Well relationships change,

Oh I think it's kinda strange,

How money makes a man grow.

Some people they claim,

If you get enough fame,

You live over the rainbow.

Over the rainbow.

-Amos Lee

The place smelled of fresh popcorn and screamed of young ones running around in their own little piece of heaven. There were lines scattered everywhere, anticipation of the next thrill ride. But it all didn’t seem to matter to us.

Her hand was in mine, and for once in my life, I was content. There wasn’t much more to our relationship than the simplistic part of two people wanting to be happy with each other. Holding her hand was something she hadn’t really shared with anyone else and as crazy as it sounds, it slightly made sense. She never felt comfortable with anyone else until now, and it boggled my mind ever so slightly that of all the options she could’ve picked, it was me. 

The craziest notion, however, was the fact that after everything that has gone on in the past hectic and confusing months, the only thing in my life that inevitably makes sense is her. City past city, she’s still there, every show, every song, every moment, not because she is obligated but because she wants to. 

We’ve been on tour for about a month now, and I know she’s dying to go home, to get back to her own little sanctuary, but she’ll never admit that, she’s always afraid of telling people how she feels. I still try and pay her for the work she’s doing for me, but for some reason she doesn’t feel like she’s actually working anymore, yet just following my sorry ass around everywhere I go. 

When we first started dating after the charity ball, I had the first encounter with the parents, the inevitable awkward conversation with the father that she later admitted didn’t really have that much of an affect on her life anymore. But when you look into her and her mother’s eyes, you begin to understand her ways of thinking and viewing the world. It’s as if the world suddenly begins to make sense when they’re around. 

I think the weirdest thing about my life right now, though, is the distaste I have with my own career right now. I feel like getting up in front of thousands of fans just distracts from what’s really important in my life right now, and that’s Diana. As selfish as it is, I feel like every moment I spend away from her is a moment when I’m not sane, when the world spins around me without control. Everything with her just perfectly fits together in a puzzle when she’s holding my hand the way she is.

It may only be a month into it, but you know, I can see myself waking up to this every morning. She’s adorable in every aspect of life. And the way she walks up to people and has the ability to relate to them regardless of what they look like or who they are is her greatest quality. 

She’s everything to me. She’s going to be the world to me. I just hope I can be everything she needs.