Dear Love,
'It's late', you thought when you realized that I was no where in the house, I should have been there to greet you. To kiss you and hug you, to hold you. But I had left not two hours ago, maybe.
You see I had to leave, I felt that I couldn't stay any longer. And now you're wondering why - why did I feel as if I couldn't stay? But you already know the answer.
This. . .us. . .it was wrong.
You're shaking your head, but you know I'm right.
She loves you. And don't think that I don't, because I do. I love you so much, Joshua. But she had you first. And because of that. . .I had to go.
Don't try to find me, love. . .because I promise you that you won't ever find me.
I love you. . .but I can't hurt her. Not Julie, no. Never Julie. She's my best friend, and the only one that I could truly call family. I could never hurt her, but. . .I have. . .somehow.
She still doesn't know about us, I promise you that she has no idea. We did a good job of keeping our relationship a secret. A great job really, but I could no longer continue it. No. No more. It ends right now Josh. Please don't get angry, don't cry. . .she loves you. You should be with her. I know you love her too. I know because if you didn't. . .then this. . .this wouldn't be happening right now. If you didn't love her. . .I wouldn't be leaving you.
No. . .No, I'm not blaming you. I could never. This. . .this wasn't your fault. It wasn't mine either. It-It just happened. But. . .we have to put that in the past now. I know you'll treat her well, Josh, you have the past two years anyway. . .before you and I got involved that is.
. . .If Julie asks why I left. . .please tell her that I'm sorry. . .for everything. It's up to you if you want to tell her about the last six months. . .you could tell her, or you could just. . .throw it all away. Just forget about it. No one else knows anyway. No one but you and I. And I won't say a thing.
It isn't fair, I know. I shouldn't be running away, but I don't know what else I should do. I should have came to you, right? I should have talked to you about it. But I couldn't. You wouldn't have agreed on it anyway. You would have told me to stay. But I had to leave, remember.
I don't know where I'm going. But I hope. . .I wish. . .that wherever it is I'm heading. . .that I find someone like you.
Goodbye Joshua Scott.
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