Life is hard. You gotta be harder.
or 
In the process of being rewritten as of October 2023. This story is NOT meant to romanticize alcoholism/drug use. If you have a problem, please seek help for it, talk to someone.
Some of the events in this story are based on true life events.
Trigger Warnings:
Suicide
Drug/Alcohol Addiction
Sex
DarkC
1. Chapter 1: The Indie Beginning by RacyRae [Comments - 4] (6207 words)
TRIGGER WARNINGS
SUICIDE ATTEMPT
This story was originally written in 2009, and as such will stay in that time period. Please be aware that this is a dark story and will feature addiction, both alcohol and drug, and will feature some sex scenes, which as of October 2023, will be rewritten as quickly as my writer's block allows. If you can't handle DarkC or these components, please hit the back button.
2. Chapter 2: The Bleeding by RacyRae [Comments - 2] (5010 words)
They meet.
3. Chapter 3: The Undisputed Truth by RacyRae [Comments - 4] (2856 words)
"Helter Skelter" owned by teh Beatles.
Trigger warning:
Drinking/Alcoholism
4. Chapter 4: Movin' & Shakin' by RacyRae [Comments - 2] (6215 words)
Fate is a bitch.
TRIGGER WARNING
MENTIONS OF DRUGS
5. Chapter 5: Too Much, Too Young, Too Fast by RacyRae [Comments - 2] (8181 words)
Some action for you.
TRIGGER WARNING
Drug Use
6. Chapter 6A: Shoulda Known by RacyRae [Comments - 0] (5757 words)
Ain't got nothin but too much to lose.
TRIGGER WARNINGS
Mentions of Drug Use
7. Chapter 6B: Shoulda Known by RacyRae [Comments - 0] (4385 words)
It would not let me post the end of the last chapter, so here it is.
TRIGGER WARNING
Drug Use
Getting Hot In Here
8. Chapter 7: Boiling Point by RacyRae [Comments - 1] (7809 words)
Things are getting sticky.
9. Chapter 8: Close, But No Cigar by RacyRae [Comments - 1] (7120 words)
Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
10. Chapter 9: Maybe by RacyRae [Comments - 2] (9037 words)
Yay for more plot development. Keep in mind, this chapter is nowhere as naughty as it could have been.
11. Chapter 9B: Maybe by RacyRae [Comments - 0] (2050 words)
Bow chicka wow wow.
12. Chapter 10A: Implode by RacyRae [Comments - 1] (9521 words)
Had to split this one into two.
13. Chapter 10B: Implode by RacyRae [Comments - 1] (6621 words)
Don't stop till you get enough.
14. Chapter 11: The Ties That Bind by RacyRae [Comments - 1] (2924 words)
You don't have to like somebody to love them.
15. Chapter 12: Fade To Black by RacyRae [Comments - 1] (4955 words)
Yay for backstory!
16. Chapter 13: Goodbye, Wagon by RacyRae [Comments - 1] (944 words)
Denial. It's never just a river in Egypt.
17. Chapter 14: Necessary by RacyRae [Comments - 0] (3611 words)
Is love a good enough excuse to do away with reason?
18. Chapter 15: Bombshell by RacyRae [Comments - 2] (9185 words)
A little Poofu love.
19. Chapter 16: Clawing by RacyRae [Comments - 1] (4856 words)
Life is a slippery slope. Any ledge could be faulty.
20. Chapter 17: Fill Me by RacyRae [Comments - 0] (6539 words)
Sometimes you just want to smack the girl.
21. Chapter 18A: In Like With You by RacyRae [Comments - 0] (5835 words)
Everything is never enough.
22. Chapter 18B: In Like With You by RacyRae [Comments - 1] (4367 words)
Oh lawdz, babeh, that's some naughty shit.
23. Chapter 19: Slaves to the Oikos by RacyRae [Comments - 0] (4947 words)
Love is a business deal.
24. Chapter 20: Thicken by RacyRae [Comments - 1] (4998 words)
And so it thickens :)
25. Chapter 21: What I Don't Tell You (Is For Your Own Good) by RacyRae [Comments - 0] (8133 words)
Am I ever on your mind?
26. Chapter 22: Thirty Minutes by RacyRae [Comments - 1] (7134 words)
A lot can happen in thirty minutes.
27. What I Do Best by RacyRae [Comments - 0] (217 words)
28. Chapter 23A: Fucking Prince Valiant by RacyRae [Comments - 0] (9472 words)
*There is a forward to this chapter at the Blindly I Go Livejournal. Please go there and read Nyx’s journal entry so you do not miss anything. You can find the Blindly LJ @ http://blindlyyours.livejournal.com*
29. Chapter 23B: Fucking Prince Valiant by RacyRae [Comments - 0] (5669 words)
Meeee-ow.
30. Chapter 24: Shadowbox by RacyRae [Comments - 2] (9671 words)
Sorry it took so long
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