We sat on the pool side for an hour talking about what I had gone through but Justin still couldn't understand how I could give my ring back, "How could you give up on our love," he asked me finally after a few seconds of silence.

"I didn't give up, my memory was gone, I forgot what we had, and when I remembered it all I was fucking scared ok," I said waving my feet in the water of the pool, why did it seem we had or deepest thoughts with our feet in the pool I asked myself waiting for Justin to speak.

"I can't understand how you would be risked losing it for being scared, me I would have been excited, to fall in love again," he said looking at me.

"Ok, first you sound like I girl," I told him and he looked at me with a don't even go there look.

"Second, That's what I thought I would be at first, I felt it even if I didn't know what it was  when I first woke up when I looked into your eyes, I just I saw how fast it left me J, I didn't want to have that again, you realize how I felt when you got in a wreck, not only was Ashton involved you weren't responding J," I said and than Justin took my hand.

"I know I scared you and that I'm sorry for, but I just don't." Justin started till I pulled my hand away from him.

 "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND BECAUSE YOU NEVER LOST IT, face it Justin you still can remember falling in love with me but I had to remember it again, I was at first afraid I would never, and when I did, I was afraid that it would disappear out of blue just like it did, even though I know it was small chance it happened before it could happen again," I said standing up. "I do fucking know Alley or did happen to forget our daughter, ok" Justin said looking at me.

"What," I questioned.

"You think I don't understand that I don't get it, I forgot I had a daughter, I forgot how much it means when she looks in my eyes, I forgot it all ok, and I'm scared but I'm not gonna let it stop me from loving my child, so jump off your high horse," he yelled back.

"Mama, Daddy," we both heard a voice and we turned around seeing Ashton with tears in her eyes and her mouth open looking at us on the edge of the patio, I rushed towards her unaware of Justin's still movement.

"OH BABY, MAMA"S SORRY," I cried out as I picked her up and carried her inside.

What Justin didn't know was it was so much easier to love a child than another person who could easily break your heart, I told myself as I held my crying child in my arms.