Justin and I walked into the hallway, me clinging to his hand, partially afraid to let go afraid he was going to change his mind about everything.
“There you are! I was just coming to find you.” Chris yelled from down the hall as he made his way over to us, causing us to stop. I gripped onto Justin’s hand tighter, afraid that somehow Chris would figure out what was going on. Justin sensed my unease and wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me tightly against his side protectively.
“What’s up?” Justin shrugged his indifference towards Chris.
“I thought we were going to finish working on that song.” Chris said narrowing his eyes at the two of suspiciously.
“Oh yeah!” Justin exclaimed his eyes lighting up and him forgetting what we were on our way to do.
“J.” I whispered up at him trying to get his attention while also trying to avoid Chris’.
Justin looked down at me and frowned slightly at the look on my face, “I promised Chris I’d help him finish this song. You don’t need me for this do you?”
“I….uh kinda….I don’t know what….” I stumbled over my words not wanting to say too much in front of Chris and having no idea how I was suppose to have this conversation with J.C., especially without Justin there.
“What are you doing?” Chris asked curiously, popping up right in front of Justin and I. I glanced over at him nervously before turning my attention back to Justin silently begging him for his help.
“I’ll be down in a second.” Justin said to Chris willing him to leave us alone. Chris nodded and reluctantly made his way back down the hall, glancing back at us curiously.
I wrapped both of my hands around Justin’s waist, hugging him not wanting to let him go. “Madi, you’re fine, you don’t need me to talk to C.” Justin murmured.
“How am I supposed to explain this to him?” I whined, my voice muffled by Justin’s shirt.
“Just be honest.” Justin chuckled, not understanding why I was so stressed about the situation.
“But this was all your idea!” I said exasperated looking up at him.
“Madi if you don’t want to do this we don’t have to, but I really think you need to consider it.” Justin said his voice softening as he spoke.
“I just don’t know how I’m supposed to explain any of this. I’m not sure that any of it makes any sense to me.” I sighed still completely baffled by everything.
“Madi I love you and I was honest with you, you just have to do the same thing with C and be honest with him.” Justin explained as I nodded still not completely convinced.
“I will just be in Chris’ room if you need me. I shouldn’t be too long and I will come find you as soon as I’m done.” Justin said squeezing me reassuringly.
“K.” I nodded quietly.
“I love you.” Justin said as he bent down and kissed me softly.
“I love you too J.” I sighed relaxing slightly.
“Alright you know where I’ll be if you need me.” Justin said as he slowly untangled himself from my arms to make sure I was okay. I just nodded and watched him as he turned and made his way down the hall after Chris.
I waited until Justin disappeared into Chris’ room before I slowly turned and made my way to J.C.’s door and knocked on it quickly before I lost my nerve. What in all reality was just a couple seconds, seemed like an eternity as I waited for J.C. to answer the door.
He opened the door and gasped slightly at seeing me, “Madi?” he questioned as I let out the breath I had been holding and stepped forward wrapping my arms around his waist, knowing he probably needed the hug just as badly as I did. J.C. wrapped his arm around me and immediately pulled me into the room shutting the door.
“Sweetheart are you okay? Did you tell Justin? What’d he do?” J.C. questioned in rapid concession, concern etched all over his face. I looked up into his compassionate, concern filled eyes and suddenly all my doubts about the situation faded away as I finally understood what Justin meant about J.C. being able to give me something he couldn’t. I shook my head slowly trying to calm him down as I slowly reached up and caressed his cheek.
“Madi?” J.C. questioned, unsure of my calm demeanor after my previous meltdown.
“Let’s sit down.” I said almost inaudibly as I grabbed his hand and slowly led him over to bed. I started to pick up sheet music that was scattered all over the bed to make room to sit and couldn’t help but smile to myself; J.C. always used music as his outlet and this time was no different and it was definitely one of the things I loved about him. He was passionate about his craft and it showed in absolutely everything he did. J.C. sat down on the opposite side of the bed in front of his keyboard and started to tap on it nervously.
“Listen C…” I started as I glanced down at the sheet music in my hand and stopped as the words caught my eye. I shuffled a few pages around until I found the beginning and quickly started to read over the lyrics.
********
I could be the first to let you know
That nothing means anything
Now I'm standing here outside your door in the pouring rain
And I can't believe
Nothing's supposed to get to me
Now I'm in this misery
I can't be with anyone
Since I felt our worlds collide
It's like I almost died
The way you make me feel
I'm changing, got me breaking down inside
Baby can't you see
You ruined me for life
**********
“Josh.” I whispered out glancing up at him as he smiled sheepishly at me and quickly adverted his eyes, refusing to look at me.
*********
I will be the last to let you down
All your fears and doubts are hovering above you like a cloud
And the water's rising
Now I can't breathe
Nothing's how it's supposed to be
How did you do this to me?
Locked inside your heart shaped box
I can't be with anyone
Since I felt our worlds collide
It's like I most died
The way you make me feel
I'm changing, got me breaking down inside
Baby can't you see
You ruined me for life
********
“Is this about me?” I choked out, glancing back up at him with tears in my eyes. J.C. nodded slowly starting at me, trying to gage my reaction but not sure what to say.
********
I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna feel this way
All I wanna do is leave
But all I can do is stay
Nights and days go by and I can't wait to touch your face again
I could be the first to let you know
That I can't be with anyone
Since I felt our worlds collide
It's like I almost died
The way you make me feel
I'm changing, got me breaking down inside
Baby can't you see
You ruined me...
Oh, I can't be with anyone
Since I felt our worlds collide
It's like I most died
The way you make me feel
I've been changing, got me breaking down inside
Baby can't you see
You ruined me...
I don't wanna be in love
I don't wanna feel this way
All I wanna do is leave
You ruined me for life
********
“Do you mean it?” I finally whispered out finishing the song as I let a couple tears fall down my face.
“It’s just a song….” J.C. mumbled, refusing to look up at me.
“And I’ve been around all of you long enough to know it’s never just a song, “I said as J.C. finally looked up at me, “Did you mean it?” I asked again my voice raspy, full of emotion. J.C. nodded slowly as I glanced back down at the papers in my hand and absorbed the words, letting them sink in.
“Play it for me.” I whispered out as more of a command than a question.
J.C. just nodded and started to play the song completely from memory as I just watched mesmerized. J.C.’s eyes closed as he started to sing and he got completely lost in the music, singing with nothing but passion and raw emotion. I watched in awe, slightly dumbfounded that I never realized how he felt. I always knew we had a unique relationship, but I never would have dreamt that his feelings ran this deep. Looking back I couldn’t believe that I missed it, especially the last few weeks after I allowed him to get so close and be so intimate with me. As the song was nearing the end I slowly crawled up the bed to where J.C. was, watching the muscles in his arms flex as his hands moved across the keys and the determined yet calm aspect of his facial features as he continued to sing. When he finished the song his eyes fluttered open just in time to see throw myself at him, wrapping my arms around his neck and connecting our lips in a passionate want filled kiss.
I deepened the kiss slightly as I tugged on J.C.’s hair not being able to get enough of him. J.C. reluctantly pulled away sighing, “Madison stop, “ I looked at him slightly bewildered, but before I could get my bearings or sort out my thoughts he continued to speak, “We can’t keep doing this. It’s not fair to either of us and it’s definitely not fair to Justin."
I nodded slowly, understanding taking over, before I just grinned stupidly at him. “Not exactly the reaction I was expecting.” J.C. blew out slowly.
“Justin thinks we’ve been hooking up for weeks.” I laughed slightly.
“What?! Did you tell him it just happened and that it was a mistake and that we never meant for this to happen?” J.C. exclaimed exasperated. I reached out and put my hand on his thigh reassuringly, and I’m sure that if I hadn’t just previously had the same freak out that he was having that I would have probably been offended by his nonchalant attitude regarding us, but I understood a hundred percent where it was all coming from.
“C, calm down.” I said calmly as I squeezed his leg reassuringly and picked up his hand bringing it to my lips and softly kissing his knuckles. “Justin thinks we’ve been hooking up ever since the morning he left us alone when Trace left, but he’s okay with it.” I said as J.C.’s face scrunched up in confusion.
“What?” J.C. yelped out and I couldn’t help but to smile at him.
“He says he knows I love him but that I have some sort of feelings for you and he knows you have feelings for me….hence why you can’t keep a girlfriend,” I smirked as J.C. cut me off, “That’s not entirely true!” he exclaimed exasperated.
“Anyways he says you’re his best friend and he loves us both and he wants everyone to be happy so he’s okay with it.” I shrugged.
“What?” J.C. asked again his voice cracking slightly, obviously confused still.
“Look I know it sounds crazy, trust me, but I think he might be on to something…” I started.
“More like on something! Seriously is he still messing around with the coke and shit?” J.C. asked incredulously.
“Sometimes, but that’s not what this is C,” I sighed scooting over so my legs were across his lap and putting my arms around him hugging him, “Justin said it himself it’s obviously a little fucked up, but it would work, the three of us just work somehow. I can’t explain it, but you know I’m right.”
“Yeah, but fuck….I don’t know.” J.C. stuttered out rubbing his hand over his face.
“I don’t know exactly how it’s all going to work either, but after thinking about it I’d rather try it Justin’s way than have to stop hanging out with you.” I said my voice softening at the end.
J.C. frowned slightly at my statement, “I don’t want that either, but this is going to be just as fucking weird.”
“I don’t know,” I shrugged, “we’ve already done the whole threesome thing and we all still hang out and everything’s fine and Justin already thinks we’ve been hooking up so I’m not sure what could be any more weird.”
“What’s everyone else going to think?” J.C. asked throwing his hands up.
“It’s none of their business.” I sighed.
“Oh, you know they’ll have something to say about it! What about Chris?” J.C. asked pointedly.
“I mean I don’t think we need to tell them. I mean they already know we’re close and spend a lot of time together so I don’t see the problem. Just don’t be kissing me in front of them.” I teased but was just met with J.C. rolling his eyes at me.
“Seriously Madison.” He replied in a reprimanding tone.
“I’m being serious C, “I said reaching up and caressing his face, “but if you don’t want to I understand.” I said a little disappointed.
“Madison,” J.C. groaned out, resting his forehead against mine, “it’s not that I don’t want to, I just don’t see this ending well.”
“I don’t know, I think we just have to take it one day at a time and if for any reason it gets weird or one of us wants out then fine.” I whispered out as J.C. closed the small gap between us and kissed me softly.
“I have a feeling I’m going to regret this but okay.” J.C. mumbled against my lips and I couldn’t help the instant grin that took over my face.
J.C. slowly moved my legs off his lap and laid me back as he hovered over me, grinning down at me. I reached up and brushed his hair away from his forehead and he dipped his head slowly kissing me. He broke the kiss long enough to pull my shirt over my head and grinned stupidly at me when he realized I wasn’t wearing a bra. I smiled back at him as he licked his lips and dipped his head down sucking my nipple into his mouth. I gasped and arched my back up into his mouth as he gently bit down on it, before swirling his tongue around it and moving to the other one. I whimpered slightly and caught J.C.’s eye as he glanced up at me grinning before kissing his way down my stomach and to the hem of my shorts. J.C.’s fingers slowly skimmed down my body until they hooked into my shorts on either side of me and he gently tugged on them. I instinctively lifted my hips up allowing him to slide my shorts off, his fingers slowly skimming down my legs as he did so. I sat up slowly, reaching for J.C., wanting to get him naked and be close to him but he shook his head and gently pushed me back so I fell back on the bed. I pouted slightly in his direction, but let it go when he bent down and kissed the inside of my ankle and started to slowly work his way up my leg. He ran his hands slowly up my legs until they were resting on the inside of my thighs and he gently pushed them apart as he continued to make his way up my legs kissing and sucking as he went. If I wasn’t already turned on by him before, I definitely was now and his slow pace was driving me insane.
“J.C.” I whined out reaching down and grabbing his hand and tugging on it, trying to get him to come to me.
“Madison.” J.C. said drawing out my name his voice low as he mocked me.
“Come here.” I whined, throwing my head back summoning him to me.
“Uh uh.” J.C. mumbled running his fingers up my folds and parting me as he bent his head down and his tongue darted out tasting me. I gasped as his warm tongue ran up my folds before running over my clit. I could feel J.C. grinning between my legs as he moved his hand up and pushed two of his long fingers inside me as his tongue continued its assault on my clit. I let out a long moan, my mind completely clouded over with the sensations running through my body. J.C.’s fingers were rubbing gloriously against my g-spot and he was sucking on my clit, ever so often caressing it lightly with his tongue and I couldn’t fight the rapid pace of my building orgasm.
“C.” I moaned out as my fingers tangled in his hair as I held his head in place and started to buck my hips beneath him. I arched my back up off the bed as every muscle in my body tightened and my legs started to uncontrollably shake on either side of J.C. My body’s instinct was to pull away from J.C.’s tortuous assault but his free hand wrapped around my thigh holding me in place as he continued to suck on my clit unrelenting as he pushed another finger inside of me, stroking me the whole time as I rode out my orgasm. I finally relaxed against the bed panting completely warn out from that incredible orgasm and whimpered slightly when J.C. pulled his hand away from my throbbing center and he ran his tongue up and down over me a few times lapping up all my juices.
J.C. finally sat up grinning like a cheshire cat
as he sucked his fingers into his mouth, wiping them clean of any remnants of me. I grinned lazily over at him as he made his way back up my body, half lying on top of me.
“That was….wow; fuck C….that was amazing. Justin’s never done that.” I panted out still mind blown from how amazing he had made me feel and a little sheepish that that was the first time I was experiencing something like that.
J.C.’s brows knit together in an unbelieving confusion at my statement, “That’s why you get for dating the baby,” he whispered out as he licked his lips and bent down to kiss me.
“Mmm I can taste myself on you.” I said sheepishly as I pulled away from the kiss.
“Sorry.” J.C. grinned as he moved his hand to wipe his mouth.
“No, it’s okay.” I whispered out, pulling him back down and kissing him again as he groaned out and for the first time since the haze of my orgasm I could feel just how aroused he was pressing into my leg.
“I suppose I should return the favor.” I grinned up at him as I pulled away from the kiss and reached to push his shorts down.
“Mmm as amazing as your little mouth would be on me, “J.C. started as he kicked off his shorts, “not tonight. I want you to feel how amazing a second orgasm will feel after that.” He whispered out positioning himself at my entrance.
I nodded slowly, not sure if my body could handle another intense orgasm like that, but wanting one all the same. J.C. kissed me softly as he pushed himself into me and I groaned out already feeling amazing with him inside of me.
J.C. was right the second orgasm seemed a thousand times more intense and ten times longer and I was completely exhausted afterwards. I curled up into J.C. laying my head on his chest and immediately fell asleep as he ran his hand up and down my back comfortingly. J.C. was watching me sleep a little while later when there was a knock on the door. He contemplated ignoring it, but whoever it was was being persistent and he didn’t want the incessant knocking to wake me up. He gently untangled himself from me, and placed a soft kiss on my temple before pulling his basketball shorts back on and moving out of the room shutting the door quietly behind him. He moved to the door throwing it open with a glare ready to yell at whoever was on the other end of it.
“Woah, why are you so pissed?” Justin asked, throwing his hands up causing J.C. to sigh.
“Yano I heard you knock the first time you didn’t have to keep knocking.” J.C. said rolling his eyes and turning to make his way over to the couch, figuring Justin would follow.
“You didn’t answer.” Justin shrugged sitting down across from J.C.
“You ever think I didn’t want to be bothered?” J.C. asked as Justin just rolled his eyes.
“You sleep too much. Did Madi come talk to you?”Justin asked.
“Yeah.” J.C. sighed running his hand through his hair and not giving Justin any more information.
“Well what do you think?” Justin asked grinning obviously proud of himself.
“I think I hope you’re serious and that Madison better not get hurt in the midst of all this.” J.C. sighed again looking over at Justin.
“She won’t. I don’t plan on hurting her and I know you won’t.” Justin said his knee bouncing up and down anxiously as J.C. stared at him.
“I hope you’re right J.” J.C. sighed as he got up and grabbed two beers, bringing one back over and handing it to Justin, before taking a long drink of his own.
“Where’d she go anyway? She’s not in our room and I just came from Chris’.” Justin asked wanting to change the subject.
“She’s asleep in my bed.” J.C. said quietly, studying his younger friend for any signs of anger or jealousy.
He found none however as Justin shrugged his indifference, “You wanna watch the baseball game?”
“Yeah that’s fine,” J.C. nodded as he finished his beer and got up to get another one, “I’m starving I’m gonna order food, you want something?”
“Hell yeah!” Justin grinned, settling back into the couch and turning the game on.
Chapter End Notes:
Alright what do you all think of this little arrangement???Good idea? Bad idea? You still favoring J.C.?? Or anyone liking Justin more so?? Let me know please!!!!!
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