I give him a playful smile as he leans down to kiss me. As I finish my coffee, he grabs a blanket and brings it to the couch. He turns on the TV & pats the seat next to him for me to sit down. i climb onto the sofa and crawl towards him to cuddle in closer. I actually lie my head on his lap and he throws the blanket over me. We were flipping through the channels trying to find something to watch and ended up watching The Wedding Singer. Since i didn’t get much rest over the weekend, with all the drama and what not, i ended up falling asleep on his lap. When I woke up, the TV was off and JC was gone. I sat up & stretched my body out before going to look for JC. I hear a faint noise upstairs and get up to check what it was. As I get closer to the top of the stairs, the faint noise became music. JC was in his music room strumming at his guitar & singing. 

She dreams in color

But does she know that I love her?

I'm swimming in my abyss of insecure blue, yeah

And I'm losing my head

And I can't get no sleep

But if I reached out

Would you reach out for me, yeah

I'm leaning against the doorframe while he sings these specific words from Lose Myself. Why was he singing this song? These lyrics? Was he singing it because of me? I didn't want to cry, but I could feel my eyes watering. I must've sniffled because JC turned to find me at the doorway. 

JC: hey… youre awake! How long have you been standing there? 

Gianne: enough to remember how much I miss hearing you sing 

JC laughed & turned away as he started to put the guitar away. 

Gianne: I forgot how much i love that song

JC : yea, its been hitting pretty close lately

Gianne: what do you mean?

He turns to walk towards me.

JC : when the thought that I may have hurt you or that I might lose you .... these last few days .... it had me experiencing all these feelings. 

Gianne: how come u didn't say this earlier when we were talking? 

JC : (standing in front of me now) wasnt sure how to express it.... Therefore, why I was messing around with that song again

He moves a strand of hair out of my face, as i gaze into his mesmerizing blue eyes - hanging on every word. I feel myself breathing hard, or hardly breathing - i couldn’t tell.

JC : .... I am falling hard for you Gianne. Feeling this way. So fast. It's new to me. It scares me still. But I can truly say I love you.

I'm holding it in but deep down I want to start crying from the happiness I'm feeling. Holy cow! JC loves me?!

Gianne: (smiling ear to ear with watery eyes) I love you too!

JC smiles back in return and kisses me against the doorway. I take it he was very happy with my response. This boy made me weak in the knees. I could start to differentiate the ways he kissed me - right now, was soft and passionate. Was it because we had just admitted our love for one another? He pulled away and looked me in the eyes. He was happy - his eyes showed it, like they were smiling. Alongside the wall of the doorway, in his music room, was a black sofa/futon - the kind fit for a mancave’ish vibe. It fit perfectly with the style of his music room. He saw me eye the futon and he immediately took initiative. He began kissing me on the shoulder and moved in towards my neck. As he was doing so, he grabbed my waist and we waddled toward the futon. I had us pivot so that he would sit first and smiled as he sat. He gazed at me as i began to straddle him and he couldn’t wait to rub his hands all over my legs and sides. I ran my fingers through his hair a few times before i kissed him. I kissed him in a slow, loving yet teasing way. He ran his hands up the back of my shirt and the feeling of his skin on mine drove me crazy. I wanted to grind on him already, but wanted to go slow. Tease him. As we were kissing, he began unbuttoning my long sleeve. He slipped my shirt off and just wrapped his arms around me and held me tight. He pulled away from the kiss and just planted kisses all around - from my neck, to shoulder, to chest - and i melted. I tilted my head back allowing him to get every inch and i just moaned in pleasure. At the same time, he began unbuttoning my shorts and reached his hands down my shorts to grab my ass. He was wearing basketball shorts and i could feel him excited beneath me, which caused me to grind against him more and more. While in the moment, we somehow get our bottoms removed and as I straddle him again, he fills me and it feels so good. We both exhale with how good it feels. We start off slow, just looking into each others eyes, still in awe of our feelings for one another. But with JC’s hands all over me, i couldn’t help but thrust him in and out, faster and faster. He tossed his head back against the seat with his eyes closed. I still couldnt believe I could do this to him - make him feel this way. I nibbled at his neck to add to the sensations he was feeling. This made him grasp my thighs which drove me crazy. We thrusted faster and faster and finally came together. JC held onto me as he maneuvered his way to lie down on the futon, which had me lie on top of him and slightly against the back of the futon. After finally catching our breath, i caught a glimpse of the time on his wall clock. It was noon.

Gianne: (looking up at him) oh my goodness, its noon. have you eaten?  

JC: (smiling, amused at my concern) i was fine until our little session. i’m famished now. 

Gianne: (laughing at his cheesiness) you’re such a nerd.  let me cook something for you. 

JC: oh, you dont have to do that. we can order in if you want. 

Gianne: i don’t mind

I climb up off him kissing his chest along the way. I button up my shirt halfway and slip my shorts back on. I use the restroom before heading down to the kitchen. As I head down to the kitchen, JC gets up and uses the restroom too. I open the fridge to see what my options are. Steak, ground turkey, potatoes, and a variety of veggies. I figure i can cook steak, veggies, and mashed potatoes. Was that too heavy for lunch? Oh well, thats what he was gonna get. I start marinating the steak, then move onto boiling the potatoes. While the potatoes boiled, i grabbed my phone to make sure I didnt miss any messages. I had text messages from Michael and Lance. I love them for caring so much.

hey, just checking in. everything okay? 

:) yes, everything is fine. we’re fine. 

oh thank god! 

in that case, dinner next weekend at our house. 

oooh, sounds fun. 

i’ll check to make sure he doesn’t have plans already. 

ugh! LANCE will text him too! 

I just respond with a laughing emoji. I put the steaks in the oven for a few minutes before grilling them in the pan. JC made his way downstairs and joined me in the kitchen. 

JC: ooh, mashed potatoes? 

Gianne: yep 

He grabbed a water from the fridge and looked at what else I was cooking. 

Gianne: oh, Lance & Michael are inviting us to dinner at their house next weekend. 

JC: really? ok. sounds good. 

I finish mashing and seasoning the potatoes and get a spoonful for JC to taste.

Gianne: (feeding him) how does that taste? 

JC: mmm… sooo good.

I smile and feel relieved that it came out okay. I keep the pot of mashed potatoes on a low heat to stay warm. I heat up the skillet before placing the steaks on. I season the mixed veggies and bake them after I take the steaks out.

JC: do you need any help? 

Gianne: nope. just relax.

I finish cooking, plate everything and set it on the island. JC grabs utensils and drinks. As we sit down,

JC: wow! everything looks great and smells delicious. 

I wait for JC to take the first bite to see if everything was to his satisfaction. He takes a bite of steak.

JC: oh wow, this is so tender! and delicious!

I let out a sigh of relief and join him in eating. We must’ve been really hungry because we were so quiet the whole time we ate. When we finished eating, we just sat at the island talking and enjoying each others company. JC’s phone then went off alerting him of a text message. He grabs his phone and checks the message. 

JC: oh! it’s autumn! she’s having the movie premiere for their new hallmark movie next month and is making sure i don’t make plans. 

Gianne: oh, that sounds fun! those hallmark movies are my guilty pleasure 

JC: well good, because you’re coming with

I feel my eyes go wide - that means i’d be meeting his best friend. Heck, i’d be meeting more of his friends since thats a tight knit circle. He begins texting her back. When he finishes, he begins cleaning up and putting the dishes in the dishwasher. 

Gianne: here, let me help you 

JC: NO, you sit! you cooked. the least i could do is tidy up.

I wipe down the island and put away any leftovers. 

Gianne: so at this premiere… that means our picture will be taken, right? 

JC : (intrigued) yea

Gianne: so our relationship will be public from that point

JC : are u worried about being photographed? Do you not want to go? 

Gianne: no it's not that! It's just there's a handful of girls I would rather tell myself instead of them finding out thru press photos. 

JC : (processing in his head) oh

Gianne: I knew this time would eventually come & I didn't know how to bring it up. But u bringing up autumn's premiere…. I just thought, ok bring it up now

I was chattering and JC could tell I was nervous & jittery about the whole topic. He wiped his hands with a towel and hugged me from behind. 

JC : it's ok. breathe.

I take a deep breath.

JC : so how many is a handful? 

Gianne: about 7, so almost a literal handful

JC : what exactly were you going to tell them? 

Gianne: what do you want me to tell them? If we get photographed at the premiere, everyone is gonna assume that we're a couple anyway. 

JC : I mean, do you tell these girls everything? 

Gianne: no! of course not. 

JC : so if they asked for more information…. 

Gianne: if it's none of their business, I don't tell them anything. Plus these girls aren't like that. And they won't spread the news. I just need to tell them before media does. 

JC : so it's just literally, telling them that we're dating? 

Gianne: pretty much, I can play it down more, if u prefer 

JC : no, you're my girlfriend. I don't want you to just dismiss that. 

I turn in his arms to face him. I grab the sides of his face and kiss him.

Gianne: I'll tell them enough - what they need to know & nothing else.

He lifts me up to sit me on the island and stands in between my legs.

JC : ok

He gives me a kiss. My insides were fluttering because of him standing in between my legs. Just something about it frustrated me. Maybe because it could lead to sex in the kitchen. I always saw it in movies but never thought it was doable due to positioning. But we just ate so I was hoping it wouldn't lead to that. 

We moved to the couch - JC giving me a piggyback ride there - and watched TV. We cuddled, messed around, tickled each other - just relaxing. Around 4pm, I got ready to head home before it got dark. 

JC : I wish you would just stay the night

Gianne: I would if I didn't have such an early shift in the morning 

JC : so I'll pick u up Saturday then head to Michael & Lance's? 

Gianne: are u sure? I can just drive out here that way you don't keep going back & forth 

JC : or I can get you Friday night? then you can stay the whole weekend? 

JC gives me a flirty little smirk & I can't help but smile back. 

Gianne: that does sound tempting 

JC : ok that's settled. I'm getting you friday night

I laugh and grab my stuff. He walks me to my truck and kisses me goodbye before I climb inside. 

JC : be careful. Let me know when you get home

Gianne : yes sir

I give him another quick peck and start the car. He walks to the gate and watches me as I drive off. I get home around 530. Thankfully being Sunday, there wasn't too much traffic. I toss my overnight bag on the ground, plop on the couch, and then text JC that i got home ok. These last 3 days have been so mentally draining, it feels like its been a whole week. I decide i’ll text the nsync gals the following day after i get some much needed rest and get a better grasp of what to tell them.

MONDAY 8/12

It was back to work. i went about my day and once i got home, i started prepping on what i would tell the gals. Initially, i was going to wait until closer to the premiere to tell them, but I felt i had to do it now in case we happened to get caught by paparazzi. I was nervous. I knew they would have a bunch of questions. 

OK! i have something to tell you….. but you have to keep it SECRET! 

OMG! Is it reunion news?

JC NEWS? 

OMG!! SPILL THE TEA!! 

Ok, i felt i needed to be the one to tell you…. rather than you finding out 

from press or social media. So with that said, JC & I have recently started dating. I know, It’s nuts! i’m still in shock! I still can’t believe it! 

All these emojis start flooding in - bug eyed, heart eyes, mind blown, etc. I mean, i don’t blame them. What words would you be able to put together after hearing that kind of news. There was some wows & congrats squeezed in there. 

How did this start? I need details. 

And then bam, there it was! 

Is it everything we always imagined? LOL

How do i answer this the way JC would want this answered. Without invading his sense of privacy. I did tell him I wouldn’t tell them anything they didn’t need to know, but i also know that they wouldn’t stop until they got a little something. 

Ya'll know JC. He's very private.
So without divulging too much info - YES!!!???? 

The girls' response were a bunch of fireworks and hearts & I was just glad they were so supportive & didn't pry. I think also cuz they respected JC. 

            And don't worry, I'm still manifesting the 

            reunion. Gotta get my girls in somehow! ????

We chatted a bit more before we all went offline. They all promised nothing would leave our chat. I trusted them. I resumed the rest of my regular workweek & just couldn't wait for Friday. Spending the weekend with JC and then dinner with Lance & Michael. I mean, what life was I living? Was this my life? I still couldn't believe it.