I really don’t know what to do lately. Jesse’s in lockup for eighteen months and I honestly don’t know if I’ll be able to take it. I told him I would try because after reading his letter I felt bad for not answering his calls or going to see him. Truth be told I was sulking. I’ve finally figured out my feelings for Justin but that doesn’t matter because I heard he’s dating some new girl. Actually calling her his girlfriend and shit! I guess he didn’t love me like he claimed too. He didn’t even wait! I heard he asked her out that very night he kissed me at the bar!

I guess that’s why I’m trying to give Jesse another chance, he’s a sure thing. I know he loves me and only me. His letter definitely proved that to me. The problem is that I just don’t feel that passion with him like I do with Justin. I guess I should be grateful that Jesse and I are taking a break while he’s locked up maybe then Justin will dump his bitch of a girlfriend and give us a chance.

Hey, hey, you, you, I don’t like your girlfriend

No way, no way, I think you need a new one

Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend

I don’t know what I was thinking! I should have just waited for Cassian’s answer but I didn’t. I asked out some random girl I met that night after I left the bar and now she’s my girlfriend. Had I known Jesse got locked up I wouldn’t have done it. Now I’m stuck with Brenda.

Rachel, my cousin, told me that Cassian’s hurt. That if I just would have waited she would have chose me but since I didn’t she’s going to try and make things work with Jesse. Now I’m kicking myself every single time I see her because she looks at me with those bright green eyes, questioning why I couldn’t have just waited because then she wouldn’t be Jesse’s girl anymore, she’d be mine.
I fucked up. That’s pretty plain to see.

Maybe I can change all of that tonight though. We’re all going bowling tonight so my “girlfriend” can meet all my friends. Cassian’s coming too after much begging and pleading from me she finally agreed. I know that if I can just talk to her maybe we can start all over again and she’ll leave Jesse to be with me.

Hey, hey, you, you, I know that you like me

No way, no way, you know it’s not a secret

Hey, hey, you, you, I want to be your girlfriend

I take a deep breath before pushing open the door to the bowling alley and walk inside. Everyone’s meeting here tonight to hang out and meet Justin’s new girlfriend. I really don’t care who the stupid little bitch is nor do I want to meet her but I couldn’t say no when Justin called and asked me to come. So here I am, forty-five minutes late but hoping this night goes by fast because if I have to watch him with someone else I just might jump the bitch!

We’ve been here at the bowling alley for forty-five minutes now and so far Trace, Matt, Marty, Nick, Rachel and Brenda have arrived but Cassian’s MIA. I really hope she shows up. It’s almost desperate how bad I need to see her. I let out a sigh of relief as I see her entering the bowling alley. She looks so good in her tight dark denim jeans, teal t-shirt and black leather boots. Damn she sure is working that black leather jacket too. It kills me when she curls her hair and wears it down. She’s so fucking beautiful.

I know I’m probably drooling in front of my girlfriend but I don’t care. Cassian fucking deserves it. Besides I know I’m not the only male staring at her. She’s always been the type of girl that can wrap any man around her little finger.

I see Trace waving wildly at me and I laugh as I make my way over to the group. I tuck my hands in the pockets of my leather jacket as Justin turns around and faces me. 
He always looks so damn good. He had his short curls when we were at the bar but those have long been chopped off, replaced by a smooth buzz cut. He makes me sick with how delicious he looks sometimes. I swear I could eat him up right now. I especially love those dark denim jeans that fit him so good. Jesse’s are always so baggy and I hate that. I love that black button down shirt on him so much that I wish I could wear it in the morning and nothing else. He rolls up his sleeves as I approach and his head ducks down as he runs his hand over his head. He’s so fucking hot!

You’re so fine, I want you mine, you’re so delicious

I think about you all the time, you’re so addictive

Don’t you know what I can do to make you feel alright?

Alright, alright, alright

I smile at him and wave before letting Trace pull me into a hug, “Don’t be mad at my boy. He’s not serious about her,” Trace whispers into my ear and I nod against his shoulder.

If he wasn’t serious about her then why is he dating her?

I just don’t understand his actions but I’m not one to talk. I’ve been on the fence between him and Jesse for six months now. I’m just as much as a pussy as he is.

“Hey Cassian,” Justin tells me as he opens his arms and I hesitate before stepping into his embrace, “You look good,” he whispers into my ear and I swear I just shivered.

I breathe in his scent, sighing against him as he squeezes his arms around my frame.

I’ve missed him so much. I wish he was my man.

“Thank you. You look good too.” I whisper against him when there’s a tap on his shoulder.

Don’t pretend, I think you know

I’m damn precious

And hell yeah, I’m the motherfucking princess

I can tell you like me too and you know I’m right

I pull away from Cassian slowly, watching her with my blue eyes carefully before I turn my attention to Brenda.

Brenda’s so nervous because she wants to make a good impression, especially on Cassian and Rachel. Rachel’s done nothing but talk about how great Cassian is and how they’re best friends and of course Brenda wants to be friends with them too. Although I’m sure the last thing on Cassian’s mind is becoming friends with my girlfriend especially with the way she’s staring down Brenda right now.

“Cassian, this is Brenda…my girlfriend. Bren, this is Cassian, Jesse’s girl.” I say as Brenda holds out her hand for Cassian to shake.

“Jesse’s ex-girlfriend.” Cassian says as she waves at Brenda and throws her tight smile, leaving her hanging.

Brenda awkwardly pulls her hand back and all I can do is shake my head at Cassian.

How could he seriously fucking be with her? She’s so damn plain! From her limp brown hair to her pale complexion! The girl looks like she’s wasting away. Seriously, someone get her a damn hamburger! She’s nothing special and that pisses me off further. He fucking replaces me with her! I know I sound like a bitch but right now I just fucking don’t care. Let me have my damn temper tantrum for five fucking minutes!

She’s like so whateve

rAnd you could do so much better

I think we should get together now

And that’s what everyone’s talking about

“It’s so nice to meet you. Rachel talks about you all the time! I was so excited when I found out you were going to be joining us tonight.” Brenda or Bren, whatever the fuck her name is, says to me and I fake a smile.

“That’s great,” I mutter as I turn to Trace, “Where’s Rach?” I ask as he shrugs his shoulders at me, “I’m going to go get my shoes and a beer.”

I take off in the direction of the shoe counter before either of them can say anything. I know I’m being an unsociable brat but it really fucking hurts to see him moving on and to know I have no one to blame but myself. I should have called him that night and told him how I felt but I’m so scared. I’m scared shitless of how I feel about him.

Hey, hey, you, you, I don’t like your girlfriend

No way, no way, I think you need a new one

Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend

“Hey girly! It’s so good to see you here!” Rachel says as she hugs me at the shoe counter.

“I really just want to go back home Rach.” I confess as she hugs me tighter.

“Why? Don’t say because of that Brenda chick. He doesn’t even like her.” She tells me as we get our shoes.

“Yet she’s his girlfriend! I want that to be me!” I tell her as we head to the bowling ball rack with our shoes in our hands.

“What about Jesse? Have you told him?” She asks me as we pick out our bowling balls.

“No. He wants me to meet him at the end of his eighteen months and tell him then. I guess if Justin and I ever get our shit together I’ll let him know then.” I tell her as she nods.

Hey, hey, you, you, I know that you like me

No way, no way, you know it’s not a secret

Hey, hey, you, you, I want to be your girlfriend

“That was weird. I wonder why she wouldn’t shake my hand?” Brenda asks as the guys snicker and I want to smack each and every one of them upside the head.

Obviously I haven’t told Brenda about mine and Cassian’s history and I don’t think now would be the best time to tell her anyways.

“She’s just protective over J. She’ll get used to you.” Trace says as I nod.
Thank God for my best friend.

I watch Rachel and Cassian as they get their shoes and pick out their bowling balls. I get my bowling shoes on quickly before making my way over to Cassian’s side. My fingertips graze along her hip as she squirms and giggles before swatting me in the chest. She’s always been so damn ticklish.

“What do you want Justin?” She asks as I lean against her and pin her against the bowling ball shelves.

“You.” I whisper into her hair as she laughs.

“You sure have a funny way of showing that. Shouldn’t you be pressed up against your girlfriend?” She asks as she grips the shelves as I lean more of my weight against her.

“Nope,” I whisper behind her ear before nibbling on her earlobe, “I could fuck you so good from behind right now.”

I can feel the shiver that just ran through her body as I said that right before the sharp elbow to my side. I pull away from her as she grabs her bowling ball and passes by me.

“You know J?” She says as she turns around to face me, “Maybe if you didn’t have a girlfriend I would have let you.”

I let out a frustrated growl as her and Rachel just laugh before walking away from me and back to our group.

I can see the way, I see the way you look at me

And even when you look away I know you think of me

I know you talk about me all the time again and again

So come over here, tell me what I want to hear

Better yet make your girlfriend disappear

I don’t want to hear you say her name ever again

(And again and again and again)

Rachel and I sit down beside one another and put on our shoes as Brenda watches us. She’s kind of creepy. I know she’s just trying to fit in but don’t stare at me with your plain boring eyes. I hate her, I really do.

She’s like so whatever

And you could do so much better

I think we should get together now

And that’s what everyone’s talking about

“I say we should play in teams.” Trace suggests as Rachel starts to enter our names on the screen.

“We could do boys against girls but J could be on our team to even us out.” Brenda suggests and I can’t stop my eyes from rolling at her lameness.

“Yeah, we can do that.” Rachel says as she elbows me in the side and I toss her a glare.
I don’t want to be on this bitch’s team.

“Be nice.” Nick whispers as he throws his arm over my shoulder and I laugh as he tickles my side.

All of a sudden he’s shoved away from me and Justin wraps his arms around my waist, “You stepping out on me little girl?” he asks in a whisper as I lean back into him.

“Oh yeah. Nick was just too irresistible.” I say with a giggle as he nuzzles my neck.

His little bitch of a girl is standing there watching us with her arms crossed and a pout on her face. That’s right bitch, sulk all you want. Your man likes me and he’s wrapped around my finger.

“I’m telling Jesse.” He sings into my ear and I laugh.

“Go ahead. We’re not together while he’s locked up.” I tell him as he digs his head into the crook of my neck and lets out a low growl.

I swear my panties just flooded. I need him so bad.

Hey, hey, you, you, I don’t like your girlfriend

No way, no way, I think you need a new one

Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend

Damn! Cassian’s fucking dangerous now that she’s single. I know that my girlfriend is watching us but I really just don’t fucking care! Cassian’s officially single! I know that saying, “Bros before Hoes” but Cassian’s the exception to the rule. I know for a fact all my buddies would stab me in the back to get a piece of Cassian but lucky for me she doesn’t want any of them.

“I think we should start playing! Don’t you think so JUSTIN?” Brenda asks me as my head snaps up while my boys all laugh at me.

I reluctantly let go of Cassian and smirk at the pout that now adorns her beautiful face. She wants me. I wait until Brenda turns away from us to make my way back over to Cassian and kiss her cheek softly, causing her to smile at me.

Hey, hey, you, you, I know that you like me

No way, no way, you know it’s not a secret

Hey, hey, you, you, I want to be your girlfriend

Bowling is hella fun tonight but it’s mainly because Cassian keeps touching me. Every single time I make a strike I get a high five and hug and she’ll usually slip in a kiss on my neck or my cheek. When Brenda’s bowling though, Cassian’s hands get frisky. At first it started out as her massaging my shoulders, then her hands slid down my chest and under my shirt, now…now she sits by me and caresses my knee or cups me through my jeans. It seems like everyone knows it’s happening too, except for Brenda.

I almost feel bad for Brenda. I mean I’m basically making a fool out of her in front of my friends. Cassian hasn’t made the night easier for her either. She’s been glaring at Brenda all night long, even going as far as to spill her beer “accidentally” on her jeans when Brenda tried to kiss me. I’ll just be honest, Cassian’s being a fucking bitch to Brenda right now and it’s kind of making me hot!
I let out a sigh as Brenda gets up to bowl and Cassian’s hand moves up my thigh. Her and Rachel are giggling about something and I just want to pull her onto my lap and fuck her right her in front of everyone. I smile to myself as Cassian’s laughter get louder and it’s joined by the rest of the group.

My head snaps up as Brenda lets out a frustrated growl. She’s standing with her hands on her hips, the bowling ball long forgotten as it rolls slowly down the lane. She’s guaranteed to make a shot though since the kiddie bumpers have been raised. I can’t help but laugh along with our group but when Brenda glares at me I stop.

“I know YOU did this!” Brenda shouts as she points at Cassian who stops laughing only to glare back at Brenda.

Hey, hey, you, you, I don’t like your girlfriend

No way, no way, you know it’s not a secret

Hey, hey, you, you, I want to be your girlfriend

I really don’t know who this bitch thinks she is, pointing her finger at me. Okay so yeah, I’ve been glaring at her all night and I might have, maybe, just a little bit, “accidentally” spilled my beer on her jeans but I did not have them raise the kiddie bumpers. I wish I did though because that shit was hilarious!

“It wasn’t me.” I tell her as I stand up and cross my arms.

Let’s see how far she wants to take this.

“Bullshit! I know it was you! I see you eyeing my man! Don’t you fucking have your own man? Oh…that’s right…he’s a fucking convict! Only a convict would date trailer trash like you!” Brenda screams at me and I just smirk at her.

“Am I supposed to be offended by your little rant? Because I’m not,” I tell her as I approach the lane to stand in front of her, “And don’t yell at me about eyeing your man because your man has been pushing up on me all night long,” I tell her as I step closer to her and she takes a step back, “And who can blame him? Look at me and look at you. Besides he already knows how well I can scream his name and make him come!” I say as I put my hands on my hips and stare her down.

“You’re such a whore!” She screams as she tries to stomp pass me and her bowling shoes cause her to slide and fall on the slick bowling lane.

I can’t stop laughing at her as she tries to get up only to fall back down again. Serves that evil whore right! Nobody tries to take what’s mine. 

Everyone’s laughing, even Justin when he tries to help her up. She swats him away though and he clutches his belly in laughter as she falls back down again

.
He tries to help her back up again as she yells at him, “Get away from me! I hate you and her and your stupid friends! We are so through! Don’t ever talk to me ever again!” She continues to shout as she finally gets up and gathers up her stuff before turning in her shoes and leaving.

“Damn Rach! Your little stunt ran off Justin’s girlfriend!” I tell her as everyone laughs.

“No little girl. My girlfriend’s right here.” Justin tells me as he wraps his arms around my waist and kisses my lips softly.

Oh

In a second you’ll be wrapped around my finger

Cause I can, cause I can do it better

There’s no other So when’s it gonna sink in

She’s so stupid 

What the hell where you thinking?

Cassian’s so fucking hot! I know I say that a lot but seeing her now in her lace bra and matching lace boy shorts is driving me insane. It’s really not fucking fair that Jesse got to have her as his girl for so long but she’s here with me now.

“Come here baby.” She tells me as she crooks her finger at me, beckoning me closer to her.

I approach her slowly, drinking in her tight figure with my thirsty eyes. My hand grips her hip as I pull her body flush against mine. She lets out a soft moan before wrapping her arms around my neck. She bumps her nose against mine before smiling up at me, happiness sparkling in her green eyes. I’m fucking over the moon about the fact that’s it me making her happy and not some other guy. 

My large hands caress the smooth expanse of her back as her lips attach themselves to my neck. I flick the clasp of her bra open and she slowly removes it from her body, tossing it into the room as I let out a deep groan.

I pull Justin further into my bedroom before walking past him slowly to shut the door behind us and lock it. As I turn to face him he roughly pushes me up against the door and I let out a soft groan as my back hit’s the door.

Justin’s fingers hook into my lace boy shorts as he slowly pushes them down my legs. I let out a moan as he sucks on my neck, my hands grip the back of his undershirt, his button down shirt long discarded into the recesses of my bedroom. He pulls away only long enough for me to remove his undershirt.

I let out a squeal of surprise as he lifts me up and wraps my legs around his waist before attacking my neck again with his mouth. The hand he has on my ass keeps me in place against him while his other hand moves in between my legs. I’m panting against his ear as his thumb rubs against my clit sweetly. My body starts to squirm against him as his fingers run gently up and down my wet slit. 

“Baby please,” I beg as his mouth moves down to kiss along my collarbone.

“Please what, honey?” He asks before taking my nipple into his mouth and sucking on it.

“Justin! Please touch me!” I groan out as my hands grip his head and pull him closer to my chest.

I can feel his smirk against my skin before he runs his tongue over my nipple and pulls away from me, “Touch you where? Do you mean right here little girl?” He asks as one of his wonderful fingers enters me.

“Yessss,” I hiss as his finger curls inside of me and his thumb presses against my clit simultaneously.

“Oh, that’s what you want…I got it now.” He says quite cockily before inserting another finger.

I can’t think of a smart comeback as he stretches his fingers inside of me and I see stars. He’s so damn good at what he does. He’s the only one who can make me beg for it. My hips are bucking wildly against his hand as he moves his fingers in and out of me and while I’m enjoying the feelings coursing through me I wish his dick was inside of me.

“Justin!” Rips from my throat as he hits my spot and I can feel his lips against my collarbone as I hold onto him, “I want to feel you!”

He lets out a groan as he pulls away from me slightly and I reach down to undo the button on his jeans. I get his zipper down too as he kicks off his shoes and his jeans fall to the floor. 

I let him carry me to the bed and he gently lays me down before slowly removing his boxer-briefs and socks. His blue eyes are watching me closely and I wonder what he’s thinking before he climbs on the bed.

Oh

In a second you’ll be wrapped around my finger

Cause I can, cause I can do it better

There’s no other

So when’s it gonna sink

She's so stupid 

What the hell where you thinking?

Cassian’s fucking beautiful. She’s just laying there in all her naked glory and I can’t take my eyes off of her. She was beautiful when we first hooked up but that’s all it had been, just a hook up. She was never really mine. Now though, Jesse’s out of the picture and she’s laying on her bed as m girl, waiting for me to love her!

My lips attach themselves to her exposed neck as my hands run up and down the smooth skin of her thighs before I spread her legs and nestled myself in between them. She lets out a few soft pants before wrapping her legs around my waist. It makes me hella hard knowing that she wants this just as much as I do. Her fingernails are digging into my back as I position myself at her entrance.

I let out a low growl as I push in her and let her walls squeeze me as I stretch her out. Her fingers are tugging at the curls on the base of my neck as she lets out the softest moan. Her legs wrap around me tighter causing me to sink into her deeper. She whispers my name softly as I bury my head into the crook of her neck.

“Justin please,” She begs as I pull back slowly before slamming into her roughly, “Oh God yes!”

She feels so damn good. Her hands are clutching at me, trying to grab onto my shoulders as I set a steady pace that has her panting for more.

“J! Please…more…ugh….faster!” Cassian begs as her hips move against mine, meeting me thrust for thrust.

I grit my teeth as she squeezes and unsqueezes around me, causing my eyes to roll into the back of my head at the sensation.

“Cass, don’t. I wanna make this last.” I grit out before I capture her lips with mine.  
Justin’s mouth feels so good against mine. His dick feels so good in me. I grip onto his short curls as my hips meet his again and his hipbone presses against my clit. I let out a loud groan but he swallows it with his mouth. I grab onto his strong shoulders as his lips attach themselves to my neck, sucking and licking as his hips drive me insane.

I can feel that sweet feeling coiling in my belly as he pushes deeper and deeper, hitting my spot over and over. I need more of him, not just tonight but every night. It’s never going to be enough.

 
My walls squeeze him tighter and tighter as my toes start to curl and my nails dig into his shoulder blades. The small grunts coming from him are driving me over the brink as they mix with my pants and moans. He grabs onto the headboard, getting more leverage as he pounds into me.

It’s too intense, too much as he goes faster and faster, chasing his release and giving me mine. I scream his name as loud as I can as my walls clamp down on him. I’m whining and whimpering underneath him as he works me out through my orgasm.

“Shit! Cassian! Ugh! I’m so…so close.” He grits out as I caress his cheek.

“I got you J.” I tell him as my hands cover his and I roll us over so I’m on top.

He lets out a deep growl as I sink down on him, his fingers reaching up to push my hair out of my face. I grab his hand and kiss his fingertips before rising up and slamming back down on him. His head falls back and into the pillow as my fingernails scrape against his hard chest and I begin to ride him. His hand makes it’s way to my center and his thumb presses against my clit, causing my head to tip back in pleasure as I ride him harder.

I fall over his chest as my hands claw at his chest and I pull my bottom lip through my teeth as pleasure surges through my body. God, he’s so good!

“That’s it Cassian. Ugh…yeah baby girl. Come for me again!” He grits out as I slam down on him.

His back arches off the bed as he comes deep inside me and my walls clamp down around him for the second time tonight. His name tears from my throat again as I rock against him through our orgasms before collapsing against his warm sweaty body. His arms wrap around my waist as I nuzzle his neck with my nose before resting my head in the crook of his neck. 

I’m holding onto Cassian as tight as I can as our breathing slows and we come down from our highs. I feel myself soften in her but she’s not moving off of me as we lay here. I’ve always wanted this with her and now that I have it I never want to let her go.

“Damn baby. Can we do that again soon?” Cassian asks me as she nibbles softly on my Adam’s apple and I let out a groan against her ear.

She giggles as I kiss the top of her head, “It’ll be real soon if you keep doing that,” I groan as I run my fingers through her soft hair.

“That can be arranged.” She whispers against my skin, giggling when I let out another growl, “I’m all yours now J.”

That’s right. She is mine. Now she’s Justin’s girl.

Hey, hey, you, you, I don’t like your girlfriend

No way, no way, I think you need a new one

Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you, I know that you like me

No way, no way, you know it’s not a secret

Hey, hey, you, you, I want to be your girlfriend