at him. Justin just shook his head at me an amused smile on his face before he bent down and kissed me softly at first, but quickly deepening it.

I finally pulled away smiling up at him, “You better not keep Trace waiting.”

“I love you.” Justin said pecking me on the lips once more before grabbing the steaks and making his way out the door.

A little while later I made my way outside and set the freshly prepared salad on the table and made my way over to a laughing Justin and Trace. “Here baby.” I smiled as I handed Justin a plate of marinated zucchini to grill.

“Here Trace.” Justin said shoving the plate into Trace’s hands before grabbing me by the waist and pulling me to him. I squealed as he caught me off guard, but composed myself by wrapping my arms around his neck just in time to meet him half way for a kiss.

I giggled as I pulled away before saying, “I have to finish setting the table,” laughter dancing across my face.

“Come on, I need another drink anyway.” Justin said his eyes glimmering mischievously at me as he picked up his and Traces glasses and followed me back into the kitchen.


I went to work pulling plates out of the cabinet, only to have Justin come up behind me, pinning me against the counter as his lips connected to my neck. “Justin.” I giggled leaning back into him.

“Hmm?” Justin murmured smiling against my neck.

“As much as I love this….” I groaned out, losing my train of thought when he lightly bit down on my neck.

“What were you saying?” Justin smirked grabbing my hips and turning me around to face him.

I narrowed my eyes at him doing my best to glare at him, but failing miserably. Justin just smirked at me waiting on my response, and I finally had to push him away from me to regain my train of thought. Justin just laughed as he turned around to make new drinks and I busied myself with getting silverware out of the drawer. “You’re supposed to be spending time with Trace.” I finally said, once my head cleared a little.

“Speaking of,” Justin said his voice low as he wrapped his arms around my waist, pressing himself into my back, “Did you invite him out here to fulfill your little fantasy?” Justin breathed against my ear, causing a shiver to run down my spine.

“No.” I whispered, licking my lips, my voice shaking as I spoke.

“No?” Justin lightly questioned with raised eyebrows.

“I mean I love Trace, but I just don’t really see him like that….Why do you want it to be Trace?” I asked fiddling with the silverware in front of me, refusing to look back at him.


Justin stepped back from me taking a drink out of his glass before replying, “Not really, but if that’s what you wanted I was okay with it.”

“I mean if he makes you more comfortable, we can ask him.” I whispered glancing up at him.

“No,” Justin threw his head back in laughter, “that’s not what you want, besides I think I have a better candidate.” He breathed out staring me down.

I picked up my glass and quickly down the remainder of it, causing Justin to chuckle slightly at my nervousness as he took the glass from me and turned to put me another drink. “Who?” I finally got the courage to meekly ask once his back was turned.


Justin slowly turned around and handed me back my glass, studying me before speaking, “Who do you have in mind?”

“I don’t know,” I said quickly taking a few big gulps of my drink, nervousness setting in, not wanting to anger him with my suggestion.

“Relax Madi.” Justin soothed, reaching up and caressing my face softly. I closed my eyes and took a steadying breath leaning into his hand, before slowly opening them and looking up into his gorgeous baby blues. “I know you have an idea, or you never would have brought it up in the first place, but I’m pretty sure we’re on the same page with J.C.” Justin said slowly as I instantly relaxed in front of him.

“That’s what I thought.” Justin chuckled pulling me into him and kissing me lightly.

“You’re okay with that?” I asked skeptically, studying his face for any sign of doubt.

“Of course, it makes the most sense, you two are just as close as him and I are.” Justin smiled down at me, as I let a wide grin spread across my face, finally happy to know that we were on the same page about the situation.

Justin just smirked knowingly at me before speaking, “We’ll talk about this later, come on before Trace comes looking for us,” and with that he led me back out onto the patio, dropping the conversation for the time being.

After we finished eating, I stood and refilled all our drinks before I started to clear the table. “Madi, sit down and let Lucinda do that.” Trace said, as I whipped my head in his direction, before turning and narrowing my eyes at Justin.

Justin immediately threw his hands up in the air, “I didn’t say a word.”

I slowly looked back and forth between the two of them, noticing the confused look on Trace’s face and decided to give Justin the benefit of the doubt. “What?” Trace shrugged, “It’s nice to have someone else to pick up after you once in a while, that’s part of the reason I love hanging out with this fucker.” Trace motioned to Justin as I just rolled my eyes in disgust.

“Trace,” Justin cut getting his attention, “just let it go.” He said shaking his head as Trace just nodded confused.

“Why don’t you two just go down to the rec room and I’ll come find you when I’m done.” I said eyeing Justin.

“Yeah, come on Trace.” Justin nodded standing up. Trace made his way into the house while Justin hung back, “I swear I didn’t say anything, Trace is just an ass.”

“Don’t worry about it J, go entertain Trace.” I said brushing past him with an arm load of dirty dishes. Justin sighed following me into the kitchen where Trace was standing having just poured himself another drink. I started to run some water in the sink when I felt Justin’s body heat behind me and I glanced back to see him hovering over me.

“I love you.” Justin whispered brushing my hair behind me ear.

I smiled up at him, kissing him softly, “I know J, I love you too, I’m fine, go downstairs and have some fun.” Justin just nodded, kissing me once more before turning and ushering Trace from the kitchen.


I finished cleaning up the patio and kitchen and slowly made my way downstairs, smiling to myself when I heard Justin and Trace laughing heartily at something. I made my way over to the bar where they were standing and as soon as Trace caught my eye he immediately started apologizing, “Madi I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to upset you…” he trailed off before I put my hand up to silence him.

“Stop, it’s fine.” I said not wanting to hear it and knowing Justin must have said something to him to elicit the apology in the first place.

“Here baby.” Justin said pulling me to his side and handing me a straw, causing me to notice the pile of coke sitting before us. I didn’t hesitate before leaning over and doing a huge line, before running my finger across the bar, and wiping the residue on my gums, before turning and kissing Justin. Justin pulled away winking at me before making his way over to his sound system to put some music on. I smirked watching Justin walk away, before leaning over and doing another line, before throwing the straw down on the bar towards Trace.

“Babe, what time are you supposed to be at the studio tomorrow?” I asked moving around the bar to refill my drink I just finished.

“Uh, I think ten, why?” Justin asked making his way back over to us and pushing his empty glass towards me.

I grabbed it and started to pour him another drink as I spoke, “Just wondering, maybe you should call C and see if he can push it back.”

“Oh yeah?” Justin smirked making his way towards me. Justin pinned me against the bar kissing me hungrily as I felt his arousal start to press into my belly causing a small moan to escape my lips.

“Do you two need me to leave you alone for a few?” Trace asked rolling his eyes in our direction.

Justin opened his mouth to respond, but I cut him off before he kicked Trace out the room, “No, we’re good.” I giggled lightly pushing Justin off of me and making my way back around to the other side of the bar to sit down.


Justin just smirked at me, as he adjusted himself through his jeans and pulled his phone out of his pocket. I knew that smirk and smiled to myself as my stomach muscles tightened slightly in anticipation. I took a long drink of the alcohol in front of me, as I heard Justin on the phone talking to J.C. about pushing back their studio time. “You got my boy all hot and bothered.” Trace smirked at me as he lit a cigarette and I just giggled at his comment.

“You know he’s going to bitch at you for smoking in here.” I said as Justin looked up his eyes widening at Trace.

“Fucker, take it outside.” Justin glared in Trace’s direction causing me to laugh at the sheepish look that crossed over Trace’s face.


Trace quickly made his way up the stairs and I’m assuming outside as I heard Justin questioning J.C. about someone giggling in the background, causing me to raise my eyebrows in his direction my interest peaked. Justin made his way over to where I was sitting and settled himself in between my legs, kissing me once before wrapping up his conversation with J.C. “What was that about?” I questioned
taking a sip of my drink, before Justin took it out of my hand and finished it.

“Apparently J.C. took Kristin out to dinner.” Justin said shrugging it off, as my mouth fell open slightly bewildered. I guess if J.C. reciprocated feelings for her I couldn’t really say anything, but one thing was for sure; if she was going to be hanging around us all more often, she was in desperate need of an attitude adjustment.


“Look who I found.” Trace cracked as he made his way back into the room with Pharrell behind him.

“Hey man.” Justin greeted him as he moved to make me another drink offering Pharrell one as well.

“Yeah, of course.” Pharrell smiled as Trace made his way over to the bar doing another line of coke, before offering some to Pharrell who eagerly accepted.

Just then Ludacris’ What’s your Fantasy came on and I jumped up and pulled Justin towards me starting to move against him. Justin growly slightly against my ear as I started to grind myself back into him as Trace and Pharrell watched amused expressions on their faces. “Are they always like this?” Trace sighed eyeing Pharrell who laughed in response, “Yeah, pretty much.” He said swirling the liquid in his glass around.


The song ended and I turned around in Justin’s arms, kissing him long and hard, scratching my fingers lightly over his head before pulling away. “So how’d you know we were back in town?” I asked turning my focus to Pharrell.

“Tease.” Justin muttered as he walked by me, smacking my ass causing me to jump slightly in surprise.

“We’re working on our song tomorrow,” Pharrell shrugged before turning his attention to Justin, “and J.C. called to push back the studio time?”

Justin just shrugged, pointing to me, “It was Madi’s idea.”

“ I just figured you haven’t seen Trace in forever and that you guys would be up half the night partying.” I said raising my eyebrows at them, as I motioned to all the half empty glasses and the coke lying on the bar.

“No, you’re right, I was just saying.” Justin nodded picking up his glass and finishing it, before leaning over to do another line.

“Well I looked over that song you gave me and made a few changes, if you want to look them over.” Pharrell said in Justin’s direction, as I busied myself with making everyone fresh drinks.


Justin nodded eagerly picking up his guitar out of the corner as Pharrell pulled the sheet music out of his back pocket. They hunched over it discussing the changes as Justin strummed along with his guitar, leaving Trace and I by ourselves at the bar. “Well we’ve lost them for a while.” I sighed over at Trace who nodded knowingly.

“Hey thanks for dragging me out here, I really needed it.” Trace said looking over at me.

“I know, Justin did too.” I smiled at him, knowing it was hard on both of them to spend so much time apart.

“You wanna walk outside with me?” Trace asked standing and adjusting his baseball hat.

“Sure.” I nodded as I quickly bent down doing a line, before offering the straw to Trace who accepted it before following me towards the stairs, eager for another cigarette.


After Trace chain smoked half a pack of cigs, we made our way back downstairs, noting that Justin and Pharrell were still engrossed in whatever they were working on. I rolled my eyes slightly in their direction, knowing that once Justin was in work mode there was no stopping him. I made my way back towards the bar, doing another line causing my whole face to go numb. “I have an idea.” I smirked at Trace as I grabbed a bottle of tequila and two shot glasses and set on the bar.

“Fuck Madi.” Trace laughed eyeing me suspiciously as he stood up where he was just leaned over the bar snorting a line. I just smiled at him as I rummaged through a few drawers before making my way back over to him and throwing a handful of quarters on the bar. Trace laughed slightly as he poured tequila into the two shot glasses and said, “ladies first.”


A little bit later I was laughing hysterically as I continued to kick Trace’s ass; I easily bounced another quarter off the bar and into Traces shot glass, “Drink bitch.” I giggled as I felt two arms wrap around my waist. I glanced back at Justin who was watching in amusement as trace grimaced as he threw back the shot.

“Whatcha doing? “Justin questioned smirking down at me.

“Kicking Trace’s ass.” I giggled turning slightly to kiss him.

“Fuck you, Madi.” Trace spit out, bouncing a quarter off the bar and sending it sailing off the other side as I just continued to giggle.

“Dude, you suck.” Justin laughed picking up a quarter and easily bouncing it into the glass. Trace scowled as I picked up the shot glass and downed it, saving Trace the trouble.

“Fuck you both.” Trace pouted crossing his arms causing us both to laugh at him.

“Where’s Pharrell?” I asked looking over at Justin who was breaking up a few more lines.

“He had to get home, but we were finished anyway.” Justin shrugged bending down over the bar. I just nodded as I refilled both shot glasses as Justin stood up, pinching the bridge of his nose, inhaling deeply. I handed Justin one of the shot glasses, clinking it lightly against mine before we both downed the liquid.

“Fuck.” Trace murmured running his hand over his face as he stood up. I just giggled as I watched him reach out to lean against the bar trying to steady himself.

“Fuck dude, do a line and go get some air.” Justin laughed over at Trace, as he tossed him the straw that was lying on the bar. Trace just nodded, doing a quick line, before pulling his cigarettes out of his pocket and making his way up the stairs.


“Damn baby, you have him all fucked up.” Justin chuckled as I stood back up from the coke that was on the bar. I just shrugged slightly as I attacked Justin’s mouth with my own, loving the feeling of my half numb tongue against his. Justin moaned slightly into my mouth as his hands reached behind me grabbing my ass, and lifting me into the air settling me against his arousal. I scratched his head lightly as our tongues continued their dance and his ever growing arousal pushed into my core.

“Fuck me J.” I whimpered slightly as I pulled away. Justin just smirked at me as he slowly set me back down on the ground causing me to glare slightly at him.

“Not here, Trace will be back.” Justin laughed at the scowl on my face as he grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the stairs.

Justin popped his head out onto the patio to tell Trace we were going to bed, and broke out into a fit of laughter as he saw Trace laid back in a lounge chair his eyes only half open and lit cigarette hanging from his hand. “Come on, he’ll figure it out.” Justin laughed shutting the door and pulling me behind him.

We made it up to Justin’s room in record time and I immediately tore off my shirt, before unhooking my bra and letting it fall to the floor as I stepped out of my shorts. Justin’s eyes darkened slightly as he licked his lips, tearing his own shirt off, before devouring my mouth in a heated kiss. I made quick work with the button on his jeans, pulling the zipper down slowly, before pushing them off his hips along with his boxers. Justin quickly kicked them off out of our way, moving us towards the bed never breaking our kiss. The back of my legs came into contact with the bed and Justin lifted me up, placing me on it, settling in between my legs.


“Uh uh…come here.” I breathed out breaking our kiss and pulling him down on the bed beside me. I pushed him back so he was lying down, before I crawled over to him and straddled his waist. His eyes widened slightly at my control, but he just grinned and grabbed onto my hips as I grabbed a hold of him and slid him across my slick folds a few times. Justin groaned out in frustration, twitching slightly in my hand, and I couldn’t help but smile as I slowly slid down over him, letting him completely stretch me out and fill me up as he hissed slightly. I reached my hands behind me supporting myself as I slowly started to move back and forth over him. “Fuck Madi.” Justin grunted out as he slapped my tit, causing my eyes to widen and a moan to escape my lips.

Justin just smirked as he pinched my nipple in between his fingers, twisting it slightly before letting it go and smacking me again harder this time. “Fuuuuuck.” I drew out rocking back and forth on him harder, my whole body tingling at his touch.

Justin’s fingers dug into my hips as he furiously guided me back and forth over him. I let out a loud moan as I threw my whole body forward and eagerly kissed him as I continued to move with him. I pulled away a loud moan escaping my lips as I buried my head in the crook of Justin’s neck.

“Fuck me J.” I moaned out causing Justin to let out a throaty growl as he locked his hands around my waist and flipped us over. Justin sat up and raised my legs putting them on his shoulders as he pounded himself into me. My whole body was being thrown back with the force of each of his thrusts and I couldn’t stop the grunt that was being forced out of my lungs with each time either.

“Fuck Madi.” Justin breathed out, reaching out and vigorously rubbing my clit, causing me to cry out. My whole mind clouded over and I closed my eyes tightly trying to enjoy all the sensations coursing through my body. My pussy was pulsating around Justin’s cock and I felt his fingers dig into my sides as he grinded his hips into my core before slowly falling over the edge himself and releasing himself into me.


I slowly moved my legs down off his shoulders and let them rest across his thighs as I tried to regain my breathing. Justin bent down kissing me slow and passionately as his fingers found my nub and started to work it over again, causing my hips to buck and a whimper to escape my lips. Justin jumped off of me and made his way off the bed and over to the closet, forcing me to sit up and stare at him incredulously wondering where he went.

“J.” I pouted, as he finally made his way back out of the closet smirking at me, with a dildo in his hand. My face broke out into a smile as he made his way back towards me, turning it on and then pushing me slightly so I fell back on the bed as he pushed it into my core. I let out a small sigh as the vibrations and pulsating beads moved around inside me. I was just getting use to all the new sensations, when Justin swiftly pulled it out of me, before ramming it back into me. Justin started to rapidly move it in and out of me causing my hips to buck up towards him, and a series of loud moans to escape my lips. Justin reached up and slapped me across the face, causing my eyes to fly open and meet his. I knew Justin loved watching me, when I was vulnerable like this, so I did my best to hold his gaze as he continued to forcibly shove the dildo in and out of me.


“Fuck….Jus…tin.” I managed to get out in between hard blows from the dildo, causing him to smirk at me. I closed my eyes, throwing my head back as my orgasm started to build and my legs started to shake. Justin smacked me hard across the chest, causing a stinging sensation and sending me over the edge as I cried out, fisting the comforter in my hands, trying to find something to anchor to as my orgasm ripped through my whole body.


All I could hear were the moans that were involuntarily coming from my mouth, so I didn’t notice Justin turning the dildo off and throwing it to the side until he slightly lifted my legs and plunged himself back into me. I cried out my arms circling around his shoulders and clinging to him as he started to pump in and out of me, causing my orgasm to draw out at the feel of his skin on mine. Justin’s face was buried in my neck, sucking on it lightly, as I dug my nails into his shoulders crying out with each movement he made. My body was already building another orgasm and I wasn’t sure how much more of this I could take.

“J.” I cried out, my legs wrapping around his waist and locking my ankles pulling him deeper within me. Justin grunted out and bit down on my neck as he put his hand on the small of my back pulling me up into him as he thrusted harder and faster, bringing us both to the edge.

I whimpered ready to let go but Justin cried out stopping me, “Hold on Madi, I’m …..fuck.” Justin grunted out burying himself into me his hips slightly grinding into me as we both lost all control. I cried out clinging to him as my whole body shook and he just buried his head in the crook of my neck riding his wave.


The next morning I woke up and curled into Justin, wrapping my arm across his stomach and kissing his chest, before laying my head back down a contented sigh escaping my lips. I glanced over at the clock a little while later, realizing I wasn’t going to be able to go back to sleep. Justin still had a couple hours before he had to be up, so I decided to let him sleep. I lightly kissed him on the side of the mouth, before slipping out of bed and throwing one of his t-shirts on and making my way down to the kitchen. I stuck Justin’s ipod in the dock turning on some music, before I turned around to start a pot of coffee. “Miss Kirkpatrick.” I heard Lucinda behind me and I jumped slightly as I turned to face her.

“I didn’t mean to scare you,” she smiled in my direction, as I fought the urge to roll my eyes at the fact that she was here so early, “I’ve got all your laundry done and repacked for you.”

“What?” I asked narrowing my eyes at her.

“Oh, well it was with Mr. Timberlake’s, so I just figured I’d save you some time.” She genuinely smiled in my direction. I took a deep breath, silently counting in my head, trying not to lost my temper with her, “Did Justin ask you to do that?” I breathed out slowly articulating every word.

“No, I know how he likes things done, so I just did it, I didn’t want him to have to ask.” She smiled as I cringed at how she was so determined to keep Justin happy.

“Thanks.” I said tight lipped as I turned around to pour myself a cup of coffee.


I took a sip of my coffee before setting it down and turning around to the pantry in search of something to make for breakfast. “Oh, are you hungry? I can make you something? Is Mr. Timberlake up? What would he like?” Lucinda asked sweetly, causing my temper to start to rise again.

“I’ve got it.” I breathed out closing my eyes tightly and refusing to turn and face her.

“It’s really no big deal Miss Kirkpatrick, I know you have all been busy, I can make whatever you’d like.” Lucinda said just as sweetly as before.

I took a steadying breath, before exhaling and turning to look at Lucinda, shooting daggers at her, “I said I’ve got it. I am more than capable to make myself breakfast.” I snapped causing her to widen her eyes at me and take a step back.

“Of….of course,” she stuttered, “just let me know when Mr. Timberlake and Mr. Ayala wake up then.”

“I’ve got it taken care of, you can go.” I spat in her direction no longer being able to keep my anger hidden. I wasn’t sure if she was that scared of pissing Justin off, or she just really wanted to make sure that she didn’t get fired, but either way she was on my last nerve and I couldn’t take it anymore.

“I…but…but what about Mr. Timberlake?” She asked quietly refusing to look up at me.

“He’s not a fucking baby! He’s fine, I’ll make breakfast and then we all heading to the studio.” I said gripping onto the edge of the counter.

“I….no of course not…I’m sorry.” Lucinda muttered.

“Just go,” I sighed as she nodded her head vigorously at me, “Oh, and Lucinda, don’t ever fucking touch my laundry again.” I said narrowing my eyes at her. Her eyes slightly widened in fear as she nodded and then quickly turned and made her way out of the house.


I leaned back against the counter breathing heavily trying to regain my composure. I felt bad for yelling at her the way I did but she's always way too overbearing and she doesn’t know when to stop. I understand Justin needing some help with certain things at times, but she has gotten to the point of mothering him, and he has become way too comfortable with it.

“Morning.” Trace grumbled as he brushed past me to get himself a cup of coffee.

“Hey,” I smiled at him, my face softening, “what would you like for breakfast?”

“Pancakes.” Trace nodded as he sat at the table and put his head in his hands causing me to giggle.

“You alright over there short stuff?” I smirked in his direction, but was just met with him flipping me off in response.

“Here.” I giggled as I sat four ibuprofen next to him with a glass of orange juice, before turning and pulling the stuff out to make pancakes.


I was just starting to mix the pancake batter together, when I felt Justin wrap his arms around my waist and put his head on my shoulder, “Morning baby.”

“Good morning.” I giggled turning my head to kiss him.

“Mmm pancakes….Trace’s hangover food.” Justin chuckled, glancing back at Trace, who was still sitting at the table in his own misery.

“Yeah, next time remind me he can’t mix his whiskey and tequila.” I giggled turning around and wrapping my arms around Justin’s neck.

“Psh, he can’t handle any of it.” Justin scoffed as I giggled and Trace muttered a, “Fuck you” from the table.


“Is Lucinda here yet? I need her to do my laundry while we’re gone today.” Justin asked innocently. I immediately tensed in his arms and turned around and went back to work on the pancakes. “Madi don’t.” Justin sighed running his hand over his head frustrated.

“I’m not, she was here, I sent her home.” I shrugged pouring some batter into the skillet in front of me. “Trace you want my peanut butter chocolate chip pancakes?” I asked ignoring the death glare that Justin was giving me.

“What the fuck Madison?” Justin asked interrupting Trace’s nod of approval.

“Relax she already did your laundry and repacked for you along with mine.” I snapped refusing to look up at him.

“I didn’t tell her…” Justin started his voice softening, before I cut him off, “I know, and I may have yelled at her a little, but damn J she acts like you can’t do a damn thing for yourself.” I rolled my eyes.

“Fuck Madi,” Justin sighed shaking his head at me, “listen I’ll talk to her, but you have got to lighten up about it all.” I just nodded, not wanting to talk about it anymore, as I made my way over to Trace setting down a plate of chocolate chip pancakes in front of him.

“Get Trace the syrup and peanut butter, I’ll get you some pancakes.” I said brushing past Justin on my way back to the stove.


Justin did as I asked before coming up behind me and running his hands up my thighs and up under his t-shirt, “You know it’s hard to be mad at you, when this is all you’re wearing.” He growled in my ear.

“Well good, because there’s nothing to be mad about anyway.” I said grinding my hips back into him, making him groan.

“Could you two not fuck in the kitchen, I heard it all last night I don’t need to see it too.” Trace said with a mouthful of food.

“Sorry.” I said sheepishly as Justin’s fingers flitted across to my center, inching their way south.

“It’s my house and my girlfriend, I’ll fuck her wherever I damn well please.” Justin smirked as his fingers found my clit causing me to gasp.

“J.” I warned as I leaned back on him for support as he continued what he was doing. I was glad the counter was blocking what was going on, but I could tell by the look on Trace’s face he knew anyways. “Jus, go eat.” I breathed out my resolve quickly crumbling under his touch.


Justin just nodded slightly as he removed his hands from my body, causing me to whimper slightly, and grabbed a plate before making his way over to sit next to Trace. I grabbed onto the counter in front of me and glared across the room at Justin. I really didn’t want to give Trace a show, but I was hoping Justin was going to at least whisk me upstairs really quick. “Come eat Madi, we don’t wanna be late.” Justin smirked over in my direction, causing Trace to laugh at the look of disbelief that washed over my face. I shook my head slightly as I made my way towards them and sat on the opposite end of the table, as far away from Justin as I could. Justin just smirked at me before turning his attention to Trace and ignoring me.


I decided if Justin wanted to play games and be a tease I could do the same thing, so I put on a little sundress that barely covered my ass and made my way downstairs to where Justin and Trace were waiting to leave. Trace raised his eyebrows at me as I walked around the corner and I could feel Justin’s eyes slowly traveling up and down my body. I slowly bent over to pick up my shoes, making sure my backside was pointed towards Justin, and smiled to myself when I felt his hands fan out over my ass, before slowly wrapping around my waist as I stood up. “Come on we don’t wanna be late.” I smiled, stepping out of his grasp and making my way to the garage, Trace following behind me laughing.


We made our way into the studio to see J.C., Chad, and Pharrell all hunched over the soundboard and I couldn’t help but smile at the look of concentration that was across all their faces. They all looked up and smiled as we walked in, “Nice outfit.” J.C. smirked at me opening up his arms for a hug.

I choked down a gulp of air and couldn’t help but let my eyes wander over his body as I stepped into his arms, the conversation with Justin from the night before replaying in my head. “Thanks." I whispered up at him as Lance and Joey burst through the door, breaking our trance.

I smiled over at them, before scurrying across the room and sitting down, putting as much distance between J.C. and I as I could. The guys immediately got to work and Trace made his way over to me, stretching out across the couch and placing his head in my lap. “You alright short stuff?” I asked as I lazily ran my hands through his hair comfortingly.

“Just need a nap.” He murmured, and I smiled slightly and let him drift off to sleep as I turned my attention to the booth and listened to the opening cords of Girlfriend.


After a couple hours the guys started to get antsy and were all complaining they were hungry. I slowly untangled myself from Trace and stood stretching out, “I’ll go.” J.C. and I said at the same time.

I caught his eye and smiled over at him as he chuckled slightly and Justin’s eyes lit up, “Yeah, let’s all go.” He said grinning mischievously at me.

I knew what Justin was getting at, and my stomach instantly knotted up apprehensively. “Uh you and J.C. can go.” I quietly said refusing to make eye contact with him.

“Come on, you haven’t moved since we got here, we’ll all go.” Justin smiled tugging on my hand and pulling me towards him. I just nodded slightly, not wanting to cause a scene and slowly made my way out the door followed by Justin and J.C.


We made our way out to J.C.’s jeep and I nervously crawled into the back, hoping Justin decided that now wasn’t the time to bring up our proposition to J.C. I was a nervous wreck talking to Justin about it, I hadn’t even considered how I’d feel talking to J.C. about it, but now that the opportunity was right in front of me I wanted nothing to do with it. “So J.C., Madi and I were talking.”Justin started off as J.C. pulled out of the lot and I cut him off.

“J.C. so you went to dinner with Kristin last night?” I asked quickly, as Justin shot me a sideways glance.

“Yeah, she seems pretty cool.” He shrugged his indifference, causing me to smirk slightly.

“Anyways.” Justin loudly said bringing the attention back to him.

“Justin.” I whispered, causing him to glance back at me as I just shook my head no.

“Madi, you’re going to have to stop being weird if you want to do this.” Justin said rolling his eyes in my direction.

“Do what?” J.C. asked curiously, glancing back at me through the rearview mirror.

“I….” I started before closing my mouth and leaning back against the seat not sure what to say. J.C. just looked at me curiously before turning to look at Justin waiting on some sort of explanation.

“Look C, we were wondering if you would want to have a threesome with us.” Justin said matter of factly as a look of horror washed over my face and I turned to stare out the window.

“Wha….at?” J.C. asked a look of confusion crossing his face as he looked at Justin.

“You heard me.” Justin shrugged as I tightly closed my eyes, trying to drown out the entire conversation.

“I…wow…I didn’t see that one coming.” J.C. chuckled nervously, as he pulled into McDonalds.

“Well think about it or whatever, but the offer’s there.” Justin said before going in to what he wanted to eat as if it was no big deal.

The whole way back to the studio I stared out the window in silence, as Justin chatted away like everything was normal and J.C. answered him cordially, obviously lost in his own train of thought. We made our way back into the studio, and I aimlessly wandered over to the couch and plopped down on it lost in thought. “You gonna eat Madi?” Chris asked glancing over at me a perplexed look on his face.

“Uh…no,” I said glancing up at him, “Justin can I have your keys?” I asked turning to face him.

“Why?” Justin asked curiously.

“I just wanna head home.” I shrugged, needing to get out of there and clear my head.

“Why?” Justin asked again, dragging out the question this time causing me sigh.

“Here, take my jeep.” J.C. softly said holding his keys out to me. I just stared at him, and he softly smiled, knowing why I was so uncomfortable, “It’s fine, I’ll ride over with Chris later and pick it up.” I just nodded as I grabbed the keys and quickly turned to leave.

“Madi!” Chris yelled getting my attention causing me to turn back and look at him, “I know you have all your laundry and shit to do, but if you could start on some of mine that’d be awesome.” He smiled giving me puppy dog eyes.

“Yeah, I’ll do it.” I whispered and turned and quickly left, leaving everyone else in the room confused about my hasty exit. I got into J.C.’s jeep as my phone beeped and I looked down to see a text from Justin, ‘Way to be fuckin obvious.’ I rolled my eyes and threw the phone in the empty seat beside me, peeling out of the parking lot.


I had managed to get Chris’ laundry done and I threw something together for dinner, although I ended up just putting it into the fridge too antsy to eat anything. I’d made my way downstairs and ran on the treadmill for a while, but now I was back upstairs pacing idly around, trying to find something to do with all my pent up anxiousness and trying to sort out what J.C. was thinking about the whole situation. We had definitely caught him off guard with our request, but other than the initial shock I couldn’t even begin to fathom what he could possibly be thinking. It wasn’t so much that I cared what his answer would be, it was more that I was embarrassed about what he thought about the whole thing, or more specifically me, since he knew this was something I wanted as well. It shouldn’t be bothering me as much as it is, but he is one of my best friends, and he is Justin’s best friend, and regardless of his answer or what happens between the three of us, I’m still going to have to face him everyday


The front door opened and Chris’ laughter echoed throughout the house causing me to freeze in place and stare at the entry way. After what seemed like an eternity Chris and J.C. appeared before me, and all I could do was stare dumbly at them. “You okay Madi?” Chris asked, slowly making his way towards me.

“Huh? Yeah, fine.” I said giving him a tight lipped smile that he didn’t buy for a second.

“Can we talk?” J.C. asked before Chris had the chance to say anything and my head to whip up in his direction as my heart started to beat out of my chest. I was racking my brain trying to form words, but none would come out so I just nodded stupidly and picked his keys up off the table, tossing them to him, before making my way towards the door.


I quickly made my way over to his jeep and climbed in the passenger side and waited for him to get in. J.C. slowly climbed in and glanced over at me before sighing slightly and turning the vehicle on. He started to back out of the driveway and I looked at him quizzically, but still not being able to find my voice, I just turned and looked out the window waiting for him to say something. After a few minutes on intense silence, I realized we were headed towards his house me eyes widening slightly as errant thoughts started to fly through my mind. I had been to his house more times than I could count and normally considered it like a second home, but all of a sudden I was very apprehensive about being there, especially alone with him.


A few minutes later J.C. pulled into his garage and looked over at me smiling slightly before he climbed out. I sat frozen in place, having no idea what J.C. was thinking or what to expect. A couple seconds later J.C. opened my car door and held his hand out to me, “come on,” he softly said as I placed my hand in his and let him lead me into the house.

J.C. made his way over to the couch and sat down, picking up the remote to the stereo and putting some soft music on as I just stood in the middle of the room fidgeting. J.C.’s gaze slowly made its way back over to me and he frowned at my obvious discomfort. “Come here Madison.” J.C. whispered patting the open spot on the couch next to him.

My tongue darted out, licking my lips, as I slowly made my way across the room to him. I nervously sat down, making sure to keep a few feet between us, afraid to get too close to him. My mind has been on overdrive since Justin mentioned wanting J.C. as well and now I was a nervous wreck waiting to figure out what J.C.’s answer to all this was. “Madison, relax, I’m not going to hurt you.” J.C. frowned at how on edge I was, as he reached out and gently picked up my hand.


I winced slightly at the contact as a jolt of electricity shot up my arm and J.C. immediately pulled me to him wrapping his arms around me and burying his head in my hair, “Are you okay?” I just whimpered slightly and nodded as I clung to him.

J.C. sighed slightly before pulling back to look at me, “Madison what’s wrong? Why are you so scared of me right now?”

“I’m not scared.” I whispered out, my eyes focused on the design on his shirt refusing to look up at him.

J.C. sighed obviously frustrated with the current situation, “Are you okay with all this or is this something Justin wants? Because if it’s just Justin, there’s nothing else to discuss it’s off the table.” He said sincerely his eyes searching mine. I saw the doubt in his eyes, and instantly knew he thought by the way I was acting that this was something Justin was forcing me into. It wasn’t a secret as to how Justin could treat me at times, but I found it slightly amusing that J.C. would that that Justin would do anything so drastically to hurt me.

“It was my idea.” I mumbled looking down at my hands that were fisted together between us.

“Excuse me?” J.C. said slightly confused not thinking he heard me properly.

“It was my idea.” I repeated again a little louder.

“Then what’s wrong?” J.C. asked forcing my chin up to look at him.

“I’m just scared about what you think about me now.” I whispered out, closing my eyes so I didn’t have to look at him.

“Oh Madi.” J.C. chuckled pulling me closer to him and laying his head on my chest.

“Hmm?” I whimpered out confused.

“You’re amazing you know that?” J.C. asked as I felt his mouth twitch into a smile against my skin.

“Wha…at?” I whispered becoming more and more confused.

“Shit, I’ve been an ass to J all day thinking he was being a dick,” J.C. said throwing his head back in laughter, “you never have to be ashamed or worry what I think about you.”

I relaxed some against J.C. at his statement, “You just seemed so put off by the whole thing.” I whispered as my hands snaked their way up around his neck and started to play with the hair at the base of his neck.

“Well trust me that was the last thing I was expecting to hear.” J.C. chuckled slightly as a small smile formed on my lips.

“Well what do you think?” I asked my voice hoarse as my tongue darted out to lick my lips again.

“It was really your idea?” J.C. asked smirking at me as he cocked his head to the side. I felt my face start to flush and I just nodded slightly, as I wide grin broke out across J.C.’s face.

“I’m not sure how all this is going to work, but if you guys are serious, I don’t see why not.” J.C. blew out searching my face for any second thoughts. Relief, joy, and excitement all washed over me at once and I couldn’t help the small squeal that escaped my lips, as J.C. just watched me in amusement as I pulled him into me and hugged him tightly.


I pulled away from the hug instantly relaxed and realized just how hungry I was seeing as how I hadn’t ate since breakfast, “I’m starving, have you ate?” I asked standing and making my way towards his kitchen.

I started to rummage through his fridge when I heard J.C. chuckling, “I don’t know what all is in there, but we can order something if you want.”

I shut the fridge a pack of pork chops in my hand and smiled as I saw J.C. casually leaning against the countertop staring at me. “Let me cook, I won’t get to forever.” I pouted.

J.C. just smiled over at me, “Whatever you want darling.”

“You have any laundry you need done?” I asked after thinking about it for a second.

“What?” J.C. asked incredulously shaking his head at me.

“Lucinda did mine.” I replied rolling my eyes as I took a package of mushrooms out of the fridge and began to cut them up.

“Ahh.” J.C. nodded slightly, knowing how I felt about her and Justin’s dependence on her.

“Yeah, and then I kind of told her off and kicked her out of Justin’s house.” I smirked causing J.C. to laugh.

“I’m honestly surprised it hasn’t happened sooner,” he smirked making his way towards me and peering over my shoulder, “anything I can do?”

“Mmm, you can go find a bottle of wine to go with dinner.” I pursed my lips causing him to chuckle slightly.

“Of course.” J.C. replied before turning and disappearing down into his wine cellar.


I smiled slightly to myself, happy that things had worked out, and not remembering the last time J.C. and I had hung out like this. We’ve all been so busy getting ready for the tour that I barely had any alone time with Justin, let alone anyone else. I missed hanging out with J.C., of course I loved my time with Justin, but my time with J.C. was just different. With Justin we were constantly on the go, keeping up appearances at dinners and clubs, partying with hard liquor and drugs, but with J.C. everything was always so much more laidback. We could stay in and have dinner and a bottle or two of wine and maybe watch a movie, or if we did go out we would catch a play or maybe visit a museum. It was just different, and being here tonight made me realize how much I really did miss my friend.


Just then J.C. reappeared holding a bottle of Riesling in his hand smiling at me. I grinned back in response and slid the corkscrew across the counter to him, before turning around to put the pork chops in the oven. “So are you ready for all this?” I asked, chopping up some carrots as J.C. poured us both a glass of wine.

“Yeah, it’s been a long time coming, I’m just a little stressed that the album isn’t done.” J.C. sighed handing me my glass.

I took a sip nodding at him before responding, “I know, but most of all the vocals are done and with you and J producing it will come together.”

“I know, it’s just going to be a lot to do while also touring.” J.C. frowned slightly.

“Well if anyone can do it, it’s you two, and it won’t be anything less than perfect I’m sure.” I smiled over at him causing him to blush slightly.

“It doesn’t help that I have this song I’m stuck on either.” J.C. sighed.

“Can I see it?” I asked my eyes dancing up at him. I had no idea what I was doing when it came to writing music, but I liked to look over the guys stuff on occasion, and more than once Justin and J.C. had called me their muse, stating that something I had said or did gave them what they needed to finish the song.

“Sure.” J.C. smiled his eyes softening as he got up and made his way out of the room in search of the song.


As soon as J.C. was out of sight his phone started to ring and I absentmindedly picked it up off the counter and answered it, “Hello.”

“Uh…who is this?” A female voice asked a little too hastily causing me to furrow my eyebrows.

“Who is this?” I asked back, not liking the sound of the voice on the other end.

“I asked you first, you’re the one answering other people’s phones.” The female voice snapped back at me causing me to choke on the drink of wine I just took as J.C. walked back in giving me a questioning look.

“This is Madison,” I started as I heard a sharp intake of breath, “Now who is this?”

“It’s Kristin, and shouldn’t you be off somewhere with your boyfriend?” She asked obviously annoyed.

“That’s really none of your business, and I’m sorry but J.C. is busy, he can’t come to the phone.” I said curtly before hanging up on her.

J.C. just looked at me amused as I huffed and took a big gulp of my wine, before reaching for the bottle to refill my glass. “Would you like to tell me who I’m too busy to talk to?” He smirked at me.

“Kristin.” I said rolling my eyes.

“What’s going on?” J.C. asked obviously confused about my sudden disdain for her.

“I’m getting really tired of her attitude with me.” I frowned as J.C. just slightly smirked, knowing I didn’t have many close girlfriends for a reason.

“She’s harmless. I think she has a little crush though.” J.C. said causing me to scoff in his direction.

“That’s an understatement.” I replied as J.C. just continued to chuckle at me, “She’s only eighteen, don’t worry about it.”

“You’re only twenty-four.” I exclaimed throwing my hands up.

“If I didn’t know any better, I’d say you were jealous.” J.C. smirked making his way towards me.

“I’m not jealous,” I said rolling my eyes, “I just don’t trust her or like her attitude.”

“Don’t worry about it, I’m not interested.” J.C. laughed pulling me into a hug. I huffed slightly, but wrapped my arms around him anyways.

J.C. and I had a quiet and relaxing night after that, with no complaints from me, it was much needed. The next morning I made my way to the studio with J.C. while Justin, Trace, and Chris hit the golf course. I was watching J.C. intently with a smile on my face as I watched him lean over the soundboard making tiny adjustments a look of complete concentration on his face, when the door busted open and Justin and Trace walked in. I noticed J.C. tense slightly at the interruption before he turned to greet them a smile on his face.

“Hey baby.” I said softly looking up at Justin.

Justin glanced over at me and then to J.C. gauging the situation before slowly turning his attention back to me. “Hey.” Justin finally relented, and I relaxed a little, seeing as how I hadn’t talked to him since I left the studio the day before.

I stood and made my way over to him and wrapped my arms around his neck, burying my head in his shoulder, needing to feel close to him. Justin inhaled deeply, fisting his hand into my hair, before pulling me back slightly and forcibly kissing me. I let a small moan escape my lips relishing in the kiss and allowing Justin to deepen it slightly.

“Do you two ever stop?” Trace grunted, rolling his eyes at us, causing us to pull apart.

“Awww, short stuff are you jealous?” I teased over in his direction, as he flipped me off in response, obviously not amused.

“Everything okay?” Justin asked me quietly, ignoring Trace. I nodded as I smiled up at him, causing him to grin back in response and place a light kiss on my mouth.

“Come on Trace, let’s get out of here and let these two get some work done.” I said stepping out of Justin’s grasp and towards Trace.

“Where are we going?” Trace asked eyeing my suspiciously.

“I was thinking about lying out by Justin’s pool with some margaritas.”I smirked as his eyes lit up as he nodded in approval.

“Don’t have too much fun without me.” Justin pouted over at us.

“Never.” I smiled as I sauntered back over to him, kissing him.

“Mmm,” Justin groaned slightly as he pulled away and moved his mouth to my ear whispering, “there’s some powder down in the rec room.” I fought the urge to roll my eyes as I pulled back to look at him, “K, I love you.” I whispered licking my lips.

“I love you too, I’ll be back in a few hours.” Justin nodded, closing the gap between us and kissing me softly, as he placed his car keys in my hand.


So much for sleeping in my own bed while I was home, Trace and I got drunk sitting out by the pool, with Justin eagerly joining us when he got back and now after only a couple short hours of sleep it was time to get up and head out on this tour. Four thirty was entirely too early to be up and from Justin’s grunts of misery I could tell he agreed whole heartedly. I left him to finish getting ready and made my way downstairs to see Trace dressed and ready to go, with his head on the kitchen table fast asleep. I shook my head at him before I started to flip through the itinerary for the day, sighing slightly at everything that was on it. I turned around to grab a redbull out of the fridge as Justin made his way into the kitchen, smacking Trace upside the head causing him to wake up with a grunt.

“What the fuck?” Trace mumbled rubbing his head.

“Get your ass up.” Justin rolled his eyes at his friend. After a few more seconds he looked back up at Trace, “Come here,” he sighed as he took a bag out of his pocket and emptied it on the counter breaking it up into three lines. Justin bent down and quickly snorted one, before handing the straw to Trace who eagerly accepted.

“Here baby.” Justin said as he snorted loudly causing the cocaine to go further up his sinuses.

“I’m good, I’ve got a lot of work to do today, and so do you.” I said raising my eyebrows at him.

“Yeah, and it won’t get done if I’m sleeping.” He shrugged as he bent back over the counter and greedily did the line that was intended for me. I rolled my eyes, but decided to let it go for the time being, hoping he’d slow down with the drugs once Trace went back home.


We got to the compound about quarter after five to everyone bustling around hurriedly making sure everything and everyone were where they needed to be. I left Justin and Trace to get our bags situated and made my way over to where the dancer’s bus was making sure they had all made it and were getting settled. “Hey Madison!” Dana smiled warmly when she saw me approaching.

“Hey.” I smiled back noting that they were all there.

“So you four will be sharing this bus, have you checked it out yet?” I asked nodding towards the entrance.

“Oh and who will you be sharing a bus with?” Kristin asked the disgust evident in her voice.

“Chris.” I smiled politely at her. It was true, Chris and I were assigned to the same bus, I just left out the fact that most of my time would actually probably be spent on Justin and J.C’s bus. She just glared at me slightly, obviously not sure what to say to that, so I ushered the other girls onto the bus, showing the around quickly.


After finishing with the dancers I made my way back across the lot, saying hi to a few people along the way. I stepped onto the steps of the bus to see Justin, J.C., and Chris sitting around, and assumed Trace had went to lay back down not seeing him anywhere. “What are you doing here?” I asked Chris eyeing him suspiciously.

“I could ask you the same thing.” He smirked at me, as I plopped down on the couch between Justin and J.C.

“Hey Madi.” J.C. sleepily smiled over at me as I smiled back before turning my attention back to Chris.

“We have a radio interview to do in a little bit, and I just figured it’d be easier if I was over here, instead of all of us calling in from three different places.” He shrugged. I nodded knowingly, leaning into Justin still tired and realizing things had already started up full force. It was only a two hour drive to Jacksonville, but I figured it was the only down time I would get that day, so as I let out a yawn I stretched myself out across Justin and J.C’s laps and closed my eyes trying to go back to sleep as they excitedly talked with Chris about the upcoming interview and the start of the tour.


As soon as we arrived, the guys were whisked off, having a whole list of interviews and promotions they needed to get to before settling into their sound check. I was asked to tag along, but declined choosing to go and make sure all the costumes and props were ready and set up. I was more than aware that they had people to do all of that, but I was having an OCD moment, and wanted to make sure everything was perfect so it would all go off without a hitch tonight.


I had just made my way back to the guys dressing room and sat down, when they all came bursting through the door laughing. “Hey.” I smiled as I stood to greet them.

“Hey.” Justin grinned mischievously at me as he wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me.

“Why do you look like you’re up to no good?” I questioned, my eyes narrowing slightly at him. Justin’s eyes gleamed as he stared at me before he bent down putting his mouth to my ear.

“It’s on tonight.” He whispered gruffly, sending a chill through my body.

“What?” I asked quietly, not sure what he was talking about.

“With C.” Justin growled, causing me to pull back away from him a little too quickly and squeak, “Really?”

Justin just grinned stupidly at me, as my eyes quickly darted around the room to see if anyone had noticed my anxiousness. I was glad to see no one was paying any attention to us, besides J.C. who was across the room casually watching us. He broke out into a small smile when my eye caught his and I couldn’t help but to smile back as my stomach filled with butterflies.


The show went off perfectly and all the dancers were excitedly talking about it as they made their way off the stage and towards the dressing room to shower and get ready for the after party. I on the other hand, headed out towards the bus planning on going to the hotel with the guys to get ready. A couple minutes later the guys all came bounding onto the bus full of energy, “That was amazing!” I squealed as I jumped up into Justin’s arms catching him off guard.

He faltered back for a second, before regaining his balance and grinning at me as I crashed my lips down onto his in a heated kiss. Justin pulled back slightly biting my bottom lip in the process as his fingers dug into my ass, holding me tightly against him, “Now that was amazing,” he said his voice low causing me to giggle.

I bent down and slowly kissed him again, before jumping down out of his arms and turning and congratulating the rest of the guys. I was finishing hugging Chris and turned towards J.C. to see him smiling sheepishly at me, “Come here,” he said his voice low as he pulled me into a tight hug.

“You were amazing.” I said pulling back just enough to look at his face.

“So were you, you should be proud, that was all your hard work out there.” He smiled causing me to blush and turn my gaze downward.

“Thanks, but you guys did all the work, I just put some dance steps together.” I mumbled stepping out of his embrace.

“Oh, don’t start being modest now.” Chris teased, throwing his towel at me.


Justin and I walked into our hotel room and I immediately pushed him down so he was sitting on the edge of the bed and made quick work of undoing his pants. I tugged slightly on them and Justin lifted his hips just enough to let me pull them down as he watched me in amusement. I licked my lips slowly as I dropped to my knees, taking him into my hand and pumping him a few times, causing him to instantly harden. I glanced up at him to see him smirking at me with his eyebrows raised, not sure what I was doing. I slowly dipped my head down, taking his tip into my mouth and sucking slowly, causing his mouth to fall open. My lips slightly curved into a smile around him as I saw his face and I slowly moved down a little further, taking more of him into my mouth, eliciting a slow moan from him. I quickly took all of him into my mouth setting a slow pace as I moved up and down on him, while cupping his balls in my hands massaging them lightly.

“Damn Madi.” Justin breathed out, his hands tangling into my hair as he started to thrust himself into my mouth. I took the hint and sped up my pace, massaging him with my tongue. I heard Justin’s breathing start to rise and squeezed his balls lightly in my hand, causing his grip on my hair to tighten as he held my head down on top of him. I sucked a little harder and heard his breath hitch as he started to twitch in my mouth, before he shot his load into my mouth, coating the back of my throat. I bobbed slowly up and down a few more times, making sure I swallowed every drop before letting him fall out of my mouth. Justin still had a hold of my hair and he tugged on it, bringing me up to him where he kissed me hungrily. I finally pulled away out of breath and started to discard my clothes as I made my way into the bathroom to shower.


I stepped in, followed by Justin who wrapped his hands around my waist, flattening them on my stomach, as he brushed my hair off my neck and kissed it slowly. I closed my eyes titling my head to the side, giving him better access, as his hands started to travel further down my body. His thumb lightly grazed over my nub, and I whimpered slightly, causing his mouth to curl into a smile against my neck. His fingers moved a little further spreading my folds apart, as he gently caressed me.

“Please J.” I begged my whole body on fire.

“Patience babygirl.” Justin purred, as his thumb gently grazed back over my clit. My hips instinctively bucked against him, causing him to chuckle. He applied a little more pressure and began to rub his thumb back and forth across it, as I fell back into him for support.

“Ahh.” I cried out as two of his fingers slipped inside of me. Justin began pumping his fingers in and out of me, and it was all I could do to remain standing, as I felt my orgasm begin to build in the pit of stomach. My insides started to tighten slightly and Justin quickly added a third finger into my core as he continued to furiously rub my clit. That was all it took and my whole body shook as I pulsated around his fingers as he continued to finger fuck me. My body finally started to calm down and Justin slowly pulled his hand away from me, placing it on my hip to steady me as he bent down and kissed me.


We quickly washed off after that, not wanting to be late for the after party. I was blow drying my hair as Justin stepped back into the bathroom wearing only his jeans. I looked over his chiseled chest and smiled to myself as he came up beside me and poured some coke onto the counter and started to sift through it. “Aren’t you wired enough?” I asked glancing over at him.

He just shrugged, “I’m celebrating,” he said as he quickly snorted a line before offering me some.

“I’m good I’m ready for a drink though.” I sighed.

“You okay?” Justin asked noting my tone.

“Yeah,” I smiled up at him, “just a little nervous.”

“You sure you wanna do this?” Justin asked with raised eyebrows.

“Yeah…yes definitely. I just need a little liquid courage.” I said shaking my head, not sure if I was trying to convince him or myself.

“I’ll get you a drink, hurry up so we can go.” He said smacking my ass as he made his way back into the bedroom.


I made my way out of the bathroom and stopped in my tracks when I saw J.C. standing there eyeing me up and down as I stood there in only my matching bra and panties. “Hey.” I whispered as Justin walked over and handed me a glass.

“Hey back.” J.C. whispered licking his lips, as I smelled the liquor in the cup coming to realization that it was tequila. I took a big gulp of it as there was a knock on the door, breaking all three of our concentration. I quickly set the glass down and scurried over to my suitcase and pulled my black dress out and over my head, before Justin opened the door.

“You fuckers ready?” Trace bellowed making his way into the room.

“Almost, chill out.” I said reaching down to slip on my red heels.

“Here,” Justin said handing Trace a glass, “there’s some powder in the bathroom too.” Trace nodded and made his way towards the bathroom. J.C. caught my eye giving me a knowing look and I just shrugged as I stood up and made my way over to him. I took another drink of my tequila, before I held the glass out offering it to J.C. He took it and took a sip of it as Trace made his way back out of the bathroom stating he was ready to go. I rolled my eyes, taking the glass back from J.C.’s grasp and finished it before making my way towards the door.


We met the rest of the guys downstairs and all made our way to the club together, making our way inside and up to the VIP area as everyone congratulated us on the way by. A waitress immediately made her way over to us, asking what we wanted to drink. She quickly returned handing us all our drinks, and everybody dispersed going their own ways. Much to the dismay of Trace I pulled Justin out onto the dance floor, needing to get rid of some of my pent up energy. I was having fun with Justin, as I felt him press his slightly hard member into my ass grinding up against me. I grabbed his hand slowly running it down my body as we continued to move against one another, and the excitement of what was going to happen tonight started to come back, settling between my legs. I gripped Justin’s hand tighter thinking about it.

“You okay?” Justin asked his breath fanning out against my ear.

I nodded slightly, turning around to face him and kissed him slowly pressing myself into him, “Just excited for tonight,” I let out leaning into his ear. I pulled back and saw Justin grinning down at me as Trace appeared beside us holding three shot glasses.


We all threw back the shots and I saw Trace lean into Justin and whispered something. Justin nodded at him before pulling me close to him so I could hear him, “Trace and I will be right back, you good for a few?” I nodded slightly as they started to walk away, figuring they were going off to some secluded area to do more coke.

I looked up and saw J.C. on the dance floor and smiled to myself as I started to make my way towards him, before noticing he was dancing with Kristin. I hesitated for a moment, before deciding that I didn’t care what she thought and continued my way over towards them. I tapped him on the shoulder, getting his attention; he glanced back at me his face lighting up as a smile spread across his face. “Can I cut it?” I asked as innocently as possible as I glanced up at him.

“Of course.” J.C. smiled and turned towards me.

Kristin huffed visibly upset, “Where’s Justin?” she asked pointedly.

“He’s with Trace, but if you want to dance with him he’ll be back in a couple minutes.” I smiled over at her an evil gleam in my eyes.

Just then a new song started and J.C. pulled me closer to him, moving against me, as Kristin just glared before stomping off. I opened my mouth to point out the obvious about Kristin but stopped when J.C. growled in my ear, “Do you have any idea how crazy I’ve been going knowing that you bra and panties match your heels?” I giggled slightly, knowing how turned on Justin got when I matched my undergarments with my heels.

“Yeah? You like that?” I questioned snaking my arm up around his neck and pulling his head down close to mine.

“Mmm Madi.” J.C. breathed out, grinding himself into me, showing me just how much he did like it.

Just then Justin appeared in front of me and pushed himself against my front, following my rhythm with J.C., his eyes darkening with want. I leaned forward and kissed Justin, before pulling back, “Let’s get out of here.” Justin slowly licked his lips looking me over, before glancing up at J.C. who nodded, before nodding himself and pulling me off the dance floor with J.C. following close behind.


It took us a good forty-five minutes to make our way through everyone who kept congratulating us and trying to get us to stay and have another drink. Trace was especially difficult to get past; he was leaving the next day to go back to Tennessee and he wanted to stay up all night partying with Justin. When I finally claimed to have a headache and wanted to go back so I could sleep, he suggested I ride with J.C. since he was leaving too, and that Justin should stay with him. I groaned out in frustration and Justin finally pulled Trace off to the side and started to whisper something to him, before I saw him pull a baggie of coke out of his jeans and put it in Trace’s hand. I couldn’t even be bothered to be angry about it though, because after that Trace went off to order another drink and Justin made his way back over to us, saying we could finally leave. It took us another couple minutes to round up some security and get them to pull a car around, but we finally all climbed into the back of the escalade, and I settled down into the seat between them. Justin had his arm around me while his other hand slowly grazed its way up my thigh and I couldn’t help the nervous butterflies that settled in my stomach in anticipation. I gently rested my hand on J.C.s knee, causing him to look down at me and smile, and I thought my insides were going to explode before we even made it back to the hotel. It wasn’t a long ride, but it gave me time to process what was about to happen as I sat in between both of them, and I was starting to psyche myself out. I was excited, but I was even more nervous; I had never been shy sexually, but this was whole new territory and I had no idea what to expect.

We pulled up to the hotel, and I took my hand back away from J.C. and let Justin help me out of the car. The guys stopped for a few minutes to greet some fans who had gathered outside and I hung back fidgeting nervously. I was ready to get this thing started and the more time I had to think about it the more anxious I became. We finally made our way inside and quickly headed towards the elevators in silence. We rode up to our floor no one saying a word, as I continually shifted my weight back and forth, not being able to hold still. I could feel Justin and J.C’s eyes on me, which only made the situation worse, so when the elevator doors opened, I bolted out and practically ran down the hall to mine and Justin’s room. I got the door open and immediately went to work making myself a drink. I took a long drink of it, relaxing slightly as Justin and J.C. slowly walked into the room eyeing me.

“You okay?” Justin smirked obviously amused by the whole situation. I didn’t trust my voice not to crack, so I just vigorously nodded my head as I took another drink of the alcohol in my hand.

“You sure you want to do this?” J.C. asked softly, his eyes searching mine as he slowly moved towards me. I took another drink, before setting my glass down and starting up at the two of them.

“Yeah, I just…I’m not….I’m nervous, I don’t know how this works.” I stuttered trying to find the right words.

“First thing, you need to relax Madi.” Justin soothed grabbing my hand and pulling me towards him.

I nodded slightly hearing what he said, but not being able to actually process the words. Justin ran his thumb across my cheek before tangling his hand in my hair and pulling my face forward to kiss me. He kissed me slowly, gently massaging my scalp, and I did start to relax as I got lost in his kiss. I felt Justin’s other hand leave me back for a second, apparently summoning J.C. over because in the next second I felt him step up behind me and his lips start to gently kiss my neck causing me to gasp slightly into Justin’s mouth.

“Relax.” Justin murmured against my lips as he continued to kiss me.

“We can stop whenever you want, just say the word.” J.C. whispered, brushing my hair off my neck, before bending down to kiss it again. I nodded slightly, leaning back into J.C. as my fingers started to slowly undo the buttons on Justin’s shirt. J.C.’s hands slid down my sides, until they were resting on my hips and he slowly grinded himself into me. I finally got Justin’s shirt undone and pushed it off his shoulders and let it fall to the floor, before bending down and lightly kissing his chest, pushing my ass further into J.C. causing him to groan.


Justin pulled me back up slowly, reaching for the hem of my dress and slowly pulled it up over my body and tossed it to the floor. I whimpered slightly at the loss of contact, but both sets of hands immediately found their way back to my body quieting me. Justin started to slowly knead my breasts in his hands as he bent down kissing me purposely again, and J.C.’s hands fanned out across my stomach, playing slightly with the lace at the top of my panties. My whole body was on fire and with every touch, electricity shot through my body. Justin slightly deepened the kiss and before I even realized what I was doing I ran my hands down my body finding J.C’s and pushing them further south. J.C. quickly obliged and started to rub me thru my panties, causing a soft moan to escape my lips. My hands left J.C.’s letting him continue on his own and I fumbled with the button on Justin’s jeans for a second before getting them undone and pushing them down over his hips.

Justin stepped back slightly kicking his shoes off and letting his pants pool at his feet before stepping out of them. He licked his lips slightly watching J.C. touch me, and when I let out a small whimper his hand moved down grasping his cock and stroking it slowly. I reached my hand out towards Justin and he slowly stepped closer to me and I reached out grasping onto him and firmly stroked him. Justin reached behind me and quickly undid my bra, letting my breasts pop out and he let out a small grunt of approval as his head bent down and pulled my nipple into his mouth sucking lightly. I threw my head back onto J.C.’s shoulder my mind on overload at all the sensations that were coursing through my body. J.C.’s free hand dug into my hip, holding me tightly against him as he applied more pressure to my clit as he started to rub against it more furiously. Justin bit down slightly on my nipple, causing me to push my body out into his mouth and J.C.’s hand, and he quickly moved over to the other one as my orgasm started to build at lightning speed. I was glad that they were on either side of me holding me up because my whole body started to shake as I slowly fell over the edge crying out, “Ahhh…”

As my orgasm ripped through my body I felt Justin twitch in my hand and J.C. grinded himself against me, both of them enjoying the show before them. I let go of Justin and wrapped my arms around his neck, as I fell back against J.C. exhausted, trying to regain my breathing.


“You okay?” J.C. gently asked as he moved his now drenched hand out from between my legs and wiped it on his shirt as he peeled it off his body, before letting me settle back against him.

“Mmmhmm.” I lazily smiled, causing both of them to chuckle.

I cocked my head to the side so I could look up at J.C.; he started down at me, his blue eyes dark with need. I licked my lips, wanting to lean over and kiss him but hesitated not sure how Justin would feel about it. Justin must have noticed however, because he grabbed me by the hips and pulled me forward slightly, before turning me around to face J.C. and whispered in my ear, “It’s okay.”

I nodded slightly before leaning up and pulling J.C. down to me kissing him hungrily. I immediately wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer, moaning out at how his mouth felt on mine. I slowly ran my hands down his chest, exploring all of contours before making my way to his belt buckle. I quickly undid it along with the buttons on his pants and dipped my hand down into his briefs grasping him firmly before pulling him free.

“Madison.” J.C. breathed out, closing his eyes and hovering just above my lips.


Just then Justin pressed himself up and behind me as he bent down and started to leave a trail of kisses from my shoulder up and over to my neck, causing me to grasp J.C. tighter in my hand as I pumped him. Justin’s hand wrapped around me and pinched my nipple causing me to cry out slightly, but J.C. quickly quieted me by covering my mouth with his again. Justin’s other hand traveled down my torso and slipped over my folds, “Damn Madi,” he grunted feeling how wet I was.

I whimpered slightly as his fingers grazed over my clit and reached back with my free hand grasping him tightly. “Fuck Madi, I need you.” Justin grunted out pulling his hands away and turning me to face him, ripping my panties off of my body. My eyes widened slightly, as he caught me off guard and I reached out placing my hands on his shoulders to steady myself.


Justin roughly pulled my leg up over his hip and plunged himself into me causing me to cry out. I did my best to steady myself against Justin, before I reached out behind me, summoning J.C. He hesitantly stepped up behind me placing a light kiss on my shoulder, not really sure what I wanted. I grabbed his hand pulling him closer to me so he was flush against my back, allowing me to bring my other leg up against Justin’s hip. I leaned back against J.C. and cocked my head to the side kissing him as his hand slowly ran down my body and he lightly started to pull and twist my clit between his fingers, causing my breathing to hitch.

“Fuck me C.” I panted out, pulling away from his kiss.

“Huh?” J.C. let out a confused look pooling over his face.

I reached behind me pulling his hips forward and grinding into him the best I could with Justin buried deep inside me, causing him to groan out at the friction. “Really?” J.C. breathed out uncertainly.

“Please.” I begged out as Justin stopped his movements, holding me against him waiting on J.C. to make his move, “There’s some lube in the front pocket of my suitcase,” Justin nodded over to it, wrapping his arms around my waist and holding me in place as J.C. stepped away from me.

I bent down and kissed Justin, running my fingers over his buzzed head, causing him to twitch slightly inside of me.

J.C. quickly made his way back over to us, stroking himself in his hands, spreading the lube out over his cock before standing behind me, pressing into my ass lightly.

“You sure?” J.C. asked breaking me from my kiss with Justin. I leaned my head back onto his shoulder and nodded up at him, as he slowly pushed himself into me.

“Fuck.” I hissed out as Justin groaned, feeling J.C. push up against him, only my thin layer of flesh between them.

“Are you okay? Am I hurting you?” J.C. asked panic stricken as he stopped moving inside of me.

“Oh god, don’t stop.” I whimpered turning my head and kissing him lightly on the corner of the mouth calming his fears. J.C. nodded slightly pushing himself the rest of the way inside of me, groaning in the process.

J.C. started to slowly move in and out of me and after a couple seconds of me adjusting to it, Justin followed his lead and started to pump in and out of me again as well. My breathing quickened and I knew there was no way I was going to last very long as I felt both of them moving inside of me. I rested my head back on J.C. closing my eyes, getting ready to lose myself, but Justin noticed and grabbed me by the chin forcing me to look at him, “Wait Madi,” he growled out.

“I…J!” I yelled out, not being able to stop the orgasm that was ripping through my core.

“Fuck.” Justin grunted as I pulsated around him as he slammed himself into me a few more times, before grinding into me slowly as I started to come down.

J.C. had stopped moving and was just holding me up, watching me as I rode the wave out; leaning over to kiss me once I relaxed back against him. Once I relaxed some, Justin pulled all the way out of me, before completely filling me back up, still chasing his orgasm. I cried out in surprise causing J.C.’s eyes to widen slightly, “Are you okay?”

“Mmm.” I whimpered nodding slightly, as I constricted my ass around J.C.’s cock, causing him to groan out and start to move inside of me once again.


I leaned forwards slowly kissing Justin’s neck slightly as he and J.C. found a rhythm moving together within me. I heard J.C.’s breath start to quicken and I leaned back into him, pulling him to me, kissing him trying to pull him closer to the edge.

“Damn Madi.” Justin growled bringing his hand down loudly across my chest, causing me to moan and J.C.’s eyes to widen, slightly caught off guard.

Justin’s thumb found my clit and began to rub against it causing me to choke out a low moan. Justin grunted, digging his fingers into my hips as he slammed into me a few more times, causing me to yell out with each thrust.

“Damn Madi.” Justin grunted out and I knew he was just as close as J.C. I turned my head slightly pecking J.C. on the mouth as I caressed Justin’s cheek, trying to bring them both closer to their orgasms. I let out a loud moan my whole body contracting as they brought me to my second orgasm and I heard them both grunt out, burying themselves within me as they emptied themselves into me.

My whole body relaxed, completely exhausted, as I leaned back onto J.C. as Justin held my legs up. J.C. placed a series of soft kisses on the side of my head as Justin slowly set my legs down and took half a step back pulling out of me. I rested all my weight back on J.C. and quickly reached out grabbing Justin’s arm to steady myself, as he just smirked at me.

“Mmm.” I moaned out almost inaudibly as my eyes started to flutter closed, completely worn out from the long day and the amazing sex that had just happened.

“Come here.” J.C. quietly said whisking me up into his arms and carrying me over to the bed, where he gently laid me down. J.C. placed a light kiss on my forehead, before standing up and moving to make his way back across the room.

“No!” I whined reaching out for him.

“What?” J.C. softly asked walking back over to me and picking up my hand. I didn’t have the energy to talk so I just tugged on his arm lightly, trying to get him to lie down.

“Madison.” J.C. uneasily breathed out, looking at me before glancing up at Justin who was crawling into bed on the other side. Justin just shrugged at J.C. wrapping his arm around my waist getting comfortable.

“You sure that’s not weird?” J.C. asked skeptically.

“That’s what you’re worried about being weird?” Justin laughed up at his friend.

“I…I don’t know.”J.C. sighed, relenting and crawling into bed on the other side of me. I kept a hold of J.C.’s hand as he laid down and turned slightly to face Justin, “I love you J,” I mumbled barely able to form coherent words.

“I love you too baby, go to sleep.” Justin sighed kissing my cheek lightly before closing his own eyes.


The next morning I woke up to Justin pressing his arousal into my leg and I slowly opened my eyes to see him grinning down at me. “Morning.” I smiled up at him.

“Morning.” Justin groaned out slowly grinding himself into my hip. I smiled at him before pulling his head down and kissing him as I grasped him in my hand causing him to groan again.

“Suck it Madi.” Justin groaned, pulling away from the kiss.

I raised my eyebrows slightly at him, before relenting and sliding down his body and taking him into my mouth causing him to hiss out, “Fuuuuuck.”

Hearing Justin, J.C. started to slowly wake up and I glanced over in his direction, as his eyes widened slightly realizing what was going on, “I….Sorry.” J.C. stumbled, turning to make his way off the bed.

“Wait C.” Justin started as I reached my hand out running it up over J.C.’s bare thigh.

“Yeah?” J.C. questioned running his hand through his hair, as he watched my hand slowly travel up his leg before glancing up at Justin. J.C. was already turned on and the light touch of my hand when I finally grazed over him, caused him to instantly come to full attention.

Justin groaned out, grabbing me by the hair and pushing me further down onto him before finally breathing out, “Stay, fuck Madi.” J.C. hesitated for a moment, but my hand squeezed down on him tighter in encouragement and he nodded as he scrambled up to his knees.


J.C. quickly moved behind me and I adjusted myself pulling myself up onto my knees, never breaking my contact on Justin. J.C. snaked his hand between my legs, stroking me lightly, finding me already slick with my juices.

“Ahhh, Madison.” J.C. breathed out his voice heavy with want.

I arched back into his hand and he stroked me lightly one more time before removing his hand and pushing himself into me, stretching me out. I let out a small whimper, causing vibrations to run up my throat and over Justin’s cock and him to grip my hair tighter, thrusting up into my mouth. J.C. quickly set a steady pace, gripping onto my hips for support, and I matched his rhythm as I continued to move up and down on Justin. J.C.’s hand slowly snaked around my body is search of my clit, and he began to rub it furiously once he found it. I let out another long groan as I pushed myself further back onto him and he grinded into me slightly before continuing his steady pace. J.C. was quickly bringing me to my climax and I was having trouble concentrating on Justin as I fought to hold myself up as my body started to shake.

“Don’t stop Madi, or I’ll make J.C. stop.” Justin growled, gripping my hair tighter as he forcibly thrusted up into my mouth.

I whimpered slightly, doing my best to pleasure Justin and ignore the jolts of electricity that were soaring through my body. I cried our around Justin’s cock as my body started to lose all control and my pussy started to contract and pull on J.C.’s cock.

“Mmm Madison.” J.C. moaned out at the same time Justin grunted, “Fuck Madi,” and they both forcibly thrust themselves at me, spilling into me.

I slowly sucked on Justin, swallowing all of him, before letting him fall out of my mouth and rested my head on his lower stomach as J.C. held my ass in the air still buried deep inside me, as I twitched lightly around him.

“Fuck C.” Justin chuckled, realizing they had came at the same time and reaching his hand out over me for J.C. to slap. J.C. shook his head slightly, before reaching out and smacking Justin’s hand as he slowly pulled out of me and sat down beside us on the bed, allowing me to relax down in between Justin’s legs.


I lazily rolled over onto my back, settling between them and glanced over at the clock noticing it was only a couple minutes after ten, “Mmm one of you order room service.” I groaned, sinking further down into the mattress.

“What time are we leaving?” Justin asked picking up his cell phone off the table and reading through missed messages.

“Twelve thirty.” J.C. and I said at the same time and I looked over grinning at him as I lazily picked up his hand.

“Fuck alright,” Justin sighed standing, “you guys go ahead and order whatever, I’m going to take a quick shower and go meet up with Trace before we go.” Justin disappeared into the bathroom much to surprise of J.C., “Uhm okay then?”

“I want pancakes and sausage.” I said closing my eyes, planning on getting a few more minutes of rest.

“Uh…yeah.” J.C. fidgeted, pulling his hand back from mine and sliding his boxers on as he made his way over to the phone to order us breakfast.


A couple minutes later Justin emerged from the bathroom a towel wrapped around his waist and started to rummage through his suitcase. I turned my head to the side, letting my eyes travel over his body and watch his every moment as he started to get dressed.

“Mmm you’re sexy.” I let out, taking in his plaid shorts and tight fitting t-shirt. Justin slowly turned to face me with a raised eyebrow as he quickly glanced me over, as I laid on the bed still completely naked.

“No. You. Are. Sexy.” Justin slowly said enunciating each word as he slowly made his way over to me and bent down and kissed me lightly, before pulling back and kissing down my neck and over my collarbone and then to each of my breasts.

“J,” I whined, “don’t start something you can’t finish.” I panted out.

Justin stood smiling down at me and evil gleam in his eye, “You’re right I gotta go see Trace, but I’m sure C will take care of you.”

I leaned up on my elbows glaring up at him slightly as he just chuckled and bent down and kissed me, “Love you baby.”

“Love you too.” I murmured melting into him, only to have him much too quickly stand back up.

I fell back onto the bed with a huff as he just chuckled, “Take care of our girl C, I’ll be back in time to leave,” and with that he was out the door leaving J.C. and I alone together.


J.C. slightly fidgeted where he was standing not sure how he felt about Justin leaving the two of us alone together, essentially giving us his blessing. I sat up on the bed and turned the tv on and started to flip through channels as I noticed J.C. fidgeting out of the corner of my eye.

“What are you doing?” I curiously asked turning to face him.

“I’m not sure.” J.C. fidgeted as he ran his hand across the back of his neck.

“Come here.” I demanded patting the bed beside me. He slowly made his way over and sat down on the edge of the bed as far away from me as possible.

“C.” I cooed, crawling over to him and climbing into his lap, much to his surprise.

“Madison?” J.C. questioned his voice filled with uncertainty.

“Are you okay?” I gently asked caressing his face and forcing him to look at me.

“Yeah, of course.” J.C. said forcing a small smile.

“J.C. don’t lie to me,” I breathed out, lightly kissing him, “you don’t regret this do you?” I asked panic rising in my voice as I pulled back to search his face for any clues.

“What? No, Madison no.” J.C. sighed his eyes softening as he brought his arms up and wrapped them around my waist pulling me closer to him.

“Then what is it?” I asked nuzzling my face in his neck.

“I guess I’m just a little confused as to why Justin left us here alone.” He breathed out running his hands up and down my spine comfortingly.

“Who knows,” I sighed kissing his jaw, “but he did, so stop worrying” I kissed my way across his jaw until I got to his lips and kissed him, gently prying his mouth open trying to deepen the kiss. Without much hesitation J.C. relented and melted into the kiss massaging his tongue with mine as he pulled me closer to him. I moaned slightly, rocking back and forth on him as I started to feel him grow beneath me.

Just then there was a knock at the door, breaking us from our intense kiss. “I got it.” I giggled standing up and throwing on Justin’s discarded t-shirt, before making my way towards the door.


I made my way back a couple seconds later carrying a breakfast tray and set it down on the bed before sitting back down myself. I leaned over the tray and pecked J.C. lightly on the lips before sitting back and digging into the food in front of me, as J.C. just smirked at me.

“What?” I questioned looking up at him with a mouthful of pancakes, causing him to throw his head back in laughter.

“Nothing, you’re just cute.” J.C. smiled causing me to blush slightly.

“Eat.” I murmured, before shoving another bite of food in my mouth embarrassed. J.C. just smiled back, but obliged and started to dig into the food as well.

After we ate J.C. made a hasty exit, claiming he needed to make a few phone calls and I was left by myself. I took a long relaxing shower, before busying myself with packing mine and Justin’s things up. I was lost in a rerun of The Real World when Justin came busting through the door in a fury, Trace behind him.

“I know, I know we have to leave, I just need to quickly throw my shit together.”He hastily said as he made his way over to his suitcase.

“Relax J, it’s done.” I smirked over at him.

Justin stopped and quickly surveyed the room, realizing everything was indeed packed, before taking a steadying calming breath, “Thanks baby.”

“No problem.” I grinned climbing off the bed and making my way over to him.

I kissed him lightly as I wrapped my arms around his neck, but he pulled away slightly a puzzled look on his face, “Where’s J.C.?”

“He had some phone calls to make or something, he said he’d meet us on the bus.” I shrugged as someone started to pound on the door.

Trace moved to open it and Justin’s bodyguard Mike pushed his way into the room griping, “Justin you better be ready, you’ve had more than enough time this morning to get your shit together.”

I giggled at the seriousness on Mikes face, and the annoyed looked that crossed over Justin’s, “I’m ready shit! Why don’t you take our suitcases down and we’ll meet you out there in a minute.”

Mike narrowed his eyes at Justin, “ten minutes,” he warned and then grabbed both our suitcases and made his way from the room.


I noticed the solemn look that passed over both Justin and Trace’s faces and decided to make my exit and give them a minute alone. “I’m glad you came out Trace, don’t stay away for three months this time, Justin needs his Trace time.” I said pulling Trace into a hug.

“Trace time?” Justin snorted from behind me.

I pulled away, glancing back at him, “Yes, and trust me you get cranky when you don’t get it.”

Justin opened his mouth to respond but Trace cut him off, “Thanks Madi, for everything.”

I smiled over at him pulling him into another hug, before pulling away and quickly making my way towards the door, “Have a safe flight. I’ll be downstairs J,” and with that I left the two of them alone to say goodbye.


I made my way downstairs and to the back of the hotel where all the buses were lined up, already running waiting on us. I quickly glanced around and not seeing J.C. anywhere figured he must already be on the bus, so I made my way towards Chris to greet him. A couple minutes later Justin brushed by us, his face slightly red and headed straight for the bus without a word. “What was that about?” Chris questioned confused.

“Trace is leaving, I’m going to go check on him.” I sighed leaning in to hug Chris before turning and following Justin.


I stepped onto the bus and noticed J.C. hunched in the corner furiously writing in a notebook, lost in thought, and Justin stretched out across the couch his eyes closed. I slowly made my way towards Justin, finally sitting beside him, “You okay J?” I asked softly, my hand resting on his arm.

“I’m fine.” Justin snapped not opening his eyes. It took everything I had not to snap back at him, but I knew he was upset whether he wanted to admit it or not, so instead I curled myself into him, wrapping my arms around his waist and placing my head on his chest. Justin said nothing, but wrapped his arms me, hugging me tightly to him.


I must have fell asleep because I woke up a little bit later, completely stiff and my back hurting from the odd angle I was in. I tried to untangle myself from Justin’s grasp without waking him up, but failed miserably, his eyes snapping open, taking in his surroundings for a few seconds before calming down. I stood and stretched out before making my way over to the mini fridge and taking a redbull out of it, noticing J.C. in the exact same spot from before. I took a long drink of my redbull as I sat down across from J.C., “Whatcha working on?” I asked innocently.

“A song.” J.C. replied, not looking up from what he was doing.

“Oh, you haven’t moved in a while, are you stuck?” I asked him curiously.

“No.” was J.C.’s short reply.

“Can I see it?” I asked leaning over the table to get a look at the notebook.

“No.” J.C. softly said pulling the notebook off the table and out of my view.

I fell back in my seat baffled as he refused to look at me, “Is everything okay?” I whispered, willing him to look up at me.

“I’m fine.” J.C. sighed as he got up and made his way to the back of the bus, leaving me sitting at the table by myself confused.


I made my way back to the couch where Justin had put a movie in and sat down beside him leaning into him, baffled by J.C.’s behavior. Justin was into the movie, laughing at it, but I couldn’t focus on it as my mind began to wander to all the events of the last twenty-four hours. I had an amazing time with Justin and J.C.; the whole thing far surpassing anything I could have dreamt up in my head, but now I was starting to wonder if it was all worth it. J.C. was being standoffish, although I wasn’t completely sure why, he was fine the whole time through breakfast. Thinking back on it, I was glad he decided to leave after we ate, because although Justin knowingly left us alone together, I’m not sure how I would have felt if anything would have happened without Justin there. I thought to how comfortably I kissed J.C. after Justin left us alone and that scared me. J.C. and I have always been close, and it was no secret that he was good looking, but I was with Justin and as much as I enjoyed kissing J.C. I was afraid that if I let it continue any further I wouldn’t be able to stop.


Justin and I spent most of the afternoon on the couch just lounging around and I was glad he was so engrossed in the tv because my mind kept wandering off to things I needed to stop thinking about but didn’t want to. I was broke from yet another daydream when my phone began to ring.

“Hey Chris.” I sighed picking up my phone and moving away from Justin slightly.

“Hey are you guys hungry? We want to stop and get dinner.” Chris chirped in my ear, full of energy.

“Uh, yeah that sounds good to me, how soon?” I asked glancing over at the clock to see the time.

“Next exit, about ten minutes.” Chris replied, before yelping.

“What was that?” I asked slightly alarmed.

“JO-EYYY.” I heard Chris yell before shaking my head and hanging up the phone.

“What’s up?” Justin asked glancing over at me.

“I guess we’re going to stop for dinner.” I said as Justin’s eyes lit up at the mention of food. “I’m going to go let J.C. know.” I said quietly getting up and making my way to the back to see J.C. sitting across the bed messing around on his keyboard with sheet music scattered all around him.


J.C. glanced up at me when he heard me enter, but he immediately turned his attention back to what he was doing.

“Hey.” I whispered, still standing in the doorway suddenly uncomfortable in his presence. He glanced back up at me quickly but didn’t say anything.

“Uh, we’re getting ready to stop and get something to eat.” I quietly said.

“I’m not hungry.” J.C. shrugged his indifference, without even bothering to look up at me this time.

“C, you need to eat.” I sighed, absentmindedly playing with my necklace.

“Madison, please just leave me be.” J.C. pleaded, his eyes clouded over with sadness.

“I…uh..alright. I’m sorry.” I mumbled, staring down at the floor before turning and shutting the door.


I stood outside the door trying to regain my composure and wrap my head around what just happened when Justin bellowed out making his way towards me, “Madi, J.C., what the fuck are you doing?”

“He’s not coming.” I managed to get out as I took a step towards Justin.

“What? Why?” Justin asked perplexed.

“He’s working on a song you know how he can get.” I said, making excuses for J.C.’s behavior. Justin nodded knowingly however, and must have been satisfied with my answer, because he turned to make his way towards the front of the bus, me following slowly behind him.


I sat quietly watching all the guys talk excitedly while we waited on our food. “You okay Madi?” Chris asked nudging me with his elbow as he leaned into me.

“Yeah.” I plastered a smile on looking over at him.

“Are you and Justin fighting?” Chris sighed leaning into me as he looked over at Justin who was engaged in some conversation with Joey and Lance.

“No, I’m fine.” I said tightlipped, refusing to make eye contact with him.

“No, you’re a horrible liar.” Chris rolled his eyes at me as our food arrived.

“Can I place a to-go order?” I stopped the waitress before she had a chance to leave.

“What are you doing?” Justin spoke up confused.

“I….uh…I just figured J.C. might be hungry later.” I mumbled looking down into my plate, embarrassed that I was so worried about J.C. all of a sudden.

“Oh, good idea!” Justin nodded and turned and started to devour his food, oblivious to my discomfort.


When we got back on the bus I made my way back to J.C. and opened the door slightly and poked my head in, “I brought you something to eat,” I said softly, holding the to-go box up for him to see.

“I’m not hungry.” J.C. said slightly annoyed this time.

“Oh, okay. Well it’s here if you want it.” I quietly said retreating back to the front of the bus as I heard J.C. sigh exasperated.


I made my way to the front of the bus to see Justin on the phone and I made my way over to him and laid down, placing my head in his lap. Justin looked down at me with a raised eyebrow, but continued his conversation.

“Yeah, hold on, let me grab my notebook.” Justin said as he tried to get up from under me, much to my dismay. He found the notebook he was looking for and sat back down flipping through it, as I moved to lay back in his lap.

“Madi, what the fuck are you doing? Go bother J.C. for a while, damn!” Justin yelled out frustrated as he pushed my head away and stood up walking over to the table.


Tears welled up in my eyes at Justin’s outburst and I got up and started to make my way back to J.C., before stopping, realizing he didn’t want me around either. J.C. and Chris were always there when Justin decided to be an ass; they always knew what to say to make me feel better without tearing Justin down in the process. I let out an involuntary sob as I stood there, feeling alone, as tears started to stream down my face.

J.C. slowly opened the door, his face soft and his eyes sad, “Are you okay?” he lightly asked. I just sobbed harder not sure what was going on and J.C. took a step forward and wrapped his arms around me cradling my head as he gently rocked us back and forth, “I heard J, I’m sorry.” J.C. whispered into my hair, bringing me back to reality.


J.C.’s mood swing was enough to give me whiplash, but I also was way too comforted by his embrace. I couldn’t let myself be swayed this much by J.C.; it was dangerous territory. “Don’t, just don’t.” I cried, pushing him away.

“Madison.” J.C. sighed softly, reaching out to grab my hand.

“I can’t right now.” I whispered, backing away from him slightly, before crawling into my bunk and closing the curtain. I heard J.C. sigh before shuffling back to the back and the giant bed back there. Him and Justin usually took turns sleeping back there, but Justin usually won more often than not when I was around, apparently that wasn’t the case tonight however.


A while later I woke up to Justin shaking me, “Hey baby we’re at the hotel, let’s go inside,” he said sleepily. I fumbled for my phone seeing it was nearly three a.m. and groaned. I wasn’t really in the mood to sleep next to Justin right now, but I definitely did not want to stay on the bus either.

I got up and started to gather a few things, while Justin stood watching me, waiting on me. I moved towards the exit and Justin followed and immediately wrapped his arm around my shoulder as we stepped off the bus. Normally I would have already forgiven Justin, but my mind was such a mess, trying to process how to handle him and J.C. both being mad at me that I was still upset. When I saw Chris, I immediately shrugged Justin’s arm off and made my way over to him where I collapsed into his arms.

“Madi?” Chris questioned bewildered as he wrapped his arms around me. I had no idea how to even start to explain to Chris what was wrong however, so I just hugged him tighter. Chris rubbed my back comfortingly and glanced over at Justin who looked back just as confused and shrugged his shoulders in response.

“Can I stay with you?” I asked, my voice muffled by his shirt.

“Yeah, of course, come on.” Chris agreed still confused as he ushered me through the lobby and over to the elevators.


I immediately collapsed onto the bed and brought the comforter up over my head, ignoring Chris’ questioning eyes. The next morning I woke myself up by crying in my sleep. I angrily wiped away the tears, to see Chris sitting by the bed glaring at me, “What’s going on Madison?”

“Nothing.” I sighed, getting up and making my way towards the bathroom, away from him.

“Bullshit!” Chris screamed, slapping his hands down onto his thighs, before standing and stalking towards me. “Justin said he snapped at you last night. Is there more to it than that?” Chris questioned, trying to control his slowly rising anger.

“No, I’m not mad at Justin anymore.” I quietly said, looking down at the floor, refusing to make eye contact with him. It was true, I wasn’t upset with Justin anymore, he got annoyed and snapped, but when he was done doing whatever it was he was doing he came back expecting me to come to bed with him and I refused. I never stayed mad at Justin that long, especially over such trivial shit and now all I really wanted to do was to be in his arms.

“Well then why are you so upset? Why are you crying in your fucking sleep?” Chris questioned exasperated.

“I don’t know.” I mumbled, shrinking away from him, intimidated by his booming voice.

“Madison I’m sorry,” Chris said his voice softening as he took a step towards me and pulled me into him hugging me, “it’s just not like you to get so upset over something dumb Justin did.”

“I don’t know, it was stupid,” I mumbled before pulling away, “I’m going to take a shower and go find him.”

“He already left for the studio with J.C., but Lonnie or someone can run you over.” Chris said, narrowing his eyes at my sharp intake of breath at the mention of J.C. “Are you and J.C. fighting?” He asked suspiciously.

“I…What? Don’t be ridiculous, when have J.C. and I ever fought?” I said hurriedly making my way into the bathroom and shutting the door in his face hoping to end the conversation.


After my shower, I came out of the bathroom to find Chris still sitting there waiting on me. “So about J.C…..” Chris trailed off looking up at me.

“What about him?” I shrugged, refusing to turn around and look at Chris.

“Don’t play dumb Madison.” Chris said exasperated.

“I’m not; I have no idea what you are talking about.” I said slipping my tennis shoes on and heading for the door, trying to get away from Chris as quickly as possible.

“Where are you going?” Chris relented as I was halfway out the door.

“Down to the gym.” I said, but Chris had already jumped up from his seat and was right behind me.

“I thought you were going to see Justin?” Chris smirked at me.

“I will later, I’m sure he’s not going anywhere.” I said rolling my eyes at Chris.

“Yeah, tell me again how you tow aren’t fighting. Or how you and J.C. aren’t.” Chris said a smug smile on his face.

“Fine! I’ll go to the studio!” I exclaimed throwing my hands up in the air and stomping over to the elevators, with Lonnie following close behind after Chris ushered him after me. Chris was really starting to get on my nerves, so if getting away from him meant I had to be in an enclose space with Justin and J.C. for the day then I would do it.

I was glad that Lonnie dropped me off and only stuck around long enough to make sure I made it into the building before driving off. It was going to take all I had to get through this day and the less people that were around the better. I made my way down the hall until I found the right studio and took a deep breath trying to calm myself down before I pushed the door open. Justin and J.C. both looked up surprised, obviously not expecting anyone, but Justin immediately jumped up and made his way over to me.

“Madi! I’m so sorry.” Justin said pulling me into a hug before I had a chance to respond.

“It’s fine J.” I sighed pulling back and noticing J.C. watching us uncomfortably.

“No it’s not; you have never willingly not slept with me.” Justin urged, as I saw J.C.s head snap up, fully focusing on us now.

“I know, I just had a lot of stuff going on. It wasn’t all you.” I sighed, noticing J.C.’s gaze.

“What’s wrong?” Justin asked softly caressing my face, forcing me to look at him.

“Nothing, it’s fine.” I said giving him my best smile and leaning up to kiss him.


That was enough to placate Justin, because he pulled me closer to him deepening the kiss. Justin pulled away and whispered, “I love you.”

“I love you too.” I smiled as Justin finally stepped away. I glanced over at J.C. before taking a deep breath and turning back towards Justin, “You have any powder on you?”

“Yeah, in my backpack.” Justin nodded a confused look on his face. I noticed J.C.’s face falter and a small glare take over, but I ignored it as I made my way over to Justin’s backpack and started to dig through it finding what I wanted. I pulled out the baggie and dumped it out onto the table as Justin slowly made his way over to me.

“You okay Madi?” Justin softly asked coming up behind and placing his hands on my waist and his chin on my shoulder.

“Mmhmm why?” I asked slightly grinding back into him, causing him to lose his train of thought. I bent over and did a big line, as Justin moved with me slightly biting my neck. I stood up giggling and turned in his arms and kissed him before handing him the straw.

“J, we have work to do.” J.C. said disgustedly from where he was sitting.

“I know it’s cool.” Justin said as he stood back up and grinned over at J.C. J.C. just rolled his eyes at us, before turning his attention back to the soundboard.

“Go, don’t piss him off.” I whispered giggling as I reached up to kiss him again.

“He’ll get over it.” Justin snorted, but kissed me once more and made his way back to J.C. I watched him walk away as J.C. gave me reprimanding look, but instead of acknowledging it, I just bent over and did another huge line, hoping to numb all of my feelings for J.C. J.C. audibly sighed and turned away from me. I just shook my head and dipped my finger into the coke and rubbed it over my gums, before sitting down and letting it work its way through my system.


After about twenty minutes I couldn’t sit still so I stood and made my way over to the boys, “I’m going to get a drink, you two want anything?”

“Yes please.” Justin grinned as he grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him. I smiled back as I bent down and kissed him.

“What about you C?” I asked when I finally stood up.

“No, I’m good.” J.C. replied without looking up from the soundboard. I rolled my eyes but decided to say nothing as I turned and made my way out of the studio.
A came back a few minutes later and handed Justin a bottle of water as J.C. glanced up at me, “Really Madison?” he questioned.

“What?” I asked rolling my eyes at the tone of his voice.

“Do you really think you need a redbull on top of all that blow?” J.C. sighed eyeing me.

“What do you care?” I snapped at him before turning my attention back to Justin, “Are you going to be here for a while?” I asked pouting.

“I’m not sure why?” Justin asked reaching for my hand.

“I just want to go do something, but I want you to come.” I smiled down at him.

“Mmm I would love that,” Justin started as he pulled me down into his lap, “but we really need to get some work done.” I pouted over at him as he leaned in to kiss me. I knew I was being childish, but being so close to J.C. was making me incredibly antsy and I needed a distraction, and Justin seemed like my best option.

“Go J.” J.C. growled, breaking us from our kiss.

“What?” Justin asked confused, pulling back to look at J.C.

“Just go, you’re not being much help anyways.” J.C. said dryly.

“Are you sure?” Justin asked glancing back and forth between me and J.C.

“Yeah, I want to mess around with this song I’ve been writing anyway.” J.C. sighed, rubbing his hand over his face.


Justin and I spent the next couple hours at the gym working out, and then made our way back to our room where we spent the rest of the night working each other out. The next day at the venue I was running around frantically trying to get all the guys and the dancers to the stage, where I was going to make them run through the dances again. “Why are we doing this?” Chris whined as I made my way out to the stage where mostly everyone had gathered.

“Because you all missed steps the other night, and I don’t want a repeat of that mess tonight.” I snapped at him.

“It wasn’t that bad.” Lance started but quickly shut up when I glared in his direction.

“I thought it went really well.” Kristin said making her way across the stage.

“You would have, you were half a step behind the whole time.” I glared over at her. She narrowed her eyes at me, but bit her tongue as everyone’s eyes landed on her waiting to see what she’d say.

“Baby, it’s fine, you’re right, we can do better. Can we just start?” Justin asked pulling me into him.

“Fine.” I relented and signaled the sound guy to start the music.


“J.C. stop making up your own steps! Fuck!” I yelled as I signaled for the music to be cut.

“I’m not making up steps; you and I choreographed that together.” J.C. glared at me.

“Well you’re taking attention away from the other guys you need to dial it down.” I growled over at him.

“Madi what’s going on, you’ve been all over J.C.’s case all day.” Joey said stepping towards where J.C. and I were standing, staring each other down.

“Well would you like to talk about the steps you missed during Bye Bye Bye because I’m pretty sure that’s the last song you should be missing steps on.” I snapped turning to face Joey as he threw his hands up in the air and backed away from me.

“Madi he’s right, Lance literally tripped over his own feet and you didn’t notice, but you’re mad at J.C. for doing what he always does?” Justin questioned softly.

“Fine! Fuck it! If you all want to be upstaged by J.C. go for it. I don’t care.” I yelled as I started to walk away.

“Madi wait! …..Baby.” Justin called jogging after me.

“What?” I asked turning around to glare at him.

Justin opened his mouth to respond when I shushed him as I overheard Kristin talking to J.C., “It’s really not fair how Madison’s been treating you, I thought you were amazing,” she cooed, as she reached out to touch his arm.

I clenched my fists and started to make my way over to them when J.C. brushed off her hand, “Not now Kristin, I’m not in the mood and you really need to cool it,” he spat as he turned to walk away catching my eye.


I sighed inwardly, secretly happy that J.C. blew Kristin off, and knowing I wasn’t really mad at him; I was just more upset and confused with his behavior. J.C. walked past me, lightly brushing up against me as he did so and I felt all my resolve crumble. “You guys know these dances, please just focus tonight.” I sighed, before turning and making my way off the stage, much to the surprise of everyone.


“Baby hold up.” Justin called, jogging after me. I stopped and waited for him, but then just continued to walk to the guy’s dressing room not saying a word. I plopped down onto the couch and Justin sat beside me putting his arm around me and pulling me to him, “What’s going on with you and C?”

“Nothing.” I sighed leaning into him.

“Madi.” Justin said in a reprimanding tone, letting me know he didn’t believe me.

“I don’t know.” I sighed, pouting slightly.

Justin thought for a minute before slowly replying, “You know he’s not into Kristin right?”

“I….Why would I care?” I softly asked, not sure how I felt about Justin being able to read into my moods so easily.

“Oh please, it’s no secret you two are fighting for his attention.” Justin chuckled.

“I’m…No I’m not…I’m with you J.” I frowned, not sure if I was trying to convince him or me of that fact.

“I know, but you and C are close, especially after the other night, and like I said you have nothing to worry about when it comes to her, she’s way too forward for his liking.” Justin soothed, rubbing his hand up and down my arm. I just sat there silent, not sure how I felt about everything Justin was saying. None of it made any sense to me and all it did was confuse me more than I already was.


After a few minutes of silence Justin finally spoke back up, “Is that all that was bothering you about C? Because I was thinking the three of us could get together after the show tonight.”

I sat up and looked Justin over, trying to figure out what he was thinking, having no luck I finally asked, “What? Really? Why?”

“Do you know how sexy it is watching you get so turned on by another guy?” Justin growled his voice lowering. I opened my mouth to speak, but nothing would come out as my mind reeled with everything Justin was saying. He wasn’t upset that I got so turned on by J.C., just the opposite he liked it.

“I had fun, and I know you had fun.” Justin whispered, as he bent down and kissed me below my ear, and started to make his way across my jaw.

“I mean…I guess….if….if J.C. wants to.” I managed to get out as Justin continued to kiss along my jaw and his hand snaked in between my legs rubbing me through my shorts.

“Trust me, he wants to, he’s been watching you out of the corner of his eyes since the last time.” Justin chuckled applying more pressure to my center, causing me to whimper slightly and push back into his hand.

“That doesn’t bother you?” I panted out, my eyes closing at the feel of his hands on me.

“No baby,” Justin frowned, pulling back to look at me. My eyes flew open at the loss of contact and I looked over at the confused expression on his face, “You guys are close, and you are sexy, and he’s turned on by you, just like you’re turned on by him and I want everybody to have what they want.” Justin said his eyes searching my face for understanding. I nodded slowly, a million thoughts and questions racing through my mind, but I had no idea where to even start with them so I just stared dumbly at him until he crashed his lips onto mine, pushing me back onto the couch, grinding his arousal into my upper thigh.


Justin and I were broke from what we were doing when Chris and Joey burst into the room a few minutes later. “You in a better mood?” Chris asked accusingly looking at me.

“Fine.” I sighed getting up and walking towards the door.

“Where you going?” Justin pouted.

“For a run.” I shrugged over at him, as he stood up and crossed the room towards me.

“I’ll come with you.” He grinned, smacking my ass and taking off down the hallway in front of me.

“Asshole!” I shouted as I took off after him, laughing slightly to myself.


The show went off better than I could have imagined and I chuckled slightly to myself, knowing all the guys were a little scared to mess anything up after my tyrant that afternoon. Everyone was headed out to a club after the show, since we had the next day off and were going to be in Hershey for the next two days. I still hadn’t spoken to J.C. and I had no idea if Justin mention his plans for later to him or not, so I quickly downed two drinks and was well on my way with my third, not sure what was going to happen and needing to relax a little.

“Dance with me.” Justin said coming up behind me and putting his mouth to my ear. My face broke out into a grin as I tilted my head up so I could kiss him. I kissed him, his grip on my waist tightening as I slowly deepened it. I pulled away from him smiling, downed the rest of my drink and took his hand and led him down to the dance floor.


Justin and I were having a good time laughing and dancing as I kept an eye on J.C. who was a little ways away from us on the outskirts of the dance floor. I tensed slightly when Kristin made her way to J.C. and drug him onto the dance floor. I noticed the small scowl cross over J.C’s face, unbeknownst to Kristin who was now grinding herself into him. Justin noticed my change in demeanor and followed my gaze to see what I was looking at.

“Go save him.” He breathed into my ear. I turned to look at him questioningly, but he just nodded and pushed me towards the two of them.


I walked up and slipped my hand around J.C.’s waist and pulled him back into me slightly, as he looked over at me perplexed. I just nodded encouragingly and he nodded as he licked his lips and moved out of Kristin’s grasp and pulled me up against him.

“Where’s Justin?” Kristin seethed, not even attempting to hide her anger.

“Right here.” Justin smirked coming up behind me and slipping his hand around my waist, moving with me and J.C. Kristin glared at me and mumbled, “slut,” before she slinked off into the crowd away from us.

I opened my mouth to protest but Justin shushed me, “stop, dance,” he purred into my ear making my heart melt and causing me to get lost in the song with the two of them.


After a few more songs Justin leaned down, putting his mouth against my ear, “Let’s get out of here.”

I looked up at Justin before glancing over at J.C. and then back to Justin, who nodded his encouragement to me. I took a deep breath, trying to mentally prepare myself for this conversation. J.C. had been dancing with me, but this was the most civil we had been to each other in the past few days. I had no idea how he was going to react to what I was about to say and my stomach instantly filled with butterflies. I realized that more than anything I wanted him to say yes and come back with Justin and I. I missed talking and hanging out with J.C., and a small part of me, however reluctant, missed kissing him. I finally worked up the courage and draped my arms around his neck pulling him close, hearing him take a sharp breath at the contact.

“Come back to the hotel with me and J.” I said, leaning into him as my fingers played with the hair on the back of his neck.

“What?” J.C. whispered unsure of himself as he buried his head in the crook of my neck.

“You know what.” I breathe into his ear, and could feel him twitch slightly in his pants. I pulled back enough to be able to see his face and bit my lip waiting in anticipation. His eyes were clouded over with desire and he just nodded slightly and turned to walk off the dance floor, Justin and I following closely behind.


The next morning I woke up in between Justin and J.C. and couldn’t help the grin that spread across my face as the events from the night before replayed in my head. I slowly untangled myself from the two of them and made my way to the bathroom, excited to have the day off. I made quick work in the shower and as I stepped out I head Justin croak out, “Madi?”

I smiled wrapping a towel around myself and walked back into the bedroom to see him sitting up a bewildered look on his face as J.C. started to stir. “What’s up?” I asked a slight smile on my face at his confusion.

“I love C, but don’t ever leave us alone, in bed, naked together again.” Justin groaned, glancing over at J.C., before pulling me down onto his lap as I just giggled.

I looked over at J.C. who was shaking his head at us, an amused grin across his face as I continued to giggle, “Aww baby,” I started as I leaned in and lightly kissed him, causing him to groan, “I don’t think you’re J.C.’s type,” my eyes sparkled as I stood back up and J.C. just laughed.

“Shut up.” Justin growled looking back and forth between the two of us. I just smirked as I dropped the towel from around me and slowly stepped into a pair of panties as I heard both of them groan from behind me.

“Madi, stop. Come here.” Justin growled, his eyes traveling up and down over my curves.

I pulled a tank top over my head and turned towards him my eyes raised, “Nu uh, we have the day off and you two need to get ready. I’ll call Chris and get his ass in gear, but I want chocolate and rollercoasters.” I grinned over at the two of them.

“Oh trust me, it’ll be like a rollercoaster ride.” Justin said raising his eyebrows, his voice low.

“I’m sure,” I giggled, “but I’m hungry and I want to spend the day in the park so get your asses up.” I said glaring at them, my hands on my hips.

“Fine.” Justin pouted, getting up and making his way towards me, bending down for a kiss. I pecked him slightly, but pushed him towards the bathroom. I looked up at J.C. who was pulling his shirt back on a lazy grin on his face.

“You too, hurry up.” I said shooing him towards the door as I grabbed my phone and dialed Chris’ number.


Twenty minutes later someone was pounding on the door and I made my way over to it, opening it to see Chris standing there bouncing up and down.

“Hey.” I smiled, shaking my head at his antics as I moved to let him in the room.

“I’m sooooooo ready for some coasters.” Chris exclaimed as I just smiled at him.

“Well Justin is getting dressed, I’ll go grab J.C. and then we can grab something to eat real quick.” I said grabbing my hotel key, debit card, and phone, and shoving them all in my pocket.

Chris just nodded before yelling out, “Justin hurry your ass up, I’m hungry,” as he made his way into the bedroom to see what Justin was doing.


I laughed slightly and stepped out of the room, making my way down the hall towards J.C’s room. I slowed slightly when I saw the door cracked, and cringed when I heard Kristin giggling from inside. I rolled my eyes but hastily pushed the door open making my presence known, “C, you almost ready?” I asked as he looked up at me his face softening.

“I’m trying.” He said exasperated and I had a feeling Kristin had already worn out her welcome.

“Well hurry up, I’m hungry.” I pouted lightly making my way over to him and smoothing down his hair.

“I’m working on it.” He smiled down at me, causing me to grin back.

“So J.C. after breakfast I was thinking….” Kristin started as I rolled my eyes and cut her off, “He already has plans.” I smirked as I glanced over my shoulder at her.

“Don’t you have a fucking boyfriend?” She snapped as J.C. and I both turned to look at her.

“Kristin, I already told you I had plans now drop it.” J.C. said his voice low as he tried to maintain his anger.

“Come on.” I said lightly as I grabbed J.C.’s hand and tugged on it slightly.

“Yeah, one sec.” J.C. smiled down at me as he made his way over to the table and grabbed his wallet and slipped it into his back pocket.

“Mmm, here.” I said picking up his baseball hat and making my way over to him and placing it on his head.

“Yeah?” J.C. smirked down at me.

“Definitely.” I whispered, licking my lips as he just grinned at me.

“Alright then.” He winked and made his way to the door, me right behind him.


“Come on Kristin, time to go.” I said slowly, holding the door open for her.

“I’m not a fucking baby.” She seethed at my tone.

I just rolled my eyes at her and pulled the door shut before noticing J.C. a few steps up the hallway. “J.C., wait.” I whined as I jogged after him and jumped onto his back.

“Madison!” J.C. laughed as I caught him off guard, causing him to stumble for a second.

“You love it.” I teased as I leaned down and placed a soft kiss on his ear.


“They better be ready!” Chris bellowed as he and Justin stepped out into the hall to see J.C. and I.

“Hey baby.” I giggled as Justin stepped over to us and I bent down and kissed him, not bothering to get off of J.C.’s back.

“Yeah, yeah, come on.” Chris said playfully rolling his eyes as he stepped onto the elevator. We followed him onto the elevator as Kristin stomped off past us glaring as she made her way down the hall.

“What was that about?” Chris asked bewildered watching her retreating figure as the elevator doors slowly closed.

“She’s jealous of Madi.” Justin snorted as I just smirked.

“What? She got a crush on you?” Chris asked looking over at Justin.

“No, J.C.” he laughed as Chris glanced over towards J.C. and I as I casually slid off his back and onto the ground.

“She does know you two are together right?” Chris asked bewildered looking back and forth between Justin and I.

“You know how C and I are.” I shrugged wrapping my arm around J.C.’s waist and grinning up at him.

J.C. smiled down at me, pulling me into a hug, “the funny thing is she actually thinks she has a chance until you show up,” he laughed, causing Justin and I to laugh along with him. Chris just shook his head at the three of us as the elevator doors opened and we all stepped out heading towards the restaurant to get breakfast before we headed over to the park.


After breakfast the four of us were making our way into the park with Mike, Lonnie, and Tiny all following closely behind. “Where are Lance and Joey?” I asked curiously, having not seen either of them since the show the night before.

“Kelly and the baby are here so Lance is tagging along with them for the day.” Chris shrugged as I nodded.

“I didn’t know they were coming in, maybe I’ll see if they want me to watch Bri tonight. I just love little babies.” I gushed as Justin’s eyes widened slightly.

“Don’t get any ideas.” He said hastily.

“Don’t worry J, I know you couldn’t handle a baby.” I said teasingly, but Justin’s face fell slightly at my comment.

“What does that mean?” Justin asked defensively.

“It means you’re not J.C.” Chris said laughing as my eyes widened.

“J,” I said my tone softening as I made my way over to him and wrapping my arms around his waist, forcing him to stop and look at me, “that’s not what I meant at all.” I said quietly, my eyes silently pleading with him not to get angry or regret anything having to do with J.C. and I.

Justin frowned slightly before replying, “I know but,” he trailed off as I leaned up and kissed him softly quieting him.

“I just meant that neither of us are ready for that.” I whispered pleadingly. He just nodded slightly, a small smile playing at his lips and I knew I had avoided a potential disaster.

“Let’s go ride some coasters.” Justin grinned and I heaved a sigh of relief as I turned around to see Chris eyeing us suspiciously and J.C. exhale a breath he had been holding. I smiled slightly in J.C.’s direction as I took Justin’s hand and continued to walk.

It was nearing dinner when we made our way back to the hotel and I walked out of the bedroom after changing to see all three of the guys sitting in front of the tv watching baseball.

“Are you all planning on staying in here?” I asked making my way over towards them.

“Why?” Justin asked suspiciously as Chris just shrugged.

“Because Kelly is going to bring the baby over so her and Joey can go to dinner.” I said as I started to pick up random things Justin had strewn about.

“Madi no….the Dodgers are on.” Justin whined looking up at me.

“So?” I asked, confused as to what that could possibly have to do with anything.

“So I want to watch the game and I don’t need some kid interrupting it.” Justin pouted as I just shook my head at him.

“She’s only two months old Justin, you don’t have to worry about her getting in your way.” I said rolling my eyes.

“No, she’ll just cry the whole time; can’t you go to their room and watch her?” Justin asked still pouting.

“No Justin, I can’t.” I said my anger slowly rising as I stood in front of him with my hands on my hips.

“Why not? Why do I have to be punished because YOU volunteered to babysit!” Justin exclaimed sitting up to stare at me.

“You’re an asshole.” I seethed glaring at him.

“J, come on, it’s not really a big deal.” Chris said tapping Justin lightly on the arm.

“Madi, you can take her to my room.” J.C. said quietly trying to resolve the issue.

My face softened as I turned towards J.C., “Thanks C, but you don’t have to do that.”

“The man said take the baby, so take the baby and let Chris and I watch the game.” Justin said exasperated.

I slowly turned on my heel to face Justin, and he shrunk back into the couch at the glare I was giving him. “Fine,” I said sweetly, causing Justin to blink in confusion, “but your ass can sleep on the couch.” I smiled as there was a knock on the door.


Justin started to protest, but I just ignored him and walked over to the door. Joey stepped into the room to talk to the guys while I stayed at the door talking to Kelly while cuddling Brianna in my arms. Once Kelly felt she had told me everything I needed to know, and I informed her that she could pick Bri up in J.C.’s room later, she and Joey finally made their way out.

“J.C. can I have your key?” I asked softly as I walked towards him the baby still in my arms.

“Come on, I’ll go over with you.” He smiled, getting up and picking up the diaper bag. I smiled over at him, told Chris bye, and followed J.C. out of the room without acknowledging Justin.


J.C. opened the door to his room and held it open, allowing me to slip in before he followed me. I laid the baby on the couch, “let me feed her really quick then she should go to sleep and we can order some dinner,” I said as I started to dig through her diaper bag to make a bottle.

“Take your time, it’s fine.” J.C. smiled, sitting on the edge of the couch next to Bri and staring down at her.

I made my way into the bathroom to heat up the bottle, when I heard Bri start crying. I turned to go and pick her up, but she stopped and I turned back around to finish getting her bottle ready. Once it was warm, I made my way out of the bathroom to see J.C. standing by the window swaying back and forth the baby in his arms as he softly sang to her, quieting her. I smiled and slowly made my way over to him, “You’re pretty good at that.” I whispered, placing my hand on his back.

J.C. just grinned over at me as he continued to sing. He finished the song and I beamed up at him, holding out the bottle, “You wanna feed her?”

“Why don’t you feed her and I’ll order some room service, before I take a quick shower.” J.C. suggested.

“Sounds good.” I smiled, as I took the baby from his arms and stuck the bottle in her mouth, making my way back across the room to sit.


I had just moved Bri to my shoulder to burp her when J.C. walked back into the room in only a pair of basketball shorts, running a towel through his hair.

“Hey.” I smiled my eyes traveling over his half naked body as he just grinned at me. Just then Bri started to fuss, breaking us both from our trance.

“Shh, it’s okay babygirl.” I soothed as I bounced her slightly while still trying to burp her. Bri gurgled a burp out and I frowned slightly as I felt the spit up start to slowly seep into my shirt, as I pulled her away from my shoulder.

J.C. chuckled slightly as he made his way over to us, “Here, give her here, you can go throw on one of my shirts.”

I just nodded as J.C. took her out of my arms, cradling her to his chest while he gently rocked her back and forth as her eyelids started to droop.


I stood up and pulled my shirt over my head as I walked towards the bedroom when there was a knock on the door.

“I got it.” I said quietly, figuring it was just our dinner.

I made my way to the door momentarily forgetting that I wasn’t wearing a shirt. I opened the door and barely had time to roll my eyes before Kristin yelled, “Slut!”

“Shh.” I said hurriedly, glancing behind me, not wanting to wake up the baby.

“Oh you would like that wouldn’t you?” Kristin exclaimed her voice rising with each word, “For me to just shut my mouth and not blow your cover! Does Justin know you are cheating on him? With his best friend no less! Huh? Justin! Justin!” Kristin was full on screaming now and Mike and Tiny had stepped out into the hallway to see what all the commotion was about.

“Would you shut up.” I seethed, whispering at her.

“No! I refuse to let you continue to whore around! Justin!” Kristin was screaming as I heard Bri start crying from behind me.

“Shut the fuck up!” I yelled finally frustrated that she had woke the baby up.

Just then J.C. walked up behind me, “What’s going on?” he asked incredulously, trying to rock Bri back to sleep.

“Oh, take a guess.” I rolled my eyes, nodding towards Kristin, as I gently took the baby from J.C. trying to quiet her.

“What’s with all the screaming?” Chris questioned as he and Justin appeared in the doorway behind Kristin, Mike, and Tiny.

“Justin she’s cheating on you!”Kristin said matter-of-factly as she pointed to J.C. and I.

“Oh please.” I muttered as Justin just laughed, “No she’s not.”

“Kristin seriously just leave it alone.” J.C. sighed, frustrated.

“No! Every time I try to see you she’s always around, and I just came to ask you to dinner and she answered the door half naked!” Kristin pouted, stomping her foot for effect.

“Where is your shirt Madi?” Chris asked confused.

“Bri spit up on it, I was changing when there was a knock on the door, I figured it was just room service, then psycho over here went off the deep end, woke the baby up, and now we’re here.” I exclaimed exasperated.

“And you have a baby? Do you even know who the father is?” Kristin spat in my direction, but all I could do was roll my eyes at her ridiculous accusations.

“Kristin seriously shut the fuck up!” J.C. exclaimed much to everyone’s surprise. Kristin’s mouth fell open in disbelief and I chuckled slightly at her as Bri continued to fuss in my arms.

“Here babygirl.” J.C. soothed as he came up behind me and reached around me sticking a binky in Bri’s mouth as he looked over my shoulder down at her. She immediately started to suckle on it and quieted down and I smiled up at J.C., “Thanks.”

“No problem,” J.C. smiled down at me.

“Right Justin you really believe they’re not fucking!” Kristin said rolling her eyes. My head snapped up at her words, my anger slowly rising.

“Madi hey, let me put Bri down.” J.C. said softly, grabbing the baby from my arms. I nodded my face softening briefly as I watched him walk away with the baby, before turning my attention back to the door.

“Who J.C. is fucking is none of your business; all you need to know is it’s not you and it won’t be you.” I smirked at her.

“Well if you weren’t such a slut and could pick just one guy….” Kristin started when Justin yelled cutting her off, “Enough!”

Kristin looked up at him bewildered and I just smiled over at him.

“Kristin, Madi is far from a slut, she’s not cheating on me, and you would be well advised to stay as far away from her and J.C. if you want to stay on this tour.” Justin said calmly staring her down.

“I, but, Justin you deserve better.” She cooed, reaching out to touch his arm, seemingly forgetting about J.C.

“Kristin I wouldn’t.” Chris warned.


Just then a young guy, who couldn’t have been much older than sixteen or seventeen, appeared pushing a cart that held mine and J.C’s dinner along with a bottle of wine, and he faltered slightly at the sight of all the people hovering around the door.

“Wine huh? Yeah you’re right; she’s not cheating on you Justin.” Kristin snorted, as I just groaned in frustration. The server shifted uncomfortably where he was standing not sure what to do.

“Here, thank you, we’ve got it.” Justin said to him, pulling his wallet out and handing him a fifty dollar bill, embarrassed by the mess in front of him.

“You really are dumb.” Kristin marveled over at him.

“Seriously go back to your room and chill out.” Chris said over to Kristin, becoming more annoyed by the second.

“Fine if you all want to play dumb, fine by me.” Kristin exclaimed, throwing her hands up in the air, as J.C. reappeared behind me, handing me a t-shirt.

“Thanks.” I laughed slightly, pulling it over my head.

“I liked you better without the shirt.” Justin frowned slightly, trying to lighten the mood.

“And I’m still mad at you, so go finish your game.” I nodded as I moved to shut the door leaving everyone standing outside the door.

“I love you.” I heard Justin shout through the door and I sighed slightly to myself.

I opened the door a crack and stuck my head out, “I love you too, but you were still an ass.” I said over in his direction.

“I’m sorry.” Justin sighed, taking a step towards me.

I frowned slightly as Justin reached out to caress my cheek, “its fine J, go watch your game, I’ll see you later.”

“Okay, but I’m sorry and I love you.” Justin whispered as the rest of my anger dissipated.

“I know, I’ll ask you first next time.” I said softly.

“You don’t have to do that.” Justin said wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me to him.

“I love you too.” I smiled up at him.

Justin smiled back bringing his head down and kissing me as I heard Kristin snort, “What’s so great about her anyway?”

I tensed in Justin’s arms as I pulled away from the kiss ready to tell her off but Chris beat me to the punch, “Mike, Tiny, get her ass out of here, until we figure out what we’re gonna do.” They nodded and ushered her down the hall, her protesting the whole way as I just stared after her angrily.

“Hey, don’t let her get to you,” Justin said softly, drawing my attention back to him, “go eat or whatever with C. Chris and I are going to go finish the game.” I nodded slightly as he kissed me softly on the side of the mouth, and I made my way back into J.C.’s room.


“I can’t stand her.” I grumbled making my way back towards J.C.

“Don’t let her get to you.” J.C. said softly, opening his arms. I collapsed against J.C.’s chest and wrapped my arms around his waist, nuzzling my nose against his bare chest, before laying my head on it.

“Something has to be done about her though I’ll talk to the guys in the morning.” J.C. said absentmindedly running his hand up and down my back comfortingly.

“Mmm.” I groaned out, not wanting to talk about Kristin anymore.

J.C. just chuckled, “come on let’s eat,” he said softly as he pulled away from me and moved to pour us both a glass of wine. I sat down on the couch and watched J.C. as he moved around, finally coming over and handing me a glass of red wine.

“Thanks.” I smiled before taking a big drink of it and letting it calm me down, “so what are we eating?”

“Mushroom ravioli.” J.C. smiled over at me, knowing how much I loved that particular dish. I set my wine glass down on the table as J.C. handed me a plate of ravioli covered in a cream sauce. I took a bite and groaned out at the flavor as J.C. just smirked over at me amused.

“You’re too easy to please.” He teased, nudging my knee with his.

“You just know what I like.” I grinned over at him as I continued to eat.

“I just pay attention.” J.C. shrugged trying to play down the situation.

“Yeah I know, Justin said you’ve been watching me.” I said looking over at him, his eyes widening slightly at my statement.

“What? What’d he say?” J.C. asked his voice higher than normal.

“Nothing really,” I shrugged, “he said it more as a fact, he wasn’t upset about it.”

“Are you?” J.C. asked softly.

I set my plate on the table and picked up my wine taking a long drink before answering, “No, because if I’m completely honest I watch you sometimes too.” A small smile tugged at the corners of J.C.’s mouth and I emptied my wine glass, and got up to refill it, trying to escape his intense gaze. I moved over and refilled J.C.’s glass as well, his eyes watching my every movement.

“Thank you.” J.C. said slowly licking his lips, and causing me to fidget under his gaze.


I finally sat back down and J.C. set his plate down and pulled me back, so I was leaning back against his chest. “Can I ask you something without you getting mad?” I asked quietly, settling back against him.

“Hmm?” J.C. questioned, his free hand resting lazily in my lap.

“Why were you so mad at me the past few days?” I whispered afraid of the answer.

“No Madi,” J.C. sighed, “I wasn’t mad at you,” he trailed off.

“You could have fooled me.” I sarcastically replied sipping on my wine.

“No, I don’t know, I was just confused about everything and I thought some distance might help me figure it all out.” J.C. said picking up my free hand and intertwining our fingers slowly.

“And did it?” I asked, laying my head back on his shoulder so I could look up at him.

“Not really.” He breathed out, staring down at me. My brows knit together in confusion, causing J.C. to sigh slightly, “I was just tired of the bickering and I missed being around you.” A small smile played on my lips, and I decided to let the conversation go for the time being, seeing as how I was just as confused about the whole situation.


“My turn, don’t get mad.” J.C. said a little more firmly, causing me to give him my full attention my curiosity peaked.

“What the fuck was with the coke the other day in the studio?” he accusingly asked, as I shrunk back and turned my head refusing to look at him. It was definitely out of character for me, and I knew J.C. wasn’t happy about it, but at the time it seemed like my best escape.

“Madison seriously.” J.C. stated.

“I…I don’t know,” I said quietly, “I just….you were upset with me and I didn’t know why and….” I trailed off as I heard J.C. exhale audibly and tighten his grip around me.

“I wasn’t upset until you pulled that stupid shit, you and Justin both need to stop with that shit.” He said gruffly and I just nodded my head not sure what else to do.

“Seriously Madi, you’re better than that, and you’ve even complained that Justin was getting out of hand with it.” J.C. sighed his tone softening slightly.

“I usually only do it occasionally when we’re partying.” I whispered out, afraid my voice would give out if I spoke any louder.

“Well that was far from partying, and it wasn’t a little amount either. You can’t start depending on that stuff.” J.C. said turning my face to look at him.

“I know, I’m sorry.” I said embarrassed and ashamed that J.C. was disappointed in me.

“Just don’t use it as an outlet for your emotions.” J.C. sighed, not wanting me to do it at all, but feeling like it wasn’t his place to say so. I quickly nodded, not wanting J.C. to think any less of me.


J.C. finished off his glass of wine and moved me slightly so he could sit up, “You want another bottle of wine?”

“It’s up to you.” I shrugged, wanting nothing more than to forget the conversation that just conspired.

“I’ll order another bottle, why don’t you find something to watch.” J.C. said softly, kissing the top of my head as he got up.

I watched him walk away, before settling back against the couch and turning on the tv and aimlessly started flipping through channels. I settled on the original Dracula, knowing I couldn’t watch things like this when Justin was around. He hated old movies, especially ones in black and white; he just didn’t find the charm in them that I did. I knew J.C. wouldn’t mind though, in fact he’d probably enjoy it just as much as me.

“Oh! Bela Lugosi the one true Dracula.” J.C. smirked over at me as he started to clean up the remnants of our dinner.

I smiled up at him, happy that he was happy with my movie choice, not that he would have said anything if he wasn’t, but I was constantly having to please Justin, so it was refreshing being able to do something as simple as watch the movie I wanted for once. There was a knock on the door and J.C. moved to get it, before returning and pouring us both more wine. He settled down on the couch and I leaned into him as we both focused our attention to the tv.


The movie was about over when Bri started crying from the bedroom. I stood up and stretched before making my way over to her diaper bag.

“I’ll get her, you get her bottle.” J.C. smiled as he stood up, turning the tv off. I just nodded and busied myself with making her bottle as J.C. scurried off to the bedroom.

I came out of the bathroom with the bottle to see J.C. sitting up against the head board, Bri in his arms. “Let me change her real quick.” I said as I sat beside him and reached for her.

“Already done.” J.C. smiled over at me.

“Well look at you.” I smiled, holding out the bottle to him. J.C. just grinned and took the bottle from me and began to feed her.

J.C. started to hum softly as he fed Bri, and I couldn’t keep the grin off my face as I watched him with her. When she finished the bottle, he gently moved her to burp her and noticed me staring at him.

“What?” J.C. asked shyly.

“You’re just really good with her, it’s kind of sexy.” I said grinning over at him.

“I don’t know about that,” he chuckled, “but she’s easy.” I just continued to smile at him as Bri finally burped and he brought her back down into his arms.

“She’s already out.” He laughed slightly and I just nodded as he got up to lay her back down.


Once J.C. had put her down he laid back down onto the bed, “come here,” he said opening his arms and motioning for me to come to him. I smiled softly and scooted down onto the bed and let him pull me to his chest.

“I know Justin kind of freaked out today, but you do want kids someday don’t you?” J.C. asked, running his fingers through my hair.

“Eventually yeah, I would love kids,” I smiled at the thought of it, “what about you?”

“Yeah, I think I’d like a little girl I could spoil.” J.C. said thoughtfully and I glanced up at him to see a small smile across his face.

“You’ll make a great dad one day.” I whispered up at him.

“Thanks, you’ll be a pretty amazing mom too.” He smiled down at me, causing my grin to widen, and my cheeks to flush slightly. I stared up at him for a few more minutes, before a giant yawn escaped my lips.

“Get some sleep.” J.C. smiled down at me as he reached over and turned the lamp off, before pulling me closer to him and kissing my forehead, before he closed his own eyes.

The next morning I woke up slightly confused as to where I was. I sat up, noticing the bed beside me empty and then looked over searching for the baby. Not seeing her I started to look around the room frantically, when J.C. finally stepped out of the bathroom.

“Where’s Bri?” I asked slight panic in my voice as I looked up at him.

“Calm down,” J.C. smiled slightly at me, noticing how upset I was getting as he sat down on the bed beside me, “Joey and Kelly came and got her a little while after you feel asleep last night.”

I visibly relaxed in front of him, and J.C. reached up to brush my hair behind my ear, “Come on, we’re meeting Johnny and the other guys for breakfast, so we can figure out what to do about Kristin.”

I groaned as I dropped my head forward, causing J.C. to chuckle slightly as he leaned in and kissed my head, “Come on, go get changed, so we can take care of this.”

“Oh, I have a few ideas.” I said sarcastically, causing J.C. to full out laugh as he stood up and grabbed my hand pulling me up along with him.

“See there’s that spunk,” he smiled as I just grinned back,” Let me throw on some clothes and I’ll meet you and J and we’ll go downstairs.”

“Alright, I’ll see you in a sec.” I said kissing him lightly on the cheek and making my way out of his room.


I walked back into my room and Justin looked up and smiled at me, “Hey! I was just getting ready to text you.”

“I’m sorry, I fell asleep while Bri was still there, and I didn’t even here Joey and Kelly come get her.” I frowned slightly as I made my way over to him and hugged him.

“It’s okay, Chris and I conned Mike and Lonnie into playing poker with us.” Justin said hugging me back as I just looked up at him studying his face. I reached up and pulled Justin’s head down kissing him feverishly as his grip on my waist tightened slightly. My hands slowly ran down over his shoulders and to his chest where I made slight circles as I continued to move south.

I made my way to the button on his shorts and quickly flipped it open and dipped my hand inside and grasped a hold of him causing him to groan, “Madi we can’t, we have to meet the guys.”

“We’ll be quick.” I said nodding my head as I took a step back and quickly pushed my shorts to the floor, before making my way over to the bed and sitting on the edge motioning Justin over.

Justin groaned as he slowly walked over to me, “we don’t have time,” he growled out as his hands ran up legs and over my thighs.

“Please.” I whimpered.

The truth was I felt guilty that I had spent two nights away from him this week and I didn’t want him to feel neglected. Without warning Justin’s hands locked on my thighs as he jerked me to the edge of the bed and plunged himself into me causing me to cry out in surprise. I fell back on my elbows for support as he started to slam himself into me, “Is this what you wanted? Huh? Is this what you wanted Madi?” Justin growled out his voice low as his fingers dug into my hips pulling me forcibly against him with each thrust. All I could do was whimper as my head fell back and my stomach muscles began to tighten.

“Look at me.” Justin said gruffly as he slapped his hand down onto my chest and roughly pulled on my nipple through my shirt. I let out a long moan as there was a knock on the door and Justin’s head snapped in that direction as a slight pout took over his face.

“Don’t….Stop…J.” I panted out, grabbing onto his wrist and bringing his attention back to me.

“Fuck Madi.” Justin grunted, speeding up his pace, chasing his release. Justin’s hand snaked across my thigh and up over my center where his thumb found my clit and he began to rub it furiously as there was another knock on the door.

“Hold on,” Justin yelled out before muttering, “fuck,” under his breath.

“J.” I cried out, as the beginning of my orgasm started to take over and I clamped down around him, pulling him deeper within me.

“Fuck Madi.” Justin grunted as he forcibly thrust into me a couple more times, before slowly grinding himself into me and falling over the edge himself.


Justin stayed where he was long enough to completely empty himself into me, before he quickly pulled away zipping his shorts back up. “Hurry up and get dressed,” he said as he made his way out of the bedroom and shut the door, leaving me by myself.

I couldn’t help but feel a little used as I slowly got up off the bed and made my way over to my suitcase to find something to wear. I had wanted to reassure Justin that I was his, and make him realize that I felt bad about spending two nights away from him and that I would always be there when he needed me. I knew we had things we had to do, but he made me feel like he couldn’t get away fast enough and that stung slightly, even though I knew he just didn’t want to be late.


I quickly changed and walked out to see Justin and J.C. standing by the door, ready to go, and smiled slightly when J.C. looked up and caught my eye.

“What’s wrong?” J.C. asked softly as I made my way over to them.

“Nothing.” I said plastering a smile on my face. J.C. gave me a look that clearly told me he didn’t believe me, but Justin had grabbed my hand and was dragging me out into the hall, so he let it go and followed us reluctantly.

Once we got in the elevator, Justin pulled me back against him, wrapping his arm around my waist, as he placed a kiss on my temple and whispered, “I love you.” I instantly relaxed back against him, all my doubts washing away, reassured by the simple gesture.


The three of us made our way into the restaurant and all went to the buffet to make ourselves a plate before we made our way over to the other guys and sat down. We all ate for a few minutes, chatting about nothing in particular when Johnny finally spoke up, “Madison this isn’t some dumb catty girl fight you have going on with Kristin is it?”

My head shot up at Johnny’s question as a chorus of, “No!”, “No Johnny.”, and “Hell no!” poured out of Justin, J.C., Chris, and even Joey’s mouth.

I smiled slightly to myself at the support from all the guys and Johnny sighed rubbing his hand over his face, “Okay, so what’s going on then? She doesn’t like Madi?” Johnny asked bewildered, obviously not knowing the whole reason for this meeting.

Johnny usually let me take the reins when it came to picking dancers, because he knew how I could be with other girls, and he must have assumed that I was just butting heads with Kristin. He also knew that the guys would almost always unanimously back me up, so there really wasn’t a point in fighting whatever I wanted, but he wanted to make things as quick and as easy as he possibly could.

“Johnny she needs to dial it down and realize I’m not interested in her.” J.C. started when Justin butted in, “she’s all over C’s dick and it’s getting old!”

I smirked at Justin’s outburst, but Johnny just glared over at him before speaking, “When did all this start?”

“When we were home for those couple of days, her and I went to dinner after leaving the compound one night, but it was just dinner, and the next thing I know she’s following me around and is pissed at Madi for spending time with me.” J.C. sighed.

“It really kind of started when we were in New Orleans, she just wasn’t as obvious about it.” I added as Johnny nodded slightly, “What happened last night?”

I rolled my eyes and looked over at J.C. to see who was going to rehash it when Joey spoke up from across the table, “I don’t really know what happened, all I know is she woke Bri up and I won’t tolerate it Johnny. Kelly and Bri are going to be in and out all summer and I’m not going to have to worry about my daughters well being while she’s here.” Joey said angrily as everyone turned to look at him.

“I’m sorry Joe.” I started looking up at him, feeling guilty for what happened.

“It’s not your fault Madi, don’t worry about it, and thanks for watching her last night.” Joey said his tone softening as he spoke to me.

“Alright I get it,” Johnny sighed defeated, “the question is what do you guys want to do about it?”

“I think we need to send her ass home!” I exclaimed exasperated as all the guys smirked over in my direction.

“We can’t do that.” Johnny sighed as I pouted.

“Well Johnny something needs done about her or she is going to have to go, she’s messing up everyone’s concentrations and trying to get in the middle of all kinds of things she knows nothing about.”Chris glared.

“Listen if we send her home, we’re down a dancer, and Madi doesn’t have time to teach anyone the steps in between two shows.” Johnny said seriously.

“No, but Darren would.” I said slowly the gears in my head turning.

“And Darren already knows all the dances!” Justin exclaimed from beside me.

“He’s busy working on Britney’s video right now, if it comes down to it, we can have him train a new dancer, but we need to try and solve this issue first.” Johnny said, causing me to slump back in my chair and a small scowl to cross over J.C.’s face.

“What if we paired her up with someone else?” Johnny asked calmly.

“Not me!” Justin and Joey exclaimed at the same time causing me to giggle slightly. Johnny sighed and looked back and forth between Chris and Lance expectantly.

“I’ll do it,” Chris sighed throwing his hands up slightly, “but Johnny you better get her ass in line because I won’t tolerate any more of her bullshit!”

“I’m going to have a talk with her don’t worry, but no one go around provoking her either.” Johnny said looking straight at me.

“Johnny this isn’t her fault.” J.C. spoke up, defending me.

“I’m just saying, I’m trying to fix this so let’s not make it worse.” Johnny said firmly.

“I’ll talk to Dana and let her know about the switch.” I nodded, hoping to put an end to the conversation; it was starting to give ma a headache and I just wanted to forget it.

“Alright, we’re pulling out in a half hour so be ready.” Johnny nodded as he stood up and left us all at the table.


I made my way back upstairs and made sure that all of mine and Justin’s stuff was packed back up and ready to go before allowing Mike to take our luggage and making my way down to the bus to head to the venue. When we walked into the venue I followed the guys into their dressing room and put my bag down before turning and heading back towards the door.

“Where are you going?” Justin questioned a small pout on his face.

“I need to go find Dana.” I shrugged walking out the door to run into Dana, Diana, and Michele.

“Hey,” I smiled stopping the three of them, “I was just going to go get my nails re-done, Dana why don’t you come with me, and Michele, Diana, why don’t you guys come join us in about twenty minutes.” I said looking at them expectantly.

“Okay.” They all nodded slowly, and Dana turned to follow me down the hall to where the guys stylists were set up.


Maria and Bev got to work on mine and Dana’s nails and I finally looked over at her, “So I don’t know what you’ve seen or heard about Kristin.” I started when I noticed Dana rolling her eyes.

“You mean her conquest to get J.C. into bed?” Dana asked disgustedly.

“Yeah, among other things, anyways she’s caused quite a commotion the past few days and the guys are sick of it,” I went on as she nodded, “so Johnny is talking to her, but the solution for the time being is to get her as far away from J.C. as possible.”

“So you are switching the dancers up?” Dana asked, seeing where the conversation was headed.

“Well just you and her if that’s okay.” I sighed, knowing it was an inconvenience to everyone else.

“That’s fine.” Dana nodded slowly.

“Chris volunteered to dance with her, he won’t put up with any of her shit. That being said J.C. is a very eccentric and hyper dancer, which is why I put Kristin with him in the first place, so if you aren’t comfortable dancing with him let me know.” I said looking over at her.

“It should be fine.” Dana shrugged over at me.

“Okay well if you change your mind let me know, I’m use to J.C.’s style and Justin is much precise in his steps, so if it becomes an issue you can dance with Justin.” I said, wanting her to be as comfortable as possible.

“That’s not necessary; I know you and Justin are together.” Dana said slightly confused.

“Yeah, but this isn’t about that, this is about the show being as good as it possibly can be, and Justin wants it to be perfect so if you are more comfortable with him that’s fine.” I nodded.

“I don’t think it should be an issue.”Dana shrugged.

“Okay, well like I said if you change your mind just let me know.” I smiled as Michel and Diana made their way into the room.


A few minutes later Kristin burst into the room a scowl on her face, and hatred flashing across her eyes when she saw me. Bev looked up and smiled politely at her, “Kristin I know you want me to dye your hair, but Madison asked me to trim hers really quick, so you’ll have to wait ‘til I’m done with her.”

I couldn’t help but smirk to myself as I saw Kristin’s jaw tighten in anger, but as much as I loved getting under her skin I really didn’t feel like dealing with her at the moment. “That’s okay I really should go catch up with the guys.” I smiled in Bev’s direction as I turned to make my way towards the door.

Kristin glared at me the whole way and muttered, “Bitch,” once I made it out of the door. I contemplated turning around and ripping her a new asshole but decided against it when I heard Dana, “Let it go Kristin, she hasn’t done anything to you.”


I made my way back into the guys dressing room to see Joey and Lance sitting at the table going over some paperwork that sounded like it was from their movie, and J.C. sprawled out on the couch. “How’d everything go?” J.C. asked as he started to move for me to sit.

I motioned for him to stop however, and settled in between his legs, laying down on top of him and hugging him, “With Dana everything went fine, Kristin is pissed though.” J.C. had started to absentmindedly run his hands up and down my back and I noticed Joey and Lance glancing over in our direction, perplexed looks on their faces.

“I thought Johnny was talking to her?” J.C. questioned confused.

“He did, she just walked in as I was getting ready to leave, but if looks could kill I’d be dead.” I snorted glancing up at him to see laughter dancing across his face.

“Oh well, she’ll get over it,” he chuckled as I just smiled up at him.

“So I told Dana if she couldn’t keep up with your hyper ass she could dance with Justin.” I said reaching up and brushing his hair off his forehead.

“Aww do you want to dance with me?” J.C. asked teasingly, as a stupid grin adorned my face.

“It’s a nice change of pace every once in a while.” I smiled shyly at him, my hand lingering on his cheek. J.C.’s eye caught mine and he held my attention as his tongue slowly darted out to lick his lips, causing me to gulp down a groan. My heard rate sped up and I was sure J.C. could feel it, from the way I was laying against him. I bit my bottom lip fighting the urge to lean up and kiss him, when finally Justin and Chris loudly appeared in the doorway breaking our trance. I cleared my throat and caught Joey’s questioning gaze before I turned my head to smile over at Justin and Chris.

“Hey baby.” Justin smiled as he bent his head down and pecked me lightly on the lips.

I started to get up off J.C. when Justin stopped me, “Stay, Chris and I are going to go work on this song,” he said motioning for me to stay with J.C. as he started to dig through his backpack looking for his notebook.

I nodded slightly and laid my head back on J.C.’s shoulder and closed my eyes. J.C. inhaled deeply and brushed my hair away from his face, before wrapping his arms back around me. He started to hum softly and I opened my eyes slightly to smile at him, before sighing contentedly and slowly closing my eyes again and drifting off to sleep.


I woke up a little bit later and noticed J.C. was asleep under me, so I laid my head back down on his chest, trying not to wake him. I closed my eyes and pretended I was still sleeping when I heard the conversation Joey and Kelly were having.

“I’m telling you they were ready to kiss until Justin walked in!” Joey exclaimed exasperated.

“Joey there’s no way.” Kelly sighed.

“I’m telling you! Ask Lance, he saw it too!” Joey insisted.

“You are insane! They’re just friends, they’re close, you know how they are.” Kelly said shaking her head at Joey.

“Yeah I do, but I also know they just about kissed.” Joey whispered urgently trying to get his point across.

“Joey it’s none of your business even if it is true.” Kelly reprimanded.

“Well they’re not doing much to hide it, I mean look at them.” Joey said flailing his arm, motioning over towards us.

“And you also said that Justin saw them and didn’t care, so let it go.” Kelly urged, rolling her eyes slightly in Joey’s direction.


Just then Justin and Chris made their way back into the room shutting Joey up and I looked up at them and smiled as J.C. started to stir beneath me. “Seriously how do you two sleep so much?” Justin snored over in our direction. J.C. and I both just shrugged slightly as I moved over allowing him to sit up.

“For real what’d you do stay up all night working each other out?” Justin questioned with raised eyebrows.

“Yeah, that’s why first things this morning I came to have sex with you, but wait you probably didn’t notice seeing as how you couldn’t wait to get away from me.” I said sarcastically, noticing the understanding cross over J.C.’s face as I got up and made my way to the bathroom and slamming the door.


I came back out of the bathroom and noticed everyone’s eyes on me and groaned slightly to myself. “Can I talk to you?” Justin asked staring me down.

“I don’t feel like fighting J.” I sighed brushing past him.

Justin wasn’t going to let it go that easily though, and grabbed my arm pulling me back to him, “I don’t want to fight either,” he whispered. I just nodded and let him lead me out of the room as everyone else just watched.


Justin led me out to the buses and I walked on and plopped down on the couch crossing my arms, waiting on the fight that I knew was coming. Justin frowned slightly as he sat down beside me and grabbed my hand pulling on it, forcing me to uncross my arms.

“Hey.” Justin said softly, causing me to look up at him.

“Are you upset about this morning?” He asked, causing me to roll my eyes at him and pull my hand out of his grasp.

“Madi, I didn’t mean to make you feel like I didn’t want you, I just didn’t want to be late meeting Johnny.” Justin said picking my hand up again and running his thumb back and forth across it.

“I know.” I sighed frowning as Justin pulled me onto his lap and wrapped his arms around me.

“I just felt like you got what you wanted and that was it and you were gone.” I whimpered into his chest.

“Madi you wanted sex this morning, not me.” Justin chuckled as I glared up at him.

“Not that I minded,” he said quickly noticing my glare, “but you know I don’t like to be late for meetings especially ones with Johnny.”

“I know, I just felt bad because I spent another night away from you.” I pouted, burying my head in the crook of his neck.

“Baby look at me.” Justin urged softly.

When I finally brought my head up to look at him he continued, “I don’t ever want you to feel obligated to sleep with me,” he said seriously.

I nodded slightly before speaking, “ I know but,” I started when Justin shook his head cutting me off.

“But nothing. I love you, and I love having sex with you,” Justin started a lopsided grin on his face, as I rolled my eyes slightly before he continued, “but I only want to have sex if it’s what you want. You don’t owe me anything, least of all that.”

“I know. I love you too, and I did want to have sex with you, but at the same time I did feel like I need to make up not being with you last night.” I said quietly, refusing to look up at him.

“Madi no. I don’t want you to feel like you even have to spend every night with me if you don’t want to.” Justin soothed, holding my head to his chest.

“But we’re together J.” I said pouting slightly.

“Yes, but we are not married and we don’t live together and even if we did I wouldn’t want you to do anything you didn’t want to. When we’re not on tour we don’t spend every night together and it’s fine if you want to hang out with C or your brother or whoever. You don’t have to feel guilty about it.” Justin sighed.

“Okay I’m sorry.” I said timidly.

“Madi there’s nothing to apologize for.” Justin sighed slightly frustrated with the conversation.

“What time do you have to be at sound check?” I asked wanting to changed the subject as I looked up at him, wrapping my arms around his neck.

“Mmm I can skip it if you want, they should have everything set from the other night.” Justin said licking his lips.

“Are you sure?” I asked, not wanting to cause any problems.

“Yeah, just let me text C,” Justin said reaching into his pocket for his phone, but frowning when he didn’t find it, “shit my phones in the dressing room.”

“I’ll text him.” I said shaking my head as I pulled my phone out of my back pocket.


‘Hey Justin’s gonna skip soundcheck’ I texted J.C. and my phone immediately lit back up.

‘Are u okay’ J.C. asked and I smiled lightly before replying, ‘Everythings fine thanks’. I threw my phone off to the side and looked up at Justin smiling, before kissing him lightly.

“What do you want to do?” Justin asked smiling as he pulled away from the kiss.

“Can we just lay down and watch a movie or something?” I asked, just wanting to be close to him.

“Sure, come on.” Justin smiled, standing us both up and walking towards the back of the bus.

I crawled up on the bed as Justin moved to find a movie, “What do you wanna watch?” he asked glancing back at me.

“It doesn’t matter.” I shrugged, not caring at all. Justin nodded and slipped The Godfather into the dvd player before making his way around the bed and laying down beside me. I immediately curled into him, wrapping my arm around his waist and laying my head on his chest. Justin squeezed me gently, kissing the top of my head, before turning his attention to the tv. I kissed his chest, contented to be in his arms while he watched the movie.


A little while later, Justin was running his fingers through my hair as he put his mouth to my ear, “baby, you need to get up, we have to get ready for the show soon.”

I groaned as I wiped the sleep from my eyes and looked up at him frowning, “I’m sorry I fell asleep.”

“It’s okay I did for a while too.” Justin smirked as I laughed.

“See, naps are wonderful aren’t they?” I teased.

“With you, they are.” Justin smiled as a small blush crept across my face, causing him to chuckle.

“Come on sleepyhead.” Justin laughed as he rolled off the bed and offered me his hand.


The show went off without much incident Dana easily kept up with J.C. the whole time. Kristin on the other hand was another story; I noticed Chris shuffling her along at one point as she was watching J.C. and not paying attention to what she was suppose to be doing. Also during It’s Gonna be Me, J.C. and I were messing around with each other, and she came by and tripped me. J.C. easily caught me though, and she stomped off as I wrapped my arms around his neck and shimmied around against him for a minute. When the shoe ended I made it a point to wait on J.C. and I jumped up into his arms hugging him before heading off to the bus right beside him just to spite Kristin for her little stunt.


Justin, J.C., and I all made our way onto the bus and Justin immediately headed to the shower leaving J.C. and I to wait on him.

“Are you okay?” J.C. asked as he sat down beside me.

“Yeah, why?” I asked slightly confused.

“Kristin.” He said rolling his eyes.

“I’m fine, I can’t say the same for her though, if she keeps this shit up.” I snorted.

“Oh it’s gonna stop. I’m going to let Johnny know about it.” J.C. said seriously.

“It won’t do any good, if he wouldn’t send her home this morning he’s not going to now. It’s fine I can handle her.” I sighed.

“I know you can,” J.C. grinned goofily over at me, “but I’m still going to let him know, the more he hears the more he’ll be apt to listen to us.”

Just then Justin came out and plopped down beside us, “What are you talking about?”

“Kristin tripping Madi on stage.” J.C. sighed as I stood up.

“What? When?” Justin asked defensively sitting up.

“It wasn’t that big of a deal guys, seriously.” I nodded trying to calm them down as I made my way into the bathroom.


I came out a few minutes later to hear them both still talking about Kristin, “Guys seriously let it go.” I said shaking my head as I grabbed a bottle of water, before sitting back down.

“I’m gonna shower real quick, if Johnny calls me back come get me.” J.C. said tossing his phone down on the table.

“All you are going to accomplish is pissing Johnny off.” I called over my shoulder to J.C. as he was shutting the bathroom door.

“She pulls a stunt like that again and Johnny won’t have to worry about it because I’ll take care of it.” Justin huffed. I pursed my lips together trying to hide my smile, but failed miserably.

“What?” Justin asked with raised eyebrows.

“It’s just cute how protective you guys are.” I giggled as J.C. made his way back out to us.

“Someone has to be.” J.C. smirked as I raised my eyebrows at him.

“Right, because I can’t take care of myself.” I huffed.

“No one ever said that. Hell you scare me sometimes.” J.C. chuckled as I just smirked knowingly.

“Good, I’m going to go lie down and put a movie on. Who’s coming with?” I asked, standing up and glancing at the two of them.

“Come on C.” Justin said as he got up to follow me and motioned for J.C. to come as well.

I found myself laying on the bed, snuggled between the two of them as some movie played and I couldn’t help but smile to myself. As much shit as I was giving them over the Kristin situation, I was secretly glad that they cared so much and were so quick to come to my defense. I had no idea what I would do without either of them and it was too overwhelming to even contemplate. I rolled onto my side and Justin scooted over pulling me back against his chest as I reached out and grabbed a hold of J.C.’s hand, wanting to be near both of them. J.C. smiled down at me and I squeezed his hand lightly before shutting my eyes as exhaustion slowly over took my body.

The next morning I woke up still in between both of them and realized no one had bothered to wake any of us up when we got to the hotel. I did my best to get up without waking either of them up, but when I made my way out of the bathroom I found them both groggily sitting up. I crawled back up the bed and settled back in between them noticing the bemused look on both of their faces.

“Can we just stay here all day?” I questioned, snuggling back under the blanket.

“You can if you want, but Justin and I have to head to the studio.” J.C. sighed, rubbing his hand down his face, trying to slowly wake himself up.

“I don’t want to stay here by myself.” I pouted.

“Well then come with us, or go hang out with Chris for a while, we only have the studio ‘til one today.” Justin shrugged, standing up and pulling a shirt over his head.

“Yeah, maybe I’ll see what Chris is up to.” I nodded, grabbing my phone off the table so I could text him.


Chris and I spent the morning at the batting cages and then at the arcade goofing off, before making our way to the studio right before one to meet up with Justin and J.C. I was doing my best to suppress my giggling while trying to shush Chris as I opened the studio door, trying not to disturb them while they were working.

“You too are about as subtle as a bull in a china shop.” J.C. said raising his eyebrows at us and laughing.

“I tried to tell him.” I exclaimed, but couldn’t stop giggling long enough to solely place the blame on Chris.

“It’s okay, we were just finishing up.” J.C. chuckled turning back to the soundboard as I made my way over to Justin and bent down and kissed him.

“So what’s going on now?” I asked looking down at Justin.

“Well, I was actually gonna see if Chris wanted to go golfing.” Justin trailed off looking up at Chris.

“Hell yeah.” Chris yelled out, high fiving Justin. I scowled over in their directions slightly, not really upset but wanting to give them a hard time anyways.

“Aww come on Madi, you spent all morning with Chris, don’t hog him.” Justin pouted as I rolled my eyes at him and we are started laughing.

“Guess you’re stuck with me.” J.C. grinned, turning back around to look at us, as he finished what he was doing.

“Well if you insist.” I sighed in mock frustration. J.C. narrowed his eyes at me as he reached out and grabbed me around the waist and started tickling me. I shrieked and flailed around trying to get out J.C.’s grasp but he was unrelenting.

“Stop, please! Please! Please stop!” I shrieked gasping for air. J.C. finally stopped, laughing, and I stomped over to Justin pouting.

“Aww baby.” Justin chuckled wrapping his arms around me.

“You’re going to leave me with that!” I pouted up at him as he just smirked at me.

“I’m pretty sure you can handle C.” Justin laughed, shaking his head at me.

“Fine! But we are going shopping.” I said turning around to face J.C.

“Whatever you want.” J.C. smiled standing up and readjusting his hat.

“Good.” I smiled as I turned and kissed Justin once more and then headed towards the door the guys all following behind me chatting and laughing.


I set the pair of shoes I just took off beside J.C. before turning back to the sales lady, “Can I also see these two in a size eight?” I asked pointing to two more pairs of shoes on the wall.

She nodded an scurried off to the stock room as J.C. just regarded me with raised eyebrows, “You and J both have a serious problem when it comes to sneakers, I mean honestly how many pairs do you need?”

I shrugged glancing over my shoulder at him, “I don’t know I like to have options, besides I like to match.”

“You have a pair in every color under the sun! Honestly our bus is overflowing with sneakers from the two of you.” J.C. said exasperated, but smiling slightly, letting me know he was only teasing.

Just then the sales girl returned and I immediately grabbed the shoes from her to put on, “You’re just mad because you have to carry my bags.” I winked over at him as he just shook his head at me amused.

“Whatever, as long as we stop by the record store on our way back to the hotel.” He said giving me a lopsided grin.

“Of course.” I smiled, walking around in the new pair of shoes I had on my feet and checking them out in the mirror.


I quickly paid for my three pairs of shoes and followed J.C. out of the store and had to jog slightly to catch up to him as he made his way down the street to the record store in a haste.

“Where’s the fire?” I joked, falling into step beside him.

“You get excited about shoes, I get excited about music.” J.C. grinned opening the door to the store and allowing me to enter before him.

“I do want the new Staind cd.” I muttered walking into the store.

“Your taste in music is awful.” J.C. sighed shaking his head at me as he started to dig through piles of music muttering to himself. I nudged him slightly smiling to myself as I made my way further into the store in search of the cd I wanted. After searching for a little while and being satisfied with what I found I slowly made my way back over to J.C.

“I also got The Beatles.” I said holding up their 1 album proudly as I beamed up at him.

“That’s a start,” he cracked, struggling to hold the mound of music in his arms.

“Come on.” I giggled grabbing some of them from him, before they all clattered to the floor.


We made our way back outside giggling slightly at each other’s ridiculous obsessions as a loud clap of thunder boomed over head. “Shit, maybe we shouldn’t have walked.” J.C. sighed looking up at the darkening sky.

“Well come on, we’re not that far away.” I said as I picked up my pace, trying to hurry back to the hotel before the rain started.

We were still a few blocks from the hotel when the heavens decided to open up and we were caught right in the middle of a downpour. I noticed the shocked look on J.C.’s face as drops of water started to soak into his clothes and down his face and I couldn’t help the uncontrollable giggles that took over my body at how cute he looked. J.C. tried to pout over at me, but caught himself laughing right along with me. I just grinned at him and took off in a jog, him hot on my heels. By the time we reached the hotel however, we were both completely soaked and I couldn’t help but shiver as the cool air hit us as we entered the lobby.


“Shit I never got my key off of Justin.” I sighed as we headed upstairs in the elevator.

“I’ll go get you another one.” Lonnie nodded as J.C. spoke up as well, “Just come back to my room.”

“But I’m all wet.” I pouted over at him, noticing his smirk.

“You know what I mean, ass.” I said swatting at him playfully.

“So throw on some of my sweats, I’m sure Lonnie wants to go put some dry clothes on too.” J.C. said glancing over at his bodyguard.

“Okay.” I relented, noticing how miserable Lonnie looked soaking wet.


We walked into J.C.’s room and he immediately took his hat off throwing it down on the table before peeling his shirt off. I shivered again slightly, this time not sure if it was because of the cold or me staring at J.C.’s bare, damp chest. J.C. noticed however, “Here let me get you some clothes,” he said as he moved to his suitcase to pull some sweats and a t-shirt out of it. I shivered once more and this time knew it really was because I was cold.

“Uh, do you care if I take a quick bath, I’m freezing.” I said glancing over at him timidly.

“Of course go ahead.” J.C. smiled, handing me the clothes he had pulled out for me.

“Thanks.” I smiled slightly relieved, as I hurried off to the bathroom.
I groaned slightly as I eased into the hot water, my body instantly warming up as I reached for J.C.’s body wash and squirted some into the tub creating some bubbles. I leaned back, sinking deeper into the water and rested my head on the edge of the tub, closing my eyes. I was completely relaxed and had no intention of moving when the door slowly creaked open. I slowly opened my eyes to see J.C. shyly step into the room.

“Hey, I was going to make some coffee, I just wanted to know if you wanted some.” J.C. said his eyes fixed on the tiled floor as he reached up and ran a hand through his hair. I whimpered slightly as he moved his arm; he was only wearing a pair of sweatpants that were sitting low on his hips and it gave me the perfect view as his muscles contracted with his slight movements. His eyes slowly rose and caught mine at the sound that escaped my lips. I bit my lip and stared up at him, barely able to form thoughts let alone words.


J.C. slowly shuffled across the bathroom and sat on the edge of the tub as he reached up and brushed my damp hair behind my ear, never breaking our eye contact. I swallowed hard as his hand lingered on my cheek, his thumb lightly caressing back and forth. I opened my mouth to speak, but words seemed to evade me and I slowly closed it again not sure what to say.


J.C. moved forward, slightly hesitating waiting to see if I was going to pull away, but when I didn’t he continued and crashed his lips down onto mine in a heated kiss as his hand tangled in my hair. I pulled myself into a better sitting position, running my hands up over J.C.’s arms and pulling him slightly closer. All too quickly J.C. pulled away from the kiss, and his eyes traveled down over my now exposed upper half and he licked his lips slowly as he stood and grabbed a towel before making his way back to me an opening the towel up. I reached out and grabbed his hand steadying myself as I slowly stood up and he moved to wrap the towel around my body, before picking me up out of the tub and setting me gently on the floor in front of him. My arms were wrapped up in the towel, so I just leaned into him, placing my head on his shoulder as he wrapped his arms around me, rubbing up and down my back doing his best to dry me off.


I placed a soft kiss on his collarbone, and then glanced up at him with questioning eyes, hearing his sharp intake of breath. He quieted my fears however, as he roughly grabbed my face between his hands and caught my lips in another kiss, this one a little more urgent. I let out a small moan as he pried my mouth open and his tongue became entangled with mine. I moved my arms up, wrapping them around his neck, letting my towel fall to the floor as the kiss deepened. J.C. started to stumble backwards, pulling me along with him, never breaking our kiss as we bounced off the sink and the doorframe before he finally backed me up against the bed and lifted me up on it. We broke away from the kiss momentarily gasping for air, as I scooted myself back onto the bed and J.C. crawled up beside me, propped up on his elbow looking down at me. His fingers flitted across my bare stomach, his touch light and barely there, but setting my skin on fire all the same. I moved my hand up to caress his face, before grabbing his chin in between my fingers and pulling him down to kiss me again. I was so lost in the kiss that I didn’t notice J.C.’s hand moving until two of his long fingers parted my slit and slipped inside of me. I pulled away from the kiss, throwing my head back, groaning as I felt his fingers sliding against me.

“Mmm Madison.” J.C. groaned out, burying his head in the crook of my neck as his hand was already soaked from my juices. My hips instinctively started moving against his hand, pushing down on it trying to create more friction, as he kissed and lapped at my neck. His fingers were stroking me in exactly the right spot as the palm of his hand grinded against my clit and I knew it wouldn’t take much more before I gloriously lost myself against his hand.


“Stop.” I panted out, tugging on his hair and trying to move back from his unrelenting hand.

“What’s wrong?” J.C. asked his face full of concern as he pulled back to look at me. I just shook my head slightly as I grabbed his wrist pulling it away from me and bringing it to my lips and kissing it softly before letting it go and moving my hands down to his hips, pushing the fabric of his sweats down slightly. Understanding washed over his face and he quickly pushed his pants all the way down, kicking them off, allowing his cock to stand free against my hip. I opened my legs wider and J.C. moved to settle himself in between them, settling his weight on me, before bending down and kissing me softly a few times. I ran my hands down his back, moving my hips slightly letting him know I was ready for him.
J.C. pushed himself up enough on one arm as he grasped himself in his other hand and looked down both of our bodies as he slid himself up and down my folds a few times, spreading my juices out. He finally settled himself against my opening pushing slightly and I knew it would only take one quick movement for him to be completely buried within me. My nails scratched lightly on his back and he slowly pushed himself into me his eyes snapping shut as I completely engulfed him. I moaned out my arms locking under his arms onto his shoulders as he sat still giving me a minute to get use to him. I squeezed his shoulders and he pulled out of me agonizingly slow, before pushing himself back into me, allowing me feel every inch of his mass. J.C. groaned out as he started to move a little faster rolling his hips against mine as I fisted my hands in his hair tugging on it lightly.

“Madison.” J.C. panted out as his lips found mine again in a passionate kiss. I broke away from the kiss panting trying to catch my breath as I brought my legs further up J.C.’s sides allowing him to delve deeper within me.

“C.” I moaned out placing kissed across his shoulder as he continued to rock against me, rubbing gloriously against my clit as he did so.

“Oh Madison, you feel amazing.” J.C. managed to groan out in between thrusts, and it caused my pussy to twitch slightly around him, eliciting a slow hiss from him.

“J.C. …..I….can’t….” I started as my stomach and leg muscles tightened as the beginning of my orgasm started to build.

“It’s okay baby, let it go.” J.C. grunted out his face red, obviously trying to hold off on his own orgasm.

“Ahhh.” I cried out, my nails digging into his shoulders as I clamped down around him, losing myself to him as he groaned and let himself fall over the edge as well, spilling himself into me.


J.C. collapsed, all of his weight resting on me as he panted trying to regain his breathing and I slowly released my grip on his shoulders and unwrapped my legs from around his waist.

“Madison, that was….wow.” J.C. chuckled as he slowly rolled off of me, making sure to keep an arm around me and keeping me flush up against him.

Suddenly the weight of everything that just happened hit me and my mind flashed to Justin and suddenly I felt like I couldn’t breathe. My body must have tensed because J.C. raised his head to look at me questioningly, “what’s wrong?”

I looked over at the concern on his face and a wave of nausea washed over me as I tried to contemplate how I could have messed things up so badly. I ripped J.C.’s arm off of me and bolted into the bathroom and shut and locked the door as I quickly moved to put my clothes back on not caring that they were still wet.

“Madison, what’s going on? Are you alright?” J.C. yelled through the door knocking on it as uncontrollable sobs took over my body.


I opened the door and pushed past J.C. making my way across the room as quickly as possible with my blurred vision.

“Madi?” J.C. asked softly as I made it to the door. I turned to look at him, feeling guilty for letting things get this far and for the confused and hurt look that adorned his face.

“Justin.” I whispered as tears continued to pour down my face and a look of understanding and horror washed over J.C.’s face. J.C. fell to the bed, looking completely defeated as he ran his hand through his hair tugging on it slightly.

I sobbed and turned to leave again when J.C.’s voice stopped me, “Madison, please don’t. Please come talk to me,” he choked out fighting back his own tears.

“I can’t.” I shook my head and quickly disappeared out the door leaving J.C. alone to his own thoughts.


J.C. sighed completely defeated as the door closed and he let a few tears fall down his face. He probably just single handedly lost the two most important people in his life in a moment of weakness and he had nobody to blame but himself. Justin was like a brother to him and they had basically spent every day together over the last ten years. He saw how completely enamored Justin was with me from day one, and so he never dreamt on acting on any of his feelings for me, knowing I was probably better suited for Justin. We were closer in age and it hadn’t been until the last year or two that J.C. took note and realized just how much I had grown up and by that time I had already been with Justin for a couple years and there was no way in hell he was going to get in the middle of that. Yet he did, and now here he sat about to be completely lost when the only two people he cared for walked out of his life. He sighed and fell back onto the bed feeling completely defeated and not knowing what to do to fix it.

I stepped into the hall and ran right into Justin’s chest. “Woah, where you going in such a hurry?” Justin chuckled wrapping his arms around me to steady me.

I hiccupped trying to choke down a sob and Justin pulled away slightly to look at me finally realizing I was crying. “Madi, what’s wrong baby?” Justin asked softly as he brought his hand up and swiped his thumb across my cheek, wiping away the tears. I looked up at Justin’s concerned face and completely lost it, causing my knees to give out and me to fall against his chest.

“Hey, it’s okay baby, come here.” Justin soothed as he moved us down the hallway to our room and fumbled in his pocket with his free hand trying to find the key.


Justin finally got the door opened and ushered me inside, quickly moving to the couch and pulling me down on it beside him. “Madi, what’s going on? And why are you wearing wet clothes? Lonnie said you were going to C’s room to change because I had your key.” Justin questioned, sitting sideways so he could look at me.

At the mention of J.C., I snatched my hands back out of Justin’s grasp and brought my knees up to my chest and curled into myself as a new wave of tears started to fall. “Madi baby, talk to me.” Justin urged as he scooted closer and wrapped his arm around my shoulders trying to pull me to him.

I attempted to shrug off his arm as I turned my head the opposite way and refused to look at him. I didn’t deserve him and I didn’t deserve J.C.’s friendship and I knew as soon as I told Justin what had happened that I would be completely alone.

“Baby you’re scaring me.” Justin whispered as he did his best to hug me.

“Just leave me alone.” I managed to get out, which caused Justin to sit up bewildered.

“O….okay,” Justin stuttered out, “will you talk to someone else? J.C. maybe?”

“No!” I yelled out exasperated as I stood up and made my way to the bedroom, peeling off my wet clothes and digging in my suitcase for some dry clothes.

“What about Chris?” Justin asked timidly, leaning against the doorframe as I pulled on a dry shirt.

“Please just let me be.” I cried falling onto the bed and curling up into the fetal position.

“I’m not leaving you alone like this.” Justin almost whined as he moved across the room and laid down beside me, wrapping his arms around me. I just continued to cry as Justin held me, feeling comforted and safe in his arms, but knowing it would be short lived. I slowly moved my hand down and intertwined my fingers with Justin’s just wanting to have some sense of normalcy before everything fell apart. I felt Justin relax against me as I took his hand and he exhaled loudly before putting his mouth to my ear and whispering, “I love you.”


I tensed up and let go of Justin’s hand and rolled away from him, crawling up the bed and sitting up against the head board, “Don’t say that,” I cried.

“What? I love you?” Justin asked bewildered as he sat up to face me.

“Don’t. Please don’t.” I said closing my eyes and shaking my head back and forth.

“Madi what’s going on?” Justin whispered pleadingly, trying to get me to talk to him.

“I can’t. I’m sorry, I’m so sorry Justin.” I whispered forcing each word out.

“For what? What’s going on?” Justin asked reaching out to grab my hand, but I pulled it away from him.

“I….I can’t.” I cried out, not sure what I was saying and not being able to form coherent thoughts.

“Baby I love you, whatever it is it’ll be okay.” Justin soothed.

“Please stop saying that.” I pleaded finally looking up at him, tears still streaming down my face.

“Wha? Madi you love me right?” Justin asked his voice cracking and breaking my heart all at the same time.

“Yes! God yes! Please no matter what know that I love you and don’t ever forget that.” I pleaded, squeezing my eyes shut, not able to look at him.

“Okay.” Justin said slowly, trying to process the whole situation.

“Please don’t hate me.” I whispered almost inaudibly, but Justin was watching me so closely that he heard me loud and clear.

“Baby I could never hate you,” Justin started when I cut him off, “Don’t say that.”

“It’s true, I love you and nothing is going to change that.” Justin insisted as he scooted a little closer.

“Just stop!” I yelled out aggravated, causing Justin’s eyes to widen and him to sit back away from me. I couldn’t handle all of Justin’s reassuring promises, knowing what I did and knowing how quickly his mind was going to change.

“You need to tell me what’s going on.” Justin said slowly, enunciating each word, trying to understand what had me so upset but also starting to lose his patience with my withdrawn attitude and random outbursts. I nodded vigorously knowing I had to tell him and I had to do it before I lost my nerve.

“I slept with J.C.” I said hurriedly all in one breath, refusing to look up at him.

“I know.” Justin said slowly, obviously still confused. I groaned slightly to myself, not sure if I had the strength or energy to explain everything to him.

“No J, I just slept with him.” I whispered, covering my face with my hands, and waiting on the inevitable blow up. My chest tightened and I was finding it hard to breathe as time seemed to stand still as I waited on Justin to respond.


Justin’s response was anything but what I expected, “Baby look at me,” Justin pried as he grabbed my hands and pulled them away from my face. I let him remove my hands and glanced up at him baffled by his soft tone and calm demeanor.

“Did you hear me?” I questioned my confusion growing by the second. Justin nodded slowly, tugging on my hands slightly and pulling me to his chest and hugging me against him.

“Baby I love you and you love me right?” Justin asked softly, running his fingers through my hair comfortingly.

“Yes J, please believe me.” I cried clinging to his shirt, afraid that the weight of everything would hit him and he’d move away from me.

“Shh baby it’s okay, please calm down.” Justin urged slightly rocking me back and forth.

“Why are you so calm? Why aren’t you yelling or throwing something?” I asked bewildered, tilting my head up to look at him.

Justin took a deep breath and slowly exhaled before responding, “Madi I love you and J.C. is my best friend and with that said I want you both to be happy.”

“What?” I muttered out confused, my head swimming.

“Listen I know you and C are close and always have been, but I also know that it goes deeper than that, fuck why do you think he can’t hold a girlfriend longer than a couple months.” Justin chuckled slightly as I just stared at him completely dumbfounded.

“Wait, so you’re saying J.C. has feelings for me?” I whispered as Justin just nodded giving me an odd look, “and you knew?” I asked as he nodded again, “And you agreed to the whole threesome thing knowing that?” I squeaked out.

“Like I said I want you both to be happy.” Justin stated.

“What about you?” I asked incredulously.

“You love me right?” Justin asked softly, searching my eyes for any signs of doubt.

“Yes but…” I trailed off trying to find the right words.

“But nothing. I love you and you love me, but I want you to have everything you want and J.C. too and if you guys are happy with each other why should I stop you?” Justin said eerily calm for the statement he was making.

“But what about you? What about us?” I asked, tears glistening in my eyes once again.

“Shh baby stop,” Justin soothed, kissing me softly, trying to calm my fears but only confusing me more, “you and I are fine.”

“But you said…” I asked becoming more and more confused.

“Listen you and I are fine and nothing between us is going to change….unless you want it to?” Justin questioned as an afterthought.

“No!” I said quickly, shaking my head for effect.

“Okay, but that doesn’t mean I have a problem with you and J.C. either. I mean hell I left you alone to have sex the morning Trace left.” Justin said trying to get his point across.

“We never had sex after you left.” I insisted.

“Really? Because as far as I’ve been concerned you guys did and that’s okay.” Justin said as I just continued to look up at him confused. “Look it’s like the best of both worlds kind of, when I told you I wouldn’t trust anyone but C to be that close to you I meant it. I trust you and I trust him and I know you guys feel the same about me, and I have no problem sharing you with him if that’ll make everyone happy.” Justin said, doing his best to explain himself.

“Sharing me?” I asked my voice rising slightly.

“Okay maybe not the best word, but me, you, and C we work. We all get along great and we all trust each other and are comfortable together and I realize I probably sound insane right now but fuck baby it works and I don’t see any reason to change. J.C. gives you something I can’t and vice versa and he’s been so happy lately and I know it’s because of you and that’s all I want is for everyone to be happy.” Justin rambled on trying to get his point across.

“Are you serious?” I asked not sure if I was more baffled or relieved by everything he was saying.

“Yes baby and I know this makes no sense and no one will understand it, but no one else needs to, as long as me, you, and J.C. are okay with it that’s all that matters.” Justin said placing another soft kiss on my mouth.

“Wait! So have you told J.C. about all this?” I asked confused, and slightly agitated that I was the only one out of the loop.

“No, I haven’t said anything specifically to him, I just thought you both understood, but I guess I was wrong.” Justin shrugged as I rolled my eyes at him.

“How could you possibly think we would know that? Justin this whole thing is about as far out in left field that you can get!” I exclaimed, causing him to chuckle slightly at me.

“Okay I’m sorry,” Justin laughed slightly, “but the way you two have been acting I just figured you knew.”

“No, and I can’t believe we were being that obvious, I’ve felt so guilty this whole time.” I sighed, still feeling guilty and not completely sure this whole thing wasn’t some big joke.

“Well stop feeling guilty it’s fine.” Justin sighed nuzzling his nose against my cheek.

“So how is this supposed to work? I just go back and forth between you two?” I asked slightly agitated.

“Baby, you’re over thinking this, it’s not that complicated, the three of us can still all hang out and do whatever together, and then we’ll still have our time and you two can still have your time, but you can do whatever and not feel guilty about it.” Justin explained.

“And you’re really okay with all that?” I asked.

“Yes! Hell I thought it’s been going on anyways.” Justin laughed as I shook my head slightly trying to clear my thoughts.

“I don’t know J.” I sighed, the whole situation not making any sense.

“What is there to know? You have feelings for both of us right?” Justin questioned looking at me expectantly.

“I….” I started not sure what to say and not sure if I wanted to admit my feelings to Justin, not really sure what they were myself.

“Your silence is all the answer I need,” Justin grinned stupidly at me, “it’s fine baby, just go with it, there’s no need to worry about it or change anything up. Just continue like everything’s normal….without the guilt.”

“Easier said than done.” I sighed exasperated.

“Trust me please.” Justin said leaving a trail of kisses across my jaw and down my neck.

“I’m not promising anything because I’m still not sure how I feel about all this but I’ll try.” I sighed tilting my head to the side, getting lost in the feeling of his lips on my neck and the stress from the last couple hours melting away.

“That’s my girl.” Justin smiled against my skin as he moved to slowly lay me back.

His fingers slowly crept under the hem of my shirt skimming across my stomach when I finally found my voice again stopping him, “Wait J.”

“Hmm?” Justin mumbled making his way back to my mouth and kissing me slowly. I sighed and lightly pushed him away as he just stared down at me confused.

“If you are serious…”I started as Justin rolled his eyes and cut me off exasperated, “I’m serious!”

“Okay,” I nodded up at him, “then we need to talk to C.”

“We will.” Justin nodded, leaning down kissing me again.

“No J now, “I said pulling away again as he sighed, “I left him in hysterical tears and he is probably waiting on you to beat his door down any minute.”

Justin nodded slowly understanding my point, “okay, you’re right.”

“Thank you.” I smiled up at him, as I reached up and kissed him softly once more before he rolled off of me and off the bed, offering me his hand to help me up.

Justin and I walked into the hallway, me clinging to his hand, partially afraid to let go afraid he was going to change his mind about everything.

“There you are! I was just coming to find you.” Chris yelled from down the hall as he made his way over to us, causing us to stop. I gripped onto Justin’s hand tighter, afraid that somehow Chris would figure out what was going on. Justin sensed my unease and wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me tightly against his side protectively.

“What’s up?” Justin shrugged his indifference towards Chris.

“I thought we were going to finish working on that song.” Chris said narrowing his eyes at the two of suspiciously.

“Oh yeah!” Justin exclaimed his eyes lighting up and him forgetting what we were on our way to do.

“J.” I whispered up at him trying to get his attention while also trying to avoid Chris’.

Justin looked down at me and frowned slightly at the look on my face, “I promised Chris I’d help him finish this song. You don’t need me for this do you?”

“I….uh kinda….I don’t know what….” I stumbled over my words not wanting to say too much in front of Chris and having no idea how I was suppose to have this conversation with J.C., especially without Justin there.

“What are you doing?” Chris asked curiously, popping up right in front of Justin and I. I glanced over at him nervously before turning my attention back to Justin silently begging him for his help.

“I’ll be down in a second.” Justin said to Chris willing him to leave us alone. Chris nodded and reluctantly made his way back down the hall, glancing back at us curiously.


I wrapped both of my hands around Justin’s waist, hugging him not wanting to let him go. “Madi, you’re fine, you don’t need me to talk to C.” Justin murmured.

“How am I supposed to explain this to him?” I whined, my voice muffled by Justin’s shirt.

“Just be honest.” Justin chuckled, not understanding why I was so stressed about the situation.

“But this was all your idea!” I said exasperated looking up at him.

“Madi if you don’t want to do this we don’t have to, but I really think you need to consider it.” Justin said his voice softening as he spoke.

“I just don’t know how I’m supposed to explain any of this. I’m not sure that any of it makes any sense to me.” I sighed still completely baffled by everything.

“Madi I love you and I was honest with you, you just have to do the same thing with C and be honest with him.” Justin explained as I nodded still not completely convinced.

“I will just be in Chris’ room if you need me. I shouldn’t be too long and I will come find you as soon as I’m done.” Justin said squeezing me reassuringly.

“K.” I nodded quietly.

“I love you.” Justin said as he bent down and kissed me softly.

“I love you too J.” I sighed relaxing slightly.

“Alright you know where I’ll be if you need me.” Justin said as he slowly untangled himself from my arms to make sure I was okay. I just nodded and watched him as he turned and made his way down the hall after Chris.


I waited until Justin disappeared into Chris’ room before I slowly turned and made my way to J.C.’s door and knocked on it quickly before I lost my nerve. What in all reality was just a couple seconds, seemed like an eternity as I waited for J.C. to answer the door.

He opened the door and gasped slightly at seeing me, “Madi?” he questioned as I let out the breath I had been holding and stepped forward wrapping my arms around his waist, knowing he probably needed the hug just as badly as I did. J.C. wrapped his arm around me and immediately pulled me into the room shutting the door.

“Sweetheart are you okay? Did you tell Justin? What’d he do?” J.C. questioned in rapid concession, concern etched all over his face. I looked up into his compassionate, concern filled eyes and suddenly all my doubts about the situation faded away as I finally understood what Justin meant about J.C. being able to give me something he couldn’t. I shook my head slowly trying to calm him down as I slowly reached up and caressed his cheek.

“Madi?” J.C. questioned, unsure of my calm demeanor after my previous meltdown.


“Let’s sit down.” I said almost inaudibly as I grabbed his hand and slowly led him over to bed. I started to pick up sheet music that was scattered all over the bed to make room to sit and couldn’t help but smile to myself; J.C. always used music as his outlet and this time was no different and it was definitely one of the things I loved about him. He was passionate about his craft and it showed in absolutely everything he did. J.C. sat down on the opposite side of the bed in front of his keyboard and started to tap on it nervously.

“Listen C…” I started as I glanced down at the sheet music in my hand and stopped as the words caught my eye. I shuffled a few pages around until I found the beginning and quickly started to read over the lyrics.




********
I could be the first to let you know
That nothing means anything
Now I'm standing here outside your door in the pouring rain
And I can't believe
Nothing's supposed to get to me
Now I'm in this misery


I can't be with anyone
Since I felt our worlds collide
It's like I almost died
The way you make me feel
I'm changing, got me breaking down inside
Baby can't you see
You ruined me for life
**********



“Josh.” I whispered out glancing up at him as he smiled sheepishly at me and quickly adverted his eyes, refusing to look at me.


*********
I will be the last to let you down
All your fears and doubts are hovering above you like a cloud
And the water's rising
Now I can't breathe
Nothing's how it's supposed to be
How did you do this to me?
Locked inside your heart shaped box

I can't be with anyone
Since I felt our worlds collide
It's like I most died
The way you make me feel
I'm changing, got me breaking down inside
Baby can't you see
You ruined me for life
********



“Is this about me?” I choked out, glancing back up at him with tears in my eyes. J.C. nodded slowly starting at me, trying to gage my reaction but not sure what to say.



********
I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna feel this way
All I wanna do is leave
But all I can do is stay
Nights and days go by and I can't wait to touch your face again

I could be the first to let you know
That I can't be with anyone
Since I felt our worlds collide
It's like I almost died
The way you make me feel
I'm changing, got me breaking down inside
Baby can't you see
You ruined me...


Oh, I can't be with anyone
Since I felt our worlds collide
It's like I most died
The way you make me feel
I've been changing, got me breaking down inside
Baby can't you see
You ruined me...

I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna feel this way
All I wanna do is leave
You ruined me for life
********




“Do you mean it?” I finally whispered out finishing the song as I let a couple tears fall down my face.

“It’s just a song….” J.C. mumbled, refusing to look up at me.

“And I’ve been around all of you long enough to know it’s never just a song, “I said as J.C. finally looked up at me, “Did you mean it?” I asked again my voice raspy, full of emotion. J.C. nodded slowly as I glanced back down at the papers in my hand and absorbed the words, letting them sink in.

“Play it for me.” I whispered out as more of a command than a question.

J.C. just nodded and started to play the song completely from memory as I just watched mesmerized. J.C.’s eyes closed as he started to sing and he got completely lost in the music, singing with nothing but passion and raw emotion. I watched in awe, slightly dumbfounded that I never realized how he felt. I always knew we had a unique relationship, but I never would have dreamt that his feelings ran this deep. Looking back I couldn’t believe that I missed it, especially the last few weeks after I allowed him to get so close and be so intimate with me. As the song was nearing the end I slowly crawled up the bed to where J.C. was, watching the muscles in his arms flex as his hands moved across the keys and the determined yet calm aspect of his facial features as he continued to sing. When he finished the song his eyes fluttered open just in time to see throw myself at him, wrapping my arms around his neck and connecting our lips in a passionate want filled kiss.


I deepened the kiss slightly as I tugged on J.C.’s hair not being able to get enough of him. J.C. reluctantly pulled away sighing, “Madison stop, “ I looked at him slightly bewildered, but before I could get my bearings or sort out my thoughts he continued to speak, “We can’t keep doing this. It’s not fair to either of us and it’s definitely not fair to Justin."

I nodded slowly, understanding taking over, before I just grinned stupidly at him. “Not exactly the reaction I was expecting.” J.C. blew out slowly.

“Justin thinks we’ve been hooking up for weeks.” I laughed slightly.

“What?! Did you tell him it just happened and that it was a mistake and that we never meant for this to happen?” J.C. exclaimed exasperated. I reached out and put my hand on his thigh reassuringly, and I’m sure that if I hadn’t just previously had the same freak out that he was having that I would have probably been offended by his nonchalant attitude regarding us, but I understood a hundred percent where it was all coming from.

“C, calm down.” I said calmly as I squeezed his leg reassuringly and picked up his hand bringing it to my lips and softly kissing his knuckles. “Justin thinks we’ve been hooking up ever since the morning he left us alone when Trace left, but he’s okay with it.” I said as J.C.’s face scrunched up in confusion.

“What?” J.C. yelped out and I couldn’t help but to smile at him.

“He says he knows I love him but that I have some sort of feelings for you and he knows you have feelings for me….hence why you can’t keep a girlfriend,” I smirked as J.C. cut me off, “That’s not entirely true!” he exclaimed exasperated.

“Anyways he says you’re his best friend and he loves us both and he wants everyone to be happy so he’s okay with it.” I shrugged.

“What?” J.C. asked again his voice cracking slightly, obviously confused still.

“Look I know it sounds crazy, trust me, but I think he might be on to something…” I started.

“More like on something! Seriously is he still messing around with the coke and shit?” J.C. asked incredulously.

“Sometimes, but that’s not what this is C,” I sighed scooting over so my legs were across his lap and putting my arms around him hugging him, “Justin said it himself it’s obviously a little fucked up, but it would work, the three of us just work somehow. I can’t explain it, but you know I’m right.”

“Yeah, but fuck….I don’t know.” J.C. stuttered out rubbing his hand over his face.

“I don’t know exactly how it’s all going to work either, but after thinking about it I’d rather try it Justin’s way than have to stop hanging out with you.” I said my voice softening at the end.

J.C. frowned slightly at my statement, “I don’t want that either, but this is going to be just as fucking weird.”

“I don’t know,” I shrugged, “we’ve already done the whole threesome thing and we all still hang out and everything’s fine and Justin already thinks we’ve been hooking up so I’m not sure what could be any more weird.”

“What’s everyone else going to think?” J.C. asked throwing his hands up.

“It’s none of their business.” I sighed.

“Oh, you know they’ll have something to say about it! What about Chris?” J.C. asked pointedly.

“I mean I don’t think we need to tell them. I mean they already know we’re close and spend a lot of time together so I don’t see the problem. Just don’t be kissing me in front of them.” I teased but was just met with J.C. rolling his eyes at me.

“Seriously Madison.” He replied in a reprimanding tone.

“I’m being serious C, “I said reaching up and caressing his face, “but if you don’t want to I understand.” I said a little disappointed.

“Madison,” J.C. groaned out, resting his forehead against mine, “it’s not that I don’t want to, I just don’t see this ending well.”

“I don’t know, I think we just have to take it one day at a time and if for any reason it gets weird or one of us wants out then fine.” I whispered out as J.C. closed the small gap between us and kissed me softly.

“I have a feeling I’m going to regret this but okay.” J.C. mumbled against my lips and I couldn’t help the instant grin that took over my face.


J.C. slowly moved my legs off his lap and laid me back as he hovered over me, grinning down at me. I reached up and brushed his hair away from his forehead and he dipped his head slowly kissing me. He broke the kiss long enough to pull my shirt over my head and grinned stupidly at me when he realized I wasn’t wearing a bra. I smiled back at him as he licked his lips and dipped his head down sucking my nipple into his mouth. I gasped and arched my back up into his mouth as he gently bit down on it, before swirling his tongue around it and moving to the other one. I whimpered slightly and caught J.C.’s eye as he glanced up at me grinning before kissing his way down my stomach and to the hem of my shorts. J.C.’s fingers slowly skimmed down my body until they hooked into my shorts on either side of me and he gently tugged on them. I instinctively lifted my hips up allowing him to slide my shorts off, his fingers slowly skimming down my legs as he did so. I sat up slowly, reaching for J.C., wanting to get him naked and be close to him but he shook his head and gently pushed me back so I fell back on the bed. I pouted slightly in his direction, but let it go when he bent down and kissed the inside of my ankle and started to slowly work his way up my leg. He ran his hands slowly up my legs until they were resting on the inside of my thighs and he gently pushed them apart as he continued to make his way up my legs kissing and sucking as he went. If I wasn’t already turned on by him before, I definitely was now and his slow pace was driving me insane.

“J.C.” I whined out reaching down and grabbing his hand and tugging on it, trying to get him to come to me.

“Madison.” J.C. said drawing out my name his voice low as he mocked me.

“Come here.” I whined, throwing my head back summoning him to me.

“Uh uh.” J.C. mumbled running his fingers up my folds and parting me as he bent his head down and his tongue darted out tasting me. I gasped as his warm tongue ran up my folds before running over my clit. I could feel J.C. grinning between my legs as he moved his hand up and pushed two of his long fingers inside me as his tongue continued its assault on my clit. I let out a long moan, my mind completely clouded over with the sensations running through my body. J.C.’s fingers were rubbing gloriously against my g-spot and he was sucking on my clit, ever so often caressing it lightly with his tongue and I couldn’t fight the rapid pace of my building orgasm.

“C.” I moaned out as my fingers tangled in his hair as I held his head in place and started to buck my hips beneath him. I arched my back up off the bed as every muscle in my body tightened and my legs started to uncontrollably shake on either side of J.C. My body’s instinct was to pull away from J.C.’s tortuous assault but his free hand wrapped around my thigh holding me in place as he continued to suck on my clit unrelenting as he pushed another finger inside of me, stroking me the whole time as I rode out my orgasm. I finally relaxed against the bed panting completely warn out from that incredible orgasm and whimpered slightly when J.C. pulled his hand away from my throbbing center and he ran his tongue up and down over me a few times lapping up all my juices.


J.C. finally sat up grinning like a cheshire cat
as he sucked his fingers into his mouth, wiping them clean of any remnants of me. I grinned lazily over at him as he made his way back up my body, half lying on top of me.

“That was….wow; fuck C….that was amazing. Justin’s never done that.” I panted out still mind blown from how amazing he had made me feel and a little sheepish that that was the first time I was experiencing something like that.

J.C.’s brows knit together in an unbelieving confusion at my statement, “That’s why you get for dating the baby,” he whispered out as he licked his lips and bent down to kiss me.

“Mmm I can taste myself on you.” I said sheepishly as I pulled away from the kiss.

“Sorry.” J.C. grinned as he moved his hand to wipe his mouth.

“No, it’s okay.” I whispered out, pulling him back down and kissing him again as he groaned out and for the first time since the haze of my orgasm I could feel just how aroused he was pressing into my leg.

“I suppose I should return the favor.” I grinned up at him as I pulled away from the kiss and reached to push his shorts down.

“Mmm as amazing as your little mouth would be on me, “J.C. started as he kicked off his shorts, “not tonight. I want you to feel how amazing a second orgasm will feel after that.” He whispered out positioning himself at my entrance.

I nodded slowly, not sure if my body could handle another intense orgasm like that, but wanting one all the same. J.C. kissed me softly as he pushed himself into me and I groaned out already feeling amazing with him inside of me.


J.C. was right the second orgasm seemed a thousand times more intense and ten times longer and I was completely exhausted afterwards. I curled up into J.C. laying my head on his chest and immediately fell asleep as he ran his hand up and down my back comfortingly. J.C. was watching me sleep a little while later when there was a knock on the door. He contemplated ignoring it, but whoever it was was being persistent and he didn’t want the incessant knocking to wake me up. He gently untangled himself from me, and placed a soft kiss on my temple before pulling his basketball shorts back on and moving out of the room shutting the door quietly behind him. He moved to the door throwing it open with a glare ready to yell at whoever was on the other end of it.

“Woah, why are you so pissed?” Justin asked, throwing his hands up causing J.C. to sigh.

“Yano I heard you knock the first time you didn’t have to keep knocking.” J.C. said rolling his eyes and turning to make his way over to the couch, figuring Justin would follow.

“You didn’t answer.” Justin shrugged sitting down across from J.C.

“You ever think I didn’t want to be bothered?” J.C. asked as Justin just rolled his eyes.

“You sleep too much. Did Madi come talk to you?”Justin asked.

“Yeah.” J.C. sighed running his hand through his hair and not giving Justin any more information.

“Well what do you think?” Justin asked grinning obviously proud of himself.

“I think I hope you’re serious and that Madison better not get hurt in the midst of all this.” J.C. sighed again looking over at Justin.

“She won’t. I don’t plan on hurting her and I know you won’t.” Justin said his knee bouncing up and down anxiously as J.C. stared at him.

“I hope you’re right J.” J.C. sighed as he got up and grabbed two beers, bringing one back over and handing it to Justin, before taking a long drink of his own.

“Where’d she go anyway? She’s not in our room and I just came from Chris’.” Justin asked wanting to change the subject.

“She’s asleep in my bed.” J.C. said quietly, studying his younger friend for any signs of anger or jealousy.

He found none however as Justin shrugged his indifference, “You wanna watch the baseball game?”

“Yeah that’s fine,” J.C. nodded as he finished his beer and got up to get another one, “I’m starving I’m gonna order food, you want something?”

“Hell yeah!” Justin grinned, settling back into the couch and turning the game on.

The next couple of weeks went by pretty normally, not much having changed. Much to both mine and J.C.’s surprise Justin was right, as dysfunctional as this whole relationship may be it somehow worked for the three of us. We were all always close and were usually together anyway so the only thing that really changed was J.C.’s lingering touch when no one was looking, and stolen kisses behind closed doors. We had just finished up our second show in Chicago and were headed out to the buses to drive to Toronto. I was exhausted after two nights of back to back shows and long rehearsal before the second one because I felt everyone was little off the night before. It was probably due to a couple kinks in the construction of the stage that had everyone on edge but I didn’t want to take any chances. Kristin had been mostly laying low since her talk with Johnny but she was definitely copping an attitude with me as I held everyone over to dance and it took everything I had not to snap back at her. I was completely exhausted but also wired, having just come off stage and I wanted nothing more than to snuggled with my two boys and relax.


I walked onto the bus and immediately pulled my sweaty top over my head having every intention of beating both boys to the shower.

“You guys mind if I crash here for the night? Lance has a bunch of business calls to make and I just want to crash.” Joey said making his way onto the bus as I held my shirt in front of me and narrowed my eyes at him.

“Why can’t you ride with Chris?” I snapped as Joey eyed me curiously and I noticed J.C.’s eyes cut to mine in a silent warning.

“Michele is on his bus.” Joey said still watching me intently, confused by my hostility.

“Whatever, I’m going to shower.” I said and turned on my heel leaving the three of them behind without a second glance.


I just got into the shower when I heard the door creak open and Justin’s voice float through the room, “baby?”

“What J?” I sighed still frustrated that my plans were being ruined.

“Are you okay?” Justin questioned as I heard him fumbling with his clothes getting undressed.

“I’m fine, I’m just exhausted.” I sighed stepping out of the shower and smiling lightly in his direction.

“Okay well go lay down I’ll be right there.” Justin grinned down at me, kissing me softly on the side of the mouth.

I watched Justin step into the shower before turning and grabbing the clean t-shirt he had brought in and slipped it over my head. I made my way out of the bathroom and towards the back of the bus without acknowledging J.C. or Joey although I could feel their eyes boring into my back.


“I’ll be right back.” J.C. said glancing over at Joey as he stood up.

“Where are you going?” Joey asked J.C. his eyes narrowing.

“Uh…to get my notebook.” J.C. shrugged shifting uneasily. Joey sighed but finally nodded not sure if he was ready to delve into the topic that had been plaguing his mind. J.C. took that as his escape and quickly disappeared.


I was just climbing into bed when I heard the door open and looked up expecting to see Justin but was surprised to see J.C. standing there.

“Are you okay?” J.C. asked softly making his way over to the bed and pulling me up on my knees so he could pull me to his chest hugging me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly drawing comfort from him.

“I’m just tired and wanted to cuddle.” I mumbled my head buried in the crook of his neck.

“Mmm, I’m sorry but Justin will be here.” J.C. said trying to comfort me as he rubbed my back.

“I know I’ve just got use to sleeping with both of you on the bus.” I said pouting up at him as a smile crept its way onto his face.

“Me too.” J.C. grinned as he softly kissed me as I sighed and fell back down onto the bed.

“Come on, get under here.” J.C. smiled as he pulled the covers back as I got situated on the bed. I finally relaxed and J.C. pulled the covers up around me and I couldn’t help but to giggle a little at him tucking me in.

“Get some sleep you can come crash in my room when we get to the hotel if you want.” J.C. said as he brushed a damp piece of hair away from my face.

I picked up his hand and nodded slightly, “Thank you C.”

“Anytime Madison.” J.C. sighed almost sadly as he bent down and kissed my forehead before standing up.

“Goodnight.” I whispered as I licked my lips and watched him walk away.

“Night.” He said as he turned and gave me a small smile before disappearing.


J.C. closed the door and noticed Justin walking towards him.

“She okay?” Justin asked nodding towards the door.

“Yeah just a little bummed Joey’s here. She’s gotten use to both of us being around.” J.C. sighed quietly.


“Yeah him being here is odd don’t you think?” Justin questioned perplexed.

“I don’t know,” J.C. said rubbing his hand over his face, “but he’s definitely curious after Madison’s little outburst.”

“It’ll be fine; she’s tired he has to understand that.” Justin shrugged indifferently.

“Yeah,” J.C. said dismissively, “Get some sleep J, and I told Madison she could crash in my room when we got to the hotel if she wanted.”

“Alright we’ll see, Night C.” Justin said patting J.C. on the shoulder and slipping past him.


Joey could hear Justin and J.C. talking in hushed whispers, but he couldn’t make out what they were saying or if they were angry. He scooted to the other end of the couch trying to get closer so he could hear what was being said but it didn’t help much. He didn’t realize just how ridiculous he looked leaning over the couch, straining to hear, until J.C. reappeared and raised his eyebrows at him questioningly.

“What are you doing?” J.C. asked trying to hide the amusement in his voice.

“I….uh…well.” Joey started stumbling over his words knowing he had been caught. J.C. stood rooted in place waiting expectantly on Joey’s answer.

“Where’s your notebook?” Joey finally accused, glad to have the focus off of himself for a moment.

“I threw it in my bunk,” J.C. shrugged as Joey scowled that thought never crossing his mind, “but I’m gonna take a shower and crash.” Joey just nodded as he watched J.C. disappear into the bathroom as he sat back and tried to figure out what was or was not going on. He was still suspicious of my relationship with J.C., but Kelly kept telling him it was none of his business especially if Justin didn’t have a problem with it. Kelly had gone home for the next few weeks however and Joey was bound and determined to get some answers while she was away.


I woke up the next morning still on the bus to find myself nestled in between Justin and J.C. J.C. must have snuck back here after we made it to the hotel and I couldn’t help the smile that made its way across my face seeing him there. I reached out and ran my fingers through J.C.’s hair causing his eyes to slowly flutter open. When his eyes focused and landed on me a small smile made its way onto his face.

“Morning.” He breathed out taking my hand and interlocking our fingers.

“What are you doing here?” I questioned slightly confused yet happy nonetheless.

“I knew it’s what you wanted.” J.C. shrugged as if it was no big deal.

“But how’d you manage to stay without Joey noticing?” I whispered, trying not to wake Justin.

“Lonnie got Joey up before even coming to check on me and I just told him I was staying here.” J.C. shrugged again as if it was the most logical thing in the world.

“Well thank you.” I giggled as I brought his hand up to my mouth and kissed it lightly.

“Anytime.” J.C. grinned, wrapping his arm around my waist and pulling me against his chest. In doing so he pulled me away from Justin and I heard him groan slightly at the loss of contact as he started to slowly wake up.

“Madi.” Justin whined reaching out for me but his fingers brushed up against J.C.’s arm instead.

Justin’s eyes slowly opened and he sat up slightly peering over me to look at J.C., “When’d you get here C?”

“When we got to the hotel.” J.C. sighed watching Justin’s reaction, still waiting on Justin to get upset about the whole arrangement.

“Oh,” Justin said indifferently as he flopped back down onto the bed, “what time do we have to be at the studio?”

“Nine,” J.C. answered picking up his phone to check the time, “We really should get moving.”

“Fuck.” Justin groaned rubbing his hand over his face trying to wake up.

“Are you coming with us baby?” Justin whined as he curled into me resting his head on my shoulder.

“Yeah, come on we’ll drop you off then I’ll head out and get us breakfast.” I said as I turned and kissed his forehead before making my way out of bed in search of clothes. Justin just grumbled but eventually rolled off the bed and started to get dressed still half asleep much to mine and J.C.’s amusement.


I was glad that I threw a book into my bag before we left for the studio because both boys were in full work mode, feeling the pressure to get everything done in time. There was only a month left before it was supposed to be released and that only gave them a handful of days to get everything completed. Besides the couple minutes we spent eating breakfast and when they sent me out for lunch they both had completely ignored me all day. I didn’t mind though I was happy to just be in the same room with them, plus it was pretty amazing watching them work. We were supposed to be out of the studio by six but they had both fallen into a rhythm and neither wanted to stop so they continued to work until we literally got thrown out around seven when someone else came in to use the space.


When we got back to the hotel I went to change, not planning on doing anything but relaxing the rest of the night, but I couldn’t find the pair of shorts I wanted. I remembered having them in J.C.’s room a few nights ago and made my way down to his room to get them. J.C. had started giving me his spare key so I let myself in and made my way over to his suitcase and started to dig through it hearing the shower running.

“What are you doing?” J.C. asked amusement in his voice causing me to jump.

“Jesus C you scared the shit outta me.” I said placing my hand over my heart and sitting down on the bed taking in the sight of him in only a towel as water droplets fell from his hair and down over his chest.

I licked my lips slowly my eyes roaming over his body before I brought my head back up to look at his face to find him staring at me grinning in amusement, “See something you like?”

“Maybe.” I whispered out leaning back on my hands and biting my lip slightly.

“Mmhmm that still doesn’t explain why you were digging through my suitcase.” J.C. chided slowly making his way over to me and standing in between my legs staring down at me.

“Oh I was looking for my purple nike shorts.” I shrugged grinning up at him innocently.

“Oh is that all.” J.C. rolled his eyes in mock frustration as he moved away from me and pulled my shorts out of a different pocket of his suitcase and threw them at me.

“Come here.” I pouted.

“I thought you just wanted your shorts?” J.C. smirked over at me pulling some clothes for himself out of his suitcase.

“Don’t put that shirt on.” I warned as J.C. started to pull it over his head.

He stopped and stared at me amused by my authoritative tone, “or what?” he challenged.

“Or it’ll just waste more time when I have to take it off again.” I said reaching up and grabbing it out of his hand and throwing it back onto his open suitcase.

He just shook his head as he slowly made his way back over to me. “Is this what you want?” J.C. mumbled against my lips as he slowly kissed me.

“Mmmhmm.” I moaned out against his lips as I fell back onto the bed pulling him with me. He chuckled slightly pulling himself onto the bed and hovering over me. I moved to untie the knot on J.C’s towel as my phone beeped causing both of us to groan out slightly.

J.C. fell on the bed beside me as I dug my phone out of my pocket to see a text from Justin, ‘the guys are all in our room wanting to party and they want to know where u are…’

I sighed and glanced over at J.C. and the look on his face told me he knew our time had been cut short.

“Come on get dressed everyone is in my room.” I said sitting up and patting his leg as I texted Justin back, ‘We’ll be right down.’


J.C. quickly got dressed and we made our way back down the hall to find everyone sitting around drinking.

“Where have you two been?” Joey asked accusingly as we made our way into the room.

“Why do you care?” I asked rolling my eyes as I made my way over to Justin and wrapped my arms around his waist as he bent down and kissed me.

“What’s going on anyway?” I asked glancing at everyone sitting around the room.

“We were bored.” Chris shrugged grinning over at me.

“Oh I see.” I said moving out of Justin’s grasp to make myself a drink. It didn’t look like the guys were leaving anytime soon so I figured I might as well join them.

“Have you guys ate?” I asked glancing over at Chris, Joey, and Lance knowing J.C. and Justin hadn’t.

“No I think we were just gonna order pizza.” Lance answered as I nodded and took a sip of my Jack and coke and grabbed a corona and made my way over and handed it to J.C.

“Thanks.” J.C. smiled his fingers brushing against mine as he took it out of my hand.

“Mmhmm.” I shrugged and made my way back over to where Justin was sitting on the floor and planted myself in front of him leaning back into him. I could feel Joey’s eyes on me the whole time but chose to ignore it and I turned my head to the side kissing Justin for a second trying to prove a point.

Justin squeezed me gently also noticing Joey’s glare and moved his lips to my ear, “just ignore him.” I nodded and smiled at the grin Justin was giving me before relaxing against him and taking in the conversations going on around me.


About a half hour later Mike made his way into the room with the pizzas we ordered and I got up to get everyone a refill. I handed J.C., Chris, and Joey all another beer and started to pour Justin and I another drink as I looked over at Lance, “What’re you drinking?”

“Rum and coke.” Lance smiled as I nodded and began to pour him a fresh drink as well. I picked up all three cups and moved back across the room handing Lance his drink before making my way over to Justin.

“Thanks baby.” Justin grinned taking his drink out of my hand. I smiled at Justin before turning and grabbing a piece of pizza and taking a bite as Chris flipped through the channels furiously.

“Oh my God I’m bored!” Chris exclaimed exasperated as he threw the remote down frustrated.

“So put a movie on or something.” I said rolling my eyes at his tantrum.

“No I want to do something,” Chris whined, “I know let’s go out!”

I was about to tell them to have fun and get the hell out but Lance cut me off, “No, we don’t need all that drama tonight especially when we can drink here.”

Chris glared slightly in Lance’s direction but before he could say anything Joey spoke up, “We could play a game!”

“Really Joe?” J.C. asked.

“Yeah I think we should play never have I ever.” Joey said narrowing his eyes at J.C. before glancing over at Justin and I.

Chris started to bounce up and down in excitement and I groaned as I slowly stood up and mumbled, “I need another drink.”

“Madi I need a beer!” Chris yelled out as he held up his empty bottle. I just nodded and grabbed him a beer as I made my way back to the group.

“Alright I’ll start,” Joey exclaimed clasping his hands together, “never have I ever had a threesome!”

My eyes widened slightly as Lance laughed in Joey’s direction, “You’re suppose to say something you’ve NEVER done.”

Joey just shrugged as he smiled sheepishly, “It’s okay I’ll drink too.” Joey took a drink along with Chris, Justin, and J.C. while I just sat there dumbfounded.

“Justin drank but Madi didn’t?” Joey asked accusingly looking in our direction.

“This is not the game to be playing with your brother.” I exclaimed throwing my hands up and taking a couple gulps of my drink trying to calm down.

“So Madi and Justin had a threesome….who was it with?” Joey smirked over in our direction.

“None of your business.” Justin snapped a little harshly as I took another big drink of my alcohol. These games never turned out fun for me especially since I was usually the only girl, but this one was already turning out to be worse than the others.

“Yeah Joe who was yours with?” Chris asked laughing.

“Kelly and one of her friends from college.” Joey shrugged turning his attention back to Justin and I.

“That’s nice it’s still none of your business.” I said finishing my drink and standing up to get another one.

“Let’s just continue.” J.C. sighed running his hand over his face.

Lance took that as his cue and spoke up, “Never have I ever hooked up with a groupie.” All the guys groaned and took a drink glaring slightly in Lance’s direction.

I gave Lance a sad smile as Justin took his turn, “Never have I ever not remembered the girls name I slept with.” Chris and Joey both grinned sheepishly and took a drink as the rest of us laughed in their direction.

“Alright never have I ever had a multi-platinum selling cd.” I smirked as all the guys rolled their eyes at me.

“That’s not fair.” Chris whined as I just giggled.

“Just drink.” Justin laughed putting his chin on my shoulder and placing a sloppy kiss on my cheek.

“Never have I ever broke a bone.” J.C. smiled as Justin, Chris, and I all drank.

“Alright never have I ever been walked in on during sex.” Chris grinned over at Justin and I.

“Yeah just because you walked in on us!” Justin scoffed as we both took a drink along with Joey. Chris just cackled as Joey got an evil gleam in his eye knowing it was his turn again.

“Never have I ever cheated on anyone.” Joey smirked, thinking he was being clever. I knew what he was getting at but he couldn’t be farther from the truth. I sighed as I stood up and noticed Justin’s questioning glance.

“I’ll be right back.” I said giving him a tight lipped smile as I made my way to the bathroom.


I was standing in the bathroom gripping onto the sink staring in the mirror when there was knock on the door followed my Justin’s voice, “Baby? Are you okay? Can I come in?”

“Yeah.” I sighed and glanced up as he made his way into the room and immediately wrapped his arms around me.

“Why is he being such an ass.” I groaned into his chest.

“He thinks he knows something but he doesn’t so don’t let him get under your skin.” Justin sighed rubbing my back comfortingly.

“You know he’s not going to let this go right?” I asked finally looking up at Justin.

“Let’s just get through tonight and then I’ll take care of it.” Justin said as I nodded still apprehensive about the whole thing.

“Here this will help.” Justin grinned as he took a step back and pulled a baggie of coke out of his pocket. I just nodded, not even thinking about what I was about to do as Justin broke it into two huge lines on the sink. I grabbed his wallet off the sink and took out a twenty and started to roll it up as I waited on Justin to finish evening out the lines. He finally finished and ran the card in his hand across his tongue as he grinned at me. I smiled back before bending over and inhaling one of the lines before handing him the rolled up twenty. Justin did the other line then turned and kissed me lightly before he started to pull away.

“Uh uh.” I whined pulling him back to me and deepening the kiss. Justin and I were always very sexual, but there was just something about doing coke that made me not be able to get enough of him. Justin’s hands made their way to my ass and he quickly lifted me up setting me on the sink and knocking a few things off in the process causing me to giggle into his mouth.

I slowly wrapped my legs around Justin’s waist pulling him closer to me as there was a loud banging on the bathroom door, “What are you two doing in there?” Chris bellowed as Justin pulled away from me groaning.

“We’re coming.” I rolled my eyes as I slid off of the sink and made my way towards the door Justin right behind me.


I brushed past Chris and made my way back out to the living room area and grabbed my drink and quickly downed the rest of it. Justin finished his as well and made his way over to me setting his empty cup on the counter and wrapping his arms around my waist, bending down kissing my neck causing me to giggle as I continued to make our drinks.

“It’s your turn J.” Chris rolled his eyes throwing a piece of pizza crust in our direction.

“Never have I ever cockblocked one of my friends.” Justin spit out glaring at Chris as he stayed behind me and started to sway lightly. I couldn’t help but giggle at the shocked look on Chris’ face as I handed Justin his drink and started to walk back towards the couch him hot on my heels. Justin plopped down onto the couch and pulled me down onto his lap almost spilling my drink.

“Justin!” I shrieked as he just laughed sending me into a fit of giggles as well. I turned my head and looked back at Justin kissing him through my giggles before Chris started yelling something about his virgin eyes and broke us up.

I pulled away from Justin and inhaled deeply, sending the coke further up my sinuses and caught J.C.’s eye for a second. He was staring at me his jaw set in a hard line and I was suddenly feeling really apprehensive about the coke I had just done.

“It’s your turn Madi.” Lance said breaking my eye contract with J.C.

“Uh yeah….uhm never have I ever….got so drunk I couldn’t fine my way home.” I smirked glancing over at Lance and Joey.

“It happened one time!” Lance laughed as he and Joey both took a drink.

“Never have I ever done coke.” J.C. glared staring me down and I instantly knew he knew and I couldn’t help the guilt that was rising is my stomach. Joey, Chris, and Justin all took a drink but I couldn’t move as J.C. stared me down.

“C can we talk.” I whispered out pleadingly.

“Not now Madison.” J.C. snapped finishing his beer and getting up, “and you still didn’t drink.” I sighed and reluctantly took a sip of my drink before glancing up and seeing J.C. pouring himself a rum and coke instead of grabbing another beer. I couldn’t help but feel responsible for the sudden change in his attitude and I had no idea how to fix it especially with everyone in the room.


Just then Chris stood up grinning down at his phone, “Well it’s been fun but I gotta go.”

“Where are you going?” Justin asked narrowing his eyes at him.

“To see Michele.” Chris grinned as I brought my focus away from J.C. and back to Chris.

“You’ve been spending an awful lot of time with her lately.” I said as Chris just shrugged.

“I like her.” Chris grinned and slipped out the door before anyone could question him further.

“Then back to me,” Joey beamed as J.C. sat back down, “never have I ever lusted after my best friends girl.” My whole body went rigid on Justin’s lap and he immediately started to run his hand up and down my arm trying to comfort me.

“Joey let it go.” Lance sighed knowing what Joey was trying to do and getting frustrated with it himself.

“Yeah I’m over this game anyway I’m gonna go to bed.” J.C. said getting up and making his way towards the door.

“You guys should probably go too.” Justin sighed glancing over at Lance and Joey as he placed a comforting kiss on my shoulder. Joey opened his mouth to protest but Lance sent him a warning look and he closed it and got up and reluctantly followed Lance out the door.


“I need to go talk to C.” I sighed getting up off of Justin’s lap as the door closed.

“Yeah what’s going on with him?” Justin questioned confused.

“He’s pissed about the coke.” I sighed as I hastily picked up all the empty beer bottles and tossed them into the trash.

“What’s he care?” Justin asked defensively sitting back and turning on the tv.

“I duno J it’s complicated but I gotta talk to him.” I sighed again glancing over at Justin as I slowly made my way towards the door.

“Yeah whatever.” Justin waved his hand dismissively not looking up from the tv.


I quickly made my way down the hall and let myself into J.C.’s room. His head snapped up when I walked in and he scowled slightly, “What do you want Madison?”

“We need to talk.” I said quietly as I made my way over to where he was sitting on the couch.

“I don’t want to talk to you right now.” J.C. sighed refusing to look at me.

“Please C.” I begged sitting beside him and reaching out for his hand. J.C. jerked his hand away from me and stood up and quickly crossed the room catching me off guard as I sat back wide eyed.

“Go get some sleep Madison.” J.C. sighed staring down at the floor.

“Why won’t you talk to me?” I managed to choke out fighting back tears.

“I’m not going to talk to you while you’re fucking high so just go.” J.C. snapped. In all the years that I’ve known J.C. he has never raised his voice at me and I knew I was going to break down any second so I quickly stood up and bolted from the room refusing to look at him.


I walked back into mine and Justin’s room and finally let a few tears fall as the door shut behind me.

“Baby what’s wrong?” Justin asked glancing up at me. I looked over at him and the concern on his face and I immediately decided that if J.C. didn’t want to talk to me I didn’t need him.

“Nothing.” I shrugged making my way over to the table and pouring myself a shot of Jack that I quickly threw back.

I grimaced as the whiskey burned the back of my throat and glanced up at Justin, “Do we have any tequila?”

“Yeah I think there’s a bottle in my gym bag.” Justin nodded as I quickly disappeared into the bedroom. I found the bottle of tequila and an eight ball and briefly wondered how Justin got his hands on the mass quantities of the drugs he did but I quickly shrugged it off and grabbed both things and made my way back out of the bedroom, grabbing two glasses on my way over to Justin. I threw the coke in Justin’s lap and went to work pouring us both a shot of tequila.

“You sure you’re okay?” Justin asked raising his eyebrows as he picked up the coke.

“Fine. I just feel like getting fucked up.” I shrugged. In all reality it was just my way of distracting myself so I didn’t have to think about the hurt and disappointed look in J.C.’s eyes or him yelling at me but Justin didn’t need to know that. He didn’t press the issue either, he just chuckled as he sat up and scooted the coffee table closer so he could break up some lines.

Justin and I ended up staying up all night drinking, doing coke, and having sex, and we were both still lying in bed giggling when the alarm went off.

“Fuck.” Justin laughed turning the alarm off and grinning over at me. I just giggled and rolled over on top of Justin straddling his waist as his hands came up to rest on my hips and I bent down to kiss him.

“Madi.” Justin groaned as I moved around a little and he started to become aroused again.

“Come shower with me.” I giggled jumping off of him and running into the bathroom with him chasing after me.


Justin and I took way longer in the shower than we needed to or had time to and we stepped out to Mike furiously beating on the bathroom door yelling at us to hurry up.

“Give me five minutes fuck!” Justin yelled opening the door and shooing Mike out of the bedroom.

“You’re already ten minutes late.” Mike warned staring him down.

“Then leave so we can get dressed.” Justin snapped slamming the door in his face.

I quickly pulled some clothes on and made my way over to where Justin was breaking up a couple more lines, “I figure if we’re gonna make it through this interview we’ll need this,” he said glancing over at me quickly, hoping I wasn’t pissed off. I just shrugged not caring and actually glad he suggested it so I didn’t have to. We quickly did the lines and grabbed our stuff and headed out to Mike hurriedly ushering us down the stairs to meet up with the rest of the guys.


Justin and I climbed onto the bus giggling as everyone just stared at us.

“Nice of you to join us.” J.C. snapped rolling his eyes in our direction.

“Sorry we were busy.” I giggled falling down into Justin’s lap as he wrapped his arms around my waist and laid his head on my shoulder as he continued to cackle.

“Yeah sorry we didn’t really get any sleep.” Justin said sending me into another fit of giggles.

“I’m seriously going to have you institutionalized.” Chris teased shaking his head at us.

“Only if Justin can come.” I pouted over at Chris before turning back to Justin and bending down to kiss him as I giggled slightly. I tuned the rest of the guys out and got lost in kissing Justin, like I always did when we were coked up and I slowly wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me.

“Justin! Madison!” J.C.’s reprimanding tone broke through my haze and I reluctantly pulled away from Justin pouting to see J.C. glaring at us.

“What C?” Justin laughed hugging me closer to him, not fazed by J.C.’s attitude.

“You do know you have an interview to do right?” J.C. questioned angrily.

“I’m well aware thanks.” Justin said sarcastically causing me to giggle at him and him to grin up at me stupidly.

“Yeah well you need to be focused.” J.C. glared causing Justin’s head to snap in his direction and his eyes to narrow as everyone else just watched not really sure what was going on.

“When have I ever not been focused?” Justin spit out his nostrils flaring slightly. I sighed knowing I needed to stop this before it got out of hand and also knowing J.C.’s anger was at me and not really Justin. I didn’t dare try to reason with J.C. after the night before so I focused my energy on Justin instead.

“J.” I whispered out quietly lightly stroking the stubble on his cheek. Justin’s eyes softened as he turned his attention back to me and I shook my head in a slight warning. Justin sighed and laid his head on my chest closing his eyes as he took a deep breath trying to calm himself down.

“I’m focused C.” Justin breathed out slowly not opening his eyes as I lightly stroked the back of his head. J.C. nodded and let out an audible sigh knowing Justin was right and was always focused and that his anger was over something completely different, but also knowing now was not the time or place to bring it up.


A few minutes later we pulled up to the studio where the interview would be and all the guys started to slowly get up and gather their things.

“I love you.” I whispered kissing Justin’s ear as I slid off of his lap so he could get up.

“I love you too.” Justin grinned down at me pecking my lips softly, obviously already back to himself.

I smiled at him lightly before turning and making my way a few short steps across the bus to J.C. I reached out and touched his arm getting his attention but his jaw just tightened as he looked down at me annoyed, “What?”

“Take your own advice and focus.” I said quietly not trying to piss him off further but having his best interest at heart still. J.C. sighed and nodded taking a deep breath but said nothing else as he moved around me and walked off the bus.


I sat in the green room watching the guys as they did their interview. For the most part they looked like five best friends having the time of their life, but I knew better. Justin had perfected turning on the charm when there were cameras or fans around, so I wasn’t necessarily worried about him. I couldn’t tell by watching him that he was up all night partying or that he was still high as a fucking kite right now and I was there doing it all with him. J.C. on the other hand was a different story. I suppose to most people it would look like everything was fine but I knew better. His smile and laughter were slightly forced and I could tell his mind was elsewhere. Joey must have noticed as well because he nudged J.C. at one point and smiled encouragingly and tried to get him more involved in the conversation. J.C. took the hint and started to participate a little more but I could tell that his mind was still wandering.


J.C. didn’t say a single word as we left the tv station and headed to the venue. I did my best to ignore him and focus on Justin but I couldn’t shake the nagging feeling of wanting to talk to him and make everything better. J.C. was finishing up an email when we arrived so after telling Justin I needed a minute I was left alone on the bus with J.C.

“C can we please talk?” I pleaded quietly, slowly making my way towards him.

J.C. stood up however and started to gather his things, “Not now Madison.”

I sighed and slowly made my way off the bus in search of Justin. If I was going to make it through this day I was going to need a little help and I knew Justin had what I was looking for.


J.C. walked into the dressing room and sat down but I stopped in the doorway and motioned for Justin to come, “J,” I nodded towards the door.

“We have sound check in twenty.” Lance warned as Justin stood up.

“This won’t take that long.” I smiled as Justin made his way over to me and we disappeared out the door. I found an empty room and pulled Justin inside shutting the door. He just grinned down at me as he backed me up against the wall and started to kiss me. I kissed him for a second before placing my hands on his chest and pushing him back slightly.

“Madi.” Justin pouted, confusion taking over his features.

“Let’s do a line and then you can do whatever you want with me.” I smiled over at him innocently. Justin just grinned and quickly moved across the room pulling out the coke and his wallet as he did so. We both eagerly did a line before Justin fell back on the couch and pulled me down on top of him so I was straddling his waist.


We were still in this position minus a few articles of clothing about ten minutes later when someone started banging on the door.

“J we gotta do sound check.” Chris’ voice floated through the room. Justin groaned as he pulled away from me and rested his forehead on mine.

“Why is your brother so against me getting laid?” Justin groaned out in frustration his eyes closed. I couldn’t help the giggle that escaped my lips at Justin’s ridiculous statement and he opened his eyes doing his best to fight off a smile and pout up at me.

“Well I am his baby sister.” I giggled getting an eye roll from Justin.

“Oh because he’s been so worried about that for the past four years.” Justin replied pushing me off his lap and grabbing his shirt and pulling it back over his head.

“Well then maybe you’re just being over dramatic.” I giggled as Justin lunged at me and started tickling me. I let out a loud squeal and tried to move out of Justin’s grasp and Chris took that as his cue to open the door. Justin and I both looked up as the door opened and I scrambled to grab my shirt as Chris stood there looking at us.

“You do realize you have the worse timing ever don’t you?” Justin asked brushing past Chris and heading towards the stage.

“Aww come on J it’s not THAT bad.” Chris argued chasing after Justin. I shook my head at their antics and followed them out to the stage to watch their sound check.


I was sitting watching the guys intently loving their togetherness and brotherhood. No matter what was wrong or what problems they were going through they were still brothers who loved each other unconditionally. I noticed J.C.’s gaze slowly traveling back and forth between Justin and I his eyes sad as he watched over us. I knew the coke was an issue for him and I knew me continuing to do it was only fueling his fire but I was trying to avoid how upset I really was. Justin was grinning goofily at me as he sang and shimmied his way around the stage and the other three were just goofing off having the time of their life. Pop started to play through the speakers and I scowled slightly seeing Joey start to do the choreography and basically trip over his own feet. I knew he wasn’t fully concentrating on the dance moves but he should be able to do the dances in his sleep and I was definitely frustrated that he obviously couldn’t.


The song ended and Rick, their sound technician, dismissed them.

“Not so fast.” I yelled out as they all started to make their way off the stage. I jogged over to the stage and quickly climbed up onto it as all the guys stopped and slowly turned to face me.

“What?” Chris whined as I made my way over to where they were all standing.

“We apparently have some dances to go over.” I said glaring slightly in Joey’s direction.

“What did I do?” Joey asked pointing to himself confused.

“Don’t act like you didn’t just trip over your own two feet trying to do the choreography to Pop.” I snapped at him as his eyes widened slightly in realization.

“I was just messing around.” Joey stumbled over his words.

“Come on baby I was thinking we could take a nap.” Justin pouted slightly as he wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his chin on my shoulder.

I raised my eyebrows slightly as I titled my head to the side so I could look back at Justin, “J you don’t do naps,” I laughed shaking my head slightly.

“But I didn’t get any sleep last night.” Justin pouted and I couldn’t tell if he was really tired or was just trying to get back to what we were doing before Chris interrupted us.

“You’ll be fine, I need to make sure your asses are ready to dance tonight.” I said stepping away from him and stretching.

“Fine but if you are going to make us do this then I need a quick pick me up, come on.” Justin said nodding towards the backstage area and waiting for me to follow. I nodded and moved to follow Justin when J.C.’s voice stopped us.

“Seriously J?” J.C. asked sighing slightly frustrated and also disappointed.

“It’s been a long day and it’s going to be an even longer night.” Justin shrugged as he pulled me to his side.

“This is a bad idea.” J.C. whispered moving closer to us but keeping his gaze focused on Justin.

“It’s fine,” Justin laughed as he started walking again pulling me along beside him, “you worry too much C.”


J.C. groaned out in frustration as he watched us walk away and he reached into his pocket grabbing his phone and searching for the number he knew would bring some peace to the whole situation. J.C. walked away from the other three guys as he found the number he was looking for and hit send putting the phone up to his car. J.C. smiled as the person on the other end of the phone picked up and greeted him warmly.

“Lynn.” J.C. smiled greeting his second mother.

Justin and I returned to the stage a few minutes later after I turned down all of his advances and pleas to forget about dancing and stay locked away with him. Much to the dismay of all the guys I made them run through the whole show, repeating any song where they even faltered slightly on a step. By the time we were done all the guys were tired and complaining that they only had time to grab a quick bite to eat before they had to do the show. I had security hold off on opening the doors so we could practice longer and literally as soon as we were off the stage the crowd started to file into the arena. Justin and I both passed on dinner seeing how at this point we were pretty much on a twenty four hour coke binge and neither of us felt like eating. I noticed the look of disapproval J.C. was giving us but decided to ignore it and any feelings of guilt until he could at least talk to me.


The rest of the guys were starting to filter back into the dressing room just as Justin and I decided to another line before the show. Chris knew I partied with Justin sometimes, and for the most part let it go because he was one to join us every once in a while and really couldn’t say anything, but the look on his face when he entered the room was enough to turn my stomach as the coke started to drip down the back of my throat and I took a couple huge gulps of water trying to calm myself down.

“Madi really?” Chris asked quietly as J.C. watched me intently and Joey and Lance busied themselves with changing.

“It’s just because I didn’t sleep last night….” I trailed off quietly refusing to make eye contact with anyone, “I just need to get through this show.”

Justin noticed the tension in the room and immediately wrapped his arm around me pulling me close and kissing my temple, “Leave her alone Chris, she’s fine.”

“Neither of you are fine, you’ve both done enough blow today to kill a horse.” J.C. snapped turning everyone’s attention to him.

“J.C.” Justin warned feeling me tense up against his side.

“What? It’s true!” J.C. exclaimed throwing his hands up.

“Can we talk?” Justin asked through a clenched jaw as he stood up and pushed J.C. out the door and slammed it behind him as they disappeared down the hall.


“Madi this has to stop, you’re no longer having fun you’re depending on it.” Chris said quietly as he sat down on the couch beside me.

“I know.” I choked out as I looked up at him with tears in my eyes. Chris frowned and instantly pulled me into a comforting hug.

“I don’t know what’s going on but you need to talk to J.C. and figure it out.” Chris whispered into my ear as I pulled back from the hug and looked at him with wide eyes.

“How’d…” I started not sure what to say because I wasn’t sure what Chris actually knew.

“You two never fight and you’ve barely looked at each other all day. I don’t know what you’re fighting about but you need to talk to him about it instead of this.” Chris urged as I nodded slightly.

“He doesn’t want to talk to me.” I whispered out shaking my head bitterly.

“Why? What’s going on?” Chris asked exasperated not used to being out of the loop.

“He’s upset about the coke.” I shrugged not wanting to go into any further detail.

“And you thought more coke was going to get him to talk to you?” Chris asked with raised eyebrows.

“No, I don’t know.” I sighed confused myself and not sure what I was actually doing.

“It stops now and you will talk to J.C.” Chris said sternly and I just nodded not sure what else to do or say.


Justin and J.C. made their way back into the room in time to change and head out to the stage, barely looking at each other the whole time. They put their all into the show and it was amazing but as soon as it was over and we made our way to the bus J.C. took a quick shower and headed to his bunk without a word to either of us. I showered next and went to lay down while I waited for Justin. I was completely exhausted but wide awake at the same time and knew that what should have been a short sleep filled ride to Cleveland was actually going to be a long restless night.

“You okay?” Justin asked softly as he made his way into the room and crawled into bed beside me. I just shrugged and curled into him laying my head on his bare chest and throwing my arm across his stomach.

“Madi you know you don’t have to do all the coke and shit I do right?” Justin whispered, running his fingers lazily through my hair.

My head snapped up to look at him confused and his face softened slightly, “I just don’t want you to think you have to. I don’t care if you do it with me or not I just thought you wanted to.”

“J stop please,” I pleaded kissing his chin softly, “I’ve never felt pressured to do it okay? And if J.C. made you think that I’m sorry.”

“He just made it seem like you both thought I had a problem with it.” Justin sighed closing his eyes.

“No J please no.” I begged as I scrambled to a sitting position and straddled his waist grabbing his face in between both of my hands forcing his eyes open to look at me. “Baby I love you.” I sighed as a couple tears fell down my face and onto his chest.

“Madi baby don’t cry,” Justin soothed as his hands made their way to my face and his thumbs brushed away the tears, “I love you too and that’s why you need to tell me if you don’t want to do something or if I’m getting out of control.”

“J I’ve never done anything I didn’t want to and sure we were probably both a little out of control today but if it’s anyone’s fault it’s my fault.” I choked out as tears fell freely down my face now. Justin opened his mouth to protest but I shook my head and put my fingers to his lips silencing him.

“I’ve been in this crazy fucked up whirlwind not knowing how to handle C being mad at me.” I hiccupped getting more excited and nervous as I talked.

“You know he’s just worried about you right? He’s not mad at you.” Justin whispered wiping more tears off my face. I just continued to cry not sure what to say or think for that matter.

“Baby please don’t cry,” Justin begged as he tugged on my wrist and pulled me down to his chest hugging me, “you’ll talk to C in the morning and everything will be fine.” I nodded slightly burying my face in the crook of his neck and clinging to him as he rubbed my back. Justin and I laid awake most of the night cuddling while he tried to reassure me that everything would be okay with J.C. We both finally fell into a restless sleep at about four am and I was glad that Mike made it a point to let us stay on the bus and sleep when we got to the hotel instead of waking us up.


Our sleep was short lived however, when Lynn made her way onto the bus at about eight waking both of us up.

“Mom?” Justin croaked out as he sat up and rubbed the back of his neck.

“Morning baby, Madison.” Lynn smiled at us.

“Hey Lynn.” I smiled over at her.

“What are you doing here?” Justin questioned confused.

“Well J.C. called and said you were having a rough time so I thought I’d come visit for a couple days.” Lynn said as Justin and I both looked at each other realizing what J.C. had done.

“Well J.C. should mind his own damn business.” Justin snapped as Lynn glared at him.

“Watch your mouth,” Lynn said as Justin just scowled at her, “and he’s just worried about you.”

“Yeah well he’s going to have to be worried about himself when I get my hands on him.” Justin mumbled as I hit him shutting him up.

“You’re off today right? I was thinking we could do some shopping….” Lynn offered trying to cheer Justin up.

“I would love to, but J.C. and I have to head into the studio so I’m really not sure why he called you out here.” Justin said stretching as he stood up and reached for a t-shirt to pull on.

“He said he cancelled it.” Lynn shrugged.

“Well I’m glad he told me, we only have a couple weeks to finish it,” Justin groaned out in frustration, “Listen I need to talk to C and get a shower and stuff why don’t you go get some breakfast or something and I’ll come find you in a little bit?”

“Okay, but go easy on J.C. he was just looking out or you.” Lynn sighed as Justin and I started to gather our stuff to head into the hotel.


Lynn made her way off the bus and I sighed as I made my way over to Justin and hugged him, “I don’t know if I can spend all day with your mom. I haven’t slept in two days and I’m exhausted and I don’t feel that good.” I knew I was just coming down off the coke but I had planned on spending all day lounging around in bed.

“You don’t have to come.” Justin sighed hugging me back.

“Are you sure?” I asked looking up at him knowing he wasn’t up for a day out with her either and not really wanting to leave him alone.

“Yeah there’s no point in us both being miserable beside you can talk to C since apparently he has the day free now too.” Justin said rolling his eyes.

“You don’t suppose he’ll be over everything and just let me cuddle with him do you?” I asked hopeful as Justin just chuckled.

“See this is why I like you on coke, you are a crazy sex fiend on it and then when you’re coming down you just want to be lazy and cuddle.” Justin smirked as I just shook my head at him and J.C. appeared in the doorway clearing his throat trying to get our attention.


“You’re an asshole.” Justin spit out pulling away from me and pointing at J.C.

“Me? Why?” J.C. laughed obviously appalled by that idea.

“Calling my mom behind my back? Really C? AND cancelling studio time that we need.” Justin said in quick concession his anger slowly rising with each word.

“Yeah well like I said yesterday you were out of control and someone needed to put your ass in line.” J.C. said matter-of-factly.

“What’d you tell her C?” I asked quietly finally speaking up, afraid that J.C. had told Lynn everything that was really going on.

J.C’s face softened as he glanced over at me for the first time, “Don’t worry I didn’t tell her about all the drugs I just said Justin was over working himself and not getting the rest he needed.”

“Well maybe she won’t keep me out all day and I can come back and cuddle with you.” Justin said his voice low as he wrapped his arms around my waist and rubbed his nose against mine.

“Mmm.” I groaned closing my eyes and leaning into him.

“Yeah well you’ve been wanting to talk Madison so let’s talk.” J.C. said interrupting us and causing me to open my eyes and pull away from Justin.

“Let me shower and get Justin out of here first. Why don’t you come down to our room in about an hour?” I suggested softly afraid to look at J.C. not wanting to see anger or disappointment. J.C. just nodded and turned and made his way off the bus followed by Justin and I.


Justin and I both showered and I just threw on one of his t-shirts and plopped down on the bed exhausted and wanting to do nothing more than sleep as Justin started to slowly get ready.

“J.” I pouted reaching my hand out to him.

“What’s wrong baby?” Justin asked sitting on the edge of the bed and picking up my hand.

“I don’t want you to go.” I pouted as Justin just smiled at me.

“I’ll try not to be too long, besides C will be here.” Justin soothed.

“Yeah to yell at me.” I scoffed tugging on Justin’s hand to get him to come closer.

Justin obliged and bent over me, “Don’t take his shit,” Justin murmured against my lips before kissing me softly. I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me and deepening the kiss as there was a knock on the door.

I groaned as Justin pulled away and sat up pulling his shoes on, “Can we just kill him?”

“Not if I couldn’t kill Chris yesterday.” Justin chuckled standing up and making his way over to the door.

“We can kill them both I don’t care.” I yelled out as I heard Justin laugh and J.C. appeared in the doorway a perplexed look on his face.

“You two play nice while I’m gone.” Justin said staring at J.C. as he made his way back across the room to me.

“I love you.” Justin said bending down to kiss me quickly.

“I love you too.” I sighed as he stood back up and made his way towards the door.


When Justin was gone I closed my eyes and threw my arm over my face wanting to just relax and not get right into it with J.C.

“Madison.” J.C. sighed from his spot in the doorway.

“Can we not fight just yet I’m tired.” I asked not bothering to look up at him.

“Well whose fault is that?” J.C. snapped as I rolled my eyes even though he couldn’t see.

“Please C.” I whined quietly. I heard him sigh as he shuffled across the room and I felt the bed shift under his weight as he sat down.

“I don’t want to fight.” J.C. finally relented and I moved my arm away from my face and looked over at him.

“Then please lay down with me and take a nap.” I whispered out almost pleadingly.

“We’re still going to talk.” J.C. sighed as he moved up the bed stretching out beside me.

“Mmmhmm shhhhh.” I murmured curling into him and closing my eyes.

“Madi your heart’s racing.” J.C. said quietly putting his hand on my back and holding me to his chest.

“It’s just the coke I’m fine.” I mumbled nuzzling my face into his chest wanting him to shut up.

“Get some sleep.” J.C. sighed not fully believing me but knowing there was nothing he could do about it anyway.


J.C. was tired and could have easily fell asleep but he refused to do so because he was worried about me and wanted to make sure I was okay. When I started to toss and turn restlessly however, J.C. decided to get up instead of getting beat up by me. He grabbed his notebook and sat in the chair in the corner of the room where he could keep his eye on me while he wrote.


It wasn’t until about one when I finally groaned out forcing myself awake. I reached out for J.C. and realizing he wasn’t there I slowly opened my eyes glancing around the room until my eyes settled on his form sitting in the corner. I licked my lips nervously as I noticed J.C.’s intent stare on me.

“It’s about time you woke up.” J.C. said quietly.

“How long have you been up?” I whispered taking in his relaxed appearance.

“I never went to sleep.” J.C. shrugged setting his notebook on the table and reaching his hands above his head stretching.

“What? Why?” I asked confused as I finally sat up.

“I was worried about you.” J.C. shrugged again nonchalantly.

“C I’m fine,” I sighed pulling my hair up and away from my face, “I just needed to catch up on some sleep.”

“You aren’t fine.” J.C. growled out slapping his hand down on his knee in frustration as his stomach growled. I looked down at the comforter and picked at imaginary lint to avoid looking at the frustration and hurt etched across J.C.’s face.

I heard J.C. take a deep breath and slowly exhale before he spoke again, “Why don’t we order some food?”

I finally let myself glance up at him, noticing how tired and ragged he looked, “I’m not hungry but go ahead.”

“Madison you haven’t eaten in two days you need to eat.” J.C. said trying to fight back the frustration that was creeping into his voice.

“Just order some food C.” I sighed as I stood up and made my way towards the bathroom not wanting to argue with him.

“What do you want?” J.C. asked as he stood as well.

“I don’t care just get whatever.” I sighed shutting the bathroom door as I made my way in more to try and clear my mind and focus on the conversation that I knew was coming.


I made my way back out of the bathroom to see J.C. sitting on the couch aimlessly flipping through channels. I slowly made my way over to him and sat down beside him cuddling up into his side as I laid my head on his shoulder. J.C. wrapped his arm around me pulling me close as he placed a kiss on the top of my head.

“I’m sorry.” I mumbled wrapping my arms around his waist and hugging him close to me.

“For what?” J.C. asked quietly.

“For everything, for making you angry and mad and disappointed.” I whispered our refusing to look up at him.

“I’m not angry or mad or anything along those lines.” J.C. sighed turning the tv off and pulling me up some to look at him.

“Madison please don’t cry.” J.C. said noticing the tears starting to form in my eyes as he pulled me over onto his lap and hugged me to his chest. I let my tears start to fall as I buried my face in the crook of his neck.

“Sweetheart please stop. It’s okay.” J.C. soothed rubbing my back comfortingly.

“I’m so sorry.” I cried out pulling back to look at him.

“Stop,” J.C. pleaded quietly as he wiped the tears off my face, “I’m not happy about what has been going on the past few days but I’m more worried about why you were doing it.”

I looked down and focused on J.C.’s shirt refusing to look at him, “Justin just brought it out and we were all drinking and stuff anyway but then you got mad and refused to talk to me and I didn’t know how to handle it.”

“So this is my fault?” J.C. asked clearing his throat.

“What? No!” I exclaimed whipping my head up to look at him as I brought my hand up to his cheek and caressed it softly, “It’s not your fault it’s my own fucked up way of not being able to deal with things.”

“I just don’t get it, you were so upset about Justin using it as much as he was and then you turn around and do the same thing only worse.” J.C. said placing his hand over mine.

“I can’t explain it, I don’t really know,” I sighed trying to find the right words, “I was just hurt and upset that you wouldn’t talk to me and I just didn’t want to feel.”

“So it is my fault.” J.C. said slowly nodding his head.

“No! No, please don’t think that.” I begged resting my forehead on his and closing my eyes willing the tears away.

“But it’s true, if I hadn’t been ignoring you, you wouldn’t have been doing it.” J.C. choked out obviously upset with himself.

“Please don’t put the blame on yourself for my mistakes.” I said my voice cracking as tears began to fall down my face again.

“Please don’t cry.” J.C. croaked out kissing the tears off my face.

“I just don’t know what’s going on anymore.” I cried finally opening my eyes to look at him and noticing the pain etched deep within his eyes.

“How ‘bout this? I promise to always talk to you from now on and you promise to stop using drugs as your outlet.” J.C. said his eyes searching mine

. “I promise I’m done with the coke for good, I don’t need it.” I said vigorously nodding my head trying to get my point across.


Just then there was a knock on the door and I reluctantly slid off of J.C.’s lap and stood up.

“I got it.” J.C. smirked at me noticing I was still only wearing Justin’s t-shirt. I smiled at him and made my way to the bathroom to splash some water on my face and blow my nose. I came back out and saw J.C. sitting at the table with a couple burgers and fries. I made my way over and sat across from him smiling as he took a big bite of his burger and chewed slowly.

“Eat.” J.C. nodded as I just sat there watching him.

“I told you I wasn’t hungry.” I said not even glancing down at the food.

“Madison.” J.C. drew out my name slowly in a reprimanding tone.

“C please if you make me eat that it’s just going to come right back up.” I said disgustedly at the thought of having to eat.

“Sweetheart you haven’t ate in two days.” J.C. pleaded his tone softening as he sat his burger down and reached across the table to pick up my hand.

“And the only way that is getting ate is if you go get Justin’s gym bag and find me a joint.” I said dismissively.

“Madison.” J.C. sighed frustrated pulling his hand back.

“Seriously C I wanna throw up just thinking about eating right now, so unless you wanna smoke I’m not eating.” I sighed sitting back in my chair. J.C. glared at me as he forcibly pushed his chair away from the table and stood up and disappeared into the bedroom. He returned a minute later and threw a tightly rolled joint and a lighter down on the table in front of me and plopped back down in his chair with a huff.


I smirked slightly to myself as I noticed the pout on J.C.’s face. “Come on C, come smoke with me.” I said as I stood up and held my hand out to him.

“I’m good,” J.C. replied rolling his eyes at me, “go smoke, so you can eat.”

“I will but come with me; it’s no fun getting high by yourself.” I said batting my eyes at him.

“This isn’t a game Madison.” J.C. sighed shaking his head at me.

“I know but if I’m going to smoke anyway I might as well enjoy it. Please.” I pouted sticking out my bottom lip.

“Fine.” J.C. sighed placing his hand in mine and standing up. I squealed in delight as I tugged him towards the patio excitedly and his eyes lit up as he smiled over at me.

“You’re going to be the death of me.” J.C. growled into my ear as he wrapped his arms around my waist from behind as I lit the joint and took a hit off of it grinning up at him.

A little while later J.C. and I were both lying on the couch giggling at each other when the door opened. “Hey baby.” I giggled glancing up to see Justin and Lynn standing in the doorway.

“Hey.” Justin smiled at me as my eyes widened at seeing Lynn and I immediately jumped up off of J.C. and made my way over to Justin and hugged him.

“Not that you don’t look amazing but maybe you should put some pants on.” Justin growled in my ear as he fingers lightly dug into my hip. I nodded slightly as I noticed Lynn staring at me with a raised eyebrow. I scurried out of Justin’s embrace and made my way to the bedroom where I quickly pulled on a pair of shorts before making my way back out to see everyone sitting down a slight blush on J.C’s face as Lynn watched him.

“How was your day?” I asked sitting next to Justin and sliding my hand onto his knee.

“Good I got you something.” Justin grinned over at me as my eyes lit up.

“What?”I giggled looking at him expectantly. Justin just smiled as he pulled one of his many bags up off the floor and handed it to me. My eyes lit up slightly as I noticed the Finish Line bag and eagerly opened it and pulled the box out opening it to reveal a pair of white and baby blue puma’s. I let out a small squeal and threw my arms around Justin’s neck pulling him towards me and kissing him in gratitude.

“I take it you like them?” Justin chuckled pulling back from the kiss.

“Of course she does, you two both have a sick obsession.” J.C. snorted as Justin and I both grinned over at him.

“So what did you two do today?” Lynn asked glancing back and forth between J.C. and I.

“Caught up on some sleep.” J.C. smiled and Lynn gave him a tight lipped smile and nodded slowly.

“Baby why don’t we take your mom to dinner?” I said quickly smiling over at Justin trying to diffuse the tension in the room.

“I’m not really hungry but I guess we can.” Justin said glancing at me and then Lynn for her approval.

“Justin you barely touched your lunch are you sure you’re feeling okay?” Lynn asked concerned.

“Yeah Ma I’m fine.” Justin grinned over at her trying to reassure her.

“Alright,” Lynn sighed not really believing him but letting it go or the time being, “I’m going to go freshen up. J.C. walk me to my room?”

“Uh, yeah sure.” J.C. nodded glancing at Justin and I confused as he got up and slowly made his way towards the door with Lynn.


“Your mom knows something’s up.” I sighed as soon as the door closed.

“No she doesn’t.” Justin shook his head as he gave me an incredulous look as if it was the most preposterous thing he’d ever heard.

“She just walked in to me lying on top of J.C. half naked!” I exclaimed as I stood up and ran my fingers through my hair, “and she asked him to walk her to her room? Come on J. Your mom is a lot of thins but stupid is not one of them.”

“The bigger issue here is you offering to go to dinner, there’s no way I can make it through another meal with her without her throwing a fit and insisting I see a doctor.” Justin groaned from his spot on the coach as I just smiled over at him.

“What?” Justin finally asked frustrated.

“I can fix that come on.” I said walking back into the bedroom.

“How in the hell are you going to fix it?” Justin asked not making any attempt to get up off the couch. I walked back out of the bedroom and saw Justin still sitting pouting and I placed my hand on my hip as I glared over at him.

“Stop pouting and get your ass up.” I said as Justin raised his eyes to me in a glare.

“What do you want Madi?” Justin snapped as I narrowed my eyes at him.

“Don’t get pissy with me I’m not the one who invited your mom out here.” I seethed.

“No just to dinner when you know damn well that I’m not going to be able to eat.” Justin rolled his eyes as he turned the tv on and started to flip through channels ignoring me. I clenched my jaw and slowly counted to ten trying not to lose my temper with him knowing why he was so on edge.

“Come on J.” I said my tone softening as I moved in front of him blocking his view of the tv and holding my hand out to him with a joint in it.

Justin started at the joint in my hand for a few seconds before he finally looked up at me, “You want to get high? To go to dinner with my mother? When the whole reason she is here in the first place is because J.C. decided he didn’t like all the drugs we were doing?” Justin slowly questioned with raised eyebrows.

“I don’t want you to get blowed just enough so you can eat, and as far as J.C. goes him and I smoked earlier when he insisted I eat,” I sighed looking down at Justin whose face was giving nothing away to what he was thinking, “Please just smoke so we can get through dinner and then come back here.” I smiled down at him as I moved to straddle his lap and wrapped my arms around his neck kissing the corner of his mouth softly. Justin let out a low growl as his fingers tangled in my hair and he pulled me back to his mouth kissing me hungrily.


We made it through most of dinner without much happening when Lynn finally glanced over at me, “So Madi you and J.C. seem awfully close?”

“Yeah we always have been.” I shrugged hoping to drop the conversation.

Lynn pursed her lips no doubt trying to think of a comeback when Justin interrupted us, “Yano mom J.C. and I are pretty close too but I don’t really see why it matters.” Lynn looked Justin over carefully at his declaration and decided to let the conversation go for the time being not wanting to start a fight in the middle of the restaurant. I looked at Justin gratefully and he picked up my hand as he grinned over at me reassuringly.


When we got back to the hotel the three of us were in the elevator, me leaning against Justin trying to avoid Lynn’s intense stare. The doors finally opened and I breathed a sigh of relief knowing the rest of our night would be peaceful.

“Justin can we talk?” Lynn asked expectantly as she looked over at him.

“Uh…yeah.” Justin said hesitantly as he looked down at me apologetically.

“I’m going to go see C, let me know when you’re done.” I whispered up at Justin trying to not be heard by Lynn.

“Alright I won’t be long we have unfinished business.” Justin grinned down at me before kissing me softly. I giggled up at him and finally turned and made my way down the hall avoiding Lynn’s gaze.


I let myself into J.C.’s room and called out to him, “C…” I whined as I made my way over to him and sat down beside him throwing my legs over his lap and hugging him.

“Are you okay?” J.C. asked his voice full of concern as he wrapped his arms around me. I started to respond when Joey walked out of the bathroom and eyed us suspiciously as he slowly made his way over to us.

“Hey Madi….” Joey drawled out as he sat across from J.C. and I.

“Hey Joey.” I sighed as I laid my head on J.C.’s chest.

“You okay?” J.C. asked again softly as he brushed a piece of hair out of my face.

“I was just hoping to talk to you…alone.” I said as I glanced up at him.

J.C. nodded in understanding and looked over at Joey, “Joe can you give us a few minutes?”

Joey narrowed his eyes at us but finally sighed and got up and made his way out of the room mumbling to himself the whole way.


Once the door closed J.C. turned his attention back to me, “What’s going on?”

“Lynn knows something’s up.” I sighed as J.C.’s face registered understanding.

“Come on,” J.C. said patting my legs so I’d move them, “Let’s go lay down.” I nodded slightly as I stood up and made my way towards the bedroom J.C. following closely behind me. I shimmied out of my jeans and crawled up onto the bed beside J.C. laying my head on his chest.

“What happened?” J.C. asked wrapping his arms around me.

“She has just been giving me sideways glances all night and she made some off handed comment at dinner about how close you and I are.” I sighed nuzzling my nose against his bare chest.

“What’d you say?” he questioned curiously.

“That we’ve always been close and then Justin said yeah mom J.C. and I are close too but I don’t see why that matters,” I said snorting slightly as J.C. chuckled, “and then when we got back she told him she wanted to talk.”

“Yeah she cornered me earlier when she asked me to walk her to her room.” J.C. said absentmindedly drawing patterns on my back with his fingers.

“What’d she say?” I questioned raising my head to look up at him.

“She asked if I had feelings for you and told me to be careful messing with your emotions and reminded me how long Justin and I have been friends.” J.C. sighed rubbing his hand over his face in frustration.

“She doesn’t think you’re aware of that?” I asked my voice rising slightly as I sat up and looked down at J.C.

“She’s just protective of him.” J.C. sighed reaching out and picking up my hand and interlocking our fingers.

“I don’t know if I can keep doing this.” I relented shaking my head as J.C.’s eyes widened slightly.

J.C. stared at me for a minute before taking a deep breath and replying, “ I mean if that’s what you want, “ he started before clearing his throat, “ we agreed we’d stop whenever one of us became uncomfortable.”

I studied J.C.’s face and saw the fear and turmoil etched across it and I reached up and caressed his cheek gently sighing, “Is it possible to be in love with two people at the same time?” I whispered out as J.C.’s eyes widened and he sat up pulling me towards him and kissing me.

I moaned slightly as I wrapped my arms around his neck burying my fingers in his hair and tugging on it deepening the kiss. J.C. finally pulled away from the kiss his forehead resting on mine and his eyes remaining closed as he spoke, “I know this is probably only going to complicate things but I don’t care I love you and I have for a while and I’m not ready to lose you.” J.C. said all in one breath as I just stared at him. As soon as he finished I crashed my lips against his kissing him hungrily drawing comfort from his words and actions.

J.C.’s hands snaked around to my lower back and he gently laid me back never breaking our kiss as he moved on top of me. I ran my hands down his bare back slipping them into the back of his shorts and squeezed his ass lightly. J.C. growled as he broke away from our kiss and started to kiss along my jaw and below my ear as his fingers skimmed up my bare thighs and he hooked them in the hem of my panties and tugged on them. I lifted my hips allowing J.C. better access and he moved down my body pulling them down with him. He pushed my shirt up my stomach as he dropped his head and placed a kiss just below my belly button as his fingers made quick work of opening my folds and pushing inside of me. I let out a small whimper as I arched my back and pushed myself into his hand as I ripped my shirt over my head taking my bra with it and tossing them onto the floor carelessly. J.C. grinned up at me as he wrapped his arm around my thigh and tugged me down slightly as his lips wrapped around my clit sucking it into his mouth. I cried out as I buried my fingers in his hair holding him into place.

“Josh….” I managed to moan out as I move my hips against his face as his tongue and fingers continued to work me over. I threw my head back arching my back as I continued to pant as the sensations in my stomach began to build.


Just then there was a pounding on the door and J.C. groaned slightly as he pulled away from me and looked up at apologetically.

“Seriously?” I groaned as I flopped back on the bed frustrated.

“I’ll be right back.” J.C. winked at me as he jumped off the bed and hurriedly made his way out of the bedroom towards the door.

J.C. opened the door to see Justin standing there eyeing him suspiciously, “Why’s your face so red?” Justin asked amused.

“You have impeccable timing.” J.C. said rolling his eyes at Justin as he pushed past J.C. into the room.

“Where’s Madi?” Justin asked looking around the room.

“Bedroom.” J.C. sighed as Justin nodded and made his way towards the door J.C. following closely behind him.


I looked up as the door opened and noticed Justin’s face light up as he saw me sprawled across the bed completely naked.

“I know I said we had unfinished business, but you didn’t have to start without me.” Justin smirked as he pulled his shirt over his head and began to make his way towards me.

I smiled over at Justin as he started to undo hi belt and then turned my gaze back to J.C. who was standing at the edge of the bed watching me, “C please finish what you started.” I begged as a huge grin slid onto his face.

J.C. grabbed both of my ankles and pulled me to the edge of the bed a mischievous grin on his face, catching me off guard and causing me to squeal. J.C. dipped his head back down tasting me again as he let my leg rest on his shoulder and I let out a breathy sigh of contentment. I let out a gargled moan as my hips instinctively bucked up against J.C. I turned my head to the side to look at Justin who was looking down at me with lust filled eyes as he stroked himself. I reached my hand out to him and motioned him over to me. Justin licked his lips as he climbed onto the bed beside me and I leaned up slightly taking him into my mouth as J.C. continued his assault on me.

Neither J.C. nor I had time to question Justin about his conversation with Lynn last night and they were whisked off early this morning with the rest of the guys to do an interview. The guys were now doing their sound check and I was relaxing in their dressing room when Lynn walking in.

“Hey Madi,” Lynn smiled over at me as I looked up at her, “do you want to go grab some food?”

“I usually wait on the guys.” I said slowly not sure if I wanted to be alone with Lynn.

“Oh, well I guess we can just talk in here until they’re done.” Lynn smiled as she sat down on the couch opposite of me. I forced a small smile in her direction not sure what to say to her.

“Listen Madi, I love you like a daughter you have been in Justin’s life for a long time and I know how happy he is with you…”Lynn sighed as she trailed off. I nodded slightly knowing where the conversation was heading but still not knowing what to say to her. “But I also see how close you and Jace are and it worries me. Justin is my baby and I will do anything I have to, to protect him. I see the way you and Jace look at each other and I’m not sure if you realize your feelings for him or if it’s just your way of admiration and looking up to him.” Lynn continued.

“Look Lynn,” I sighed cutting her off before she could say anything else, “I love Justin, there’s no question about that, and yes C and I are close but I’ve known him just as long as Justin and they’ve always been close even before I met them so it just kind of ended up being the three of us together all the time. I can assure you that Justin is well aware of how close we are and he’s okay with it.” I said pausing trying to collect my thought.

“Oh I know he knows, I’m just afraid that he’s too blinded and wouldn’t even notice if more was going on right under his nose. He trusts both of you and I don’t want to see him get hurt for being too trusting.” Lynn sighed.

“I understand you’re worried about him but do you really think J.C. or I would ever do anything to purposely hurt him?” I asked not really believing that Lynn was even confronting me about all of this.

“I …Well no it’s not that…I just…” Lynn fumbled looking for the right words when I cut her off again, “I have never given you a reason not to trust me and you have known C since he was sixteen and if you really think we are the kind of people who would do something like that then I’m not really sure what to say.” I said my voice cracking slightly as I stood and started pacing the room. I wasn’t even sure if I had the right to defend myself to Lynn; everything she was saying was right, it was just that Justin didn’t have a problem with any of it, but what if Justin did have a problem with it all? I shuddered at that thought for once not actually knowing what I would do without both of them in my life.

“Madison it’s not that,” Lynn groaned obviously frustrated with the way this conversation was going, “It’s just Jace called me out here worried about Justin and all day yesterday I could tell something was off with him and like I said it’s obvious to anyone how close you are with J.C. and I’m just worried Justin knows you’re slipping away and that’s what has him all out of sorts. He didn’t look good at all yesterday and he barely ate all day, although dinner was a little better but that’s all just so out of character for him and it’s not healthy anytime but especially being out on the road like this.”

I nodded slowly picking at my nails as I continued to pace around the room. “Do you honestly think J.C. would have called you out here if the problem was because of him?” I asked not sure if Lynn realized how ridiculous some of her accusations sounded.

“Well no…but when we got back yesterday and you two were laying on top of one another half naked….” Lynn trailed off as I felt my face heat up from embarrassment.

“I didn’t feel good yesterday, which if anything should give you comfort that BOTH JUSTIN AND I weren’t feeling well,” I said glancing over at her with a scowl on my face, “but you flew all the way out here and Justin wasn’t going to miss the chance to spend time with you, but he told me to stay and get some rest and HE asked C to check on me,” I sighed again, “ I wasn’t feeling well I didn’t want to be uncomfortable and I love C like a brother, he was just making sure I was alright.” I said my voice softening at the end as I lied to Lynn, who had never been anything but nice and caring towards me. True yesterday was nothing but innocent between J.C. and I but I couldn’t believe I had just said that I loved him like a brother. Up until that statement I had done pretty well with telling her the truth without revealing too much information.

“If that’s true then why is Jace so worried about Justin and not you?” Lynn quickly replied as my eyes widened slightly as I finally turned to face her.

“Trust me he was just as worried about me, but it’s not like mom exactly has the time to fly out here beside Chris is here and yes Chris knows about everything’s that’s been going on, probably more so than you,” I spat my anger slowly rising, “but it’s all under control so there’s no need to worry about it, although I’m sure C thought if I needed motherly advice that you would give it to me, but obviously he gave you too much credit.” I finished fuming as Lynn just stared at me wide eyed.


“Baby I’m starving, are you ready to go eat?” Justin called out as all the guys piled into the dressing room stopping mid step when they all noticed the looks on mine and Lynn’s faces. I walked past both Justin and J.C. and threw my arms around Chris’ neck needing to feel comforted by someone who I wasn’t just previously getting attacked over.

“Madi?” I heard J.C. ask softly as he turned towards Chris and I, but I ignored him as I continued to cling to Chris.

“What’d you do?” Justin asked accusingly turning towards his mom.

“Nothing! I just…” Lynn started when Justin cut her off, “No! I told you to drop this shit!” Justin barked at Lynn before making his way over to Chris and I and prying me away from him and wrapping his arms around me tightly.

“Come on baby let’s go grab something to eat.” Justin whispered in my ear as he rubbed my back.

I shook my head as I tightened my arms around him before mumbling out, “No, I’m not hungry.”

“Madison you need to eat.” I heard J.C. say softly as he caught Justin’s eye and they shared a knowing look. I glanced up to see J.C. standing right next to Justin and I and I saw both of them sigh at the tears that were running down my face.

“Baby please stop.” Justin pleaded as J.C. reached up to wipe the tears off my face and I closed my eyes leaning into his hand slightly.

“You guys go ahead we’ll catch up.” Justin said glancing up the other three guys.

“Madi you okay?” Chris asked hesitantly. I looked over at him giving him a weak smile and nodded slightly.

“Alright if you guys don’t come down in twenty minutes I’m coming back.” Chris relented as he turned to follow Joey and Lance out of the room.


“Mom leave.” Justin ordered without even turning to look at her.

“Justin this isn’t a conversation for the three of you.” Lynn chastised not moving from her spot on the couch. Justin’s jaw clenched at his mother’s words and he gently handed me to J.C. who immediately wrapped his arms around me as he turned to glare at his mom.

“You’re the one who has done nothing but make it about the three of us, now I want to talk to my girlfriend and my best friend ALONE. So get out.” Justin grunted out his nostrils flaring slightly. Lynn looked at Justin completely taken back by his outburst but quietly got up and made her way out of the room leaving the three of us alone together.


J.C. walked me back over to the couch and sat down pulling me back against him as Justin sat down on the other side of me and pulled my legs across his lap. Justin opened his mouth to speak but before he could say anything I cut him off, blurting out, “I’m in love with C!”

I closed my eyes not being able to make eye contact with Justin and I heard J.C. inhale sharply at my revelation, as his grip on my waist tightened.

“Madi?” Justin finally questioned picking up my hand. I slowly opened my eyes to look at him and instead of the anger or pain I thought I would see etched across his face all I saw was a blank expression searching mine.

“I love you too J.” I sighed as I squeezed his hand and his mouth twitched upwards slightly.

“Then what’s wrong?” Justin asked softly.

“I don’t know. Is it even possible to love you both? And your mom is definitely on to us I just spent the last half hour being interrogated by her and I lied to her! I’ve never lied to your mother Justin.” I cried out exasperated.

“Let me handle my mom, “ Justin sighed rubbing his hand over his face, “she can say all she wants about the situation but as far as I’m concerned the only people’s who opinions matter on it are the people sitting here.”

“This whole situation is fucked up.” I groaned as I threw my head back on J.C.’s shoulder.

“Madi if you want to stop all this just say the word, but I don’t really see that resolving anything if you’re in love with C too.” Justin trailed off.

“Sweetheart whatever you’re comfortable with just tell me, I’ll do whatever you want.” J.C. whispered out and I was once again overwhelmed by the love and the compassion coming from the two of them.

“I don’t want to lose either of you.” I sighed feeling selfish.

“Then what are you stressing about? Neither of us are going anywhere unless you say so.” Justin said confused by my hesitation.

“I’m not worried about either of you, but what about your mom? Or the guys? They’re bound to figure it out eventually!” I exclaimed as J.C. squeezed my reassuringly and kissed the side of my head.

“Who cares what they think?!” Justin exclaimed throwing his hands up in the air.

“J calm down and try to understand where she’s coming from.” J.C. said calmly drawing Justin’s attention back to us.

“I get it okay my mom is confused and attacking everybody and the guys won’t understand it like we do but damnit fuck ‘em. It’s not their lives.” Justin insisted as J.C. rolled his eyes.

“I get what you’re saying J, but do you really think they’re all going to just let it go that easily?” I asked reaching out for his hand begging him to understand.

“No they won’t because they’re assholes but are you really willing to fuck up a good thing because of what they may or may not say when they may or may not find out about it?” Justin asked.

“I never said I was going to fuck anything up I just want you to understand my apprehension.” I sighed as J.C. tightened his grip around my waist once again.

“I get it, I do, but there’s nothing you can do about it so I don’t see the point in stressing over it.” Justin sighed his voice softening.

“I was a bitch to your mom.” I mumbled looking down at my hand in his refusing to look him in the eye at that confession.

“Yeah well I was an ass too. Don’t worry about it I’ll talk to her and apologize.” Justin sighed again.

“You’re not mad?” I asked timidly glancing up at him as he spoke, “Normally yeah I’d be pissed but she more than deserved this and I know you didn’t mean it.”

“I love you.” I said finally smiling over at him.

“There’s my girl! I love you too.” Justin grinned as he leaned over me and kissed me full on causing both of us to lean back onto J.C.

J.C. pulled my earlobe into his mouth and sucked on it lightly as I burst into a fit of giggles causing both of them to stop and pull back and look at me.

“Woman what are you laughing at?” Justin asked his eyes sparkling mischievously.

“If someone were to walk in and see us….” I trialed off getting lost in another fit of giggles as Justin and J.C. both started to laugh along with me.

“Come on, I’m still hungry.” Justin chuckled as he stood up and offered me his hand. I stood and turned and waited on J.C. and the three of us slowly made our way out of the room down towards catering joking and laughing with one another.


The three of us made our way into the catering area all of us laughing loudly at one another drawing everyone’s attention to us as we entered. Chris smiled over at me and winked as we made our way over to the rest of the guys and I smiled back knowing all Chris really wanted was for me to be happy and thinking he might not care so much when he found out what had been going on. We all quickly got some food and sat down joining in on the other guy’s conversation. The guys were all excitedly discussing the release of the album in a couple weeks as I sat back and watched them with my own excitement, proud of all they had accomplished.

My eyes started to wander around the room where they finally landed on Lynn who was sitting watching us intently a small frown on her face. I quickly turned my attention back to the guys sliding my hand over Justin’s thigh and leaning into him so my mouth was against his ear, “Your mom doesn’t look to happy.”

Justin glanced over in her direction before turning his attention back to me and kissing me softly, “she brought it on herself,” he muttered against my lips.

I shook my head slightly as I pulled back and smiled at him when I saw him pouting at me. “Regardless you need to talk to her before the show.” I urged as Justin just continued to pout at me.

I raised my eyebrows as I just stared at him and he finally relented whining, “fine….”

“Thank you baby,” I grinned as I pecked him lightly on the lips before pulling away and turning my attention towards J.C., “and you are coming with me.” I demanded.

J.C. eyes gleaned mischievously as he pointed to himself feigning shock. I just giggled as I stood up and grabbed his hand pulling him up as well. J.C. chuckled as he slid his arm around my waist and allowed me to lead him away from the table and towards the door.

“Come find us when you’re done J.” J.C. called over his shoulder as we exited the room much to the dismay of Lynn.


I all but drug J.C. out to the bus him laughing at my eagerness the whole way. Lonnie was standing out by the buses and nodded slightly at us as we entered and shut the door behind us.

“What are we doing?” J.C. chuckled as he stopped me once we were inside the bus holding me in place.

“I love you!” I squealed as I jumped up into his arms and kissed him. J.C.’s eyes widened slightly as he caught me and took a moment to steady himself, but he eagerly kissed me back moaning softly. J.C. finally pulled away and I rested my forehead on his as I grinned down at him.

“I love you too.” J.C. said softly his whole face lighting up.

After Justin had talked to Lynn she backed off for the most part, although I knew she was still apprehensive about all the time J.C. and I spent together. She had stayed in Milwaukee last night after the show planning on catching her plane home today, while we all left after the show headed for Detroit. The guys had the day off but Justin and J.C. wrangled everyone into the studio to fix a couple last minute vocals so they could finish editing everything together before the album was released.


Chris and I walked into the studio together and I immediately made a beeline for Justin, sitting down beside him and curling myself against him. Justin untangled his arm from underneath me and went back to whatever he was doing on his phone ultimately ignoring me.

“J?” I questioned glancing up at him.

“What?” Justin asked absentmindedly refusing to look up from his phone.

“Baby.” I said quietly as I reached up and brushed my fingers across his jaw, only to be met with him swatting my hand away.

“Damn Madi! Stop being so fucking clingy, I had to deal with it from my mom all week I don’t need you doing it too!” Justin exclaimed knocking me back away from him and standing up while the other guys just watched on not sure what to say.

“J, calm down, she didn’t mean anything by it.” J.C. said quietly coming to my defense.

“Then let her hang all over you.” Justin growled as he briskly walked of the studio. Chris quickly stood and followed Justin out of the room as J.C. made his way over to me.

“You okay?” J.C. asked sitting down beside me and patting my knee. I just shrugged not sure what to say but J.C. gave me a sad smile noticing the hurt look on my face and immediately pulled me to his chest hugging me tightly as I collapsed against him.


A few minutes later Justin and Chris both made their way back into the room scowling at one another and Justin scoffed and rolled his eyes in my direction before sitting down at the soundboard and getting to work.


“I think I’m gonna head back to the hotel.” I whimpered glancing up at J.C.

“Okay, let’s go.” J.C. nodded immediately standing and pulling me up with him.

“No C, you have work to do.” I said shaking my head up at him.

“Yeah well I’m sure Justin can handle it.” J.C. said rolling his eyes in Justin’s direction. Justin grunted but made no move to acknowledge either one of us as he continued to make adjustments on the sound board. I stopped, hesitating as I glanced around the room knowing they were on a deadline and that things would go much smoother if J.C. stayed, but another part of me wanted to be selfish and not be left alone.

“Come on Madison.” J.C. said firmly, placing his hand on the small of my back and turning me towards the door. Chris nodded encouragingly at me and I finally relented and let J.C. lead me out of the studio.


J.C. didn’t say much on the way back to the hotel; he just put his arm around me and pulled me against his side, keeping me close. I quickly realized it was more for Lonnie’s sake than mine however, because as soon as we entered his hotel room he spoke up.

“Are you okay?” J.C. asked softly as the door shut and he pulled me to his chest wrapping me into a hug.

“I’m fine.” I sighed, stepping away from him and making my way over to the couch and throwing myself down on it.

“Madison…” J.C. sighed lightly as he made his way over to me and sat down.

“It’s fine C, I should have known better, he always wants his space after his mom leaves.” I shrugged turning on the tv and refusing to look at J.C.

“That doesn’t make it right Madison! Stop making excuses for him!” J.C. exclaimed frustrated.

My eyes widened slightly and my head snapped up at J.C.’s outburst and he sighed as his face softened almost immediately, “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to snap at you, you just don’t deserve to be the outlet for all of Justin’s mood swings,” J.C. sighed rubbing his hand over his face obviously frustrated.

“I’m use to it.” I mumbled shrugging trying to drop the conversation.

“Damnit Madison that’s the problem.” J.C. groaned out. I could quickly feel my resolve crumbling and the last thing I wanted to do right now was break down, so I leaned over and curled myself against J.C.’s side.

“Can we please drop this?” I whispered out pleadingly as J.C. wrapped his arms around me.

J.C. audibly sighed and I knew he didn’t want to let it go but he complied anyways, “If that’s what you want honey.”

“Thank you.” I mumbled as I placed a small kiss on his collarbone where my head was lying.


At some point J.C. and I must have fallen asleep because we both woke up to someone pounding on the door. J.C. groaned as he slowly untangled himself from me and made his way over to the door. I groggily sat up as the other guys all filed into the room, Justin looking less than pleased.

“Come on Madi.” Justin nodded towards the door as the rest of the guys started to sit down.

“Huh?” I asked looking up at Justin slightly bewildered as J.C. sat back down beside me.

“I didn’t stutter, let’s go.” Justin said firmly staring me down.

“Where are we going?” I asked confused as I instinctively leaned in closer to J.C.

“I’ve had the week from hell with my mom hovering over me and I just spent way longer in the studio than I planned because you stole J.C. away and I’m ready for a fucking drink, so get up and let’s go get ready.” Justin snapped as my eyes widened slightly.

“J, I don’t wanna go out.” I said quietly glancing up at him and noticing his jaw tighten slightly.

“I need to unwind some, please.” Justin begged his resolve slowly crumbling at my refusal.

“So let’s just go back to our room, just us.” I said quietly as I stood up and made my way over to him and wrapped my arms around his waist as I looked up at him expectantly.

“Fuck Madi, I need a few drinks first.” Justin groaned as he stepped back away from me.

“Come on J, I’ll go out with you.” Chris said glancing at me as he stood up.

“Yeah I’m in too.” Joey exclaimed nudging Lance as well.

“Whatever be ready in twenty.” Justin growled as he stalked towards the door leaving the rest of us in his wake.


“You okay Madi?” Chris asked as the door finally shut.

“Fine,” I sighed glancing at the shut door, “you better go, you know how he is.”

“Alright I love you.” Chris sighed defeated as he bent down and kissed the top of my head.

“I love you too, be careful.” I smiled up at him. Joey and Lance ambled after Chris and J.C. and I were once again left alone.


“How are you really?” J.C. asked softly caressing my cheek.

“Do you think I should have gone with him?” I asked, starting to regret turning Justin down.

“Not if you don’t want to Madison, no.” J.C. said knitting his brows together in confusion.

“But I know he’s been stressed out all week with his mom here and what’s it really going to hurt to go have a few drinks?” I asked sighing slightly.

“Madison look at me,” J.C. said firmly causing me to slowly bring my eyes up to look at him, “you do not have to feel guilty about not wanting to go out. Justin deals with things differently than the rest of us; you of all people should know that. He’ll go out, get wasted, blow off some steam and be fine tomorrow.”

“I don’t know…” I trialed off, realizing that if J.C. weren’t in the picture I would have followed Justin no questions asked.

“Hey, why don’t we go down there and try one more time to get him to stay in. The three of us can order some food and watch some movies or something.” J.C. suggested knowing I wasn’t going to be happy with just letting Justin leave.

“You sure?” I asked almost hopeful, searching J.C.’s face for any signs of doubt.

“If that’s what you want then yes, let’s go.” J.C. smiled down at me as he stood up and offered me his hand.


J.C. and I made our way down the hall to mine and Justin’s room and Justin’s head snapped up a smile plastered across his face as we walked in.

“You change your mind?” Justin asked as he sauntered over to me and placed his hands on my waist pulling me to him as he bent down and kissed me full on, full of want and need. I pulled away, caught off guard when I tasted the coke on Justin’s tongue.

“Really Justin?” I asked, glancing behind him noticing the coke spread out on the table.

“Do a line and get changed so we can go.” Justin shrugged refusing to notice the looks of disapproval that were on mine and J.C.’s faces.

“J, I thought you were done with all this shit?” J.C. sighed stepping up beside us.

“No C, you tried to get me to stop by calling my mom.” Justin snorted rolling his eyes.

“Baby, why don’t we just stay here?” I suggested reaching for Justin’s hand, trying to diffuse the situation before it escalated any further.

“I want to go out Madi, fuck why are you busting my balls over this? We haven’t done anything all week with my mom here.” Justin groaned getting agitated again.

“Baby I don’t care if you want to go out but I don’t want to, and I really wish you’d stop with the coke.” I sighed defeated, realizing that a fight was unavoidable at this point.

“Why? Because J.C. says so? Fuck Madi we used to have fun.” Justin snorted turning away from me and shoving his keys and his wallet into his jeans.

“J, don’t do this, we have fun and you know it,” I pleaded trying to choke back the tears that were threatening to spill over, “why don’t you stay and I’ll prove it to you.” I suggested hopefully.

“I’m not in the mood, I’ll see you later.” Justin said dismissively as he bent over and did another line before he made his way out the door without another word.


“Come on.” J.C. said quietly nodding towards the door. I immediately followed not wanting to stay around Justin’s things and replay the day over in my head again and again. J.C. led me back into his room and I immediately threw myself at him kissing him feverishly.

J.C. was slightly caught off guard, but quickly recovered and kissed me back before pulling away slightly and chuckling, “you hungry?”

“Make love to me.” I whimpered out keeping my arms around his neck as I nuzzled my face against his shirt and ignored his question.

“What?” J.C. questioned the confusion evident in his voice.

“Do you love me?” I asked my eyes full of question as I stared up at him.

“Of course, you know I do.” J.C. replied softly as he bent down and connected our lips in a sweet but all too brief kiss.

“Good, then make love me. I need to feel close to you.” I pleaded as I tightened my grip around his neck.


I saw a small glimmer of doubt cross across J.C.’s face as he no doubt thought I was trying to overcompensate for Justin’s behavior, but it disappeared just as quickly as it came, and he nodded slightly as he guided me towards the bedroom and pulled m down onto the bed with him, kissing me softly. My hands tangled in J.C.’s hair pulling him closer to me as I slipped my leg in between his wanting to be as close as possible to him. J.C. let out a low growl as I brushed up against his arousal and he broke our kiss long enough to rip his t-shirt over his head and toss it aimlessly onto the floor. I whimpered at the loss of contact but J.C. quickly quieted me, prying my mouth open with his tongue as his fingers pushed my shirt up and skimmed across my stomach. I broke away from the kiss breathless and threw my head back as J.C.’s lips trailed across my jaw and down my neck, refusing to break contact with me. He quickly moved my shirt up over my head and I untangled it from my arms before quickly wrapping them back around him, feeling the muscles on his back ripple as I pulled him back to me.

“Madison.” J.C. breathed out breathlessly as he slid my bra strap away from my shoulder and continued his assault of kisses.

“I’m right here baby.” I soothed as I kissed the side of his head and my hands skimmed across his stomach to the button on his jeans and flicked it open. As I slid my hands into the sides of his jeans and slowly pushed them down over his hips he bit down on the swell of my breast causing me to gasp, slightly caught off guard. I could feel J.C. smirk against my skin as he kicked his jeans off and reached out around me unsnapping my bra in one fluid motion, releasing my breasts. I quickly tossed my bra to the side and looked up at J.C. questioningly as he just stared down at me a look of awe on his face.

“You are so beautiful.” J.C. breathed out, leaning down and capturing my lips in a want filled kiss as his hands continued to caress me.

“Please Josh, I need you.” I whimpered out as I tugged slightly on his boxers, trying to get them out of the way. J.C. licked his lips and stared down at me as he kicked his boxers off and moved to the button on my shorts, quickly removing them and my panties in one swift motion.


I immediately opened my legs letting J.C. settle between them as he stroked himself against my slick folds a few times making sure we were both ready. J.C. stared down at me never breaking our eye contact as he slowly pushed himself into me, stretching me out and filling me up, causing me to let out a small moan as I reached up and caressed his cheek.

“I love you.” I whispered out, pulling his head down and kissing him slowly and purposely as he started to slowly move in and out of me almost torturously but amazing at the same time. J.C. moaned into my mouth at my declaration as he continued to rock his hips back and forth against me.


We both took our time, moving slowly against one another as we continued to kiss and caress each other just reveling in the feel of one another. I moved my legs further up J.C.’s waist giving him better access to my core and he groaned out as he delved deeper within me.

“Josh.” I whimpered clinging to him as the sensations building in my stomach began to intensify.

“I know honey, it’s okay.” J.C. mumbled against my lips as I tightened my hold on him drawing him closer to me.

J.C. groaned out as he pulled away from our kiss his eyes closed and I knew he was doing his best to hold off, waiting on me.

“C, look at me.” I whispered out, placing my hand on his cheek as his eyes fluttered open and his pace slowed down. I continued to move beneath him refusing to lose the friction that had been building up, “Come with me baby,” I urged caressing his cheek.

J.C. groaned out as he crashed his lips down onto mine and began to feverishly pound in and out of me causing me to whimper in surprise and anticipation.

“Madison I….” J.C. grunted out, trying to last a few more seconds.

“Me too baby…” I cried out pulling him closer and burying my head in his shoulder as wave after wave crashed through my body. J.C. grunted out as he thrust into me a couple more times completely emptying himself into me before he collapsed on top of me trying to regain his breathing.

“I love you.” I mumbled still clinging to him not wanting to let him go.

“I love you too, “J.C. started smiling down at me softly when he noticed the tears threatening to spill over my eyes.

“Sweetheart what’s wrong?” J.C. asked slightly panicked.

“I just love you so much,” I hiccupped as the tears began to fall, “what am I doing?”

J.C.’s face immediately softened as understanding washed over him, “Shh honey, it’s okay I’m not going anywhere.” J.C. soothed as he rolled over pulling me with him so I was lying against his chest.

“Am I being selfish?” I asked wrapping my arms around his torso not wanting to let him go.

“No honey,” J.C. sighed as he ran his fingers through my hair comfortingly, trying to find the right words, “I knew what this was going in, but that doesn’t make you selfish and I need you to know that I am not going anywhere until you ask me to.”

“That’s the problem; I don’t want you to leave.” I whimpered as tears continued to slide down my face onto his bare chest.

“Sweetheart please stop crying I’m right here.” J.C. pleaded hugging me close.

“Yeah, but for how long?” I whimpered scared that I had gotten myself in too deep with this whole arrangement and that I was going to be the one to end up getting hurt.

“For as long as you want me, I promise I’m not going anywhere.” J.C. urged, and something about the sincerity in his voice calmed me down.

I nodded slightly as I looked up at him, “I’m sorry I just love you and I don’t want to lose you.”

“Shh sweetheart, it’s okay I love you too and I’m not going anywhere.” J.C. soothed swiping his thumb across my cheek. I nodded bringing my head back down to rest on his shoulder as I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, letting his steady breathing and the rhythm of his heart slowly lull me sleep.


I woke up a while later to someone beating on the door and to find that J.C. wasn’t in bed beside me. My ears perked up as I heard the door open and J.C. ask, “what?” annoyed.

“Where’s Madi?” I heard Justin ask his voice getting closer as he pushed his way into the room, obviously drunk.

“She’s asleep J, as you should be.” J.C. snapped irritated.

“I’ll sleep later. Madi owes me some sex.” Justin replied as I heard J.C. scoff.

“Justin she’s sleeping and you’re drunk, let it go.” J.C. said sternly causing me to hold my breath as I waited on Justin’s reply.

“Last time I checked she was my fucking girlfriend and so that entitles me to sex when I want it.” Justin growled out as my eyes widened slightly at his ridiculous statement.

“Do you hear yourself right now?” J.C. asked incredulously, obviously just as baffled as I was by Justin’s words.

“C, you’re seriously on my last fucking nerve.” Justin growled as he made his way into the bedroom and over to the bed.

“Come on Madi!” Justin urged as he grabbed my hand and tugged on it. I opened my eyes to look up at him, trying to judge how drunk he really was and I saw the disgusted look J.C. was giving him.

“Hey J.” I mumbled out, smiling up at him trying to ease the tension in the room.

“Come on, let’s go. “Justin said gruffly as I managed to sit up.

“Madison you don’t have to.” J.C. whispered out, holding my gaze.

“Stay the fuck out of this C.” Justin growled also staring me down. I sighed to myself knowing it was going to be a long night as I reached over and picked up my shirt and slipped it on, not saying a word to either of them.

“Madison?” J.C. questioned as I moved to get out of bed.

“It’s fine C.” I sighed as I reached down to pull my shorts on, refusing to look up at J.C. I heard J.C. sigh as Justin smirked knowingly in his direction and I rolled my eyes in disgust.

“Go J.” I said pushing him towards the door, wanting to separate the two of them as quickly as possible. Justin just smiled cockily over at J.C. but said nothing as he made his way towards the door when J.C. grabbed my hand pulling me back to him.

“You don’t have to go with him.” J.C. whispered out his eyes searching mine, the concern evident on his face.

“We both know that’s not true,” I smiled sadly up at him, “it’s fine he’s pretty drunk he should pass out pretty quick.”

“You know where I’ll be.” J.C. sighed as he bent down and kissed my forehead.

“I know, thanks for everything today.” I whispered out as I wrapped my arms around his waist hugging him close.

“Anytime sweetheart.” J.C. whispered pulling me close and I knew he was being completely sincere as he nuzzled his cheek against mine.


I walked into mine and Justin’s room to see him completely naked lying spread eagle across the bed waiting for me. I groaned inwardly wanting nothing more than to go back to sleep but also not wanting to start another fight with Justin.

“Suck my dick.” Justin said gruffly as I slowly made my way over to him.

“Really J?” I sighed crawling up beside him and peering down at him as I reached for his hand.

Justin grabbed my hand long enough to move it to his dick as he spoke, “Really. I’ve had the day from hell and I want a blow job.”

I glared down at him, completely disgusted and turned off by his attitude, but I slowly made my way down his body figuring the quicker he got off the quicker he would pass out.


I started to slowly move my mouth up and down over Justin, but apparently it wasn’t enough for him because he quickly tangled his hands in my hair shoving my head further down onto him, catching me off guard and causing me to gag. I heard Justin snort as I slapped my hand down on his leg and brought my head up to look at him wide eyes as my eyes began to water.

“Seriously Justin?” I bit back trying to fight the tears from falling.

“Less talking, more sucking.” Justin snorted bringing my head back down to his lap. I hesitated for a second before realizing fighting him wasn’t going to help anything and took him back into my mouth, immediately deep throating him so he didn’t catch me off guard again.

“That’s more like it.” Justin moaned thrusting up into my mouth and it took everything I had not to roll my eyes at him. Thankfully Justin was drunk and it didn’t take him long to get off. Once he was done he pulled me up against his side as his eyelids started to droop and I did my best to shallow my breathing so he would think that I had fallen asleep. It was obvious that Justin was out within a few minutes but I stayed where I was for a few more making sure he was really passed out before I tried to move away from him.


When I couldn’t take it any longer I slowly untangled myself from him and did my best to creep off the bed without disturbing him. I quickly made sure both key cards were still in my back pocket and made my way towards the door not being able to get away from Justin fast enough. We always had a few issues when we were on tour together because Justin is always so hypersensitive wanting his space when he wants it and needing me close when he needs it, but at the moment all I cared about was getting away from him as quickly as possible.


I let myself into J.C.’s room and collapsed against the door as tears started to fall down my face, figuring J.C. was asleep and not wanting to disturb him.

“Madison?” I heard J.C. groggily call out and could no longer fight back my sobs as I slowly pushed off the door and made my way towards the bedroom. I immediately crawled onto the bed, curling against J.C. as I continued to cry.

“Sweetheart what’s wrong? What happened?” J.C. asked slight panic in his voice as he wrapped his arms around me. I shook my head, not wanting to talk about it and not trusting my voice anyway as I squeezed him tighter, needing the comfort.

“Okay shh, it’s okay I got you.” J.C. soothed rubbing my back doing his best to calm me down. We stayed like that, J.C. whispering reassuringly to me until I finally became so exhausted that I fell asleep laying against him.

I had basically been splitting my time between Justin and J.C.’s room so I had enough things in his room to shower and get ready the next morning without having to go back down and see Justin. I knew J.C. wanted to talk about what happened the night before but I did my best to change the subject and he finally relented and stopped asking about it. We finally made our way downstairs to breakfast to see that the rest of the guys were already there; Lance called J.C. over to the table where he, Chris, and Joey were sitting and I made my way over to grab a cup of coffee and some fruit.


Justin made his way over to me and slid his arm around my waist as he leaned down and nuzzled his nose against my cheek, “I’m sorry for being an ass last night. I was just stressed out from my mom, I never meant for you to not come to bed with me.”

“You don’t remember last night do you?” I whispered out staring down into my cup of coffee.

“I uh, remember Chris dragging me out of the club, and then I remember waking up at about four and you weren’t there.” Justin stuttered out, as I took a deep calming breath.

“How about when you barged into my room demanding Madi come with you because she owed you sex.” J.C. growled out as Justin’s eyes widened in shock and I slammed my eyes shut.

“C, not now.” I pleaded turning to face both of them.

“Are you serious Madison? You came back in hysterical tears and still haven’t told me what actually happened!” J.C. exclaimed in a hushed whisper trying not to draw any unnecessary attention towards us.

“Madi, I’m so sorry. I didn’t…” Justin started his eyes pleading for forgiveness as J.C. cut him off, “You’re sorry? Oh that’s just great!”

“J.C. stop!” I scolded before turning my attention back to Justin, “J now is not the time or place to discuss this.”

“Madi.” Justin said softly as he reached up to caress my check and I felt myself slightly melting into his touch.

“J, its fine but we need to talk later.” I said leaning into his touch as his face softened.

“It’s not fine.” J.C. glared at me.

“I don’t want to fight with either of you,” I said leaning against Justin’s side and reaching for J.C.’s hand, “can we just eat and then we can all talk later.”

“Of course baby.” Justin grinned as he bent down and kissed me lightly as J.C. just scowled.

“Please C.” I begged squeezing his hand. J.C.’s jaw tightened into a hard line but he nodded as he dropped my hand and turned around and walked back towards the other guys.

“What’s up with him?” Justin raised his eyebrows as he wrapped his other arm around my waist pulling me closer to him. I opened my mouth to reply but quickly shut it not sure what to say without going into details about what happened the night before so instead I just tightened my grip on Justin’s waist and laid my head on his shoulder.

“You okay?” Justin asked running his fingers through my hair. I nodded slightly as I straightened up and turned to pick my coffee and muffin back up before heading over to the table with Justin following close behind. All through breakfast J.C. ignored me and Justin took every opportunity he got to touch me. I knew I was in for a long conversation and was doing everything I could to put it off as long as possible.


We got to the venue and Justin and J.C. immediately ushered me into a room with the two of them. “So what happened last night Madison?” J.C. stared me down.

“Are we really gonna just jump right into this?” I sighed as I made my way across the room and sat down.

“No baby, we can do whatever you want.” Justin said as he started towards me.

“No!” J.C. exclaimed exasperated, “It was bad enough you came in demanding sex but then she shows up back in my room in hysterical tears!”

“C stop!” I reprimanded standing up as I saw Justin’s brow furrow together.

“Madison, stop protecting him.” J.C. stood raising his voice.

“What do you want to hear? That Justin was an ass to me all day and when you came to my rescue you left him high and dry at the studio so then he got drunk continued to be an ass and yell at me and then forced me to give him head before he passed out?” I yelled frustrated as tears streamed down my face as both boys just stood and looked at my dumbfounded.

“Madi I…..” Justin started his voice cracking.

“Madison.” J.C. countered taking a step towards me.

“No.” I cried, shrugging off J.C.’s outstretched hand and backing away from the both of them.

“Baby I’m so sorry. I never meant….I would never….I….”Justin stumbled over his words.

“It’s fine,” I started when J.C. cut me off, “It’s not fine!”

“He’s right Madi it’s not.” Justin stepped up to me and caressed my cheek.

“I just want to forget about it,” I whined moving away from Justin and making my way towards the couch where I sat down, “I didn’t even want to have this conversation but J.C. wouldn’t let it go.”

“Baby I am so sorry I never in a million years would have….” Justin made his way over to me and cautiously sat down.

I curled myself into him wrapping my arms around his waist and laying my head on his chest, “Shhh. I know. It’s okay. I know you’re sorry.” I wanted nothing more than to completely forget the past twenty four hours and they were making it extremely difficult.

“You need to lay off the coke Justin.” J.C. disgustedly said as he watched us.

Justin looked at me crumpled against him and sighed as he looked up at J.C. with sad eyes and nodded slowly, “I’m sorry C.”

J.C. sighed and made his way over to the couch and sat down as well, “Justin you’re my family, you know that, but you’ve been doing some really stupid shit lately.”

“I know I’ve just been all over the place recently.” Justin sighed.

“If this is a problem,” J.C. motioned to Justin and I and then back to himself, “then say so, so we can fix it; but I really don’t think that’s the issue. I think you just need to lay off the fucking drugs, but either way you need to figure it out and stop putting her in the middle.”

“I know, I’m so sorry Madi…” Justin sighed as he rubbed my back. I just nodded and hugged him tighter.

“So you’re still okay with this then?” J.C. asked about the three of us.

“Yeah C, the last thing I wanted to do was to drag Madi or you into my mess.” Justin said turning to look at J.C. who nodded slowly, “Are you okay Madison?”

“Are you two done acting like jackasses?” I glared as I looked up.

“I was just looking out for you…” J.C. started as I cut him off, “Are you BOTH done acting like jackasses?”

“Yeah baby we’re sorry.” Justin nuzzled his nose into my hair.

“C?” I questioned.

“Yeah we’re all good.” J.C. gave me a tight lipped smile.

I sat up and wrapped my arms around each of them pulling them both into me, “ I love you both but you drive me fucking crazy!”

“I love you too.” They both replied at the same time causing me to chuckle slightly as I kissed both of them on the cheek, “good now do you love each other?”

“Of course baby!” Justin replied as J.C. nodded, “We’ll always be brothers.”

“Alright good. Now I didn’t sleep well last night so I’m going to lay down on the bus while you guys do your sound check.” I stretched as I stood up.

“Do you want me to walk you out?” J.C. asked standing as well.

“I’m fine.” I smiled as Justin made his way over to me, “We have a little while before we have to do sound check do you want me to come with you?”

“I’m fine J, really. I just want to catch up on some sleep.” I smiled leaning into him as he wrapped his arms around me.

“Mmm I could use a nap today.” Justin mumbled causing J.C. to scoff, “Well maybe if you weren’t up all night partying!”

“Enough!” I yelled as I backed away from Justin, “I’m going to take a nap and you two are going to work through this passive aggressive bullshit. I know you love each other and I know you are both stressed right now but damn; things would be much easier if you two stopped the fucking arguing and worked together!” and with that I turned and walked out of the room leaving them both standing there dumbfounded.


I woke up a few hours later feeling better than I had in two days and eagerly made my way back into the venue to see what the guys were doing. I found them all scattered around the dressing room and noticed a huge bouquet of pink roses sitting on the coffee table. I furrowed my brows together and glanced at J.C., who was huddled in the corner of the room writing in his notebook, knowing that flowers weren’t Justin’s thing. J.C. shook his head quickly before nodding towards Justin, who was sitting on the floor in front of the couch playing x-box with Joey. I slowly made my way over to the couch and sat down, placing my hand on Justin’s shoulder. Justin noticed me cautiously eyeing the roses on the table and turned slightly grinning up at me as he threw the controller down allowing Joey to score in the video game. I tore my eyes away from the flowers and looked at Justin who was still grinning stupidly at me. I opened my mouth not sure what to say as Justin reached over and plucked the card out of the flowers and handed it to me.

I took the card and slowly turned it over and slid it out of the envelope, ‘I don’t deserve you but I love you more than you will ever know. Have dinner with me after the show tonight?’ was sprawled across the card in Justin’s handwriting with just a J as his signature. I bit my lip to try and keep the giddy grin from sliding onto my face as I slid the card into my back pocket and looked up at Justin who was watching me expectantly. As soon as I saw the shy expectant look he was giving me I could no longer hide my smile as I nodded vigorously, bending down to kiss him. I kissed him long and slow, forgiving everything from the past few days and melting slowly into him as his hand made its way to my waist and his thumb found its way under my shirt caressing my side.

I sighed contentedly as I pulled away, my eyes still closed, as I rested my forehead against his, “I love you too J.”

“Flowers? You must have really fucked up J.” Joey snorted abandoning his controller and turning his attention towards us.

“Yeah I did.” Justin deadpanned as he laid his head in my lap and wrapped his arms around my waist.

“And he’s forgiven.” I said glaring over at Joey as I ran my hands over Justin’s head scratching lightly before massaging the base of his neck.

“Is he the only one that needs forgiven?” Joey arched his eyebrows.

“Joe…” Lance warned from across the room as my nostrils flared out.

I started to reply but Justin’s head flew up out of my lap startling me, “Yeah Joey. I’m an asshole and I don’t deserve to be forgiven for what I did so shut the fuck up!” By this time Justin had stood and was halfway across the room as I just glared at Joey.

“You’re an asshole.” I seethed in Joey’s direction as Justin disappeared out the door slamming it behind him. I quickly made my way after Justin, leaving a dumfounded Joey behind.


“J…baby….wait!” I called after Justin as I jogged to catch up with him. Justin stopped right by the doors that led out to the parking lot and I took the last few strides to catch up to him before pulling him into a hug, caressing the back of his neck as I kissed along his jaw, below his ear, and down his neck , trying to calm him down.

“Sorry I needed to get away from him before I knocked him out.” Justin mumbled wrapping his arms around my waist.

“You’re fine,” I soothed as I grabbed my phone out of my back pocket to check the time, “You have some time before you have to get dressed for the show let’s head out to the bus and relax.” Justin nodded as Mike rolled his eyes but he opened the door and followed us out into the parking lot.


We walked onto the bus and I led Justin to the back, “Take your shirt off and lay down.”

Justin raised his eyebrows at me questioning me but I stood my ground and stared him down impatiently, my hand on my hip the whole time. “Madi….” Justin whined causing me to sigh.

“J, you need to relax, please stop.” I protested making my way over to him and hooking my fingers in his belt loops pulling him closer to me as I stuck out my bottom lip.

Justin glared at me but obliged and pulled his shirt over his head before falling back on the bed bringing me with him. I giggled and kissed him lightly before moving off of him and patted his stomach, “roll over.”

He groaned but reluctantly rolled over and I moved over him straddling his waist as my hands started to massage his neck and knead the knots out of his shoulders. Justin groaned as I found a huge knot in between his shoulder blades and started to work it out.

“Mmm, you’re sexy.” I mumbled against his ear as I watched the muscles in his back contract and listened to the little grunts he was letting out.

“Madi stop,” Justin groaned as he did his best to roll over and moved me off of his back.

“What’s wrong?” I asked furrowing my brows together in confusion.

“I’m supposed to be making up being an asshole to you, not the other way around.” Justin pouted as he sat up and cupped my cheek running his fingers into my hair.

“J I know you’re sorry and I also know that no matter how big of an ass you can be that last night was out of character for you, but you are stressed and all tense and I just want to help you relax before the show.” I said grabbing his free hand and interlocking our fingers as I rested my forehead against his.

“I love you.” Justin mumbled against my lips as he closed his eyes.

“I love you too J.” I sighed as I kissed him slowly.

Before I knew what was happening Justin deepened the kiss and pulled me onto his lap so I could feel his growing erection pressed against my hot center. I moaned slightly into Justin’s mouth as a feeling of contentment washed over me, happy to be right where I was.