Justin slowly rises from his knee with tears in his eyes, they were not tears of joy. He knew I wasn't going to say yes. I think he thought I would say yes but I couldn't. I couldn't possibly get engaged to someone that I had just started dating. This was after all the first person I opened up to. I couldn't have possibly have found the one with the first attempt.

"I'm sorry Justin. I love you but I can't marry you."

Those baby blues were now overflowing with tears as they start to stream down the sides of his face. "It's ok I understand." But he didn't understand because he dropped my hand and walked out of that cabin heartbroken. The first and last time he would ever propose to anyone.

However that was just one scenario that went through my mind in the moments I stood there in silence from being in shock... in reality this is what happened.

I said yes. I said yes. I was saying yes to a marriage proposal to a guy that I had only been dating for a month. It felt right. I felt so right.

Lying in bed this morning I'm recollecting the events of the night before.

"Yes. Yes. Yes I will marry you." I said as Justin leaps up off his knee and takes me up into his arms and spins around. "I love you."

            I look down at my left hand to see a platinum ring on that very important finger. I actually did it. I said yes. Reality was setting in that I had agreed to marry this man. I gave him my promise. I was happy with that choice, every detail of it.

We were going to be brave souls today. Justin was going to tell his parents our news at breakfast and then Justin and I were venturing into the city, he wanted to show me some of his favorite places downtown and do a little shopping.

"Well... Mom... Paul... I... we have some news." Justin says nervously.

Lynn and Paul look at each other with the hugest smile on their faces and both say at the same time, "Baby?"

"No. " I said quickly.

Disappointment on both of their faces rein, "Oh."

Justin tries to bring them back to excitement. "We are engaged!"

His mother gasps. "Finally. Finally he finds happiness." She whispers to herself.

"No baby, but a wedding!" I say quietly.

"Have you guys thought about when you want to get married?"

We both look at each other and shake our heads no,

"It takes a long time to plan a wedding." Lynn says.

"Maybe next year?" I say.

"Next year sounds good." Justin agrees.

            I never really thought much of the repercussions that happen. I was truly for the first time in a very long time living life in this very moment. I knew deep down that this could have an adverse reaction on both of our careers but this is what we wanted. We were happy and that's all that mattered.

I wasn't much of a traveler unless it was for work but I had seen my fair share of places. This was one place I had never been. Memphis has always been one of the places I wanted to go but didn't have the chance to spend any time in, until now.

We were in toe with ten vehicles. None of which we have chosen to be with us. I hadn't really thought about the ring on my left hand in a negative way until we stepped out of the vehicle at the first stop.  I tucked my hand into the pocket of my jean shorts and walk on the right side of Justin, hoping they wouldn't get a shot of it. This was a private matter that I would like to at least let Lexie know about before the world knew.

Each store we walked into was a challenge. Justin was trying with everything he had in him to ignore them but there is only so much that one person can take. He hated the idea of every one of them following him. So when they wouldn't give us a break at all, he gets defensive. "You are getting your shots, could you at least back up and let us walk?" I didn't like him upset or frustrated but angry Justin was sexy.

We managed to get through most of the afternoon in the city before the madness got worse than ever. We step out of the car at Audubon Park to have a picnic lunch where we were plummeted with photographers. We had tried very hard to keep calm and collected with everyone but when they started demanding to see my hand, "We saw the ring back in town... we know you are wearing an engagement ring. Just show it to us..." They can say whatever they want but when one even went as far as reaching out to grab my hand and pull it towards them, I was done. That was it for us; we gathered our things and headed back to his house. Getting Justin fired up takes a lot but once he is at that point it's over.

"I have never come home to a mess like this. Never." He was disgusted by everything.

"It's me. It's the fact that you have someone new with you. It's them trying to find a story."

"Well they sure found it here... I should have waited."

"Are you talking about my ring?" I look down at the ring and for the first time I wasn't happy to see it there.

"Yes."

"Are you regretting it now?" I questioned.

"No, no... not at all. I should have been more private about it all though. I knew this weekend was not a good one because of the paparazzi were everywhere but I... I just didn't want to wait any longer... I would like us to savor the engagement as long as possible and be that happily engaged couple before the world knew."

"I can't believe they haven't tied the two together yet. They still don't even know my name."

"When they do, wow it's going to be even worse. Maybe we should run away together to some deserted Island." He joked

"That would be wonderful."

            Back at his parent's house I finally get a return phone call from Lexie, but she wasn't so nice or accepting of my decision.

"Emily. Why in the hell am I learning about your engagement on national television?"

"I tried to call you several times but it kept going to voicemail. I didn't think that was something I should leave on your voicemail."

"So it's true? You are actually engaged to him?" She was pissed off.

"Yes... he proposed last night! I have the gorgeous ring on my finger and I'm really going to marry him." I was ecstatic.

"You weren't supposed to get engaged. You just started dating again. Don't you think you are moving just a little too fast?"

I got quiet. "You were the one that was on my ass about getting out there again. I did it. And I fell in love with this one. I really love him."

"Are you sure that this isn't just infatuation?"

"What's going on Lex? Are you against this?"

"It's just... well... how do you know he is the one? How do you know this isn't just one of his games?"

"How do you know he isn't? You are the one that kept saying I needed to trust him, I needed to open up to him, and you are the one that kept pushing me to give him a chance. I did all that, I took a chance and fell in love with him."

"You just weren't supposed to jump this far in so fast."

"It's not like we eloped in Vegas, we got engaged."

"I don't know what you want me to say Em."

"I don't need you to say anything. How about just supporting the choice I made. That's all I need for you."

"I will be there for you, I support you. I just think it's a crazy idea."

"I can't deal with this right now with you. I got to go. I fly home tomorrow. We can talk then."

"Ok. Bye." She hung up.

            Lexie had been on my side through everything, why was she so against this? She is the one that is having a child with a guy she barely knew. I guess worst case scenario for us would be divorce. You can't divorce a child. If I was making a mistake, at least I wouldn't be involving child.

            I didn't know what Lexie's deal with it was but this was but I was sure she would come around. Maybe there was something going on with her and Rob, maybe it was just the pregnancy. I wasn't sure. It saddens me to think she didn't approve of this.

Justin knows that something is wrong with me. I had been on this high of excitement since we got engaged.

"Babe, what's wrong?"

"Lexie."

"What happened?"

"I don't know. There is something wrong with her but I just don't know right now."

"I'm sorry." He knows there isn't really much he can do. "I made us dinner reservations. Did you bring that dress?"

I smile at him, "Yes I did."

"Well let's go to dinner."

            Dinner was no different than the rest of the vacation and trip to the airport the next afternoon was the worse than the others. The airport on both ends was a nightmare. I had never seen them reacting the way they were. Every movement seemed to be bigger than it needed to be. There seemed to be this fascination with Justin suddenly, more than normal.

Returning to the office is the exact place I wanted to be but I had to clean up the mess I had caused over this vacation. Every single person in the office stopped me today to ask how my vacation was. But they were not being sincere they were all looking down at my ring. That's all they really wanted. They wanted that conformation that there was a ring on my finger.

Tracey, my life saver, had done a remarkable job with all of my clients. She had handled every task that came into her lap. I walked into that office with no work from the last couple days. She had handled everything. The very moment I have a position open in this company as an agent; it was going to be her spot. As much as I didn't want to lose her as my assistant, she was going to be an amazing PR Agent.

There was thousands of websites that had our pictures plastered all over them. Not one conformation was handed to them about anything. Tracey avoided confirming anything.

"Hollywood's hottest bachelor he is off the market. Justin Timberlake is engaged to his public relations manager, Emily Clarkson, rumor has it they started dating shortly after his accident and have falling in love. He proposed in his hometown of Millington over the weekend while celebrating her birthday with his family. We tried to reach Emily Clarkson herself but the only response we got back from his camp was a generic statement saying they don't comment on their client's personal life... Who would have thought he would ever get engaged?"

My inbox started to pile up shortly after that statement went to press. Even though the

statement clearly states they we would not be commenting on that they continue to try and get my attention on the matter. When in reality I don't have to answer any questions they ask. I don't have a public career that will plummet if I do nothing about it. I was going to avoid all questions as long as I possibly could.