God, you’re beautiful
I love your long brown hair
Your almond shaped eyes
I love everything about you
I should go talk to you
You’re just standing there
Against a wall
Giggling with a few of your girlfriends
You have a great smile
I told my mom about you
She thought I was too young
I’m not too young
I’m thirteen years old
You’re twelve
We’re mature for our age
We have to be
We’re on the Mickey Mouse Club for God’s sake
It’s some hard stuff
Oh well
I never did listen to my mom
Why would I start now
As I walk over to you
My throat starts to feel dry
I can’t do this
You’re too good for me
We both know it
But I don’t care
I’m going to do this
I have to do this
I can’t believe how brave I’m feeling
When I get to where you are standing
A silence falls over everything
Your girlfriends stop talking
You stop giggling
Everyone’s just staring at me
I can’t take this
I can take it on stage
When I’m supposed to be the center of attention
But not here
I’m so stupid
I should have waited until you were alone
My bravery seems to have abanded me
Too late now
Too late
For a moment I just stand there
Staring
I can’t think of anything to say
I have to think fast if I don’t want to look like a complete idiot
But before I have a chance to say anything
You speak
I love your voice
It’s so soft
It reminds me of an angel
You ask me what I want
I ask to speak to you in private
I tell you
I tell you everything
It feels so good to tell you
I know that you like what you hear
You’re smiling
And before I know it
You kiss me
It’s my first kiss
I’m glad it was with you
From that day on, we’re inseparable
We go everywhere together
The movies
Restaurants
Sporting events
Everywhere
One day you tell me that you want to be a star
I tell you that you could be
You always were in my eyes
You have the voice
You have the moves
You have the looks
You have everything
I don’t tell you
But I want to be one too
But one day I do it
I join a pop group
And we make it
Big
I ask you to come tour with us
You leap on me and kiss me with joy
The first day of the tour, you’re nervous
I’ve never seen you this nervous
You look like you’re going to throw up
You probably feel like that too
You don’t let the audience know how you feel
You come off confident and sexy
They don’t like you
They boo you
They yell horrible things to you
When you come back from performing, you cry
You cry hard and long
I try to comfort you
But I can’t
I don’t have enough time
I need to go perform now
They love us
I hate them
They made you cry
I want to yell at them
I want to tell them how horrible they were
But I don’t
I can’t
I want to though
You stay on tour with us
It takes a bit of convincing
But you stay
For the first few shows, the audience has the same reaction
So do you
You cry
I almost tell you to stop
That nothing is worth making you cry
But I know that you will hate me later if I did
You love to perform too much
I can’t make you stop
After a few shows, things start to look up
You dye your hair blond
It looks great
You look better then ever
The audience starts to warm up to you
They start to sing along with your songs
They start to scream with happiness when you come out
They love you
But not as much as I do
Yes, by this point, I love you
I know you don’t love me though
And it hurts
But I don’t say anything
All in time
I hope
You recently came out with your first single
It’s huge
So are you
I’m so happy for you
I knew it would happen
I always did have faith in you
You thanked me for that
The next year is crazy
We break up once
Only for a short time
It was hard
Us both being on the road and never seeing each other
I’m the one who said it would be a good idea
I was so wrong
I was nothing without you
I missed you everyday
I cried
My friends told me to call you
To get back together
I wanted to
I wanted to badly
But I knew it would be better for you this way
Anyway, it’s not like you loved me, like I did you
Then you called
I don’t think I had ever been so happy to hear your voice
You told me that you loved me
That you loved me
I was so happy that I wanted to jump for joy
You said you couldn’t be with anyone but me
You said that you needed me
I told you everything back
I was in heaven
The public still doesn’t know about us
I’m not sure how I feel about that
I like that we’re not on every magazine cover
I like that we have some privacy
I hate pretending
I hate hiding this from the world
The world should be happy for us
They should see how happy we are and that should make them happy
Johnny says that’s not how it would be
He said the world doesn’t want to know that two of music’s biggest acts are dating
He says the world would be jealous
Especially my fans
The girls
He says my fans would hate Britney
He says it could ruin her career
I guess the world can’t know
So we go on secretly dating
It’s hard
But it’s how it has to be
But then it happens
Photographers
Everywhere
Taking our picture
At first we don’t notice
We were to busy kissing
Or holding hands
Or talking
Soon the world knows
And Johnny was right
They’re jealous
All of a sudden you were a
Jeez, I can’t even say the word
All of a sudden you were a slut
People started calling you that
They’re wrong
It’s not true
They hurt you again
It reminded me of those times you would cry when you started to tour with us
It made me want to cry
I can’t bear to see you hurt
I’d rather die
This time I did have time to comfort you
I told you they were wrong
After awhile, you calmed down
You took comfort in me
It made me happy
People finally began to accept us
Some even said we make a cute couple
I like those people
Then that rumor came out
That horrible rumor made by those stupid DJs
Apparently you were dead and I was in a coma
My family freaked
So did yours
I think my mom even cried
I guess they really thought it was true
That made me mad
Someone playing a joke by telling everyone that we were hurt
They thought it would be funny to tell people that
That I was in a coma
That you were dead
What a sick sense of humor
I don’t know what I would do if something like that ever happened to you
I don’t think I would be able to go on
But we moved ahead
We cleared the rumors
Now everyone knows that we’re alive and well
Thank God
This experience made me want to make love with you even more
I’ve always respected your decision to wait
I still do
But I think your starting to want to as well
You told me one day that you wish you never made those comments about you waiting
You tell me you were young then
You tell me you weren’t in love yet
You tell me you are now
So we do it
We make love
I call it that because I know that’s what it is to you
It’s not just sex we’re making
It’s love
It’s wonderful
You were great
You tell me that I was great
We’re closer then ever
If that’s possible
We don’t tell anyone what happened
It’s none of their business
The following year is amazing
We’re approaching our three-year anniversary
Even though we’ve really been together since we were kids
But we’re not kids anymore
I’m nineteen
You’re eighteen
We’re adults now
Sometimes it doesn’t feel like it though
Someone’s always telling us where we can and can’t go together
It’s annoying
Sometimes we listen to them
Sometimes we don’t
Mostly we don’t
Tonight we have to go to the American Music Awards
We go together
You look beautiful
As always
You’re wearing a short black Gucci dress
It looks great on you
We sit next to each other
My group wins the award for best pop song
When our name is called, I kiss you
I don’t want to stop
But I must
When I accept my award, I thank you
For everything
You complete me
And I say that
You don’t win anything
You’re upset
But you’re okay
I think you’re too happy for me to be upset
Oh God, I love you
When the awards are over, we go back to my hotel room
We make love again
It’s the best we’ve had yet
You think so too
Another year passes
I have dance rehearsal with Wade
Wade’s cool
He’s my friend
Which makes it a lot easier to deal with him
No
Just kidding
He’s not bad
You come in while we’re rehearsing
I go over to kiss you
We do
But then you go over to Wade
You talk to him for a while
Then you walk away with him
For a moment, I’m wondering what’s going on
But I know nothing is
That happens a lot
Once I ask you what you guys are talking about all the time
You get angry
You say it’s none of my business
I apologize
I say you’re right
Because you are
You start going out without me
More and more
You say you need your space
I understand
I do
But I miss you
I don’t go out that much without you
I don’t like to
You stopped telling me where you went without me
You used to
But you stopped
I gave you your space
I thought maybe it would help
But it didn’t
You distanced yourself more from me
And then all of a sudden
You stopped
We were close again
I don’t know what happened
But I’m glad it did
You said it was over and done with
I didn’t care
Because we were close again
We went everywhere together again
I was so happy
I love you
You love me
It’s perfect
But then something happened
Joey came to see me
He told me something
At first I didn’t believe him
I pushed him away and told him he was a liar
He said he wouldn’t lie about something like this
I screamed at him
I told him he didn’t know what he was talking about
I told him he was just jealous
She would never cheat on me
No
She loves me
Especially not with Wade
Not with one of my closest friends
Wade wouldn’t do that either
He knows how much I love her
He wouldn’t do that
He knows how hurt I would be
So Joey must be lying
He must be
That’s the only logical explanation
I went on dating you
I didn’t talk to Joey for two weeks
He kept calling
But I didn’t answer
One day he came over to my house
You were out
I told him to go away
He refused
He asked me to just hear him out
It took him awhile
But I finally listened
And to my dismay
It all made sense
I now knew why you were gone all those times
Why you were always with Wade
Joey told me he was sorry
He said he hated to be the bearer of bad news
I hardly heard him
I was crying too hard
When I told you I knew
You didn’t even try to deny it
You cracked under the pressure
You started to cry
It was the first time that it didn’t upset me to see you like that
You told me you were stupid
You told me you knew you were wrong
You asked me to give you another chance
That it would never happen again
You told me you loved me
I asked you why
You said because you had been with me for so long
You said you just wanted to make sure I was the one
And now you knew I was
Bullshit
I didn’t even yell
I just walked away
You didn’t even come after me
I could still hear you crying in the distance
Now it’s three years later
I’m still not over you
I’ve moved on
As have you
But I’m still not over you
I’m with Cameron now
I like her
But I don’t love her
I don’t think I could love anyone the way I loved you
I still do love you
But I don’t tell anyone that
It would hurt too bad
We don’t talk anymore
It would be too hard
But now you’re getting married
To a man you barely know
I would have asked you to marry me
We probably would be right now
But you had to go cheat on me
With Wade
Wade and I don’t talk anymore
He tried to call me when it happened
He left numerous messages on my machine
But I never responded
Eventually, he stopped trying
So I go on
With my life
Trying to forget about you
But I can’t
And I don’t
I love you too much.