Emergency Entrance:
When I woke up I was in a big bed covered in rough white sheets.
There was a beeping; there was something in my arm…A drip.
Aw damn…
I wasn’t in the damn hospital…oh wait I was.
I open my eyes fully, to see my mom sitting beside me…
“Mom what…”
“You only passed out!!” she exclaimed as she stood up “girl when was the last time
you ate? The doctor said you had extremely low blood sugar, you know that's not
good for the baby now don’t you!!! I mean come on sweetie you know all of this…”
she stood hands on hips looking at me with that air of disappointment I knew only too well.
I sighed as I tried to sit up, but my ever expanding belly was getting in the
way “Momma don’t lecture me okay, that's why we were in the damn restaurant
remember? But you were the one that was rushin’ us outta there as soon as you
spotted J…I never got a chance to eat! And damn it I was workin hard all day…”
“You fainted, if Justin hadn’t caught you, the baby could have been really hurt…”
she sighed as she sat back down again.
“Well it wasn’t…” I defied “where is he anyway?”
“Outside” she shrugged.
“HE'S HERE???” I assured he would have gone home with Blondie.
“Yes baby he's here, and he's worried and he's in shock! I told him what was going
on…he wants to talk to you!”
“Mom…why did you do that”
“Well he saw you were pregnant, DUH!” she smiled reaching for my hand “he
knows now…just talk to him…”
“You don’t even like him mom why are you pushing for this?” I sat up a little more,
being careful not to pop the tubes in my hand.
“I may not like him…but that baby NEEDS a daddy…and believe it or not sweetie
you’ll need more help than I can give you when the little one comes along, why
not let him be that help…”
I hated when she was right. And this was one of those times…
“ugh fine…” she nodded and walked out of the room, seconds later his frame came
padding in, hands in his pockets – looking like a six year old whose puppy just
died.
I felt like a bitch…
“Hi…”
“Hey…” I concurred as he took the seat formally occupied by my mom.
“So I guess you want an explanation huh?”
He just nodded…
“Well…Im…pregnant obviously” I began more nervously than I thought id be. “Ummm” he stood up
“Is it…I mean its mine right?”
“Yes…I mean who else?”
He just shrugged “HOW THE HELL WOULD I KNOW HARRI,”
“DON’T YELL AT ME OK!!”
“WHY THE HELL NOT! YOUR THE ONE WHO HID THIS…I MEAN IF…” he took a deep
breath, luckily so…otherwise I would have smack his stupid ass “if I hadn’t seen
you tonight…were you ever gonna tell me?”
No, I really hadn’t planned on it.
“We’re broken up why would i?”
“Shaharra! That's my…you’re…” I think he was the one gonna faint. “That’s my
baby in there…how could you not…”
“I was scared okay!” I admitted for the first time to anyone. “I was scared to see
you…getting over you. when I found out Justin- I wasn’t over you, and I didn’t
want to just show up because I knew we’d get comfortable again and maybe id slip
into my old ways with you – and we both didn’t need that its like…when I got back
I had just found out that I was for sure pregnant that was four months ago…I
wanted to tell you then, but I saw you with that woman…you seemed happy.”
“And?”
“And I didn’t want to disrupt that when I didn’t have to, we were over and this was
my thing it was my plan to keep and raise the baby…you didn’t need to be
involved.”
He stood up, his hands balled into fists “so you didn’t think id WANT to be involved
with my OWN baby? Harri you really think that little of me?” okay so id hurt him…
bad idea.
“No…I don’t know I just know that you seemed happy with her…I was happy for
you. And this whole thing just spun me for a loop and I at first didn’t really know
how to deal with it…”
And I hated her.
“Thanks but that doesn’t excuse…”
“I know okay I know that and for that I am so sorry.”
“So are you over me now?” he asked causing her not to have a truthful answer
She just nodded a weak yes…..
Then there was a silence as I tried to move again, he rushed over to hoist me up
helping raise my pillow.
It was sweet.
“Thanks…” I added as he sat down again this time staring at my stomach.
“So do you know…um what it...” he looked me in the eyes “do you know what it is
yet?”
I shook my head “Naw not yet…”
“Oh…” he sat in silence again until I wanted to scream just to make some kind of
noise.
“Harri…I want to be apart of the baby’s life…you know the deal with me and my
dad and I definitely don’t want that for him or her…but I want you to want that too.
If you don’t then we should make some kind of arrangement.” He stood up very
full of “im a man” presence.
“I see…”
“Look Harri I told you once that once that as long as there was love between us we
wouldn’t be strangers…I think this” he softly landed his hand on my belly “this is
enough love for us to become friends…at least”
Damn him and his weird wisdom- that always seemed to pop up at the weirdest of
times. Now I don’t know if I was hormonal or happy or relieved…or all of the
above but I started to cry.
“Baby…” he touched my face as he leaned in to me “Don’t cry…I hate it when you
cry.”
“I know, im sorry I just…didn’t realise how much I missed you…” I admitted, and
hey maybe I shouldn’t have…since he was in love with another woman after all.
“I missed you too…”
****
Needless to say I was shocked when I saw what I saw – her enormous stomach –
ala baby inside, my baby.
I didn’t know what to think, what to feel…and especially what to say. I mean it was
shocking just to see her there in the first place, even worse to see something
happening that I had helped cause and had no idea about. In a few short months
my life would never be the same again, never.
I was going to be a father…
Jesus. I – me? Of all people…I wasn’t sure if I was ready for such a responsibility.
There was about to be this little person completely dependant on ME.
And oh the person pregnant wasn’t my current girlfriend, it was my ex…a person
said current girlfriend had MAJOR issues with, even though the two had never
actually met.
I think her problems started when we’d been dating a few months and we we’re
moving some rooms around in the house and she happened to find some old home
movies of Harri and I.
They we’re anything X-rated…mostly…but there were moments that I guess no girl
wants to see…
So in a way I can’t blame her, my love with Harri was the Romeo & Juliet kinda
vibe…and now she was having my baby.
I wasn’t looking forward to going home.
When I left her at the restaurant she didn’t really know what was going on…the
conversation were I have to fill her in, I was guessing that shit was gonna be hard!
“Shaharra, what happens now? With you I mean your okay and everything?”
She nodded smiling “yeah blood sugar issues, im fine now.”
“And the baby?”
“She’s fine too.”
“She???” she knew what it was already.
“No I don’t know for sure yet…ive taken to calling it she, if it’s a boy ill apologise…
but um we’re both fine thank god. I get to go home tomorrow after another scan…”
I nodded, I knew she was gonna be fine.
But was I? That was the major question in my head at that second, the second
was…
“When are you due?” I needed to know that first of all
“January. 30th actually, day before your birthday” she smiled sitting up a little
more I could tell she was really uncomfortable.
“You’re kidding me…really?” it made me happy that we’d be close like that.
“Nope not kidding, when the doctor told me I nearly damn well fainted I mean it
would have to guilt me even more wouldn’t it…”
“okay…so we’ve got a little under five months…do you think we could start building
something now…I mean we don’t have to rush anything here….” I offered as gently
as I could. The last thing I wanted to do was scare her.
“Maybe…maybe we could start…gently.” She allowed me to take her hand. And she
squeezed it, in that reassuring way she always did.
We’d be okay. I knew it…I hoped it… I prayed.
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Author's Chapter Notes:
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