Lets just say the next week was weird. We didn't talk about that anymore and we just lived like nothing happend. We talked only when we were with Amy and when we needed something.

 It was late in the evening and Justin has put Amy to bed allready. I finished my work in the kitchen and i joined Justin on the couch. He was watching a movie. I was cold so i moved a little closer to him, he smiled at me a hugged me close to him, he gave me a kiss on my head. »I missed that«.

He looked at me: »I missed it too, he came closer and gave me a kiss on the lips.« The kiss got longer and longer and i was so happy about it, i missed him so much, i wanted to feel him close. But he stopped.

»What is wrong?« He moved so there was a little space between us.

»I can't, i'm sorry baby.«

 »You can't, what are you talking about?« 

»I can't just forget what happend last week, i'm sorry but its not that easy.«

 »Oh, ok.« I hugged myself and started to watch the movie. He was looking at me the whole time and out of nowhere he asked: »So when will i meet him?«

I looked at him »I don't know, i would need to call him and ask. You stil wanna meet him?«

»Yeah.«

»Ok, i will call him tomorrow.«

»Good.«

I was scared how that would go. I know how jealous Justin can be, but i don't want Peter to know what happend. It would probably be the best if i forget about the movie. »Honey, what if i don't do the movie?« he looked at me shocked.

»Why, you liked the story so much?«

»The whole situation is just weird and i don't wanna make more problems with this.«

»If you think this will help us, but i don't think it will.«

»Why not?«

»The problem is not that you said his name, but there has to be a problem with us, we don't work if you are not happy anymore.«

»I'm happy, baby please don't make this such a big deal, really its not.«

»Its not a big deal to you, but it is to me.«

»Honey,….«

»Just forget it, i'm tired, i'm going to bed, good night.« He stood up and went upstairs.

I didn't know what was happening. I stayed downstairs crying the whole night. It was all getting to much, i was so scared of loosing Justin. I woke up the next morning, feeling like crap. My whole body was aching and my eyes were bloody red from all the crying. I went to the kitchen to start making breakfast. 20 minutes later Justin came downstairs. »Where were you last night? You didn't sleep in our bedroom…«

»I fell asleep on the couch.«

»Oh.« I turned around to put something on the table and he saw my red eyes.

»What happend to your eyes?«

»Nothing.« He stopped me and looked at me.

 »You were crying.«

»Yeah, so what?«

»Are you ok?« I looked him in the eyes.

»Do i look like i'm ok?«

»Come here.« we went to the living room, he sat down and was waiting for me to do the same.

»What?«

 »Sit down, we need to talk.«

»Oh now you want to talk, what about yesterday?«

»Just sit down …

»I sat down and was waiting for him to begin.

»What do you want?« I looked at him confused.

 »What?«

»What do you want… i don't know what you want anymore… i feel like you are not happy with me. I feel like you are with me just because of Amy and cause its easy to not make changes. I feel like its not working anymore.«

»NOT WORKING?, how the hell should it work, you are ignoring me the whole time!!! I'm sick of feeling so bad, just because of one little mistake. Like its all my fault. You don't want to talk to me, you are the one who needs time … why do you need time? If anyone doesn't want this anymore its you!!« I was walking around the living room like crazy, i was mad, scared, weak and felt like everything is gonna fall apart. I just hoped that Amy wouldn't wake up and hear us fighting.

Justin was looking at me with sad eyes. »We should get away for a while.«

»What?«

»Spend some time together, like a family and just forget about this shit. Baby i love you and don't wanna loose you, i'm sorry for how i was acting the last week, but its so hard for me, cause i'm so scared of being hurt again.« He approached me and took my hands in his.

»I love you too and i'm not gonna hurt you, i promise.« We hugged and held each other for some time. Amy came running downstairs and saw us so she came to hug us too. Justin picked her up

»Hey princess, i have good news for you. We are gonna go on a vacation.«

She was all happy »Really, yyyyyyaaaayyyy, we are all gonna go right, mommy too?« She looked at me.

»Yes sweety, mommy too.«

»Ok i'm gonna go and make a reservation, ok?«

»Yeah good« i picked Amy from him and we went to finish making  breakfast. I was having a good feeling that things would go good.