I sighed as l fell onto the couch full of more
emotions than I could comprehend at once. I’m
glad that Justin finally accepted the fact that he has
a son and is willing to try and have a relationship
with him, but Brayden has always been so sheltered
I’m worried about how he’s going to react to the
whole situation. Granted that’s my fault. Ever since I
found out I was pregnant my whole life has been
about Brayden and I have always done everything I
could to protect him and keep him away from other
people. It’s time he branches out some and who
better to do that with than his dad. This will
ultimately be a good thing for him, but what about
me? I mean sure I’ve thought of Justin since I left
five years ago. How could I not? He’s the father of
my son, but I thought I’d moved on a long time
ago. I never dreamt in a million years that when I
moved back here that I would run into him again,
and if I did I definitely didn’t think that I would start
to have feelings for him again. I never thought that
I could fall for someone in such a short amount of
time. I didn’t really though, I don’t think I ever
really got over him and seeing him again just
brought back all of those memories and feelings.
God, if anyone could hear me now they would think
I was crazy holding onto a crush I had when I was
thirteen years old, but this is different. I can’t
explain it but it is. I mean we left a lot of things
unresolved and yeah we’ve missed the past five
years of each other’s lives, but neither of us had
really changed, and no matter what we would always
have a common bond in Brayden. I was
brought back to reality when the doorbell rang. I
sighed as I got up and made my way over to the
door. I opened the door to see J.C. standing there
smiling at me. “Hey you wanna go grab some lunch
or something?”J.C. asked. “Uh…yeah I guess.”I
said as I grabbed my purse and stepped out the
door. After we ordered our food J.C. finally spoke up
“So Justin finally came around huh?” “Yes and no.”I
said smiling weakly. “What do you mean I thought
him and his mom took Brayden out today?”J.C.
asked confused. “Oh they did, and he warmed up to
the idea of Brayden, but he said he doesn’t think
he can trust me and he doesn’t know where that
leaves us.”I said playing with my napkin. “Oh.”J.C.
said “Well I’m sure he’ll come around just give him
some time.” “I don’t know. I mean if the situation
was reversed I don’t know that I could forget that
someone hid my son from me for four years of his
life.”I said. “Well I would be a little freaked out if
the situation were reversed and Justin had given to
labor to a kid.”J.C. said grinning at me which made
me giggle a little. “You know what I mean.”I said
kicking him under the table. J.C. just laughed
“Seriously though I know him and he can’t stay mad
for long.” “I’m not really worried about that…”I said
letting my sentence trail off. “Then what?”J.C.
asked confused “Oh…OH! You still have feelings for
him?”J.C. asked. “I don’t know. Yes. No. I
shouldn’t.”I sighed not being able to make eye
contact with him. “It’s understandable.”J.C. said
reaching over and picking up my hand. I looked up
and smiled at him “Thanks.” “No problem.”J.C.
grinned as our food came.