"Are you ready?" Would it be bad if she said no?
"Yes" she answered before feeling the cool liquid poured on her
stomach to start the ultrasound. Eight pairs of eyes fell upon the
monitor await the debut of little Timberlake or little Carter.
"There it is" Dr. Meadows smiled. There for all to see was the small
infant within in stomach. Whenever she saw her child for the first
time, it always made her tear up. "Well that baby wants the world to
see it huh?" she laughed. The baby turned and face everyone as if it
knew it was being watched.
"This is wonderful" Nick sighed, stepping before Justin to gently
rubbed Kristina's hand. She hadn't seen exactly who was holding her
hand since she was still paying attention to the screen but when she
turned around she was shocked to see Nick. He didn't mean to overstep
his boundaries but he grew in awe of what was happening before him.
Kristina seemed genuinely happy that she was pregnant, Paris on the
other hand was upset. She didn't want to gain weight so those 9
months were pure torture. When she looked up for Justin he was over
in the corner with his hands in his pocket, trying to make the
jealousy that he held.
~*~
"Are you serious?!" Chris screeched.
"Yes, just jumped right ahead of my like she was his fucking husband
instead of me."
"Do you think he still has feelings for her?"
"I don't know….I don't know."
"What did Kristina say when it happened?"
"She said nothing, she….uh, um…"
"Out with it JT, you're hiding something." His boys knew him, yes he
was hiding the fact that Kristina spoke with Nick afterwards bout how
that wasn't the best thing to do, how she tried to talk to Justin
about it yet he ignored her or the confusion on her face when she
looked back at Nick when he took her hand.
"Ok so she did tell him that it was a little inappropriate but--"
"But nothing Justin, you are really making something out of nothing.
She spoke to him, she looked at him like he was crazy and she tried
to talk to you? You are just asking for a fight."
"But I don't know Chris my man, the making up part is the best part."
"That's why we can't figure out who's the father" he mumbled.
~*~
Kristina walked with little J outside to the swinging porch. She just
really couldn't take it anymore. Watching J.C. and Lance ogle over
their wives and children. Tending to their every need, latching
themselves together, navigating their attention solely on mother and
child. It wasn't that she was jealous of her friends, for she was
happy that they'd experience they joys of motherhood, but it was all
just too much for her to watch in such a delicate stage in her life.
So she took the only person that she could rely on to listen to her
and really just listen to her was her little boy. There was something
about little J that was just remarkable at his age. He could listen
whenever you needed him. Though he couldn't really talk back
listening helped sometimes more than the advice reverberated back. So
under the stars she sat with her special little guy ready to spew
everything out in the open.
"So J…in this tummy is your baby brother or sister tah and you're
still a baby" she scoffed. "I can't believe this J, I really can't. I
sit by and I see Krystal and Lance, J.C. and Dez. They're so happy
that they're having children." Kristina looked up to the sky to stop
the tears that threatened to leave her eyes. "Justin doesn't talk
about the child, he hasn't even touched me." So much for holding in
the tears. Justin felt horrible from hearing the words that came from
her. He had came out to find Kristina talking little J. His heart
constricted in his chest after hearing the sadness that plagued her.
Never had she mentioned that. "Maybe it was just a mistake getting
back together."
"Do you honestly think that?" Would he stop doing that?! Kristina
turned around to face Justin who was standing behind her.
"Oh Justin…"
"No, tell me how you feel." Justin walked around to sit down.
"Justin--"
`No, really tell me. Apparently you've been feeling this way for
awhile."
"I don't want to be a bother."
"You're thinking on the grounds of us not even getting together. Do
you honestly think that I no longer love you?"
"Justin….you don't even look at me like you used to anymore. You
haven't even….haven't even touched my stomach. When I was pregnant
with Justina and J, I couldn't keep your paws off of me. And now….and
now--" Kristina's sentence was halted by Justin's warm hands placed
on top of her round stomach.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry."
~*~
Distance was still a problem for Justin and Kristina but Justin put
in more effort of being a father to the unborn infant. At the time
Justin was playing video games, while Kristina was in the kitchen
with the girls making cookies. Of course little J was eating all the
chocolate chips. The phone in the distance began to ring.
"Justin can you get that for me?"
"Yeah sure."
"J, stop eating the chocolate chips!" Kristina snapped.
"Me hungee."
"Boy I think that's the only thing you know how to say sometimes."
"No."
"Well that's a first" Kristina laughed to herself. Whoever that was
on the phone must've been for Justin because he didn't really say
anything else. That was until he walked into the kitchen very sullen.
"We need to get their nanny."
"What's wrong?"
"We need to get to the hospital….its' Dez, there's been an accident."
As fast as they could, the two called the children's rarely used
nanny Jing-mei to care for the kids while they went to the hospital
to get more news on what exactly happened. Rushing into the ER, there
J.C. sat completely distraught. Lance and Krystal stood by along with
Chris and Donovan. Joey and Kelly were on their way but that still
didn't answer what was going on.
"J.C…?" J.C. still didn't say anything, just sat there in a daze. He
hadn't said one word yet.
"Um, Kristina come with me" Krystal whispered in her ear. She was
getting more and more confused with each passing moment. Krystal took
Kristina's hand and carried her into the Dez's room. IV's connected
to her hand while many sounds of the machines filled the room. Dez
too looked saddened. Kristina looked to Krystal for answers only to
find her friend in tears. From Krystal's tears Dez began to cry too.
Then everything clicked.
"Oh Desiree, I'm so sorry." Kristina walked over to her and held her
friend. Krystal joined the two over on the bed, crying along with the
two.
~*~
Kristina sat in silence on the side of the bed. Today was one of the
worst days she ever had to experience. She was so happy for her
friends having a child only for fate to take it away. It was just a
regular day for Dez, getting ready to go out, run a few errands when
someone slammed in the back of her car causing her black Mini Cooper
to become sandwiched between the drivers Hummer and a delivery truck.
Still she couldn't wrap the thought around her mind. The beautiful
baby that grew within was now gone. Alexandria Margerthe Chasez born
and deceased May 15th 2010. Dez was sad but J.C. was just hysterical.
The hospital psychiatrist had to come to help calm him. Everyone did
what they could to help the couple until they were asked by the
hospital to give them a little alone time. Justin walked out of the
bathroom that conjoined to their bedroom, still with the look of
sadness marked on his face. He put himself in J.C.'s shoes. He
completely understood J.C. dilemma as well as Lance and Joey. If he
were to lose Justina, J, Alesha or this child that he was having with
Kristina, it'd just be the end of his world. Justin looked over to
his wife who was wearing the same white gown that he loved. It was a
little tight due to her growing stomach but wearable. She looked like
a fallen angel. He walked over beside her and sat down. The two
looked at each other before just crying. There was so much crying
going on in the past few months they were surprised
"Kristina….?"
"Yeah?"
"I love you so much and I'm not just saying that because of today but
I'm saying that because I don't say it enough. I knew the minute I
saw you that night at the hotel that you were my soul mate. I still
believe that to this day."
"Aw Justin, I love you too. Even when we weren't together I still
loved you, I'm never going to stop loving, never." Justin moved in
slowly, planting his lips on hers. He kissed her with as much passion
as he had within his body and she responded.
"Let me make love you, let me show you how much I love you." Kristina
nodded, lowering herself onto the bed. Kristina slid Justin's boxers
down to his ankles and he kicked them off. Justin positioned himself
between her legs, peeling the white gown off of her body. He
meticulously filled her body with tender kisses back up to her soft
lips. Slowly he pushed himself within her warm center filling her
body with bliss as the two became one. Kristina couldn't help but
close her eyes to the sensation of Justin moving in and out of
her. "Open you eyes babe" Kristina opened her eyes as Justin
commanded. "This is me making love with you. You feel that?" he
thrust into her hard, "Me. Just me babe." He thrusted in back and
forth and she felt him reach depths that she never thought was
possible. His arms were braced on each side of her. Their bodies
meshed together in passion.
"I love you Justin, you're my everything" she cried out.
"Same here babe, same here" he whispered as they both came. Justin
dared not to move, savoring the warmth and love the surrounded the
two that night.
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