Shit I’m late.” I mumbled to myself stepping out of my camaro and heading into the large building beside the parking lot. I spoke to the doorman and made my way to the elevators hitting the button to take me up to my floor. I pushed open the huge glass door and stepped into the large lobby and grabbed my mail off the side of my secretary’s desk and headed into my large office. I tossed my purse under my desk and cut on my mac on quickly tossing out the unimportant mail I had received. I skimmed through my emails replying to some and deleting the rest I heard a knock at my door and looked to find my secretary Allison standing there.

“ Allison how are you this morning?” I asked.

“I’m good Emma, how are you doing?” She answered.

“I’m good thank you for asking but, I’ll be better when everyone has in their pieces for next month’s issue.”

Allison nodded her head. “ I believe everyone has their’s in also Miranda needs to see you in her office As soon as possible. “ She handed me over a large stack of papers and made her way out of my office. I laid the papers done and stood up straightening up my light pink dress before heading down to Miranda’s office. I knocked on her door to see her sketching an outfit she smiled and waved for me to come in.

“My best editor in chief in 30 years how are you doing?” Miranda asked as I sat down.

“I’m good just trying to get the last pieces for next month’s issue together. How are you?” I asked.

“I’m good thank you for asking now, I called you in here to tell you to keep up the good work your actually ahead of schedule so I wanted to tell you that finish up today and you can have the rest of the week off and yes you will have a job to come back to on Monday.”

“Wow thank you Miranda I really appreciate I won’t let you down.”

I walked into my office to find a two guys sitting in the chairs in front of my desk. I opened the door and they turned around to reveal my two favorite guys in the entire world besides my daddy.

“Lance Joey what are you guys doing here?” I asked hugging them.

“Well we haven’t seen you in a few days so we thought we’d stop by and see if you would want to go to lunch with us.” Joey said.

“Its been a day guys and yes I would I’m off the rest of the week so I am all y’alls. Just let me finish up looking over these articles.”

The boys nodded their heads and waited while I finished up. I got done about a hour later and gathered my things and dropped the papers off with Allison telling her to take them to Miranda ASAP.

“Alright guys where are we going?” I asked as we stepped out of the elevator.

“Uhm the usual place.” Lance said.

“Sounds good to me I’ll follow you guys there.”

“Can I catch a ride with you Emma?” Joey asked.

I smiled and nodded my head and headed toward my camaro. I plugged my ipod in and waited on Joey to get in.

Now she want a photo You already know though You only live once: that's the motto nigga YOLO We bout it every day,every day, everyday.

“You rap now?” Joey asked laughing.

“I’m good at it just admit it Joey.” I laughed punching him.

He smirked at me and continued to laugh as I kept rapping. The song ended and Joey leaned over and cut my radio down. I tightened my grip on the steering wheel as I knew the question that was about to come out of his mouth.

“How are you doing after everything?” He asked.

“I’m okay. It just doesn’t seem real.” I said keeping my eyes on the road in front of me showing no emotion.

“Emma I know you’re not okay its okay to be sad its only been two months.” He said grabbing my hand and rubbing circles on it.

“I’m okay Joey I really am.”

I pulled into the parking lot of the small diner me, Lance, and Joey have always went to. I turned off the car and waited on Joey to get out before I did. I sat there after he got out and tried to pull my thoughts together before I joined them inside the restaurant. I sighed and grabbed my purse and headed inside I seen them at a back booth looking toward the door to see if I was coming in. I slid in the booth and sat by Joey smiling at Lance as I picked up the menu and began to look over it. The waitress soon came over and asked for our orders I smirked at Kevin when he began to tell her all of ours orders which consisted of cheeseburgers and fries. We handed her the menu’s and she walked off leaving us to just sit there with no talking once again.

“How’s his parents doing?” I asked Lance.

“Their getting better they ask about you every day you need to go see them.” He told me.

“I will its just I’ve been busy with work lately.”

Lance nodded his head knowing that was the end of that conversation no going into details about it no talking about how much things had changed in two long months. I smiled when my food was sat down in front of me I told the waitress thank you. I bit into my burger and smiled when it tasted just like they always did from this place. We all continued to eat in silence not really knowing what to say to each other because it would bring up everything we’ve tried to get over these past months. We all finished eating and just sat there waiting on our ticket.

“Thanks for lunch Lance” I said pressing a kiss to his check once we got outside.

“Anything for my best friend since your off the rest of the week lets do something.” He said leaning against my car.

“Sure just let me know Joey better come with us.”

“I’ll be there I can’t pass up a chance to spend time with my favorite girl.” He said smirking at me.

I laughed and pulled him into a hug and kissed him on the check.

“I love you both so much.”

“We love you.” They said together.

I smiled at them and got into my car and drove off to my home the one place I could be alone and show my true emotions. I walked into my large penthouse and threw my keys down on the table beside my door and threw my heels off as I made my way to my bedroom. I stripped out of my dress and tossed it into my hamper and pulled out a pair of sweat pants and a t shirt. I tossed my hair into a messy bun and went and sat down on my couch wrapping myself up in a blanket as I sat there waiting on the dvd to load. I made it half way through before I broke down I pulled my knees up to my chest and began to cry. I laid my head on the pants and let the scent of his cologne hit me. He wasn’t supposed to die he was supposed to be here with me texting me at least 50 times a day and calling me 20 checking up on me and making plans for us not 6 feet under. I couldn’t stop the tears that were now falling like a water fall I heard my phone ring and prayed it was him texting me telling me these past months have been a joke and he’s alive and well. I sighed when I say it was my twin Garrett.

I deleted the message after I read it and scrolled through finding the number I was looking for. I began to type the message even though he would never see it and it would stay unread forever.

To: My Justin <3